Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Thanks LaMa and Cate.
Petal, the other people are nice, but because you can arrive whenever you like and leave whenever you like, there is no set "group" for the week, so it makes bonding a little bit more difficult.
I'm in a 4-room chalet thing but there's only 2 of us here, which is suiting me so far.
Okay, day 2. I'm not going to lie, today was really tough. I woke up at 7, really enjoyed the walk, then after breakfast we had a yoga class and I felt so completely drained of energy. I didn't take part in any of the other exercise classes for the rest of the day because I am so exhausted.
I really hope I get a good night's sleep tonight so I can go full throttle into it tomorrow.
I am also finding the food a challenge. It's just not filling me up. A plant-based diet long term is definitely not for me. Just a bit hungry and slightly miserable right now.
Petal, the other people are nice, but because you can arrive whenever you like and leave whenever you like, there is no set "group" for the week, so it makes bonding a little bit more difficult.
I'm in a 4-room chalet thing but there's only 2 of us here, which is suiting me so far.
Okay, day 2. I'm not going to lie, today was really tough. I woke up at 7, really enjoyed the walk, then after breakfast we had a yoga class and I felt so completely drained of energy. I didn't take part in any of the other exercise classes for the rest of the day because I am so exhausted.
I really hope I get a good night's sleep tonight so I can go full throttle into it tomorrow.
I am also finding the food a challenge. It's just not filling me up. A plant-based diet long term is definitely not for me. Just a bit hungry and slightly miserable right now.
Speaking as someone who eats a lot of plant-based meals it sounds like they´re either going the high/carb, low-fat route, which wouldn´t fill most people up for very long, or they´re putting high-volume, low-calorie stuff in front of you, which has the same problem. It´s just not satisfying. And likely genuinely isn´t getting you enough calories. Could probably be solved easily with a handful of nuts with every meal and maybe some more salt but folks who both do yoga and eat vegan food are usually pathologically afraid of fat. And salt. And anything else that might make a meal hearty.
Cate
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Oh, Em. I think you have needed this break & feeling so exhausted might just be an indicator that you were really run down. Ask if it is a common response. Your body is used to consuming certain things & all of a sudden it's not getting them. Do you actually feel really hungry? Sending you a hug 
Try to enjoy it & get what you can from the experience. Drink more water & get as much sleep as you can. Tomorrow is another day. Ease into it, xoxo
Try to enjoy it & get what you can from the experience. Drink more water & get as much sleep as you can. Tomorrow is another day. Ease into it, xoxoHi LaMa. I'm finding the meals quite repetitive already. I'm not big into pulses and lentils so it's a real struggle.
Thanks Petal, really needed the sleep.
Thanks Cate, day 3 has been a lot better, report below.
So I woke up this morning feeling moderately energised and my energy levels have improved massively as the day has gone on. It helped that the weather today was absolutely beautiful. Some of my energy has probably come from finally getting some sunshine.
The place is very quiet at the moment so the classes are quite empty, which actually suits me fine. I feel like I am getting into the swing of things big time. An older Irish lady who was here by herself and left earlier told me that she had found the week very long, and had escaped yesterday afternoon for some garlic prawns and bread!
One thing I've learned from this experience is that the vegan diet is not for me. But it's also given me a chance to reflect on finally loving food! after spending years hating it. I just have to be a lot more mindful of the amount I'm eating and keeping more balance in my diet. Not as much bread and chocolate, more proper, fulfilling meals. But those things can be enjoyed too. No more banning any food groups.
Right, it's 9.15pm, going to read my book for a short while to switch my mind off and go to sleep.
Thanks Petal, really needed the sleep.
Thanks Cate, day 3 has been a lot better, report below.
So I woke up this morning feeling moderately energised and my energy levels have improved massively as the day has gone on. It helped that the weather today was absolutely beautiful. Some of my energy has probably come from finally getting some sunshine.
The place is very quiet at the moment so the classes are quite empty, which actually suits me fine. I feel like I am getting into the swing of things big time. An older Irish lady who was here by herself and left earlier told me that she had found the week very long, and had escaped yesterday afternoon for some garlic prawns and bread!
One thing I've learned from this experience is that the vegan diet is not for me. But it's also given me a chance to reflect on finally loving food! after spending years hating it. I just have to be a lot more mindful of the amount I'm eating and keeping more balance in my diet. Not as much bread and chocolate, more proper, fulfilling meals. But those things can be enjoyed too. No more banning any food groups.
Right, it's 9.15pm, going to read my book for a short while to switch my mind off and go to sleep.
And that's ok. We're all different. I still think they should've made your meals more interesting and joyful. They're doing their guests AND plant-based food a disservice.
