hey I'm back!
Wow, long week, I took an emergency vacation..
My fiance left us..

Then he moved away...so then we were talking...then he said he neverwants to see me again...then ....we saw each other ... and emotions got crazy....we fought....and then he stopped calling....then we were talking...and now things are okay but we are still separated and I'm planning on having a detailed discussion of what we are made of and what we wanted to acheive in our relationship in general...
I am sorry that I made you guys worry but I have no computer at home !
So thank you all !!
But I went swimming alot over the past week, got a real good tan, lost 10 pounds.......then gained 4.......so now I'm at 119 .
Haven't been able to work out yet.....much less eating has been going on...and I have been wearing little kids clothes....
But now I'm back at work....I am feeling better.....am entirely broke
and waiting for the govt. to help me!!
I put in all these app.'s for help over the vacation....I am waiting for appointments....but for now...I've managed to fall into horrible debt with my bank.....and now I'm just cashing my check to avoid the bank taking the money I owe them....
So we have been living off of random stuff..and I have found that the more 'random' the crap I eat, the more upset my digestive system is....so ....really not much I can do about that....
I have been living off of wheat crackers and FF butter spread.....some cereal...but ran out of my milk, so I don't drink the kids' milk. They have a selection of stuff. But I can't bring myself to eat the hot dogs and corny dogs and hamburger meat and spagghetti....so I just don't eat...
But did alot of hiking and swimming and walking and cleaning.....and dancing.
So yeah, thanks all of my friends!
I love you all !