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Vacuumed and deep-cleaned Heikki´s cage. Also emptied the vacuum´s dirt contained and washed it and the filter.
I should not have taken the AC unit out. Today was hot and humid.
I´m done for today but I left out the floor detergent and equipment to wash the floors. Tomorrow is rest day from gym and pool. I might start to wash the windows if I´m not too sick to do so.
I feel... Not much like anything really. Tired but so much so that it doesn´t even register anymore.
As my last chore for today I´ll move my plants away from the smaller room´s windows. I´ll start the window washing project from there.
I should not have taken the AC unit out. Today was hot and humid.
I´m done for today but I left out the floor detergent and equipment to wash the floors. Tomorrow is rest day from gym and pool. I might start to wash the windows if I´m not too sick to do so.
I feel... Not much like anything really. Tired but so much so that it doesn´t even register anymore.
As my last chore for today I´ll move my plants away from the smaller room´s windows. I´ll start the window washing project from there.
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I think that as it's Equinox tomorrow, I'll rearrange my plants for the winter. I'll wash as many windows as I can, and place my little planters between the window panes. There are two windows specifically that tend to get condensation inside, and as the temps are dropping, it's possible that if I water the plants very well before placing them inside, they could be sustained throughout the winter without me needing to water them. I'm not saying it will work but it could.
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I'm an idiot: at winter the temps will drop too low for most of my plants to survive as I planned in my previous post.
Stupid. Maybe I'm too retarded to decide for myself about that important thing too.
Less than a year ago I was still fat and gross. I managed to anger the trans clinic people with my stupidity too. I did it to myself. Should have sucked it up and been nice to that hag. Not that it would have helped.
I know now what triggered me in my last psychotherapy session. My therapist was trying to build up my confidence by complimenting my sense of humor. I strongly dislike it when people compliment me on my innate traits and abilities, because I don't deserve praise for things I didn't choose or work for. It made me nervous. And the test on top of that made it worse. It was to measure my character strengths. I didn't choose those either or work for them. It's like being complimented for natural hair color or intelligence, they are dice traits, I got a certain roll of dice, why should I get praise for such things?
I can stand compliments when they are for things I do or choose. A painting. Physique I work hard for. Putting myself through discomfort. Coming up with a good solution for a tricky problem. Those are praise-worthy things. But I don't like being complimented for _being_. I... Hate it. A painting can be objectively good. Getting something done while in a migraine is a real achievement. I can't be objectively good.
I had two rye bread sandwiches with chicken and cheese, and five almonds.
Trying to sleep. More important than potting house plants in the middle of the night or counting minutes to sunrise so I can start washing the windows.
Stupid. Maybe I'm too retarded to decide for myself about that important thing too.
Less than a year ago I was still fat and gross. I managed to anger the trans clinic people with my stupidity too. I did it to myself. Should have sucked it up and been nice to that hag. Not that it would have helped.
I know now what triggered me in my last psychotherapy session. My therapist was trying to build up my confidence by complimenting my sense of humor. I strongly dislike it when people compliment me on my innate traits and abilities, because I don't deserve praise for things I didn't choose or work for. It made me nervous. And the test on top of that made it worse. It was to measure my character strengths. I didn't choose those either or work for them. It's like being complimented for natural hair color or intelligence, they are dice traits, I got a certain roll of dice, why should I get praise for such things?
I can stand compliments when they are for things I do or choose. A painting. Physique I work hard for. Putting myself through discomfort. Coming up with a good solution for a tricky problem. Those are praise-worthy things. But I don't like being complimented for _being_. I... Hate it. A painting can be objectively good. Getting something done while in a migraine is a real achievement. I can't be objectively good.
I had two rye bread sandwiches with chicken and cheese, and five almonds.
Trying to sleep. More important than potting house plants in the middle of the night or counting minutes to sunrise so I can start washing the windows.
In that case they're being obnoxious and possibly illegal knowing it probably won't be worth your energy to fight them. I'm so sorry. I do of course fully agree that it would be insanity to make you use the men's locker room at this point.
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thanks, friend 
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Washed 50% of the windows in my apartment. Washed the bathroom and the floors. The rest of the windows, as well as the balcony glasses, will have to wait for another day. I did put some plants between the washed window panes. I´ll need to move them out as the temps drop, but for now they look cute and kind of festive.
Snack: a banana.
Lunch: chocolate. I´m stoned and my weight stays consistently under 85 kg, so I can afford one treat day.
Snack: a banana.
Lunch: chocolate. I´m stoned and my weight stays consistently under 85 kg, so I can afford one treat day.
