Emily Rose: The Reboot

So glad to hear your day was better Emily!
It's amazing the difference there is between being in the groove and out, isn't it??
 
Such a massive difference M2M.

Hi everyone.

It's 17:55, going to kick back and have some downtime before heading to yoga tonight at 8pm. Will probably get to bed early tonight, I'm a little bit tuckered out from last night's run.

The results are below. The new column represents what my position would have been if there were 100 people in the race, which also gives an indication of how well I'm doing. Green for improvements. :)

Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd

It looks like a slight improvement already, but it will be more interesting to see if my time is faster at the next 5 mile event. Different courses as well make it difficult to measure exactly, but by the last few weeks, I should be doing better times all round regardless. Very interesting to see how many people take part in these events. Great for the running community.

Started reading This Way for the Gas, Ladies and Gentlemen by Tadeusz Borowski last night. It is grim, grim reading, very fascinating, and definitely one that would make you reevaluate your life and appreciate how easy you have it. Any time I feel a bit sorry for myself now, I'm going to consider the fact that I do not live in a concentration camp and am not likely to get incinerated at any point. It's almost like something you have to be reminded of every so often - this really happened. The world went completely batshit crazy for a while! Not that it isn't now, I guess it's just not as close to home.

Didn't do great on food today, must try harder tomorrow. Last day of the official challenge today. How the time flies by.
 
Ohhh if you like those short stories then you should check out "Night" by Elie Wiesel and anything done by Primo Levi. I did a few modules on the holocaust (I'm a weird woman) and just found it absolutely fascinating.

Have fun at yoga, lovely xo
 
Started reading This Way for the Gas, Ladies and Gentlemen by Tadeusz Borowski last night. It is grim, grim reading, very fascinating, and definitely one that would make you reevaluate your life and appreciate how easy you have it. Any time I feel a bit sorry for myself now, I'm going to consider the fact that I do not live in a concentration camp and am not likely to get incinerated at any point. It's almost like something you have to be reminded of every so often - this really happened. The world went completely batshit crazy for a while! Not that it isn't now, I guess it's just not as close to home.
This brings me great joy Emily! We have so much to be grateful for xoxo
 
Thanks for the recommendations Sunflower.

We sure do Cate.

Cooking up a mixed bean, kale and sweet potato curry now. So happy it's nearly Friday!!! It's June already, unbelievable. I had a great day at work today, I always seem to strike gold when it comes to cute, funny guys in the office who make work that little bit more fun. Have an absolute shitload to get done tomorrow, but I have help with it, and going to get in early and just put the head down for the day and get.it.done!

No real plans for the long weekend, I think I have the house to myself which is always great. I really should spend a weekend at home soon to give my housemates the same luxury. I definitely spend a lot more time here than them. I have no problem just lounging. I definitely feel my overactive imagination keeps me entertained a lot of the time. I would consider myself to have a 'rich inner life.' For example, the people I share with love constantly hanging out with people or having lengthy phone conversations if they are at home. I would find that unbelievably exhausting. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with people, but talking the same shite all day every day to different groups of friends is not my thing. That's what you guys are for. ;)

I actually decided to look up 'rich inner life' to see what Google has to say about what the phrase means. Anyway, I found a page describing the Highly Sensitive Person:

The highly sensitive person (or HSP) is someone who cares deeply about everything ... feels emotions with great intensity ... is highly conscientious ... has a rich and complex inner life ... is very intuitive ... is often creative in a variety of ways... is easily overwhelmed and/or overstimulated. A HSP needs lots of quiet time, space, and freedom. If this sounds familiar ... you are welcome to join us.

Is there a more apt description in the world? All of it strikes a chord, particularly the overwhelmed/overstimulated part. This has lessened with age, thank God. Anyone else on here relate to this?

Anyway. Think I'll watch a bit of Netflix tonight or else get stuck into my latest book - The Master and Margharita. From a world controlled by one power-hungry maniac to another. Jaysus.
 
Yes, can relate! I have about three female friends and in an ideal world I'd see them every few months and talk on the phone every fortnight..they, however, love speaking on the phone daily if I'd let them so I've developed a reputation for being very hard to get hold of.. I just want to be quiet by myself! Although I find myself getting unmotivated and lazy with too much free time..

Enjoy your book lovely - have just added to my amazon wishlist, looks fab! I'm watching the Handmaid's Tale at the moment..think you'd enjoy xx
 
Oh cool, I hope you like it. I'm only a chapter in so far. The Handmaiden's Tale is one of my favourite books, I read it in college, I should read it again I think. A friend also recommended the series to me, might watch a few episodes over the weekend.

Got loads done today and still had the chats, happy with that.

Having some quiet time tonight and tomorrow, then going to try to get back into a good routine. A friend was talking to me about how he's not in shape - he is tall with slim arms and legs but then a mini pot belly in all his shirts and the buttons don't quite close. I have exactly the same body shape - all limbs with big boobs/belly. He also loves sugar and alcohol a bit too much. He looks absolutely fine to me but I completely know how he feels. I have clothes in my wardrobe that I am busting out of, and I shouldn't be. The scales really are meaningless. It's all about the tailoring.

