Emily Rose: The Reboot

Thanks Cate and LaMa.

Race Challenge Update:
Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th
Challenge #4: 3.1 miles/0:28:18/09:06.4/244 of 345/71st
Challenge #5: 5 miles/0:46:39/09:19.6/477 of 558/85th
Challenge #6: 3.1 miles/0:26:38/08:34.3/289 of 374/77th
Challenge #7: 4 miles/0:36:07/09:01.6/191 of 284/67th
Challenge #8: 4 miles/0:36:33/09:08.3/195 of 233/84th
Challenge #9: 3.1 miles/0:27.06/08:43.4/283 of 446/63rd
Challenge #10: 5 miles/0:45:22/09.04.2/449 of 531/85th
Challenge #11: 3.1 miles/0:26:40/08.34.9/322 of 429/75th
Challenge #12: 5 miles/0:45:13/09.02.6/249 of 294/85th
Challenge #13: 3.1 miles/0:27:17/08:46.8/451 of 535/84th

I did my best 5 mile time ever last week, so I was thrilled with that.

I had an interview for my dream job today, that was the exciting news I was referring to earlier in the week. Sadly, I think it was probably one of the worst interviews I ever did, it was so bad, and I don't think I gave any of the answers they were looking for. It's very disappointing as it would have meant a massive change for me, a move to a different country and everything. But I guess I'll just have to accept it if I don't get to the next round. Still, I am not in the best mood. :( Things have a way of turning around again though, I will go to bed early tonight and try to make the most of the weekend.

I have also put on weight, maybe 6 pounds or so, all stress-related, so I'm going to have to make some changes once again.
 
Fingers & toes crossed for you hon that you get a second interview. I like your attitude with trying to turn it into a positive. Enjoy your weekend xoxo
 
Being TOO excited for things can up the pressure that way. Still, I'm sure you did better than you think and hope you'll get that second interview.
 
Thanks guys. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I spent a few hours in town today - bought some new shampoo, read my book in a few different coffee shops, went to the market and bought lovely salmon fillets. I had Friday off and I really needed it. It's great to have a long weekend.

I'm probably going to chill out for the rest of the day, bought some green tea so having that now. Nothing very exciting!

Tomorrow will be an active day to set me up for the week once more.
 
Yeah, I actually had a good rest for the first weekend in a long time and I'm really feeling the benefits.

I've started to really examine my moods - why am I craving sugar? Why do I feel I need 3 cigarettes during the working day? I guess there's a deep rooted unhappiness there, or deep rooted bad habits, or something. I've eaten 3 healthy meals and 2 snacks every day since Sunday, but I've had chocolate and other stuff on top of that. At least I'm getting all my vitamins. I've also done some exercise - run and swim on Sunday, swim yesterday and I am going for a run in a while, once the 5 chocolate biscuits I ate have gone down. I'm trying to make the daily exercise and the proper meals/snacks non-negotiable, and tackle the extras one by one. I guess I'm just working on the mindset that things are ruined if you make a poor eating choice and you may as well go bananas. I have been moderately successful at this, I just have to stick with it.

My life is fairly challenging at the moment - lots of little niggles adding up - but I'm working on ignoring the external and getting the most important thing - me! - running like a well-oiled machine. Then the external pressures won't cause much damage. Sometimes I think maybe life was easier and I was happier a year ago, but at the same time, I feel like I have a lot more self-belief these days, despite everything.
 
You have taken on a lot more challenges in the last year Em & have really grown. We never stop learning, but we also must be kind to ourselves & give credit where it's due. You have done well, hon & I'm sure you will continue to do so, xoxo
 
Thank you Cate and Sunflower.

I caved in last night and bought the dreaded bottle of wine. I was tired today but not too bad I guess, considering. Still, I hate that I did that. It's so pointless.

I had a manic day at work where everything went wrong and I'm feeling a bit under pressure with a new task I have to do, but it's Thursday tomorrow, which is the main thing. No word on the interview yet. I don't know what to think.

I'm contemplating yoga tonight - I haven't gone in ages and I need to do something with my evening after the disaster of last night. I had a chat with a friend today who has been distant, she told me a few things that she's going through. It's a tough world at times. It's hard to keep a positive outlook but I haven't thrown in the towel just yet.
 
It's really important to try to put a positive outlook on life, even though at times that can be very difficult. We can't change the world, but we can be there for our friends & family when they need us. :grouphug: Em.
 
That's very true Cate.

I had a truly excellent evening and I feel great. I know I am going to have the best sleep. Night all. Zzz...

Oh yeah - I went to yoga last night and I think the hot yoga instructor was flirting with me. Yay for yoga! It gave me a little spring in my step. ;) The lesson here is always go to yoga. :)
 
Emilyrose said:
I had a truly excellent evening and I feel great. I know I am going to have the best sleep. Night all. Zzz...

Oh yeah - I went to yoga last night and I think the hot yoga instructor was flirting with me. Yay for yoga! It gave me a little spring in my step. ;) The lesson here is always go to yoga. :)
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~Nice~ xo
 
Haha, he is nice.

So glad it's the weekend. I am tired. I'm meeting one of the girls for some pizza and a couple of beers later but will hopefully not get home too late. Really need to recharge the batteries. Feeling good though and my food and exercise for the week wasn't bad at all.
 
Went for my pizza and beer, overdid it and spent a lot of yesterday sleeping. I actually haven't done loads of sleeping in a while, which is something I need every so often. For example, yesterday I woke up with manic dreams about work, this morning my mind was relatively clear.

I'm going for a swim later and have made out a relatively easy exercise schedule for the week. I'm trying to plan in things to look forward to, as I'm feeling a bit unhappy. I guess messing up that interview has upset me more than I thought. Anyway, things to look forward to this week:
- Yoga with the nice yoga man on Tuesday
- Road race on Wednesday
- Swim today and Thursday
- Meeting friends I haven't seen for a while on Saturday

I also tried on a dress today and bought years ago that has never fit. It nearly fits and is actually lovely on me (just too snug at the moment). I'm planning a fancy girls night in a few weekends time, where makeup, heels and cocktails are involved, and I really want to wear this dress. So I hope it keeps me focused on eating right so I can wow them all.

I haven't really lost weight lately but I'm definitely toning up and a bit more discipline with my diet should push me closer than ever to that fit and healthy body that's so important to me.

I wish I was feeling more upbeat but I'm just not.
 
You'll feel better after a swim.
Be extra good for a few weeks hon & wow everyone in that dress. You can do it! :grouphug:
 
I felt miles better after the swim Cate.

I didn't get the job. I'm upset. I have to think of a new life plan once again. :(
 
Sorry love.. that's shitty. Any feedback? Count your blessings, you have a job, you have a home, you have lovely friends and a family who love you. As my favourite poet would say "drink from the well of yourself and begin again." Big hugs.
 
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