Kiri-Diary

DAY 29 (Wed) 12/6
Supp
B: oatmeal raisin apple cinamon brw sugar
S: 4 crackers
L: Udon w/ beef broth, napa cabbage, boiled egg
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S: 1/4 cup of tall gingerbread latte, 1 small gingerbread cookie, 1 small oatmeal raisin cookie, 3-4 handful of popcorn (kettle, cheddar chipottle)
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D: brocolli, shrimp sauted w/ olive oil & garlic, abc n pepper + 1mango
S: peanuts + 2 crackers

Gym: cardio 37 min
TM: 17min, 5% incline, w@4, r@5(2min), s@7.5(1.5 min), 1.3mile, 155cal
Elliptical: 20min, int@8, 2.3mile, 200cal
Slim6: LET'S START IT UP! (25min)
 
Just took a glance but looks like you're doin great!


Thank you! :)
 
My highlight of the day yesterday!

I was walking from starbucks yesterday, with the morning sun light behind me. And something prompted my eyes to focus on the ground...... Was the light playing tricks?? I saw lights between my thighs on my shadow! *gasp* Then I was thinking how long has it been since I started this whole thing? Gotta be close to a month.. I check my journal and it is! I was on my 29th day! :p
 
DAY 30 (Thu) 12/7
Supp
B: oatmeal raisin apple cinamon brw sugar
S: 1/2 handful of popcorn + 1 cracker + 1/2 sandwich wwb pb peach
Supp
L: 1 bowl of beef rendang (meat and tendon) + 1 slc sourdough
S: a bite of the sandwich + 1 tiny piece of low sugar chocolate (we're talking like the size of my finger digit lmao)
Supp
Pre-D Snack: finished the remaining sandwich + 1/2 slc thin crust mushroom pizza (Pizza my heart - their thin crust is the bomb! Crispy and thin almost water cracker like. And not so much cheese on top)
Late D: 3 corn chips with a bit of cheese dip + 1/2 cup of boil vegie w/ ginger soy sauce + 1/2 mango

Night Exercise: Cardio 25 min elliptical: 3miles, 8 intensity, 257cal
Slim6 25min
 
And what an awesome month its been! That's awesome to hear Kiria :) Keep it up!

*bow* Thank You Much! I intend to keep it up. I haven't reach my goal yet. Taking it day by day, week by wekk, month by month. Hopefully I will get there soon! (Better be before Summer starts! :p )
 
Marking the 30th Day. A Reflection.

So I've stuck to my routine for 30 days without being forced by sickness or anything other than my own resolve. Yes, I feel proud. ;) Now allow me to spend some time to reflect what this process has affected me so far.

There were days, even until now, when I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself "All right, I did good today! I eat right, put in hard exercise, and I feel and look darn good!" Yet later that night when I hit the shower, I looked into the mirror, at my profile and down my thighs, I'd sigh... *damn brick-of-a-thigh still there and not seem to get any smaller. And that apple-lumps still hanging there... probably even bigger* (or so it seems). Then a twinge of frustration crept in. :mad:
Before, that's all it took for me to change my routine and went on to something else. Not this time. I shoved that thought aside and determined to do more the next day. With "changes do not happen over night" mantra in my head over and over again.

It has not been easy, dealing with personal issues along with a good decade of feeling inferior, losing my self esteem, self confidence, and self respect. Years of condescending remarks that I didn't look like the average Asian girls especially in terms of body-type. I was called chubby, fat, big butt, big thighs, big hips.
Yes, I believe "support" definitely plays a great part in weight loss journey, or in anything you do. But, I found what most important is the resolve within yourself. Of course it is uplifting to have someone remarks on every tiny bit of improvement you make. At the same time it is very disheartening to hear callous comments regardless how hard of an effort you have put into this process.
I think I have finally gained back some of my self confidence. I focus only on me and my goal. I learn bit by bit to ignore deconstructive remarks, yet still being critical about myself. And only what I do and what I think about myself matters.

My goal is to lose inches. I don't think I can be any lighter than what I am now. Well, I could, but it is unimportant. 30 days of watching what I eat, and routine exercises have gotten me to this point:

1. Shapelier thighs. Starting from the knees - up to the middle part of the thighs. In the first weeks, I still saw some bumpy areas above the knees, now it is almost gone completely. And the effect is a nicer curve in the inside thighs, from knees to mid thigh. The measurements of the thickest part of my thighs and hip still remain the same for the most part (probably budge by mm or fraction of inch), but I start seeing the difference regardless.
2. Tighter butt. I can feel muscles underneath the layers of fat. Yeah, it is still measured about the same, but unless I am blind, the shape has lifted up somewhat and doesn't jiggle as much as before.
3. My pants are not as tight. They are not falling off me, but I'm not bursting the seams or fabric anymore. The bulge overflowing from the top of the pants becomes smaller and less pronounce. Getting to be containable.
4. Lower tummy doesn't bulge/bloat as much during my period.
5. Firmer legs overall. I start to see gap forming between my thighs. No more fire-starter there! :p

