Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Ha, I will Cate.
No good vibrations to share today sadly. Work was an absolute nightmare - I'm normally really good at dealing with people but I keep getting snapped at. Doing my best to stay calm but internally, I am in storm mode. Maybe I should stop giving a shit, but I hate when things are completely disorganised and when others don't seem to care about the time pressure we are under.
Anyway, I'm going to talk to the woman who snapped tomorrow - I just need her to know that I am on her side but that I also need things to be planned out properly each week. Really sick of the bullshit. I hate the company culture. I thought my manager was ok, but I'm seeing so many things she is doing that are making life really difficult for me. Like, I can't ask someone a question on something tomorrow because they are meant to be working on something else. What kind of crazy shit is that?!! In my book and from my experience, you help if you are the one with the knowledge to help. Very frustrating!!!
Going to pilates now. Try to get rid of the rage.
No good vibrations to share today sadly. Work was an absolute nightmare - I'm normally really good at dealing with people but I keep getting snapped at. Doing my best to stay calm but internally, I am in storm mode. Maybe I should stop giving a shit, but I hate when things are completely disorganised and when others don't seem to care about the time pressure we are under.
Anyway, I'm going to talk to the woman who snapped tomorrow - I just need her to know that I am on her side but that I also need things to be planned out properly each week. Really sick of the bullshit. I hate the company culture. I thought my manager was ok, but I'm seeing so many things she is doing that are making life really difficult for me. Like, I can't ask someone a question on something tomorrow because they are meant to be working on something else. What kind of crazy shit is that?!! In my book and from my experience, you help if you are the one with the knowledge to help. Very frustrating!!!
Going to pilates now. Try to get rid of the rage.
Race Challenge Update:
Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th
Challenge #4: 3.1 miles/0:28:18/09:06.4/244 of 345/71st
Challenge #5: 5 miles/0:46:39/09:19.6/477 of 558/85th
Challenge #6: 3.1 miles/0:26:38/08:34.3/289 of 374/77th
Thrilled.
Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th
Challenge #4: 3.1 miles/0:28:18/09:06.4/244 of 345/71st
Challenge #5: 5 miles/0:46:39/09:19.6/477 of 558/85th
Challenge #6: 3.1 miles/0:26:38/08:34.3/289 of 374/77th
Thrilled.
Hello lovely people.
Work has sorted itself out again. My boss today talked to me and she seemed really interested in my background and expanding my role, which is cool. She said I'm doing a good job. That was encouraging. I had a nightmare afternoon battling with MailMerge, the biggest piece of shit ever invented. Seriously, I just couldn't get it working. It wasted loads of time and I'm under serious pressure for the next few days. But that seems to be the way every week. I hope it's that thing where you get some time away from it and when you come at it with fresh eyes, it all just clicks into place. Fingers crossed.
So exhausted after the run last night, I really gave it my all, and I am physically very tired today. I'm in bed already (!), going to settle down with a film for the evening and I plan to be asleep by ten. I watched Seven Years in Tibet a few weeks ago, what a great little gem of a film. I'm hoping to uncover another treasure like that on Netflix this evening.
Weight wise I am probably stable enough, food hasn't been great the last few days, but at least I am getting the exercise in. I would like to go for a run tomorrow evening and have done 3 good runs this week. That's the plan anyway, as long as I leave the office at a decent time. I should be able to I think.
All in all, it's all looking rosy.
Work has sorted itself out again. My boss today talked to me and she seemed really interested in my background and expanding my role, which is cool. She said I'm doing a good job. That was encouraging. I had a nightmare afternoon battling with MailMerge, the biggest piece of shit ever invented. Seriously, I just couldn't get it working. It wasted loads of time and I'm under serious pressure for the next few days. But that seems to be the way every week. I hope it's that thing where you get some time away from it and when you come at it with fresh eyes, it all just clicks into place. Fingers crossed.
So exhausted after the run last night, I really gave it my all, and I am physically very tired today. I'm in bed already (!), going to settle down with a film for the evening and I plan to be asleep by ten. I watched Seven Years in Tibet a few weeks ago, what a great little gem of a film. I'm hoping to uncover another treasure like that on Netflix this evening.
Weight wise I am probably stable enough, food hasn't been great the last few days, but at least I am getting the exercise in. I would like to go for a run tomorrow evening and have done 3 good runs this week. That's the plan anyway, as long as I leave the office at a decent time. I should be able to I think.
All in all, it's all looking rosy.
Thanks Cate. Sorry if I was a bit mean on your diary, please don't feel like you can't discuss the golf club there. If that's what is on your mind, then that's what you need to talk about. I know it will all settle down soon, it always does.
I conquered MailMerge today, finally figured out how to get it to match with the fields in the excel, it was excruciating but I feel like I achieved something. Have a work night out tonight, I actually like the women in the office a lot so I hope it's fun. These things are always a little bit nerve-wracking, but I'm looking forward to dressing up and putting on makeup, which I haven't worn in weeks. Have an hour of chill out time before I need to get ready.
Going to try to get a great food and exercise routine in place from Sunday on. I say it every week, I know. But there is never the perfect time, so I need to do it now. Now now now.