Sunflower_
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Hey gorgeous thing - have just been catching up on your latest adventures! This holiday sounds like hell! Ahahaha, I would be sneaking wine and crisps in. Have you seen Wanderlust with Paul Rudd and Jen Aniston? That's set at a bit of a Vegan commune type place and it transpires that the owner goes once a month for a massive burger at a diner. Any hotties there?
Thanks Petal.
I've probably painted it a bit unfairly LaMa, there is a variety of stuff, loads of colour, about 5 different dishes per meal, it's me that's the problem.
Hi Sunflower! Delighted to have you back with us. I have managed to stay away from wine but I cracked and had chocolate today. More below. (Re: hotties - only one man on the retreat. Not the place for it really.)
Okay, day 4. Woke up after a perfect 8 hour sleep before the alarm, felt great. Had breakfast, can't remember much about it. Oh yeah, I was talking to a woman in her 50s from London for a while, she was really nice.
I had a massage booked for 11, so just chilled for a while. The massage was great, but got a slight headache during it and afterwards felt completely drained again. Too much detoxing I think.
Had lunch again, hated every bite. Well, the soup was nice. But the rest is just doing nothing for me.
Went to yoga after that, couldn't concentrate at all, I just kept imagining myself eating different bars of chocolate! It was crazy. Just such strong sugar cravings. So after the yoga, I cracked. I bought Milka brownies, a Milka 100g biscuit bar, and white chocolate-covered Oreos. I had the whole bar, 3 (small) brownies and 4 biscuits. I did not feel sick.
I went to dinner, ate a full plate of stuff and had loads of energy. Then I went for a walk and threw out the rest of the chocolate because I don't want anymore of it. If it's in my room, I'll keep going till it's gone.
I also went prowling around trying to buy cigarettes as well but luckily the tobacco shop was closed. I've done 4 days. I really should just keep going. But the chocolate party made me want to smoke.
I do think there's lots to consider for when I go back home - how will I work out a diet plan that will allow for sugar but without the massive consumption of it? It's because of not being allowed it at all that I binged today, but I still eat quite a lot, even if it's not binge-style in my normal life. Anyway, maybe this place is giving me a chance to address all sorts of things, so I guess it's been worthwhile...
I've probably painted it a bit unfairly LaMa, there is a variety of stuff, loads of colour, about 5 different dishes per meal, it's me that's the problem.
Hi Sunflower! Delighted to have you back with us. I have managed to stay away from wine but I cracked and had chocolate today. More below. (Re: hotties - only one man on the retreat. Not the place for it really.)
Okay, day 4. Woke up after a perfect 8 hour sleep before the alarm, felt great. Had breakfast, can't remember much about it. Oh yeah, I was talking to a woman in her 50s from London for a while, she was really nice.
I had a massage booked for 11, so just chilled for a while. The massage was great, but got a slight headache during it and afterwards felt completely drained again. Too much detoxing I think.
Had lunch again, hated every bite. Well, the soup was nice. But the rest is just doing nothing for me.
Went to yoga after that, couldn't concentrate at all, I just kept imagining myself eating different bars of chocolate! It was crazy. Just such strong sugar cravings. So after the yoga, I cracked. I bought Milka brownies, a Milka 100g biscuit bar, and white chocolate-covered Oreos. I had the whole bar, 3 (small) brownies and 4 biscuits. I did not feel sick.
I went to dinner, ate a full plate of stuff and had loads of energy. Then I went for a walk and threw out the rest of the chocolate because I don't want anymore of it. If it's in my room, I'll keep going till it's gone.
I also went prowling around trying to buy cigarettes as well but luckily the tobacco shop was closed. I've done 4 days. I really should just keep going. But the chocolate party made me want to smoke.
I do think there's lots to consider for when I go back home - how will I work out a diet plan that will allow for sugar but without the massive consumption of it? It's because of not being allowed it at all that I binged today, but I still eat quite a lot, even if it's not binge-style in my normal life. Anyway, maybe this place is giving me a chance to address all sorts of things, so I guess it's been worthwhile...
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Day 5. My best day so far.
We went for a fairly challenging walk this morning up a steep hill, a very good start to the day. Then I did yoga on the terrace - it was windy but the teacher was lovely. Then I decided to walk to the nearest town which was absolutely beautiful. I walked about 10 miles today.
When I got back, we had dinner and then there was a life coaching session. I wasn't sure about the guy at first but he really knew his stuff and made me think about things in a way I hadn't before really. It was quite inspiring.
Sunflower, the man who set up this retreat told me earlier he eats meat twice a week. You are so spot on.