Those improvements are what keeps me going. I am not quite where I want to be yet, but noticing little improvements help spur me further. It is very hard to do so when you see yourself everyday and every chance you got at mirrors. Those changes are gradual. Sometimes I thought, am I too forgiving or too critical? Whatever it is, reality check kicks in when you least expected; such what happened to me yesterday on the way back from starbucks. :)

Strange enough, you would think that after a month, you'd get used to the routine and didn't even think about it anymore; especially since I use the word 'routine' which usually refers to something not necessarily enjoyable. But my current 'routine' becomes something that I look forward to everyday.
Oh, and changes #6: I gained new addiction: I can't wait to go home everyday from work and hit the gym and my nightly exercise routine.

Thanks to ALL of YOU who took the time to read my Diary and commented on my activities. Always value inputs and suggestions. :D
 
YAY FRIDAY! :D
Gona do quick workout then off to spend dinner and movie with hubby. Debbie gotta wait till tomorrow ^^;

DAY 31 (Fri) 12/8
Supp
B: oatmeal raisin apple cinamon brw sugar
Supp
L: ikea meatballs (7) + gravy (w/ sherry, chili powder, abc) + pasta
S: yam raisin almond brw sugar (the yam is about the size of my fist. It was a filling snack. Thinking about bumping it to b-fast instead)
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D: Vegie burger on 1/2 bun w/ lettuce, salsa, jalapeno, smear of american cheez + 3 tbs chili + 6 seasoned potato wedges ( I forgot to asked not to put cheez on the burger, I can't stand the taste of it, well, american cheese tht is. I think i will b ok with swiss)
Late Late S (after movie 12+am): 1 konyaku (to wash out the onion taste on my mouth)

Cardio: Elliptical 20min 300 cal 3.5miles @8 intensity
Butt kickback: 2x10, 1x15
split lunge 1x10pulses
mix: deadlift, squats, stepback squats, side squat.
 
DAY 32 (Sat) 12/9
Woke up late 11am
Supp
Brunch: 1/2 yam + raisin, brw sugar, almonds
S: 2 rice crackers
D: Ketoprak (rice vermicelli, tofu, bean sprouts, sweet soy sauce, peanut sauce, cucumber + shrimp crackers
S: 3 cps of biscuit marie (100cal) + coffee w/condensed milk, sugar + peanuts + aloe vera

Afternoon Exercise: Slim6 25 min + 10 min lower body stretching & pilate
Night Exercise: (minor) stretching, no weight lunges/squats/deadlifts/kick back. I think I am doing those to keep my body warm since night getting colder by days.
 
So I was working on Slim6 this morning in my T-s & boyshort :p since all the training pants still in the laundry. Figured noone was around anyway. Well, my hubby woke up and saw me ... HAHAHAHA boy... did he oggled or did he oggle :D He was like "honey... you ... look so good!..." And I was like *Yay ^^b* I 'm getting there hubby! :cool: (note: I have been covering up lately. :rolleyes: )
 
haha isnt' that awesome? such a boost. :)

Totally!! :D Now I am trying not to get too big-headed over this and to not fall off the band wagon! .. which is hard, especially on the weekend, cold winter day, when all you do at home is just nothing, hang out in the sofa and play video games all day! ... :p
 
DAY 33 (Sun) 12/10
Woke up 10:30
Supp
Brunch: oatmeal raisin apple cinamon + 3 spoonful of mie ayam (chicken, egg noodle) + a piece of fried yellow chicken + sip of coffee w/ milk
Afternoon Snack: corn chips w/ cheese dip + 1/2 slc wwb ppb
D: bowl of chicken in tomato based soup (corn kernels, onion, chicken, tomato) + some fried chicken
S: corn chips w/ cheese dip

Morning exercise: Slim6 + 15 min of stretching deadlifts, kickbacks.

Note: Didn't push for the full count of the squats and lunges session in Slim6, right knee started to hurt/sore/burning. ( T.T ) No exercise tonight. Letting my knee rest.
 
DAY 34 (Mon) 12/11
Supp
B: oatmeal raisin apple cinamon brw sugar
S: 1/4 slc wwb pb peach
L: 1/2 portion of seafood okonomiyaki + tea
Supp
S: 2 handful of popcorn kettle corn + 1/3 of the sandwich + green tea
Supp
After Gym snack: w/e left of the sandwich + 1 bite of Quaker's granola bar
Late D: a cup of chicken soup in tomato broth w/corn, onion + some boiled vegie w/ ginger soy sauce for dipping + 1/4 pear

S: a bite of sugar donut (small bite! i was hungry from staying up too late...)


Gym night: Cardio Elliptical (still don't want to agitate my right knee)
Did 3.7 miles, 315 cal @9 intensity
 
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What a hectic day.... I gotta do Slim6 tonight. Been taking absence from it for 2 days me think. Gotta get the movement going again.
 
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