Emily Rose: The Reboot

Emilyrose said:
No thoughts to share tonight really, which is a good sign! I'm feeling in very good health overall, my energy levels are great today.
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That's good Em xoxo
 
Very true LaMa.

Thanks Cate.

Weight:
11 stone 13 3/4 pounds. 1/2 a pound gone. 14 to go.

Food Diary:
  • ginkgo biloba tincture with water
  • boiled egg, 1 slice toast and butter; coffee and milk
  • orange
  • coffee and milk
  • cadbury's turkish delight bar
  • chicken and potatoes with salad
  • 5 almonds; coffee and milk
  • cadbury's golden crisp bar
  • biscuit
  • veggie stir fry with butter beans and rice
  • ginkgo biloba tea
I had a terrible morning, so I bought two bars of chocolate at lunchtime. Dinner was delayed because I had to give my dad a lift home, so I had the biscuit then. I'm happy with the rest of it though.

Exercise:
  • Yoga
I had the worst morning in work, complete disaster, but I think I handled it okay (besides the chocolate). I'm finding that my week has been quite busy so far, another jam-packed day ahead tomorrow. Getting very good sleep though, so my energy levels are staying high. Only two days till my break! It can't come fast enough at this point. Whoot whoot!
 
Only one day now! :hurray:

Weight
11 stone 13 1/4 pounds. 1 pound gone. 13 1/2 to go.

Food Diary
  • teaspoon of liquid iron
  • porridge, chia seeds, cinnamon, dried fruit, maca powder and milk; coffee and milk
  • 5 almonds
  • coffee and milk
  • chicken and rice with salad and soy sauce
  • banana; tea and milk
  • coffee and milk
  • 'healthy' tiffin bar; catch bar
  • lamb chop, mangetout and baby potatoes
  • 2 chocolate mallow teacakes
I'm finding if I have something on straight after work and I can't have my dinner right away, I use it as an excuse to eat chocolate. I had the teacakes because I bought them after my gym workout. It's very hard to organise myself so that I'm not eating dinner later if I want to fit the exercise in. Hmm. Anyway, I don't have to worry about that next week because I am off!!! I am going to push up the exercise a notch and just keep going with the healthy meals. Can't wait. And the best part is that I am not going into this break really tired - I actually feel really good this week. Why? No alcohol, no late nights, proper meals, daily exercise. Yes, still a lot of junk, but definitely not as much junk as I manage to eat when I'm not 'trying'.

Exercise
  • Core fusion
    There were only 3 in the class, so I had to push myself that little bit more. They were both Spanish and quite cute actually - an added bonus!
Thought of the Day
On my walk home from the gym, I started thinking about the concept of, 'When I get to my goal weight, I'll be happy'. And what I realised is that it's not getting to the goal weight that makes you happy, it's the journey to get there. Because of course you're going to feel happy if you're getting the right amount of sleep every night, eating healthy and nutritious home-cooked meals, cutting down on boozing and late nights, exercising regularly, and all the other good things that get you to your ideal body weight. Dieting is painted as such a painful process, when really it should be the opposite. It should be celebrated. Just some food for thought.
 
I like your thought of the day. Looking after yourself should be enjoyable Em.
Yay to only one day before a week off :D
 
Thanks guys.

Yesterday -

Weight
11 stone 11 1/2 pounds. 2 3/4 pounds gone. 11 3/4 to go.

Food Diary
  • magnesium tablet
  • boiled egg, slice of toast and butter; greek yoghurt with sunflower and pumpkin seeds; coffee and milk
  • 2 chocolate mallows
  • 5 almonds
  • coffee and milk; cheese and onion crisps
  • trout and potato with salad
  • coffee and milk
  • veggie stir fry with noodles and butter beans
  • 1/2 an avocado and 2 oatcakes
  • bottle of red wine 14.5%
  • 2 500ml bottles Lomza beer 5.7%
So you can see that I gave in and had a lot of alcohol last night. I just really wanted to get a bit pissed. The rest of the day was okay.

Exercise
  • Accumulator
    Got up at 6 to go to this class. I was very proud.
Today -

Weight
11 stone 10 3/4 pounds. 3 1/2 pounds gone. 11 pounds to go.
Very happy with that.

Food Diary
  • skin, hair and nails tablet
  • boiled egg, slice of toast and butter
  • slice of toast and butter; 2 chocolate mallows; coffee and milk
  • can of lucozade
  • green tea
  • 2 kiwis
  • homemade broccoli soup with 1 slice toast and butter
  • carrot cake
  • yoghurt with pumpkin and sunflower seeds
  • grilled trout, baby potatoes and asparagus
  • 500ml Ben and Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream
Yep, the alcohol has made me ravenous for sugar all day. I actually don't feel too bad, but my energy levels are a lot lower than normal, hence the ice cream feast I just had. I'm not going to give myself a hard time about it, it is what it is. On other days like this, I would have probably eaten crap all day and then ordered a pizza this evening, so to continue to get the good food in is a victory in itself. I'm sure tomorrow will be better overall.

Exercise
  • Core fusion
    I must have processed the alcohol quite fast because it wasn't too bad at all. I am extremely sore after it though, lots of kettlebells and weights were involved. I'm doing a road race tomorrow so hopefully that will stretch me out a bit.
I'm having an extremely lazy day today, it's nice. Tomorrow I am doing the run and going for lunch with a friend, then going home to my parents for the night. Day 1 of 9 days off, I am just savouring it.
 
Emilyrose said:
I'm not going to give myself a hard time about it, it is what it is. On other days like this, I would have probably eaten crap all day and then ordered a pizza this evening, so to continue to get the good food in is a victory in itself.
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Sure is. Well done taking care of yourself.
 
