Man, I think I have a coffee problem
ZzzzziiiIIINNNNNGGGGGGgggggg!!!!!!!
oh yeah, that could become a problem...
Well, I am hyper and I am wiggin out a bit lol
so, I am hyped up about working out after work and I can't go till.......5:30 and its 3:58....
so ... hmm....
well I made a date for my wedding its gonna be April 27th its a Thursday... i know thats wierd but so am i so yah.
My colors are gonna be like springy green, darker like hunter green, rose , and a plumbish maroon that's not that dark...I need to know what these colors are actually called before I go trying to act l ike I know what I'm talking about er s omething...lmfao !
so truthfully, I am getting married next year and I have no friggin idea what I'm doing as far as being like ... prepared. Well..I'm PREPARED, but not for the ceremony!! that's what I meant to say lol.
I decorated my Mom's wedding and made her bouquet and did all the flowers decorated the church and the reception and did her hair...but I mean, I feel lost in respect to the flow of ceremonial standard traditional events and whatnot.....oh screw all that...I'm gonna make up my own "flow of events" this crap is only gonna happend once because he is my true love for real and I've never got married.
I know its gonna be OUTSIDE
and I'm gonna wear the dress I have .. the dress has all the colors I described so specifically just a moment ago,,,heheh,,,
and its really pretty and springy. My two sons will be the ring - bearers and Robert's daughter is gonna be the flower girl !
yah, so perfect !!
so , friends....hmm...maids of honor? Bridesmaids??? no friends?????
hmmmm.....
I have no friends....that is a sad sad thing....oh whatever.
My mom will be my maid of honor, bridesmaids will be my cousin, uh....my friend Nicole (there's one) and another one....hmmm.....
well......I will just have to MAKE one before then eh!?
yah!
its all good then!
Okay my mother and I ( uh..me ) are going to make the cake together!(uh..by myself) wow what fun that will be.
and we are going to have a huge BBQ for the reception dinner nothin fancy and expensive my cousin had one of those thousand dollar weddings and she's still trying to pay for it and its been 6 years now... I'm not gonna be like that. I don't think that's necessary and also detracts from the central meaning of the wedding itself, creates more stress, and sometimes has the actual ability to begin deteriorating the marriage already, sometimes people split up because the wedding itself created a problem...this will be avoided at all costs. I will not allow financial predicaments to be formed by an expression of true love. BLAH !
so there...okay I am still hyper....now its 4:10 man I'm a slacker today! I need to finish my papers and make these calls...
goodbye self !