I had a brilliant trainer years ago, she gave epic weight training classes and she said that whenever anyone came to her asking her how to lose their belly, her answer was simply 'Sugar'.

So, I'm working out a plan to stop the sugar. That trainer advised not eating much fruit either because I'm so addicted to it. I just find it hard to give things up when the reward seems so far away. Hmm. What can replace sugar to make the week seem fun?
 
Thought I'd make a fashion post today, just feel like it. A massive part of wanting to lose weight is to be able to wear lovely clothes. I probably won't be able to afford anything for a few months, but when my finances are in order again, I would love to go on a bit of a spree and buy some nice, tailored outfits. A lot of my clothes are quite floaty and loose-fitting. I look fine in them but when I lose the belly, I want to show off a bit. :)

I love this dress that Blake Lively is wearing:
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I would love to get something like this for a hot date or special occasion. The colour is gorgeous.

I have a work do coming up at the end of the month which I might be able to buy something for. I would like to wear something like this if the weather is nice:

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Tea dresses are really my go-to at the moment, they suit my shape, and I think this colour is really beautiful.

Some day I would also like to rock up to the office in something like this:

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It's simple but really gorgeous.

I watched Suite Francaise earlier, I want Matthias Schoenaerts to be my boyfriend:
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It's actually a really good movie. Going to make some watercress soup and try to go for a walk. I say try like there is something holding me back from going, just feeling lazy. We'll see.
 
Just watching the BBC report on the latest terror attack in London. It's very upsetting. I am going to watch the One Love Manchester concert now for the evening. I love that the message is one of love and hope and caring for your fellow man. This gives me hope. I firmly believe that the majority of people in the world are doing the best they can to live good lives. That is all we can really do.

In other news, I wrote an email of complaint yesterday for probably the first time in my life. I had a very bad experience with a recruiter. I regret sending it today, I guess I don't want to invite negativity into my life. I hope the repercussions won't be too bad! It's too late now! Will just have to roll with it.

I have a picture in my head that I am headed towards the hottest date of all time and me wearing the Blake Lively-style hot pink dress in my head. I'm going to act as if this is guaranteed to happen, sort of following the advice of 'The Secret'. This is what I would like in my life right now, so I am going to do everything I can to make this dream a reality.

Have a good food plan made out for tomorrow and I am going to follow it. New week, new vision.
 
1. How did today go?
Today I mostly spent watching music videos and cooking. It was a quiet day. I also return to the challenge with renewed vigour. I just have to keep that mental picture of the life I want in my head and return to it any time I start to weaken.

2. How was your food and exercise?
I didn't plan any exercise for the day and just as well, because it is pissing rain outside. The yoga centre isn't open and the gym doesn't have any classes on today anyway.

My food was perfecto:
- porridge, milk, raspberries, flaxseed
- glass of water and lemon juice
- orange
- watercress soup and 1 slice of toast with butter
- tomato and lentil curry
- coffee and milk x 2
- white tea

I am sadly feeling a bit hungry now and I can feel a massive sugar withdrawal headache coming on. Short term pain for longterm gain.

Cigarettes were 7. Still working on it.

Weight: 11 stone 6 3/4 pounds
Body fat percentage: 28.4%

First major goal is to get to 11 stone. Back to daily weigh-ins I think. I need the stats.
If I can avoid the booze, I should get there quite quickly. Of course, it's a friend's birthday next Friday, an old college friend just moved to town, etc etc, but we'll deal with each obstacle as we come to it. I think the 'we' is the side of me that would really want to go out partying with them and the other side that actually wants to reach my goals.

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Yes. Getting closer every day. And today I actually did well with the food, so I can genuinely say that.

Plan for tomorrow is a run in the morning and I have a friend staying tomorrow night, so I will have a bit of chat with her. It should be nice. Something different than my normal Tuesday nights anyway.
 
I love the Handmaids tale TV show, its great and dark! What do you think of it having read the book??

The terror attacks in London are awful. I'm in Aus and I feel like we just look on in horror to so much that happens to the rest of the world.
 
Hi allthefoods, I didn't get much of a chance to watch that series yet, but I'll post my thoughts here if I do.

Race Challenge update:

Challenge #1: 5 miles/0:48:14/09:38.6/530 of 616/86th
Challenge #2: 3.1 miles/0:26:56/08:40.1/660 of 914/72nd
Challenge #3: 3.7 miles/0:33:32/08:59.7/273 of 313/87th

No real improvements made sadly. It was a tough enough route but I felt really unfit doing it. My fitness level has definitely depleted over the last month, I guess with starting the job and everything. I'm not going to let this continue though. I scared myself last night when I had a mountain of crap for dinner and didn't even feel that full afterwards. That's when I know that I am under serious pressure - I can eat so much crap and not feel sick afterwards. That means that my body is preparing for war.