Day flew and was allowed leave early to have lots of time to get ready, which was really nice.
I conquered MailMerge today, finally figured out how to get it to match with the fields in the excel, it was excruciating but I feel like I achieved something. Have a work night out tonight, I actually like the women in the office a lot so I hope it's fun. These things are always a little bit nerve-wracking, but I'm looking forward to dressing up and putting on makeup, which I haven't worn in weeks. Have an hour of chill out time before I need to get ready.
Going to try to get a great food and exercise routine in place from Sunday on. I say it every week, I know. But there is never the perfect time, so I need to do it now. Now now now.
Day flew and was allowed leave early to have lots of time to get ready, which was really nice.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Hey chick - glad work has sorted itself out. Those things have a way of resolving themselves naturally. You can only effect how you respond to things, not what everyone else is doing. My silent motto this week has been "BE KIND, BE KIND, BE KIND" as I have felt like drop-kicking everyone in the face since I got back. How was your weekend? Get up to much?
Hi Sunflower. Yeah, you're right. I do have a job interview on Thursday though, the role sounded really interesting and would probably pay a lot more, so I decided to go for it. I'm kind of wondering why I'm putting this kind of pressure on myself again, but I don't know, I just got the feeling I should apply for it. It's in communications, which is what I wanted to study in college. Hmm, in a bit of a flap about it all.
Had a very busy, drink-fuelled weekend that has made today very long and difficult. Definitely need to take a break from the debauchery. It's getting me down.
Had a very busy, drink-fuelled weekend that has made today very long and difficult. Definitely need to take a break from the debauchery. It's getting me down.
People at work were really nice to me today. Feeling guilty about the interview but anyway, there's no guarantee I'll get the job, so I'm definitely going to do it now. I have loads of prep to do tomorrow night.
My friend is visiting again, no beers tonight though. My voice is gone hoarse. Heading home for the evening and my dad will make dinner and then I'll just relax for a while. My head is gone a bit mad again. I feel like I need a holiday and I've been off for half the year!
Food wasn't as bad today, had a banana and some yoghurt for breakfast, quinoa and tuna salad with a slice of toast for lunch and whatever dad has made for dinner. The only extra thing I had was a bar of chocolate, not too bad.
Planning a run tomorrow evening and then study time. I feel all the experience I've had over the past 6 months should stand to me, it feels like it's been one long interview in a way, so I'm not too nervous. I always want to do well though.
My friend is visiting again, no beers tonight though. My voice is gone hoarse. Heading home for the evening and my dad will make dinner and then I'll just relax for a while. My head is gone a bit mad again. I feel like I need a holiday and I've been off for half the year!
Food wasn't as bad today, had a banana and some yoghurt for breakfast, quinoa and tuna salad with a slice of toast for lunch and whatever dad has made for dinner. The only extra thing I had was a bar of chocolate, not too bad.
Planning a run tomorrow evening and then study time. I feel all the experience I've had over the past 6 months should stand to me, it feels like it's been one long interview in a way, so I'm not too nervous. I always want to do well though.
Crazy day at work. Going for a run now and getting an early night. Can't wait for the weekend. Apparently, a hot man is visiting our office tomorrow so that's something to look forward to. Woefully unprepared for the interview but I'm going to do an hour of prep before bed and then hope for the best.
Thanks for the hug Cate. Right back at ya.
Completely drained of all energy but at the same time, I am feeling good in myself. I feel like I am becoming the person I was always supposed to be. The thing is that this means that the people you used to be close to aren't necessarily the people you are meant to be close to now. I find it hard to let go. Sometimes the transient nature of friendship can be upsetting.
I have a race challenge update but will do that tomorrow. I am so excited about sleeping in tomorrow. I was meant to be getting up early but I've cancelled. It's been a really tough week.
I had a lovely evening with my dad, we dined al fresco on a feast of lasagne, garlic bread, oven chips and salad. It was really lovely. My mum is away so I think he was really happy I called out. I think I can objectively say that he's such a lovely person. He said he doesn't mind her being away during the day but he misses her at night and he leaves the light on in the bathroom cos he's kind of scared in the house on his own. Aw, the poor thing.
Anyway, going to go to bed soon, so happy to be fit and healthy. I think I'm beginning to appreciate how good I've got it more and more. This is not me trying to brag, this is me trying to keep jolting myself out of my tendency towards the dark thoughts. Night.
Completely drained of all energy but at the same time, I am feeling good in myself. I feel like I am becoming the person I was always supposed to be. The thing is that this means that the people you used to be close to aren't necessarily the people you are meant to be close to now. I find it hard to let go. Sometimes the transient nature of friendship can be upsetting.
I have a race challenge update but will do that tomorrow. I am so excited about sleeping in tomorrow. I was meant to be getting up early but I've cancelled. It's been a really tough week.
I had a lovely evening with my dad, we dined al fresco on a feast of lasagne, garlic bread, oven chips and salad. It was really lovely. My mum is away so I think he was really happy I called out. I think I can objectively say that he's such a lovely person. He said he doesn't mind her being away during the day but he misses her at night and he leaves the light on in the bathroom cos he's kind of scared in the house on his own. Aw, the poor thing.
