Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Petal001
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You are probably exhausted from the holidays Em and it's so cold right now . But the evenings are stretching so much right now it won't be long till spring.
Hope you feel a little better today .
Hope you feel a little better today .
LaMa do you know much about taking collagen I was reading it's meant to be excellent for metabolism skin hair nails ?
As far as I can tell it´s a fad. Eat a healthy, balanced diet and your body will generate all the collagen it needs.
It is only of benefit if your getting too few of the amino acids which are the building blocks of collagen, a deficiency in these particular amino acids is most likely to occur in a vegan diet. Bone Broth is one of the best sources of collagen building amino acids and collagen directly.
Petal001
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I knew you would be the voice of reason . I used to be a terrible sucker for falling for all these wonderful pills and potions . I'm not sure how many bottles of apple cider vinegar tablets I have shoved in cupboards.
Tru I had read that about bone broth .
Hope you are feeling better Em .
Cate, I agree that the change back to the shitty diet might have a lot to do with it.
Thanks for the info LaMa and Tru, as always.
Petal, I had a bad work day but blew off some steam tonight and now I'm feeling okay.
Diet still chronic. Went out drinking after a solid two weeks of very little, none at all since Sunday. I had a great evening though, don't regret it, but probably will tomorrow. I just needed a bit of pressure release.
I was unbelievably frustrated today in work, I don't really understand what happened. Suddenly, everything just seemed terrible in there. And, of course, it's all fine. But I do feel so pegged in and it really doesn't suit me. There is nowhere to wander off to and get some space for 10 minutes. I gave out shit to one of my colleagues for making a relatively minor mistake. I felt like a horrible person. I also gave out to another colleague who does nothing but try to accommodate me, but I accused him of not taking my suggestions seriously, when I know that's not really true. I think I was just looking for an argument today.
Anyway, that's just how it went. Have the weekend to get over it. Need to find balance fast.
Thanks for the info LaMa and Tru, as always.
Petal, I had a bad work day but blew off some steam tonight and now I'm feeling okay.
Diet still chronic. Went out drinking after a solid two weeks of very little, none at all since Sunday. I had a great evening though, don't regret it, but probably will tomorrow. I just needed a bit of pressure release.
I was unbelievably frustrated today in work, I don't really understand what happened. Suddenly, everything just seemed terrible in there. And, of course, it's all fine. But I do feel so pegged in and it really doesn't suit me. There is nowhere to wander off to and get some space for 10 minutes. I gave out shit to one of my colleagues for making a relatively minor mistake. I felt like a horrible person. I also gave out to another colleague who does nothing but try to accommodate me, but I accused him of not taking my suggestions seriously, when I know that's not really true. I think I was just looking for an argument today.
Anyway, that's just how it went. Have the weekend to get over it. Need to find balance fast.
Petal001
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Oops Em sounds like your not in good form. Lol you and your colleagues sound like the ladies on our top floor tempers get frayed a bit there too at times. I have my own office gladly . Did you apologise to them ?
I'm sorry you not in a happy place . Can you use the weekend maybe to detox a bit from the junk and maybe go take a walk and recharge . It's bitterly cold I know but to be a beautiful clear day . I came home late last night and I wrapped up and went out for quick 5 mins with the dog and I have never seen such a clear sky with all the stars .
When I need balance I make a list of things I want to do and just try achieve some of the smaller ones . Try do something for you today , hair wash and blow dry , nails , good clean of your bedroom , Hoover behind bed etc .
Be kind to yourself . Hugs
I'm sorry you not in a happy place . Can you use the weekend maybe to detox a bit from the junk and maybe go take a walk and recharge . It's bitterly cold I know but to be a beautiful clear day . I came home late last night and I wrapped up and went out for quick 5 mins with the dog and I have never seen such a clear sky with all the stars .
When I need balance I make a list of things I want to do and just try achieve some of the smaller ones . Try do something for you today , hair wash and blow dry , nails , good clean of your bedroom , Hoover behind bed etc .
Be kind to yourself . Hugs
Petal, what a lovely, thoughtful post. Thank you for that. I did not apologise, the two people I had grievances with throughout the day both were there late on Friday, so I heartily wished them nice weekends. I thought a bit more about the way I say things. I can be quite dogmatic and harsh at times. I don't mean to or want to be a know-it-all, but it's just how I do things. I do not cope very well when things don't go my way. I expect more than people can possibly give.
I saw the beautiful sky last night, stunning.
LaMa, my hangover was fine. Stayed in bed till the afternoon. Ate a lot of bread with marmalade and butter when I finally emerged. It was good.
Met up with the core group tonight, had a blast, realised how self-contained I can be. I know that being open with friends is so important. I just don't want to be negative anymore. There are some things I would have talked about before that I just don't anymore.