Thanks guys.

Made some horrible life decisions Sunday night, they've thrown me into a bit of a spin. I am not doing too badly on the exercise and food front all the same, being off from work makes it a bit easier.

I'm still trying to figure out what I want from life. I visited a friend today who had a baby four weeks ago, he is the cutest!! She actually made having a baby seem like a good life decision, haha. Ah no, it was really great to catch up with her. I guess I'm just wondering if I will ever get to that place myself. And I think ultimately I want to, but I would not be content to settle down now, but at the same time I don't like being by myself anymore, it's just so confusing. I mean, I actually think I like myself a lot more and I'm getting closer and closer to the woman I want to be, but it's still taking a lot of time, and I'm worried it's going to run out. Maybe I've left it too late already, I don't know. I mean, surely there's a guy out there for me somewhere? There has to be. And I keep falling into this stupid cycle of liking unavailable men who just want a flirtation to brighten up their day, but have no intention of pursuing it. Or maybe I'm imagining all that, who knows?

Hmm, confusing times. Anyway, did a good box fitness workout yesterday, but I seem to have injured my foot, so I cancelled my total body workout class for this evening, as it's sore to even walk on. Very frustrating, I hate injuries. I have spinning tomorrow night, I should be able to manage that hopefully. I'm meeting old work colleagues for lunch tomorrow, that should be nice also. It's been a very relaxing week so far, I love being off. I realised that the job is very high stress, this week has been a salvation of sorts. I also have to prep a major presentation for Monday which is stressing me out a little bit, but it's my holidays and I don't want to have to think about that. It doesn't sound like I'm very relaxed but I actually do feel good! Just figuring things out I guess.
 
Hope your foot heals quickly. What happened? Sorry about the life stuff - I'm definitely the wrong person to give advice on that.
 
Hi Emily. Your post about babies actually being cute and making life decisions made me smile :) I gave up my career and became a a house hubby/dad in my forties. My wife works long hours so I was all by myself with two babies, knee deep in nappies with no support! "Hey, where's the training manual for this?" I thought! Lol! Anyway, it worked out well for me, it was just a little demanding at the time.....

Hope you are OK.
 
Hi LaMa, I don't really want to get into it. Nothing major in the long run, but I was just a bit disappointed in myself.

Hi John, thanks so much for dropping by. I'm glad it worked out for you. I'll be fine.

Went for a nice lunch today with former work colleagues, but sadly eating out means making bad food choices for me a lot of the time. Ah well, it was worth it. I have half an hour to kill now and then I have spinning at quarter to 7. I will probably try to book earlier classes in future, it's just on a bit too late for me. My foot is still very sore, but spinning should be okay as I won't be putting pressure on it. I'm sure it's only a minor injury but I had plans to go for big walks around town and it's limiting what I can do.

I don't really feel in good or bad form at the moment, just a bit blah. Maybe having the space to think about things isn't always a good thing! I guess I'm just trying to figure out my next move. I feel very hemmed in financially but I don't know if I want to stay living in my city anymore. A guy I used to work with was talking today about another former colleague, and his comment was, 'He is free and single, he could go anywhere.' I just don't feel like that at the moment.

Maybe I should start looking for jobs abroad again, I don't know. I just don't know if this life is enough for me at the moment, and I don't want another year to go by and still feel lost like this. I just can't see the bigger picture right now. Isn't there a saying that things have to get worse before they get better? I don't know. Maybe I'm just expecting too much. But I don't want to settle for anything less than amazing. Hmm.
 
Hon, I'm not up to providing much support at the moment, but I can send you a big hug :grouphug: xoxoxo
 
Emilyrose said:
Went for a nice lunch today with former work colleagues, but sadly eating out means making bad food choices for me a lot of the time. Ah well, it was worth it.
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That´s the spirit. Save calories when it´s easy(ish) so you can enjoy the special occasions.
Silly question perhaps, but have you been getting enough daylight lately? Life questions definitely need thinking about but it´s also exactly the time folks around here are getting vulnerable to SAD (seasonal affective disorder, not Donald Trump tweeting).
 
No need to support Cate, thanks for dropping by.

Hi LaMa, I don't think I'm suffering from SAD, although I am interested in how that acronym can be related to Trump (sad-ass Donald?). I've got lots of light this week, it's been very wintry here in the best way - cold but dry and sunny.

Anyway, I had a good night's rest last night, that combined with exercise seems to sort my head out better than anything. I had porridge for breakfast and an omelette for lunch, very tasty. I'm going to yoga tonight, then might head home for a detox bath and time in front of the stove and tv with my parents.

I also figured out what I'm going to say at this presentation on Monday, which is great. It was niggling away at the back of my head for the week. At least I have some ideas for it now.

Right, going to get back to my Once Upon a Time binge watch (so hooked ;)) then wrap up warm and mosey around the shops for a bit.
 
The Donald likes to end his tweets about anything he doesn´t approve of with "sad". Glad you´re feeling better!
 
Oh of course! He's brought a lot of new catchphrases into vogue, if nothing else.

I don't really have much that's fun to talk about today. Had a very bad eating and drinking weekend, I'm paying for it today. I am going to boxercise soon, the perfect class to vent my frustrations. Saw not one but two guys I really like at the weekend with their girlfriends, feeling very sorry for myself. I know that I have a lot of work still to do on myself, but I just really want a boyfriend NOW. I don't want to wait much longer!! I really feel I'm Ms Lonely Heart at the moment, it's fucking annoying.
 
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