So, to combat this, I am heading into work now. I am so stressed about the tasks I have to do next week. I woke up this morning and I decided that the only way to feel better about it is to head in now and get through some of it, because otherwise I'll be in work till 8pm Monday night, which means that I won't be able to exercise, will start eating crap, etc.

I have another race planned for tomorrow and I want to be able to enjoy it. Feeling really unhealthy at the moment, my gums are really sore and I look tired. I don't want this to be how it is for the next few months, so I'm going to have to make time for my fitness regime to combat the stress.
 
Oh yeah, it was so worth it in the end. I only did about 3 hours so it wasn't too bad, but I've had peace of mind for the rest of the weekend.

Went home for dinner today, had a lovely roast. Planning on going for a run in the morning and doing a yoga class after work. I didn't do my race today, I am going to do a different one on Friday instead.

Haven't smoked today, part of me really wants to buy a pack on my way into town, but I just had a Himalayan salt bath and it would ruin it. We'll see.
 
1. How did today go?
Today went absolutely fine. I am completely zonked now. I know that the minute my head hits that pillow, I will fall asleep. It's a great feeling.

2. How was your food and exercise?

Food went really well in terms of eating all the healthy things I'd planned, so I know I got all my vitamins and nutrients in for the day. Unfortunately, a sudden change to a healthy diet with no sugar makes me ravenously hungry, so I ended up eating some extras on top of the planned meals. To combat this, I am going to introduce bread into my diet with the goal of phasing it out eventually. What I really want is to stop buying crisps and chocolate bars. If that means eating a bit more bread, I'm fine with that.

I did a hatha yoga session this evening, it was such a good class. Lots of core work. I need to keep it up.

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?

Rome wasn't built in a day.
 
Hi Em. You are closer to your goals because you keep working on them. I'm trying to give up bread altogether too. It's hard. It is the base for so many things. I just had soup for breakfast!
"Roma non fu costruita in un giorno" - say it out loud, with appropriate hand movements. Italian is beautiful. I really do think I should take Italian language lessons.
Keep up the good work hon xo C
 
Haha, Cate, I love it.

"Roma non fu costruita in un giorno" (with appropriate hand movements)

1. How did today go?
Well guys, I had two great things happen today, both gym-related.

a) I got a text message from one of the gym instructors to say that they are waiving the fee for the gym for this month because they were meant to reduce the price down starting this month but they didn't, and then I didn't have enough money in the bank to pay it. So I have the gym for free for the month and a reduced rate going forward. Music to my fucking ears.

b) A girl at the gym started talking to me before the class, she's slightly insane, but one of her questions to me was, 'Are you a fitness instructor?' Amazing! I mean, surely that is the Universe's way of telling me that I must be doing something right! Thrilled with myself.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Buoyed by the exciting text message about not having to pay for the gym this month, I went to pilates tonight. Very enjoyable.

My food was great in that I ate everything on my food plan - porridge for breakfast, salmon and potato salad for lunch, bean and veggie chilli for dinner - but then I also had some extras. I had a bar of chocolate, crisps and a slice of toast with butter, ham and the most delectable goat's cheese I have ever tasted in my life. It was €4.50, worth every cent. I will never buy another brand. So yeah, I feel good because I know I am eating properly, but all the extras ain't going to do much for my waistline.

Still, I am pleased that I am sticking to my food plan. I write it out every night before bed in my gorgeous green notebook and then I also write a motivational paragraph to myself to try to mentally prepare for the day ahead. I think it's working.

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I've had two days in a row now where I've gone to work early, come home early and cooked my dinner, and then headed back out to do some form of exercise. Very pleased that I am getting some kind of routine together. And the gym and yoga are very social actually, way better than ruminating with my thoughts alone in my room. Onwards and upwards!
 
Sticking to a meal plan is so handy, I usually plan out all my main meals for the whole fortnight and only shop for those ingredients. Less room for error/laziness (and I meal prep to so I can be lazy most of the time).

Also- YAY for free gym!
 
Haha, me too Cate.

Yeah, allthefoods, free gym is amazing.

1. How did today go?
I had an absolutely manic day. I won't even go into it but I'm really, really tired now and can't wait to settle down with ONE episode of The Handmaid's Tale before snoozy snoozy sleepy sleep. I started it last night - epic! I know he's the bad guy but Joseph Fiennes is hot. I love seeing Peggy and Rory hanging out. I knew Rory would turn good. I've actually forgotten the whole book, I really must give it a read again after I've finished but it makes the series so enjoyable because I actually have no idea what happens really. And Janine! Oh Janine. Just terrifying.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Stuck to the plan (with added extras). I actually feel really really full tonight so I've cut back a bit for tomorrow. I'm happy that I have definitely given my body loads of nutrients today though. That's a great feeling.

My exercise plans went awry, but I have a 5k race on the schedule tomorrow, and I'm going with a friend, so I am committed.

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
My arms look pretty good today. That is all.
 
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