Floater's diary

Eating breakfast - red lentil stew - before heading to the pool. Need to buy hummus, cottage cheese and fresh chili on my way home. Hummus pasta is so incredibly convenient and satisfying.

I feel like spring is already here. It´s a beautiful morning. I adore late winter mornings when the sun is out. Birds have already started to stir and sing a bit. In two months it will be "fuck me" mayhem with them.
 
Lunch/the second hot meal of the day: casserole with potatoes, spinach, minced meat, and a mix of caramelized onions, chopped carrots, nduja and white beans all layered and topped with blue cheese crumbs.

Feeling exhausted and anxious: tomorrow is my last interview with the sex therapist. After that I can´t influence the outcome in any way. I don´t have high hopes about my transition process being greenlit. But I would hate myself for not even trying. So...
 
:grouphug: Hugs for the interview. Even if you shouldn't get approved right now that doesn't mean you won't ten years from now, once the political climate has changed enough. It's cruel that politics should influence your access to medical care though.
 
Awww thank you both! <3

I had a ginger beer during the meeting, and met outside with my ex to vape, and went on for a long walk and think afterwards. I have now been sober for 1,5 months and my face looks slimmer. (Alcohol irritates the salivary glands, which makes the lower jaw(neckline area look puffier.) I also noticed in the swimming hall today that my stomach seems to hang more than it used to. I think the skin will still snap back, of course I´m in my thirties and not 16, but the skin looks "emptier" now because I have lost some weight. Probably not a lot on the scale, but it is noticeable. And in the elevator I saw myself look "correct" and it made me very happy. I just have to keep on trucking until I succeed.
 
Baby steps, but all in the right direction. And the thing about babies is that they always grow up faster than you expect.
 
Llama said:
Baby steps, but all in the right direction. And the thing about babies is that they always grow up faster than you expect.
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And in weight loss, slow and steady wins the race with less risk of backslides :)

Slept until noon, today's plan is to take it easy.
 
Yesterday night I went for a walk & vape with my ex and got the munchies, so I ate a ton of stuff lol. Two portions of lentil stew, a chocolate bar, a licorice stick, and a whole jar of Ben & Jerry´s Baked Alaska. Today I slept until noon and had minced meat casserole for breakfast. Went for a walk after. More casserole for lunch with apple slices and four Brazil nuts for dessert. I have group at 5PM and after that I plan to go to the gym - nothing crazy, just a light maintenance workout - and at home I will vacuum, clean Heikki´s cage, and go to the sauna. Tomorrow is a busy day - therapy, hairdresser, and aqua jogging - so I want the apartment to be clean and tidy when I get home all tired.
 
I decided to do the cleaning first so I'm heading to the gym now. It's going to feel amazing coming home to a clean apartment. I also deep cleaned Heikki's cage with dish detergent, water, and a finishing wipe-down with vinegar.
 
Llama said:
I just got tired just reading about your day!
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I´m pretty wiped tbh.

Had a 0,33dl sugared ginger beer before leaving home. Bough dish rags and two protein drinks on my way to the gym. Had one drink before my workout and one after. Workout was good (despite the gym being packed with rude people who left their weights laying around and didn´t clean the equipment after use). Had a Taco Bell chicken quesadilla before walking home.

I´m making rice now, and the sauna is heating up. I need to leave by noon tomorrow to make it to therapy in time at 1PM. After that I have a hairdresser appointment to have my sides buzzed fresh again at 14.45, and after that I´ll go buy the disability swim card and do an aqua jogging workout. So tomorrow is going to be busy as well. But I´m not complaining! I´m just glad that my exercise routine starts to be so ingrained as part of my daily life that it doesn´t really even feel like much of a bother now. It´s just something that I do. And that makes me happy.
 
Floater said:
So tomorrow is going to be busy as well. But I´m not complaining! I´m just glad that my exercise routine starts to be so ingrained as part of my daily life that it doesn´t really even feel like much of a bother now. It´s just something that I do. And that makes me happy
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I think it's great that your exercise routine has become ingrained too. It seems to be really good for you :) I'm getting a haircut this morning too. I'm really looking forward to it. I have let my hair grow as long as I can so she has something to work with.
 
Cate said:
I'm getting a haircut this morning too. I'm really looking forward to it. I have let my hair grow as long as I can so she has something to work with.
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Oh I hope the hairdresser will be on their A-game and that you´ll enjoy the pampering :grouphug:

I´m squeaky clean and fresh after the sauna, having hummus and spaghetti with fresh chili, garlic and parmesan. Feeling very positive about what I´m doing with my health right now. I hope I´ll get a good night´s sleep...!
 
Hope you slept well. Yay for a solid exercise routine! I'm still struggling to get back into it. And I really need a haircut as well: maybe I'll walk by later and get an appointment.
 
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