Anyway, my mantra for when I get back home is 'Balance in all things.' I'm not happy when I'm eating loads of shit food, I'm even more unhappy when I'm not eating it at all. So the journey now is to figure out how to combine the two and still lose weight. I feel more confident than I have in years about it.
We went for a fairly challenging walk this morning up a steep hill, a very good start to the day. Then I did yoga on the terrace - it was windy but the teacher was lovely. Then I decided to walk to the nearest town which was absolutely beautiful. I walked about 10 miles today.
When I got back, we had dinner and then there was a life coaching session. I wasn't sure about the guy at first but he really knew his stuff and made me think about things in a way I hadn't before really. It was quite inspiring.
Sunflower, the man who set up this retreat told me earlier he eats meat twice a week. You are so spot on.
Anyway, my mantra for when I get back home is 'Balance in all things.' I'm not happy when I'm eating loads of shit food, I'm even more unhappy when I'm not eating it at all. So the journey now is to figure out how to combine the two and still lose weight. I feel more confident than I have in years about it.
Petal001
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Em greatvto hear the updates . I need balance too also I listened to a dietitian yesterday on the radio and she said all food groups on this planet are to be eaten. I don’t think she meant processed though . I bought some tummicks teacakes yesterday had one with my decaf tea last night . Really enjoyed it and only 106 cals . And can I only had one .
I love the sound of your holiday .
I love the sound of your holiday .
Thanks LaMa.
Those tea cakes are amazing Petal.
Right, very quick update as I have to pack my bag. Feel great after the week. Well, except for my stomach, which is so bloated because of all the beans and pulses, which I realised I cannot eat that much of. I don't have the right 'gut enzymes', according to my research. But... drum roll please...
I lost 3kg since Sunday, which is fantastic. I caught up on all the missed sleep as I was probably asleep by 10.30 pm every night. I also got some sun (yesterday was glorious) and really started enjoying exercising again. I already have a group walk organised in a nearby woods for Sunday at home. It will be a lot colder I'm sure, but I'll adjust.
I've also had a lot of crazy dreams this week about people from my past and present, which has been very cathartic. I really think being here and having time has helped me get clarity on where I want to go next, but also make peace with where life has taken me so far.
All in all, a fantastic experience.
Those tea cakes are amazing Petal.
Right, very quick update as I have to pack my bag. Feel great after the week. Well, except for my stomach, which is so bloated because of all the beans and pulses, which I realised I cannot eat that much of. I don't have the right 'gut enzymes', according to my research. But... drum roll please...
I lost 3kg since Sunday, which is fantastic. I caught up on all the missed sleep as I was probably asleep by 10.30 pm every night. I also got some sun (yesterday was glorious) and really started enjoying exercising again. I already have a group walk organised in a nearby woods for Sunday at home. It will be a lot colder I'm sure, but I'll adjust.
I've also had a lot of crazy dreams this week about people from my past and present, which has been very cathartic. I really think being here and having time has helped me get clarity on where I want to go next, but also make peace with where life has taken me so far.
All in all, a fantastic experience.
Well done this week! Nobody eating a normal diet can switch to loads of beans and pulses right away. Which is another reason you shouldn´t put newbies on a wholefood vegan diet right away. Gotta start low-FODMAP. But that´s just me and my frustration about better-than-thou vegans. Glad your week ended on such a positive note!
Thanks guys.
Made it home safe Petal, from sunshine to snow. Bit of a shock to the system.
The dark days are really getting to me, I can't wait for winter to be over. I've been absolutely shattered every night this week, asleep by 9pm, with no desire to get up when the alarm goes off the next morning. It's annoying but I just have to go with it.
Dentist tomorrow, really hope my gum health has improved. It would be one less thing to worry about.
Bit blue, I was in such good form during the holiday. My eating has gone completely haywire since I got back, so much sugar. And I had a burger and chips for lunch today. Frustrating that I have not got back into my healthy regime, which was the plan, and that I am feeling so tired. But anyway, I just have to keep marching on.
Made it home safe Petal, from sunshine to snow. Bit of a shock to the system.
The dark days are really getting to me, I can't wait for winter to be over. I've been absolutely shattered every night this week, asleep by 9pm, with no desire to get up when the alarm goes off the next morning. It's annoying but I just have to go with it.
Dentist tomorrow, really hope my gum health has improved. It would be one less thing to worry about.
Bit blue, I was in such good form during the holiday. My eating has gone completely haywire since I got back, so much sugar. And I had a burger and chips for lunch today. Frustrating that I have not got back into my healthy regime, which was the plan, and that I am feeling so tired. But anyway, I just have to keep marching on.