Emily Rose: The Reboot

Hi Em! I know what you mean about wearing clothes that make you look good. I bought a fall jacket in size large (which I have't fit in for years) and it is so slimming. I would like there to be a little more wiggle room, but we are going to fix that soon! And I have the same problem. I seem to have lost fat everywhere except my chest, and it is ultra annoying!

I am going to copy you and really work at staying under calories and logging everything. It's been over a year and a half since I started losing weight, and it's just time to get the last of it off! We can do this! Great you have a beautiful dress to motivate you!

I can't watch horror movies period, never mind before bed. Big chicken who will have to sleep with the light on if did that!
 
Haha, your post made me smile Cate.

Marsia, I really haven't tried food tracking properly before, but over the last 3 days, it has been going well. I don't mind having big boobs, I just need them to fit into the clothes I already have. :)

Right. Today was a nightmare in terms of things going wrong in work but actually, myself and another girl really worked together as a team so something positive came out of it. She's finishing up next week and I'm glad we are ending on good terms.

I also put my foot down about something I don't want to do, and it felt great. That NO word is a powerful word.

I have a very busy day ahead in work tomorrow but I actually stayed in positive form all day, despite things crashing and burning all around me. Maybe I'm just excited that I'm actually sticking to my calorie goals! This is the first time in ages where I've actually felt like I'm actively taking the steps needed to lose this weight. I feel like I'm looking after myself again.

I do get paid tomorrow however and with money comes all the temptations that money can buy. But I feel that maybe a switch has gone off in my brain, and the logical part is saying, 'Stick to your daily calorie goal and you cannot fail!!!' So I'm going to listen.
 
That's so great that sticking to your goals is also helping you get through ultra-stress day! I am feeling like that doing my art, although I missed my goal by 100 calories today because I didn't track things until later, so I really need to take a long walk/jog tonight to make up for it. Maybe that will be how I stick to the calorie goals is that I will exercise more if I go over. I really, really want us to succeed at this - I've been stuck at this weight way too long and feel really, really motivated, too! For me it's really surprising how fast 1300 calories comes up, and I need to stop eating for the day, but good that I am counting again so I don't zip past the calorie limit without knowing...

Congrats on making it through a hard day and coming out so positive at the end!
 
Glad I made you smile :)
I'm also glad I'm not back in a pressure cooker environment. Getting back on track with diet really helps you in other areas. Keep that money for some lovely non-food/drink/cig treat along the track, Em. You can do this! xoxo
 
Emilyrose said:
I have a very busy day ahead in work tomorrow but I actually stayed in positive form all day, despite things crashing and burning all around me. Maybe I'm just excited that I'm actually sticking to my calorie goals! This is the first time in ages where I've actually felt like I'm actively taking the steps needed to lose this weight. I feel like I'm looking after myself again.
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That´s excellent Em, long may it last!
 
Hi Em it sounds like it's all clicked now and you turned a corner a very positive one at that . Yay for pay day , I have 2 more days to wait .
 
Thanks guys.

I don't really know what I want to talk about. I guess I have the fear that corners appear to have been turned before, and then it always goes back to default mode.

Even though I had a hectic day today, we had some fun and laughs in the office, which was great. The youngest in the office told me she wore a similar top to the one I wore yesterday because she thought it looked nice on me. Lol. I got a kick out of it.

I am actually enjoying sticking to my calories. I've felt for a while now that food has lost its hold on me, but I was still eating whatever I wanted all the time, and now, I don't feel like I am suffering, I'm just not doing that anymore. There is always tomorrow, my new motto.

I also have my dress and a play that I'm doing to keep me in line. I want to look good on stage. There's talk of us wearing wedding dresses in it because one of the girls has a friend that owns a bridal boutique. I'm dieting for a fantasy wedding, lol! I am a real actress. :rotflmao:

I went to see this film a few months back called Wild Rose, excellent film, and this is an amazing cover that I find myself singing away to at times. Jessie Buckley is such a talent. I also love the lyrics.

 
Hi Em! I feel similarly about turning corners. I have lost this much weight before, but the difference now is that I know what happens when I backslide slowly and how if you don't catch it quickly you almost don't notice. So really we are in a new position of knowing to lose and then monitor the weight so we don't have to go through this again! I also figure that if I put on a few pounds and then have to keep taking it off again, it's way, way better than being obese and feeling like I am in a fog and like I am depressed and lethargic. I can live with constantly making sure I keep the last few pounds off!

Nice song - I can picture you singing it as you run! Funny you are losing weight for a fake wedding, but probably less stressful than losing for a real one! Do you do community playhouse type plays?
 
Emilyrose said:
Even though I had a hectic day today, we had some fun and laughs in the office, which was great. The youngest in the office told me she wore a similar top to the one I wore yesterday because she thought it looked nice on me. Lol. I got a kick out of it.
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Nice.
I like that song too. I must keep an eye out for that movie.
Emilyrose said:
I also have my dress and a play that I'm doing to keep me in line. I want to look good on stage. There's talk of us wearing wedding dresses in it because one of the girls has a friend that owns a bridal boutique. I'm dieting for a fantasy wedding, lol! I am a real actress
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I like it :D
 
Haha, thanks Marsia.

