Floater's diary

Lentil minestrone soup for lunch. I feel so hyper I´m afraid I´ll jump through the ceiling soon, so I guess I better get my soy bolognese going to keep myself busy. The weather has changed completely: +15 degrees and low pressure. My headache is gone, but my joints feel like they´ll slide out of their sockets like bones off the short ribs at a suburban grill party. Win some, lose some, eh?

Didn´t get a phone call from the floor guy, and the fire alarm is still beeping away in the hallway which is frankly driving me nuts. Strangely enough, I crave sugar - and I practically never crave sugar. My cravings are usually for red meat, cheeses, and beer, but I´d love to stuff my face with some grocery store muffins. Go figure. As I´m totally broke, I guess I´ll just take out fruit to thaw lol.
 
Let it be noted that Floater seizes opportunities with both hands :D Fingers crossed for your application: may the people who run that place have a heart for animals rather than just for money and may they recognize your gift for communication with animals.
 
Slow morning. Soy bolognese and polenta for breakfast, dosa and pineapple for a snack, next I'll go aquajogging (just a light session, an hour or so) and just take it easy tonight
 
I aqua jogged for 90 mins and got a pack of meatballs on my way home. I practically never eat meatballs, but for some reason I felt like getting some. Perhaps a taste memory. I ate 16 small meatballs as my post workout meal (I had my locker room porridge as usual), I must have needed the protein. This brand is decent when it comes to nutritional value, 80% meat and a bit under 300 kcal per 100g.

I´ll sit down and relax for a while, and dinner is going to be soy bolognese with spaghetti and cheese. I think I´ll have dinner soon, I´m really hungry, which is good of course.
 
Damn, my left ankle is really giving me grief. It´s the same thing every time there´s a big change in the weather. It always passes on its own eventually but right now I can´t f.e. squat down, I need to put my left knee on the ground if I want to pick up something from the floor, the ankle is that sore and unstable.

Heikki is out to play, I set up the dog puzzle for him again and he seems to like it. Chinchillas seem to have a short attention span, he hustles with the game for a while, then runs somewhere else, the goes to play with the game again. It´s so cute to watch him run around with his big whiskers in attention mode.
 
I had a small bowl of mango with sour cream for dessert, and a small plate of sugar snap peas with salt and marg for a snack.

I need to remember to cook the remaining chunk of cauliflower tomorrow so it won´t wilt. I´m super hungry still. Weird!!
 
Water always makes me super hungry. Add colder weather and I'm not surprised you're super hungry. Hope your ankle heals up soon!
 
Llama said:
Water always makes me super hungry. Add colder weather and I'm not surprised you're super hungry.
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Good point. I´ll eat with a good conscience until I feel satiated. Snack: rye bread with halved meatballs on top, a small bowl of frozen peas with furikake-type seasoning on top.

I put red lentils to soak overnight and will make a big batch of red lentil soup with tomatoes and cauliflower tomorrow. Perhaps add in a couple of grated potatoes for a starchier, thicker soup, and either a couple of chopped Brazil nuts or some peanut butter for creaminess.
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Hope your ankle heals up soon!
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Thanks, me too! :grouphug:
 
Breakfast was soy bolognese and polenta, after that I did some food prep by boiling eggs, lunch was soy bolognese with spaghetti and a bowl of fruit. I had a marathon phone call with my godperson who has an awful living situation right now. I told them they can move in to my apartment if things get too tough and stay until they find a new place. We´ll see what happens but the offer was genuine.

I took care of some paperwork and timed my bills & rent. Not a lot I can do about things right now. I need to order some long pants/sweatpants for the winter, I only own shorts and gym tights currently. Very annoying, I really don´t feel like spending money right now but clothes are a necessary living cost, especially in Finland. Thankfully I can order via post and pay in 30 days for what I decide to keep.

I bleached my eyebrows today, they had gotten pretty patchy-looking already because it´s been a month since I last bleached them. IDK why I like the look, to me it looks strange in a good way. I have to remember to buy more dried apple tree sticks for Heikki, he´s almost out, and those are his favorite treat/pastime. I can even coax him out of my aloe pot with an apple tree stick, and it´s saying something because he´s drawn to that plant pot like a demon to Hell.

