Floater's diary

Afternoon slump hit me hard but that makes sense - I got bad news, and I took a smaller dose of my slow release ADHD med in the morning. I didn't nap, but rested in bed.

I just got up and decided I need something more substantial for meal #4 so I made myself some super spicy Buldak ramen with sauerkraut, cheese, dark green salad, enoki mushrooms, and ham. I think I'll have a cup of coffee and a little bit of dark chocolate for dessert, this will give the meal some time to settle in my stomach. And when I go outside, I'll tell myself that I'm not even supposed to go stair walking unless I really want to. I'll walk to the stairs and see what happens once I'm there.

Tomorrow would be aqua jogging day but the strike continues, so I'll go stair walking instead. I'll aim for 45 minutes, because Saturday is rest day and it motivates me to know that absolutely NOTHING has to happen on Saturday: I don't even need to leave my home unless I fancy to. I kind of like having one scheduled lay-low day in my week, very important for my autistic brain.
 
Floater said:
Dessert is a cup of almond matcha latte with fresh mint and maple syrup.
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Oh man, matcha was a trend in the U.S. and I finally tried it and was like, this is gross. And a lot of other people seem to think so too here.

However, I’ve never heard of putting maple syrup and mint in it! Hearing your food combos are truly interesting and makes me want to try. Don’t be surprised if I ask you for a recipe every now and then. 😅
 
ChocolateBunny said:
Oh man, matcha was a trend in the U.S. and I finally tried it and was like, this is gross. And a lot of other people seem to think so too here.

However, I’ve never heard of putting maple syrup and mint in it! Hearing your food combos are truly interesting and makes me want to try. Don’t be surprised if I ask you for a recipe every now and then. 😅
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I would love sharing recipes, so feel free to ask <3

Matcha is something that shares opinions for sure! I have drank good plain matcha in teahouses, but never nailed it at home even though I even used to own the little bamboo whisk and was careful to only heat the water until it formed small bubbles. When I make it at home, it just tastes like the stuff that's left behind a lawnmower lol. Eventually I decided to just do what I like with it, so I use it in my post-workout porridges and tea drinks even though it's not the traditional usage. It's great in baking too, but I haven't been in the mood for baking for years. Matcha cheesecake, dairy or vegan, is great though. :)
 
HA!! Another 30 mins of stair walking under my belt. I decided to make it a rule that the timer has to ring during a lap and then I'll finish the lap at the top of the stairs where I keep my water bottle. Today was easier than yesterday, we'll see how my lofty goal of 45 mins tomorrow works out! Knees feel fine, which is good. My 🍑 is going to be very round by the end of the summer if I can keep this up.
 
Half an hour of stair walking is excellent but if you weren't even sure you'd be able to do it yesterday mayyybe don't do it three days in a row with a 50% increase on day three. Especially of you're unsure of your knees. You know your own body best, of course, but please be careful.
 
Llama said:
You know your own body best, of course, but please be careful.
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I will! It's just walking, after all. Upwards is never an issue, and the longer slope is at a milder (how do you say it? As "opposite of steep!") inclination than the rest of the hill. It's a snowboarding slope in the winter I think. And I always err on the side of caution, which is why I was initially doubtful about my ability to manage 30 mins. A wonderful side effect of being a pessimist is that I am rarely disappointed in my own abilities, the bar is set so low I'd need to limbo under it. Had a call with my friend and godparent. It was nice. It's also nice to hang out in my undies and a cotton t-shirt, pleasantly tired from exercise and clean and fresh after a shower.

Meal #5 is a small bowl of mango, rye bread with dark green salad and cheese, cucumber sticks and a boiled egg, and a 400ml bottle of Kombucha :3

Prepped tomorrow´s breakfast: rye bread with cheese, salad, and Schwarzwald ham + cherry tomatoes, yogurt with fresh mint, salt, and hot sauce, cucumber sticks to dip in the yogurt, mango + pineapple +pomegranate seeds, and finally "something sweet to help the medicine go down" as I'm apparently turning into Mary Poppins: one sesame mochi, two dates, three walnuts, and two Brazil nuts. I can't wait for it to be morning so I'll get to eat it and then rush back to the hill.
 
Floater said:
And I always err on the side of caution, which is why I was initially doubtful about my ability to manage 30 mins. A wonderful side effect of being a pessimist is that I am rarely disappointed in my own abilities,
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And sometimes pleasantly surprised. I'm glad you're being careful!
Floater said:
I'm apparently turning into Mary Poppins: one sesame mochi, two dates, three walnuts, and two Brazil nuts.
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Mary Poppins 100% would've added two extra Brazil nuts :p
 
Llama said:
Mary Poppins 100% would've added two extra Brazil nuts :p
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Holy moly, you are right 😂😂😂 How could I miss that?! Not very supercalifragilisticexpialidocious of me! I'll hurry to add two more Brazil nuts, not more, not less. Thanks Llama ☂️
 
Hmm, I need something for meal #6 but I couldn't be bothered less, so I guess it's going to be a banana, some ham, a spoonful of pumpkin seeds, and a boiled egg. So tired!
 
