Floater
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I'll just go and do one squat and come back home. I'm cranky and restless and need the dopamine.
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That's appalling.
I'm not motivated for the gym today either. Am doing a lot better this week though, so I'm not going to worry about it.
Floater
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Yeah, appalling. It's hard to stay brave and hopeful when this is the reality of being trans in Finland.
I had an egg, went to the gym, bought a Lion Coconut bar on my way there, did some circuit training (my favorite when I'm in a bad mood!), had my porridge, had a marathon call with my godperson again during my walk home and while Heikki was out to play, had an egg for a snack and a meal of leftover potatoes, sausage and my last piece of cheese in lentil soup. Took my sleeping pill, showered, I still need to brush my teeth but I'm glad I went to the gym.
Cate
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The attitude of the medical powers that be in your country around surgery makes me really angry. I looked up what the surgeries entail & metoidioplasty sounds much simpler. The mind boggles that they would insist on making it much more complicated. Grrrr!!!!
Well done on eating, going to the gym & talking to your god person. Stay brave & hopeful, Floater
Well done on eating, going to the gym & talking to your god person. Stay brave & hopeful, Floater
Floater
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I drove to the hardware store with an autism assistance person and all the clerks/workers there were semi-sentient mushrooms more interested in chatting with each other than helping, so we GTFO, and I´ll try another store tomorrow.
Breakfast was lentil soup. Lunch was store-bought meatballs with a potato and store-bought maple syrup pancakes with a banana and creme fraiche. I have washed half the windows in my kitchen/living room area, and will wash the rest after I´ve finished lunch. I want to wash the balcony glasses before winter too, we´ll see if I do it today with the same momentum, or leave it for later. I was planning to go aqua jogging today but washing the windows is an OK workout anyway and I don´t want to completely overdo things and risk exhaustion and/or a migraine.
Breakfast was lentil soup. Lunch was store-bought meatballs with a potato and store-bought maple syrup pancakes with a banana and creme fraiche. I have washed half the windows in my kitchen/living room area, and will wash the rest after I´ve finished lunch. I want to wash the balcony glasses before winter too, we´ll see if I do it today with the same momentum, or leave it for later. I was planning to go aqua jogging today but washing the windows is an OK workout anyway and I don´t want to completely overdo things and risk exhaustion and/or a migraine.
Floater
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But a fingerless dog groomer....Look on the bright side: fingers are among the easiest body parts to amputate
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Today turned out into a proper fall cleanup: after I had washed the windows and balcony glasses, I did plant maintenance, re-organized my plants that sit on my cupboard, re-potted a syngonium podophyllum or "mule´s ear" that had been sitting in the same tiny pot since it broke off the mother plant, found out that if chinchilla pee goes unnoticed and dries into the parquet, it WILL indeed dissolve the wax finish off top... Well, I´m positive that using parquet wash will help. I also did laundry and changed my bed sheets.
I LOVE clean windows. It looks nice and always makes the air in the apartment feel so much fresher too. I took most of my plants to take a shower, they always look so pretty when the leaves are all shiny and dust-free. Nera´s urn sits on the top of my cabinet now, surrounded by pretty plants and overlooking the apartment, safe from Heikki´s "tooth art".
I had some meatballs as a snack. Took out pineapple to thaw. I might walk to the gas station for fries later, but I might also just eat at home. After I had finished washing the windows I felt a migraine starting to come in, but I took my meds in time, and it helped.
I LOVE clean windows. It looks nice and always makes the air in the apartment feel so much fresher too. I took most of my plants to take a shower, they always look so pretty when the leaves are all shiny and dust-free. Nera´s urn sits on the top of my cabinet now, surrounded by pretty plants and overlooking the apartment, safe from Heikki´s "tooth art".
I had some meatballs as a snack. Took out pineapple to thaw. I might walk to the gas station for fries later, but I might also just eat at home. After I had finished washing the windows I felt a migraine starting to come in, but I took my meds in time, and it helped.
Floater
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Autumn is always peak mental health season for me. Summer is way too intense, autumn is peaceful and cool and cozy. I did some grocery shopping, not because I had to but because there were foods I genuinely wanted to eat, and I bought single pack hot chocolate and whipped cream in a can, too.