I know I said I would drop this topic, but engaged man that I work with talks to me about everything, every topic under the sun, and he probably knows more about me than my own friends. He lost about 25 kg I would say, over a number of years, and I think when you meet someone that knows what it is like to be so unhealthy and really work on turning that stuff around, then you are going to have a connection. I am really sad that there is no future there. We had a meeting one day, and whatever topic was discussed between us, a colleague said, 'You have the same brain.' I don't know why I can't have the same connection with someone who wants to be with me. I'm really sad about this at the moment.
Anyway, besides that saga, I think it's going to be a good week. I will leave you with this beautiful song. My rage is going, going, gone...
I saw the beautiful sky last night, stunning.
LaMa, my hangover was fine. Stayed in bed till the afternoon. Ate a lot of bread with marmalade and butter when I finally emerged. It was good.
Met up with the core group tonight, had a blast, realised how self-contained I can be. I know that being open with friends is so important. I just don't want to be negative anymore. There are some things I would have talked about before that I just don't anymore.
I know I said I would drop this topic, but engaged man that I work with talks to me about everything, every topic under the sun, and he probably knows more about me than my own friends. He lost about 25 kg I would say, over a number of years, and I think when you meet someone that knows what it is like to be so unhealthy and really work on turning that stuff around, then you are going to have a connection. I am really sad that there is no future there. We had a meeting one day, and whatever topic was discussed between us, a colleague said, 'You have the same brain.' I don't know why I can't have the same connection with someone who wants to be with me. I'm really sad about this at the moment.
Anyway, besides that saga, I think it's going to be a good week. I will leave you with this beautiful song. My rage is going, going, gone...
That wasn´t written in stone on the eve of your birth though: you can change it. And I dare say you´ve made a start already, at least from what I´ve been reading in your diary. You sound more positive and seem to take more time to understand other people´s point of view than you did two years ago. These things take time but you can do it and I think you will
Hey LaMa, I'd like to think that I've always been empathetic, disappointing that I don't come across that way. Ah well.
Hi Petal, my dad loves marmalade so I have it a lot more often nowadays. I would never buy it myself.
Mixed bag of a day, my head hurts from work. Very, very frustrated with one of my colleagues, she's just such a difficult person to work with at times. She's a nice enough lady but she's had a task to do for a while now, and yesterday she was kind of mumbling about it under her breath all day, but didn't take any steps to do anything about it, and then today the whole thing blew up and she told us all she needed this thing done for tomorrow and it's just so fucking annoying. I've tried my best to help her out, I have spent hours and hours in there training her, explaining things, discussing issues, and I really am just fed up. She has not stepped up to the plate in my opinion. If she messes up, she never takes responsibility. At the moment, I just hate interacting with her because I have reached the end of my patience threshold. I've done enough I feel. Let someone else take this on now, because it's not fair, and I'm not concentrating on my own work because of the latest stupid mess. Agh.
Anyway, just had to vent about that. I also complained about her to my manager today, which I hadn't up to this point, but I just had to. It's too small an office and I feel I am absorbing an awful lot of stress from her. It's not a good thing.
Anyway, other than that, went to the gym this morning and yoga after work, so I'm trying to burn away all of the negative energy. Yoga was brilliant this evening, really glad I made myself go. 'You will never feel like it.' That has really stuck with me (TED talk - 5 second rule). So I'm just going to force myself until I start to feel like it. Also, my energy levels are more or less back to normal after last week's crash, so I have no excuse.
Rightie-ho, going to listen to some positive zen vibes, balance-in-my-universe-type meditation and pray that all will be better in work tomorrow and I will keep a positive, happy mindset in there and not overreact to irritating stimuli. Have a meeting with the boss about salary and promotion, stressed and not expecting much, but maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised. Wonders never cease. Adios.
Hi Petal, my dad loves marmalade so I have it a lot more often nowadays. I would never buy it myself.
Mixed bag of a day, my head hurts from work. Very, very frustrated with one of my colleagues, she's just such a difficult person to work with at times. She's a nice enough lady but she's had a task to do for a while now, and yesterday she was kind of mumbling about it under her breath all day, but didn't take any steps to do anything about it, and then today the whole thing blew up and she told us all she needed this thing done for tomorrow and it's just so fucking annoying. I've tried my best to help her out, I have spent hours and hours in there training her, explaining things, discussing issues, and I really am just fed up. She has not stepped up to the plate in my opinion. If she messes up, she never takes responsibility. At the moment, I just hate interacting with her because I have reached the end of my patience threshold. I've done enough I feel. Let someone else take this on now, because it's not fair, and I'm not concentrating on my own work because of the latest stupid mess. Agh.