Cate said:
Kudos to you my friend for doing the right thing by your body yesterday. Many would have succumbed & spent the day on the couch stuffing their face, but not you. Your signature says it all!
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To be fair, I have had my fair share of days spent feeling hopeless and miserable and coping in ways that are faaaar from perfect, but I'm glad that in this moment I'm able to keep my spirits up and stick to my routine. Still, thank you for the encouragement! I do think myself that I'm handling this well.

I'm having a hard time falling asleep but it's OK, I don't have anything scheduled for tomorrow so I can take things at my own pace!
 
Woke up at 5:45 and I'm hungry, so I'll eat the rye sandwich and tomatoes from my bento box, have a cup of tea, and try to snooze some more!
 
Slept until 11.30 but that's fine, I'm sure I needed it. Sleep is so important for recovery! I'll have breakfast now with an extra sandwich to replace the one I ate when I woke up from hunger.
 
It's a pretty day outside, but that also means UV levels are harsh. I think I'll have lunch around 3PM, slap on some sunscreen, and go stairwalking after that.

The new swimsuit arrived, yay, so I get to pick that up from the post! I can do that on my way back from the stairs. Might also walk to the supermarket to buy cottage cheese, eggs and Kombucha in the evening, but we'll see :)
 
I'm having meal #2, a bowl of oatmeal with PB, matcha, soy protein and 3 teaspoons of sugar now, and after that I'm heading to attempt 45 mins of stair walking. I'm having an internal temper tantrum and really not wanting to at all, but we'll see. I'll also pop a short effect ADHD med after I've eaten because I feel extremely sluggish and it's hard to focus at all.

I forgot to mention that I stepped on the scale when I woke up at 11.30 and weighed 1kg more than last Saturday, which is still -2kg from 3 weeks ago, but it made me really angry and frustrated. Rationally I know that as I'm not attempting to be in a big deficit, but rather attempting to fix my metabolism by eating sensible meals at regular intervals and exercising a lot, I can't expect to keep up the pace of losing weekly. I also hadn't crapped at that point, and I had quite a bit of salt yesterday, so it's more likely that it's water weight. (Oh lord I sound like Nicokado Avocado.) I noticed that my ankles were swollen after stair walking yesterday, and this is something that often happens to me when I do cardio on land. When I aqua jog, I have to take pee breaks every 30 mins because it increases lymphatic drainage that much. So it makes sense that I'm retaining more water now that I haven't been able to go to the pool due to the strike. Luckily, the strike should be over by next Tuesday.
 
Llama said:
No extra lymph drainage plus likely water retention due to muscle strain your body isn't used to.
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A good point! Thanks.

Sunscreen has been on for 15 mins now so off I go! Wish me luck, 45 mins is going to be intense. If I don't have it in me, I'll settle for 30. And tomorrow is all about rest <3
 
Yay I did 45 mins on the stairs, descending on the slope. Kept my water bottle at the center point of the stairs where there's a widening so I could get 15 seconds of rest in the middle of ascensions. It made the task psychologically less jarring. I think I'll aim for 60 mins on Monday.

Time to head to the post and then back home to shower.
 
Meal #3 is lentil stew with corn, spinach, and a pollock fillet. To my surprise, the swimsuit wasn't too small per se, but the fit was a bad joke. The arm holes were tiny and the straps were set really wide apart so that it would have come off on the first breaststroke in the water. I need to decide if I want to return it and lose 5e of delivery costs or to order another swimsuit in exhange, free of delivery costs. They have one that by the looks of it could fit - adjustable halterneck strap and high leg cut - but it also has a keyhole cut under the biddies with a pentagram metal bit in the middle, so there's definitely a risk that it'll send me to dysphoria town or that my mammaries will start to play peek-a-boo. Like, if it fits, I would probably look great in it to other people, but it's a hyperfeminine swimsuit, so IDK. On the other hand, in the pool I'm submerged for the most of the time so does it really matter how the swimsuit looks as long as it fits?
 
Floater said:
On the other hand, in the pool I'm submerged for the most of the time so does it really matter how the swimsuit looks as long as it fits?
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Yes it does, if it makes you feel awful. But pentagrams are for protection so maybe it'll ward off the evil dysphoria?

Edit: great work on the stair walking!
 
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