Perhaps that's why I am the way I am! LOL Seriously, though thanks. And it's not that I'm not doing it for me, but there have been people who have gone above and beyond to help me, so I dont' want to let them down.
Wendy, I really can relate to what you going through.
I started routinely on my diet and exercise originally not because I am a discipline gal & I am vain. Well, I DO want to look good (who doesn't) but I didn't have enough internal-push to start and keep at it. I was not a girlie girl who concern about make up, fashion etc. Not before.
What do I have? A superficial of a husband who relentlessly pointing out OTHER girls who has thinner thighs, skinny, dress better, look better, etc etc etc. Where you think my self esteem and self confidence gone? Down the freakin' hell. And to say that once you got married your spouse would accept you for who you are? Hah.

not in my case. It didn't start this way. But people change. They do, we all do, for better or worse.
Well, to summarize things, (sorry didn't mean to hijack your thread) I DID this for OTHER in the beginning. Then it changed. I CHANGED.
I now DO this for MYSELF. My motivation for the turn-about is not a very inspiring one and I rarely admit it openly. And once it switched, I become the sole driver on this ride. It is liberating and just feels natural to keep it up and continue on. Not like before, not with the
burden of what others will judge of me. My advice to you is to
Focus on yourself. In the end, you will not let anyone down but YOUrself.
We each got our own 'struggle'

But I wanna let you know that your hard work is one of my inspiration to push on ahead. Keep it up, I know you can do it.