Anyway, going to go to bed soon, so happy to be fit and healthy. I think I'm beginning to appreciate how good I've got it more and more. This is not me trying to brag, this is me trying to keep jolting myself out of my tendency towards the dark thoughts. Night.
Cate
Long term member
It's a constant struggle for me too & we have to keep trying to jolt ourselves out of it. That's sweet about your dad. He sounds lovely xo
We do indeed Cate.
Race Challenge Update:
Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th
Challenge #4: 3.1 miles/0:28:18/09:06.4/244 of 345/71st
Challenge #5: 5 miles/0:46:39/09:19.6/477 of 558/85th
Challenge #6: 3.1 miles/0:26:38/08:34.3/289 of 374/77th
Challenge #7: 4 miles/0:36:07/09:01.6/191 of 284/67th
Really happy with that.
1. How did today go?
Today was grand.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Going to try to start tracking properly again.
Weight: 11 stone 8 3/4 pounds. Pissed off with that.
Body fat: 27.7%
Food:
- capri sun orange
- mushroom, chilli pepper, onion and brie omelette with 1 slice toast and butter
- coffee and cream
- 1 glass of white wine; 3 pints of beer
- spicy chicken fajita wrap with small side salad
- 1 slice of toast with brie, cherry tomatoes, spinach and butter
- 4 salt and vinegar crisps; 9 jellies
- tea and milk
Exercise:
20 minute run
Cigarettes: 12
Yeah, not the best of days.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
It doesn't feel like it. Happy with the run, happy with not buying chocolate. That's about it.
Race Challenge Update:
Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th
Challenge #4: 3.1 miles/0:28:18/09:06.4/244 of 345/71st
Challenge #5: 5 miles/0:46:39/09:19.6/477 of 558/85th
Challenge #6: 3.1 miles/0:26:38/08:34.3/289 of 374/77th
Challenge #7: 4 miles/0:36:07/09:01.6/191 of 284/67th
Really happy with that.
1. How did today go?
Today was grand.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Going to try to start tracking properly again.
Weight: 11 stone 8 3/4 pounds. Pissed off with that.
Body fat: 27.7%
Food:
- capri sun orange
- mushroom, chilli pepper, onion and brie omelette with 1 slice toast and butter
- coffee and cream
- 1 glass of white wine; 3 pints of beer
- spicy chicken fajita wrap with small side salad
- 1 slice of toast with brie, cherry tomatoes, spinach and butter
- 4 salt and vinegar crisps; 9 jellies
- tea and milk
Exercise:
20 minute run
Cigarettes: 12
Yeah, not the best of days.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
It doesn't feel like it. Happy with the run, happy with not buying chocolate. That's about it.
Cate
Long term member
, but not the worst either Em, xoxo
Sunflower_
Well-known member
mmmmmmm, I have missed you posting your food.
Oh, definitely not the worst Cate. 
Ha, I plan on keeping it up Sunflower - keep track of the good, the bad and the ugly.
1. How did today go?
Today was remarkably terrible but I had a nice evening chilling out with my housemate and watching Crazy, Stupid, Love.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I weighed in at 11 stone 9 1/4 pounds. Panicking slightly about this.
I went for a run after work because I had the most stressful day that I just didn't feel able for, it brought back my equilibrium. I did about 25 minutes.
Food was a lot of bread. Feeling a bit constipated now.
- small glass of milk; porridge with raspberries and milk
- 2 cups of coffee and milk
- 3 cups of tea and milk
- 4 starbursts
- banana
- salad of avocado, capers, cucumber, brie, mushrooms, peppers and tuna
- slice of brown bread and butter
- slice of brown bread and nutella
- white lion bar
- 2 slices toast with cherry tomatoes, 1 scrambled egg, butter and brie
- mint cornetto
Definitely ate my feelings a little bit today, must try harder tomorrow.
Cigarettes: 11 (-1, still far too many though)
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
No.
Ha, I plan on keeping it up Sunflower - keep track of the good, the bad and the ugly.
1. How did today go?
Today was remarkably terrible but I had a nice evening chilling out with my housemate and watching Crazy, Stupid, Love.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I weighed in at 11 stone 9 1/4 pounds. Panicking slightly about this.
I went for a run after work because I had the most stressful day that I just didn't feel able for, it brought back my equilibrium. I did about 25 minutes.
Food was a lot of bread. Feeling a bit constipated now.
- small glass of milk; porridge with raspberries and milk
- 2 cups of coffee and milk
- 3 cups of tea and milk
- 4 starbursts
- banana
- salad of avocado, capers, cucumber, brie, mushrooms, peppers and tuna
- slice of brown bread and butter
- slice of brown bread and nutella
- white lion bar
- 2 slices toast with cherry tomatoes, 1 scrambled egg, butter and brie
- mint cornetto
Definitely ate my feelings a little bit today, must try harder tomorrow.
Cigarettes: 11 (-1, still far too many though)
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
No.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Sorry it was a rough day flower want to talk about it? Hope today is brighter xx
want to talk about it? Hope today is brighter xx