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Thank you. I notice my perfectionism raising it's head so it really helps to be reminded to slow down.
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Oh my god folks I just found the complete Hercule Poirot series with David Suchet in the lead role on YouTube, and I'm living for it. Hercule Poirot and Tintin were my heroes growing up, I just love the energy of a short, somewhat vain king with a good heart and steadfast morals. 
Eating has been a struggle today, but I have eaten something, and it's understandable thta the vax affects my appetite. But I know it's for my best in the long run and I will protect others by having taken the full course, so I have every right to rest and recover for now. Watching these old Hercule Poirot episodes really makes me nostalgic!
Eating has been a struggle today, but I have eaten something, and it's understandable thta the vax affects my appetite. But I know it's for my best in the long run and I will protect others by having taken the full course, so I have every right to rest and recover for now. Watching these old Hercule Poirot episodes really makes me nostalgic!David Suchet was THE best Poirot! He was just the most adorable brilliant twit. And Bruno Cremer was the best Maigret. Rowan Atkinson should never have. That said: the books they're based on are all but unreadable these days for racism, sexism, homophobia, and police brutality.
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I just had a nice long walk with Nera. It's amazing that as my depression has lifted, November looks so stunning. I actually prefer the dark part of the year because it's less overwhelming to me; the summer sun and heat makes me feel super uncomfortable, winter feels like being wrapped in a grey blanket, soft and safe. And I love how the trees look without their leaves, the branches for such amazing figures against the steel gray sky. Of course it's constantly wet and muddy outside, so my floors are never clean and Nera carries sand into my bed, but it's not that serious.
Look at my beautiful baby out on the fields!
Look at my beautiful baby out on the fields!
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She is a really beautiful pup. Her looks alone are gorgeous - but she also carries herself in a beautiful manner, she's like an art nouveau painting given life, flowing and flourishing. Everything about her from her gait to the way she moves her head and her huge satellite dish ears is so delicate; despite being a big dog she looks extremely dignified and light in her movements. Personally, I think that all dogs are adorable, but Nera really stands out. She has such a royal aura to her. I love her.
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OK heading out to take my recyclables out, and after that I'll make red lentil soup with beetroot, carrots, cherry tomatoes, plenty of onions, and either a can of coconut milk or a pack of bacon depending on what I vibe with. I think that coconut milk would be a refreshing change, as I have eating quite a bit of pea and bean dishes with ham or bacon in them. I could also add some textured soy protein and lime juice for extra nourishment and a fresh taste!
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They do! I'm roasting the veggies and they smell heavenly. I decided to add some brown button mushrooms for umami, and will add in the coconut milk, boiling water, and the lentils after the veggies have browned a bit. Lime juice will go in just before serving so it will stay sharp and retain as much of vitamin C as possible.
I feel really happy for some reason. Even though I didn't make it to the swimming hall today, I will make it tomorrow I'm sure. And eating this healthy, fiber-rich, nutrient packed dish will help me with that.
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Oh great, I filled the oven dish to the brim and spilled some of the liquid inside the oven. But I guess it's time to clean the oven anyway. It might stink a bit as the food is cooking, but thankfully this is a vegetarian dish so it's not as gross! (I plan to keep it in the oven for 2 hours or so that the lentils will properly disintegrate and be easier on my stomach. I used jeera, smoked paprika, and mushroom soy sauce for flavor and it smells heavenly)
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Now as I'm just sitting around and waiting for the food to cook, my thoughts started to wander and I got once again amused by this little NatGeo clip. I have spammed it on all of my socials so maybe I have done so here as well (sorry if this is the case ), but this little video clip is literally what carried me through the writing process of my Master's thesis. I kept it playing on a loop like some deranged mantra, but however silly it may sound, it really helped me. I have loved nature documentaries ever since I was a kid, and something about the grasshopper mouse just rubs me the right way. While wolves (and dogs) are my favorite animals that I feel a deep connection with and adore, the grasshopper mouse feels symbolically significant to me; a tiny little rodent with some serious sass and survival skills that way surpass it's tiny little body. And it howls like a wolf, too! (Although the actual sound reminds me more of a tea kettle than a wolf but hey, it's still a howl.)