I feel like getting Heikki has helped me get in touch with my inner child. Chinchillas are a lot like toddlers/pre-schoolers, creatures of pure, shameless "id", without any malice but also without much thought about pleasing humans. A delightfully anarchistic animal that, in time, will gnaw itself through the toughest of obstacles. A very good soul animal for someone seeking to transition. We practiced being handled yesterday and I got a few scratches (he wasn´t trying to hurt me, just used his nails to get a better grip of my shoulder) and he puffed off a few tufts of fur, but only tiny tufts. I ordered a new hidey-hut and a new food bowl (one that can be attached to the cage wall so he won´t poop in his pellets) and lots of apple tree sticks and a variety of treats - dried chamomile flowers and dried nettle - so he can have some safe variety in his diet, in moderation of course. At some point I want to get pretty glass and/or metal containers for all of his stuff and organize them in a pretty way.
Nera´s urn looks very pretty in it´s new spot. It´s like she has a little garden of her own. She was a good dog and I miss her very much, but I´m so thankful for the time we had together. Andthe thankfulness is starting to overpower the grief I think. <3 I want to do something special on the Autumn Equinox to celebrate Nera.
I feel like getting Heikki has helped me get in touch with my inner child. Chinchillas are a lot like toddlers/pre-schoolers, creatures of pure, shameless "id", without any malice but also without much thought about pleasing humans. A delightfully anarchistic animal that, in time, will gnaw itself through the toughest of obstacles. A very good soul animal for someone seeking to transition. We practiced being handled yesterday and I got a few scratches (he wasn´t trying to hurt me, just used his nails to get a better grip of my shoulder) and he puffed off a few tufts of fur, but only tiny tufts. I ordered a new hidey-hut and a new food bowl (one that can be attached to the cage wall so he won´t poop in his pellets) and lots of apple tree sticks and a variety of treats - dried chamomile flowers and dried nettle - so he can have some safe variety in his diet, in moderation of course. At some point I want to get pretty glass and/or metal containers for all of his stuff and organize them in a pretty way.
Nera´s urn looks very pretty in it´s new spot. It´s like she has a little garden of her own. She was a good dog and I miss her very much, but I´m so thankful for the time we had together. Andthe thankfulness is starting to overpower the grief I think. <3 I want to do something special on the Autumn Equinox to celebrate Nera.
Floater
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Right! Now I've got the cage shelf wood, next I have to figure out how I'll fasten the shelves to the cage. On step at a time. I'm making pea soup with fivespice and fresh pork belly, a new twist for an old classic.
I feel super tired, no surprise since so much has happened during the last few days.
Floater
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I fell asleep before midnight last night, and woke up around 8AM - almost unheard of lol. I had a breakfast of pea soup and fruit, hit the gym, recharged my swim card, bought electrical tape to fix some cables Heikki has taste-tested, and will next haul the wood I bought to my ex-FIL who´ll saw it into shelf-sized pieces for me and drill holes for the screws that will hold the shelves in place. I still need to hunt down the round thingamadings that go between the screw and the wood and the cage wires, no idea what they are called but they are round and coin-like with a hole in the middle. I think it´ll have to wait until Wednesday, because there are no hardware stores within walking distance.
Feeling kinda good. Nervous about the future, especially about the upcoming trans clinic thing, but my workout today was awesome, and I do feel that my luck has changed. I have a good feeling about the job interview, too.
Feeling kinda good. Nervous about the future, especially about the upcoming trans clinic thing, but my workout today was awesome, and I do feel that my luck has changed. I have a good feeling about the job interview, too.
Cate
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Heikki is a blessing for you. I'm so glad you got him. I feel the same about Archie. He brings out my inner child & makes me laugh every day.
Getting 8 hours of sleep would have been a wonderful recharge. I'm lucky if I only wake once these days, & love it when I get a long stretch of sleep.
Getting 8 hours of sleep would have been a wonderful recharge. I'm lucky if I only wake once these days, & love it when I get a long stretch of sleep.
Floater
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Yes, we are blessed
Sleep problems suck, I'm sorry we share that as well. I slept 8-ish hours last night too, woke up a few times but fell asleep immediately, and I wish this were the norm...!