I´m going to make a big batch of red lentil soup tonight. I was planning to hit the gym tonight but it´s 12 C and drizzling outside and tonight might be better spent resting and recovering. I have to remember that everything will turn out OK eventually. Who knows, maybe the dog groomer place will call me to an interview? Who knows, maybe my upcoming trans clinic appointment won´t be a complete catastrophe? Who knows, perhaps in 10 years I´ll have a permanent place and a spouse to make coffee for in the mornings.
 
@Llama I found something you might like. Or hate. :ROFLMAO:

Hm. I maxxed out on my ADHD meds for the first time since early July, I think. For most of the summer I was too anxious and sick to take stimulants, and oh man I´m glad to be operating as close to "normal" people levels as possible for me. (Also, if doctors actually knew how little pleasure there is in taking stimulants for people who actually HAVE ADHD, perhaps they weren´t so reluctant to renew prescriptions. I swear, the entire Finnish health care system seems to be based on the logic that medications are for whiners and make everyone into a raging addict lol.)

I made a big batch of red lentil stew and let Heikki out to run. I was singing Finnish noughties summer hits, and he was zooming around the apartment and jumping off walls like a rubber ball. I adore my little man, even though he once again made a prison break and hid behind the laundry machine, which is scary as hell because I have no way of really knowing if he´s chewed anything so it´s like playing Russian roulette with shower electrocution. When he burrows behind the machine, I gently harass him out of there with a mop handle - the first few times I felt like a monster, but judging by how unphased he is by this procedure, I´m pretty sure he´s not traumatized.

Next I´ll vacuum and give the floors a quick wipe. If everything goes as planned, the floor of the room with water damage should be finished tomorrow. I find myself actually wishing that my godperson would move in for the winter. We´ll see - it´s obviously their decision.
 

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I'm stoned, but the home is clean and I ate well and cleaned Heikki's cage and played with him. And I had a random flashback of seeing the "Techno Viking" meme when I was 23 and feeling a pang of envy and despair. Nowadays that aesthetic is stolen by neonazis, but it was fun to reminisce these painful but necessary memories, as they give me a sense of identity and trust in my own judgment.
 
It sounds like a good day. Can you block off the back of the laundry machine? I guess Heikki would just climb up any barrier you put along the back.
 
Breakfast was oatmeal and frozen peas. I need to wash my face and go buy apple tree sticks for Heikki. The renovation guy is still sick so the floors won´t be assembled until Monday, Saturday at the earliest. I feel lazy and unmotivated but not in a depression way, just in a "I want to burrow and not worry about adulting today" way. We´ll see if I get motivated to go to the gym later!
 
All nearby pet stores are out of apple tree sticks so I bought two aspen balls for Heikki and hung up his hay hut from the ceiling, so now it´s a swing.

Lunch: two lamb sausages with potatoes, spring onions and potatoes :) (and mango and pineapple for dessert)

EDIT: "fun" fact about Finnish trans healthcare:

- TW for surgery talk which might gross some out -

while it´s perfectly possible to perform a metoidoplasty (a form of bottom surgery for FTM trans folks) without a vaginectomy (AKA the permanent closing of the vagina), in Finland this procedure is not performed unless the patient is willing to undergo a vaginectomy. The reason? An influential surgeon has decided that "tax money shouldn´t be used to make hermaphrodites". It makes my skin crawl that the same system that claims it´s protecting trans people from "regrets" by making transitioning extremely difficult, also practically forces extensive and incorrectible surgeries onto people who in reality would be happy with a smaller, cheaper, quicker procedure with next to no side effects.

This country really hates us. o_O And imagine having no options but to be operated on by someone who doesn´t quite see you as a human. Mary Shelley was a clearvoyant, lol.
 
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Lentil stew with cheese and scallions.

I SHOULD go to the gym but I´m just not feeling it. Meh. But there´s still time to go if I change my mind.
 
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