No, didn't see Yesterday, was going to go with my dad, but it didn't happen. Wild Rose is so good. A hidden gem you might say.

Thanks Cate and you're right LaMa!

Going to keep this short. I feel fairly tired after a hectic working week. I think I did a lot, but I was complaining and cranky for a lot of it, so that's not great. I find it hard to enjoy being too busy. I get overwhelmed, my brain doesn't work right, and little things annoy me. I am proud of all the hard work I put in, I really did double the amount of work I normally do. Let's see if it pays off next week, there is a silver lining somewhere, I am sure.

Going to see a play tomorrow night away from the city, it will be nice to go somewhere different for the last day of the summer season. September is my favourite month, so let's see if it's a good one. I think so.

The play rehearsals are kicking off on Monday, and did I mention I am co-directing? Should be an amazing challenge for the next 10 weeks.
 
There's really only one card game I enjoy : Ligretto. It's very simple but you have to be quick and after a couple of rounds my brain just freaks out and I sit there, shaking, unable to do anything. Over a card game. So... I guess I understand getting overwhelmed.
 
I hate being too busy & overwhelmed. September is my favourite month, too. I love saying goodbye to Winter.
Hope you enjoy the play, Em xo
 
September is one of mine too , I love the autumn . Then spring is next favourite. Em sounds like you have a very active life . Best of luck with the play . Is it amateur dramatics . I go see them up and down although some are a bit dark .
 
Wow, cool you are co-directing! Do you have a very big part in the play, too? I hope you are having a lovely, relaxing weekend after all that stress!

Oh, almost forgot - tomorrow is our first weigh-in. Please remind me if I forget to post. Darn, I ate out tonight past my fasting window. Oh well!
 
Thanks guys. It's amateur dramatics and I have a big enough part, but it's mainly only in one scene, so it should be manageable. First rehearsal tomorrow night, :willy_nilly:.

And now it's time for...

SUNDAY WEIGH-IN :applause:

Week 1: 179.3 lbs | 41.6% body fat
Week 2: 177.6 lbs (-1.7 lbs) | 41.4% body fat (-0.2%)

Reflections on week 1:
I reached my target weight loss for this week, which is great. I stuck to my calorie goal every day except yesterday, and even with that, I expended more calories than I took in and I was also under the equivalent amount of calories another day earlier in the week. So what I'm trying to say is that I made up the 3,500 calorie loss needed.

What is not great is that I don't feel too fantastic on this. A lot of my calories this week went on booze or chocolate. I think when you're not taking in as much, the calories you do eat need to be good ones. My energy levels aren't great, I haven't been exercising really, and I feel a bit depleted of nutrients if I'm being honest. 500 a day as a deficit is a lot in my opinion. I guess the 500 extra I was taking in all along is making up for the alcohol and crappy food choices at times because at least I'm getting all the nutrients required in. It's something to consider. I have always had good health and the last thing I want to do is put my immune system under pressure and get ill, or look pale and sickly, which is what people I know who heavily restrict look like.

If I didn't have this goal to look good for the play, I would probably up the calories to a 250 deficit for the day, which I don't think I would notice too much and would still result in half a pound a week gone. Hmm. I probably need to just get back into a proper exercise routine, which will mean I can eat a hell of a lot more, and will keep me away from wine and probably motivate me to do more cooking. I will consider altering the daily calories if I still feel like this next week. Slow and steady might be a better way for me.

Healthy meal of the week: The leek soup I made last Sunday. Eek. That's a week ago. Mostly my dinners this week were bread with something on it or pizza or (if I'm being honest) wine. Which is not cool.

Exercise highlight of the week: I didn't do anything except a few walks this week and some dancing at a party last night which my Fitbit picked up as an aerobic workout, haha. The dancing was fun actually. But for the highlight, we'll go with the walk I did last Sunday, which was 1 hr 12 min and burned 437 calories. Exercise definitely needs to be improved.

Plan for week 2: I threw my box of cigarettes out again last night so that is one thing I don't want to do this week. If I could even get to Friday night without them, I would consider that a huge win. As I mentioned, significantly up my exercise. I have a bit of a sore head this morning because I was out last night and didn't get to bed till after 3, but I am going to try to go for a run and yoga today regardless. Or one of them anyway. It's also my turn to clean the house. :eek: I'm going to try to get back to sleep now for a bit and recuperate. I'm also going to ban alcohol until Friday and work on eating proper meals. Basically, change everything about this week. Haha. But the main thing is the start of the weight loss. Hopefully as the weeks go by, all of the stuff above will become easier. It's still early days. But nice to have a plan anyway, even if it will be altered.
 
Well done dropping a good bit of weight this week! I agree you´ll probably feel more nourished eating the same amount of calories in a variety of foods rather than a largish part of it in chocolate and wine.
 
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