Anyway, just had to vent about that. I also complained about her to my manager today, which I hadn't up to this point, but I just had to. It's too small an office and I feel I am absorbing an awful lot of stress from her. It's not a good thing.
Anyway, other than that, went to the gym this morning and yoga after work, so I'm trying to burn away all of the negative energy. Yoga was brilliant this evening, really glad I made myself go. 'You will never feel like it.' That has really stuck with me (TED talk - 5 second rule). So I'm just going to force myself until I start to feel like it. Also, my energy levels are more or less back to normal after last week's crash, so I have no excuse.
Rightie-ho, going to listen to some positive zen vibes, balance-in-my-universe-type meditation and pray that all will be better in work tomorrow and I will keep a positive, happy mindset in there and not overreact to irritating stimuli. Have a meeting with the boss about salary and promotion, stressed and not expecting much, but maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised. Wonders never cease. Adios.
Petal001
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Your work place sounds like a stressful place .
Good job on the gym and the yoga. I'm hoping when my kid finishes schoool I will get time to do more stuff for me .
Good luck with pay rise . Right now if we ask for a pay rise we are told we know what to do if we don't like it . Very unfair really .
Have a good day
Good job on the gym and the yoga. I'm hoping when my kid finishes schoool I will get time to do more stuff for me .
Good luck with pay rise . Right now if we ask for a pay rise we are told we know what to do if we don't like it . Very unfair really .
Have a good day
Hey Petal, that's such a shitty attitude from your employer. Even if it's not possible to give pay rises, I think it's important to value the people you do have.
Thanks LaMa.
The meeting went very well! I'd loads of things planned out to say and I didn't have to say any of them. What a pleasant surprise. The details haven't been ironed out yet but I think it's looking promising. It gave me a little boost today.
Not much else to report, very tired so going to leave it at that tonight.
Thanks LaMa.
The meeting went very well! I'd loads of things planned out to say and I didn't have to say any of them. What a pleasant surprise. The details haven't been ironed out yet but I think it's looking promising. It gave me a little boost today.
Not much else to report, very tired so going to leave it at that tonight.
Ah, thanks guys. I'm really pleased with how it went. Hopefully the raise will be significant and I can move out again. Haha, ah no, I'm really enjoying being home now. To be honest, I'm so busy that it's worked out brilliantly. When I was sharing, I felt like I was in the house on my own the whole time. Now it's like I have some social or exercise thing on nearly every night of the week. I guess I'm in the flow of life right now. Long may it continue.
In fact, this is my first night to really
since Sunday, which would have been unheard of for me in the past. God, I can't wait to pick out some trashy film to watch for the evening and just kick back. I haven't been near Netflix since before my holiday, madness.
Great day in work today, did a massive clean-up of my desk, quite painful really, but I'm so glad that it's done. The head honchos are down next week, I quite like them really. I didn't do much actual work today, but I guess I used the time wisely in getting that tidy-up done. I also laughed for about 2 hours with my colleague, that was good.
In other news, how good is ''Shallow''? The more I hear it, the more I like it. We have the radio on in work during the day, it comes on a couple of times a week, and it's always a treat. Looking forward to BCoop and Gaga's Oscar performance. Loving their work. I think it's great when a piece of art really connects with people. It's been a good year for musicals, The Greatest Showman also had a fantastic soundtrack with really emotive lyrics. Also full of hope. Isn't that what it's all about?
I'm really pleased with how it went. Hopefully the raise will be significant and I can move out again. Haha, ah no, I'm really enjoying being home now. To be honest, I'm so busy that it's worked out brilliantly. When I was sharing, I felt like I was in the house on my own the whole time. Now it's like I have some social or exercise thing on nearly every night of the week. I guess I'm in the flow of life right now. Long may it continue.In fact, this is my first night to really
since Sunday, which would have been unheard of for me in the past. God, I can't wait to pick out some trashy film to watch for the evening and just kick back. I haven't been near Netflix since before my holiday, madness.Great day in work today, did a massive clean-up of my desk, quite painful really, but I'm so glad that it's done. The head honchos are down next week, I quite like them really. I didn't do much actual work today, but I guess I used the time wisely in getting that tidy-up done. I also laughed for about 2 hours with my colleague, that was good.
In other news, how good is ''Shallow''? The more I hear it, the more I like it. We have the radio on in work during the day, it comes on a couple of times a week, and it's always a treat. Looking forward to BCoop and Gaga's Oscar performance. Loving their work. I think it's great when a piece of art really connects with people. It's been a good year for musicals, The Greatest Showman also had a fantastic soundtrack with really emotive lyrics. Also full of hope. Isn't that what it's all about?