Floater
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I didn't go get num nums, instead I ate stuff I already had at home. Beef jerky, dried cherries, noodles, soup. Slept like a log.Enjoy your treat day, Arvo. I'm looking forward to some chocolate tonight. You just posted -"num nums". Enjoy your num nums
Woke up happy, refreshed and migraine free. Put the laundry machine on. Heikki has peed on his shelf - naughty elf. He got a new hidey hut yesterday, and even positive changes seem to freak him out and he shelf-pees. Well, he'll adjust.
Breakfast: a banana, four almonds.
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Lunch: a bowl of soup.
Today´s plan: wash the remaining windows and balcony glasses. Do fall maintenance for the rest of my houseplants. Prep a batch of soup.
I have gym in the calendar today, but washing the windows counts as exercise; I´ll hit the gym in the evening _if_ I feel like it´s not too much on top of the window washing. I tried to read online about if it´s bad for the windows to have plants ( = moisture) between the window panes and found no direct answer to that question. There´s some condensation between the panes and I know that on the long run that´s not healthy for the building but we´ll see; it happens every time the temps drop anyway so I´m probably not going to cause any structural issues if I have this arrangement for a few days to a week.
I need to remember to put my Schlumbergeras outside for a few days. Cold treatment should make them bloom better. I´ll also add some fresh soil on top so they get nutrients for beautiful blossoms.
Today´s plan: wash the remaining windows and balcony glasses. Do fall maintenance for the rest of my houseplants. Prep a batch of soup.
I have gym in the calendar today, but washing the windows counts as exercise; I´ll hit the gym in the evening _if_ I feel like it´s not too much on top of the window washing. I tried to read online about if it´s bad for the windows to have plants ( = moisture) between the window panes and found no direct answer to that question. There´s some condensation between the panes and I know that on the long run that´s not healthy for the building but we´ll see; it happens every time the temps drop anyway so I´m probably not going to cause any structural issues if I have this arrangement for a few days to a week.
I need to remember to put my Schlumbergeras outside for a few days. Cold treatment should make them bloom better. I´ll also add some fresh soil on top so they get nutrients for beautiful blossoms.
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Beet soup all done. I decided to roll the minced beef into little balls and added them, smetana, and some bulgur for the last 10 minutes of cooking. I think I´ll let the six portions I got from the batch cool down before tasting, as I used soy mince as well as it needs time to suck flavor from the broth.
Now: I should eat something, so I think I´ll boil some ravioli I have in the fridge and have it with tuna.
Now: I should eat something, so I think I´ll boil some ravioli I have in the fridge and have it with tuna.
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After I had tuna, ravioli and cheese, I let Heikki out for a run. As the weather conditions allowed for it, I let him explore the clean and fresh balcony and have his dust bath there. (I need to vacuum the aftermath tomorrow lol.)
I´m kinda conflicted between two options: I could pack my gym back and have a quick workout because I slept until 11AM today and probably won´t fall asleep for some time. Or I could try to get some rest. Maybe rest is smarter. I´ve been on my feet the whole afternoon and evening, cleaning and washing windows. Yeah... Now that I put that in writing it´s pretty clear that rest is the sensible option.
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Took a minute to plan next week´s workouts. I think I´ll move from four consecutive workout days followed with one rest day to a 3-1 ratio. I need to make time for art and home maintenance as these are great methods of stress management and stress relief. I feel mentally much more rested after a full day of cleaning an listening to WH40K lore on YouTube than I would be had I spent the day resting-resting.
Neck is starting to tighten again so I might be getting a migraine. I should have a shower and go lie down. Feeling very accomplished.
I´m kinda conflicted between two options: I could pack my gym back and have a quick workout because I slept until 11AM today and probably won´t fall asleep for some time. Or I could try to get some rest. Maybe rest is smarter. I´ve been on my feet the whole afternoon and evening, cleaning and washing windows. Yeah... Now that I put that in writing it´s pretty clear that rest is the sensible option.
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Took a minute to plan next week´s workouts. I think I´ll move from four consecutive workout days followed with one rest day to a 3-1 ratio. I need to make time for art and home maintenance as these are great methods of stress management and stress relief. I feel mentally much more rested after a full day of cleaning an listening to WH40K lore on YouTube than I would be had I spent the day resting-resting.
Neck is starting to tighten again so I might be getting a migraine. I should have a shower and go lie down. Feeling very accomplished.
Floater
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Showered amd tested a new brand of hair removal cream for my legs. IDK if it was supposed to be rinsed off or scraped off with a spatula. Some hair stuck, but creams like this are rarely 100% in one session. Still beats the vicious ingrown hairs I get every time I try to shave my legs with a razor, no matter how diligent I am with a fresh razor and hygiene...!