Of course it doesn't take a genius to figure out why I, as a 161 cm short trans guy, am absolutely enthralled by such an absurd animal. The thing is so god damned cute and yet, in it's own scale, a total force of nature. I have also had several dear friends tell me that I look like a mouse - not as an insult, but as a show of affection. I can understand why - I have very light gray-blonde hair (when I don't dye it), small beady eyes, round ears, and due to my ADHD a tendency to move around quickly in spastic little motions just like a mouse would do. While I know that for some guys it might feel unpleasant to be compared to a rodent, I just find it funny. After all, it's important to be able to laugh at oneself and I don't discriminate when it comes to wildlife - all animals have their places in nature, just like I have my place in it, doesn't matter that my road to my true self was a bit long-winded and that there's still miles ahead. Whichever way, I'm happy. I'm sure there will be great things and wonderful experiences ahead in my life.
"The grasshopper mouse is not intimidated."
), but this little video clip is literally what carried me through the writing process of my Master's thesis. I kept it playing on a loop like some deranged mantra, but however silly it may sound, it really helped me. I have loved nature documentaries ever since I was a kid, and something about the grasshopper mouse just rubs me the right way. While wolves (and dogs) are my favorite animals that I feel a deep connection with and adore, the grasshopper mouse feels symbolically significant to me; a tiny little rodent with some serious sass and survival skills that way surpass it's tiny little body. And it howls like a wolf, too! (Although the actual sound reminds me more of a tea kettle than a wolf but hey, it's still a howl.)Of course it doesn't take a genius to figure out why I, as a 161 cm short trans guy, am absolutely enthralled by such an absurd animal. The thing is so god damned cute and yet, in it's own scale, a total force of nature. I have also had several dear friends tell me that I look like a mouse - not as an insult, but as a show of affection. I can understand why - I have very light gray-blonde hair (when I don't dye it), small beady eyes, round ears, and due to my ADHD a tendency to move around quickly in spastic little motions just like a mouse would do. While I know that for some guys it might feel unpleasant to be compared to a rodent, I just find it funny. After all, it's important to be able to laugh at oneself and I don't discriminate when it comes to wildlife - all animals have their places in nature, just like I have my place in it, doesn't matter that my road to my true self was a bit long-winded and that there's still miles ahead. Whichever way, I'm happy. I'm sure there will be great things and wonderful experiences ahead in my life.
"The grasshopper mouse is not intimidated."
I love that. And it´s probably for the best that you didn´t go to the pool today given how crappy you still felt yesterday.
This would make a great signature. Also: can you imagine that boiling kettle howl being the background of your summer nights?
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Ahaha that gives me massive Kullervo vibes. He's the most unlucky poor sob in the whole "Kalevala" folklore compilation. Grows up in a hostile household with her mother being kept as a slave, and basically everyone trying to kill him. Turns out he's unkillable because he has giant blood in him; eventually he avenges his mom and destroys their previous captors. On his travels he meets a young maiden wih whom he shares a passionate night with... And it turns out she's his missing sister. She drowns herself, and he throws himself into his own sword. A raging emo from start to finish. He would be exactly the type to tea kettle whistle at the sun.
Oh and he's inspired a lot of artists. Us Finns are a morbid variety. Here's one from Gallen-Kallela from 1899.
PS I will need to make that my signature as soon as I figure how? The new platform makes it super confusing to make changes to the profile. Or maybe I'm just a bit slow lol
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If I click on my profile pic a menu pops up with signature as an option in the right column. But I can't see other people's signatures when I'm on mobile so it's not perfect.
Typical example of honor culture being harmful to everyone. Yeah it would've sucked if she was pregnant but outside of stories she probably wouldn't have been and even if she was there are better options than killing everyone involved. Same with poor Oedipus and Jocasta. Ignorance can absolutely be a valid defense! Sorry: I get too upset about stories...
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Don't apologize! I literally shed tears about fictional people. (And the story of Kullervo is super brutal. He's not a bad person and neither are his female relatives, he and they are victims of their circumstances, so it's normal to feel for that family of underdogs.) Stories are to society what dreams are to individuals, a way to practice and prepare for real life stresses and situations, and to process them afterwards. The story of Tristan and Isolde also springs to mind. I really wish I could see "Der Ring des Nibelungen" live some day. While Wagner was... A piece of work to say the least, I really loved listening to his music as a kid. (I know, my autism is showing.) I'd just let the music wash over me and let it paint fantastical pictures in my mind while lounging on the sofa and looking at the patterns in the wooden floor.
The lentil stew turned out really good - almost tasting sweet from the root vegetables and coconut milk! I had a big portion of it plain as is, and divided the rest into five smaller portions I can eat with different carbs over the next few days.