Um. I can´t log into my gym´s client account.
EDIT: solved the issue by finding a gym of the same chain that was open, the person confirmed that my card should work and I do have access to all previous spaces within, their online infra just sucks.
@Llama , now that I´m fed and medicated, I think I may be able to explain myself a little bit better.
What is the purpose of women´s locker rooms and the women´s side of the gym? Safety for physically smaller humans who are more prone to getting harassed by physically larger humans. We could split hairs about "cis men get harassed too" but societal power structures are what they are and every time I go for a late night workout and use the men´s side of the gym, I get stared down. I have E cup badonkers, a feminine voice and a feminine face. My presence in the women´s spaces at the gym will not make women uncomfortable. But if I were to use the men´s locker room in my current physical state, which I can´t fix on my own, and it´s already been proven how helpful the trans clinic has been in my case, I would get harassed 100%. As a cis person, perhaps this is one of those times when you should listen to the minority. If I were able to safely use the men´s side, I would. I´m not throwing a hissy fit. I´m trying to balance between being a lamb for slaughter and being forced to change my clothes and take trucker baths in the public areas of the gym because in a few months I can´t (as per the gym´s regulations) use a safe area to change and clean myself, and can´t safely enter the area to do those things that fits my gender marker but not my secondary sexual characteristics. I don´t know how comfortable you would find the idea of having a vulva and taking a shower in the men´s showers. Personally I don´t. And I´ll always have a vulva. Transitioning is not going to make it go away.
Of course the solution was already offered by other trans guys: just don´t inform the gym and keep using the women´s side until I get on hormones. My honesty and impulse to do good was literally the only stumbling block about all of this, and I can´t just turn those off, being autistic they are my core traits.
Now, turning the thinking into something positive: I might very well be the first or one of the first clients with this conundrum at the gym chain. Now they are aware that an issue like mine exists, and hopefully in some time they will come up with a solution for gender neutral locker room or at least a clearer, more functional set of rules that all clients would be informed of; so that if I get harassed, groped, raped or beaten due to showing up looking like a woman in a men´s space, no one could apply to not having "known better".
Coffee and then it´s off for my aqua jogging workout!
EDIT: to add, this is one of the reasons why trans people report poorer health outcomes than cis people. We are not safe in spaces meant for exercise. For us it´s not a thought experiment. Some of us will opt out of working out because the dangers are not theoretical, they are very, very real to us.
