Cate's Diary

Cate said:
I haven’t had a good day today, but it’s not worth sharing really.
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Sorry to hear that. I understand I get that feeling sometimes too. However, I also think it may be more important to talk about the bad days than the good ones. Or at least equally. I try, but it sure is more fun to talk about the good times...
 
alligatorob said:
Sorry to hear that. I understand I get that feeling sometimes too. However, I also think it may be more important to talk about the bad days than the good ones. Or at least equally. I try, but it sure is more fun to talk about the good times...
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Thanks, Rob. I know you're right.
There are some days that start out well & then one thing can throw me out. Other days I wake & feel all over the place, go for a walk & the day ends up well. Yesterday I just felt overwhelmed & wanted to scream.
Right now I feel really content. I woke up feeling good. I'm sitting outside with Arch & it is such a beautiful day. We have been for a walk, I have done quite a bit of housework & am planning on doing some more. I was going to go out & have a hit of golf but decided against it halfway through the morning. If I hurt my knee I would not be able to get in & out of the van, so I'll leave it until next week (?) The minute I decided to stay at home today my mood improved dramatically.
I don't think there is anything specific that affects my mood. It's really hard to pinpoint what triggers the feeling I get of being so anxious & worrying about minor stuff.
I wish seeing a counsellor was easier than it seems to be.
I also wish we hadn't bought the van. It really is a one-person thing- not 2 people & a dog.
 
Cate said:
Thanks, Rob. I know you're right.
There are some days that start out well & then one thing can throw me out. Other days I wake & feel all over the place, go for a walk & the day ends up well. Yesterday I just felt overwhelmed & wanted to scream.
Right now I feel really content. I woke up feeling good. I'm sitting outside with Arch & it is such a beautiful day. We have been for a walk, I have done quite a bit of housework & am planning on doing some more. I was going to go out & have a hit of golf but decided against it halfway through the morning. If I hurt my knee I would not be able to get in & out of the van, so I'll leave it until next week (?) The minute I decided to stay at home today my mood improved dramatically.
I don't think there is anything specific that affects my mood. It's really hard to pinpoint what triggers the feeling I get of being so anxious & worrying about minor stuff.
I wish seeing a counsellor was easier than it seems to be.
I also wish we hadn't bought the van. It really is a one-person thing- not 2 people & a dog.
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Can you see the counsellor remotely? I find zoom sessions so convenient. I'm glad you're having a good day.
 
Misty's suggestion might work. My wife is a therapist and she has shifted most all of her clients to online. And I know there are now companies specializing in offering online counseling. I don't know what you might have in Tasmania or how it might work with your insurance, but it might. Here a therapist has to be licensed in the US state they are offering services, so at least here you still need to find a somewhat local therapist. I did a quick Google search and found this Tasmania Online Psychologist - Online Psychologist Tasmania - Online Counselling Tasmania I am sure you could find a lot more.
Cate said:
I also wish we hadn't bought the van. It really is a one-person thing- not 2 people & a dog.
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Be sure you give it a fair chance, if you get out and find a place you can enjoy it you might like it more than you think. If not the way the market is right now (here anyway) I am sure you could resell. You might like the new movie Nomadland, its about people living in vans that are mostly not as nice as yours. Here we can get it on Hulu for free, or at Amazon for a rental fee. Nomadland (film) - Wikipedia

Hope you are feeling better by the time you read this!
 
misty22 said:
Can you see the counsellor remotely? I find zoom sessions so convenient. I'm glad you're having a good day.
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I'll think about that, Misty. Maybe after the first visit. I hate zoom or video calls.
alligatorob said:
I did a quick Google search and found this Tasmania Online Psychologist - Online Psychologist Tasmania - Online Counselling Tasmania I am sure you could find a lot more.
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Thanks for looking that up, Rob. You are very thoughtful. I was offered online therapy, but I'm more likely to develop rapport in person I think.
alligatorob said:
Be sure you give it a fair chance, if you get out and find a place you can enjoy it you might like it more than you think. If not the way the market is right now (here anyway) I am sure you could resell. You might like the new movie Nomadland, its about people living in vans that are mostly not as nice as yours. Here we can get it on Hulu for free, or at Amazon for a rental fee. Nomadland (film) - Wikipedia
Hope you are feeling better by the time you read this!
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I will give the van a fair chance, Rob. We will be camping in it this Sat & Sun night on R's block, but without Arch, so it won't be as squeazy. I want to put the awning out so that we get used to using it, but it also means that we won't be able to drive anywhere. I know it's a matter of getting used to everything & I will try. Thanks for your support.
I do feel a lot better this morning. I'm glad I booked Arch into the kennels as it may be a good idea to get used to the van without him first. I really miss him though when we don't have him with us, but this way I can pay full attention to R & the places we are going. I won't share the links as R is working at both places & hopes to work 2 days at each in the future. I hope he manages to get that balance.
It's raining here today, but it's quite nice. I did so much housework in the last couple of days, mostly stuff you don't notice, but it feels good to have done it. We have a couple coming for lunch on my birthday week after next & her house is spotless & she hasn't been here before so I want it to look at its best. I love our place but it's big & there's a lot more cleaning to do. G will definitely help.
 
I hope you can enjoy your weekend out and used to the van a little more. Great that you got all those chores done - they may be tedious but it feels so good afterwards.
 
Thanks, LaMa. I'm feeling less anxious & more looking forward to it now. I was a bit daunted at tomorrow's lunch as it's owned by a "celebrity" whose shows G & I have watched & liked & now R is working there it felt a little bit overwhelming. I don't have to impress anyone though & will just be myself. I have my clothes packed (some hanging :) ) & everything should fit in better than last time. I'm going to do what my Mum used to do & go with a colour theme for trips away. This weekend I will be in navy blue with red & white on Sat & pale blue on Sunday.
It does feel good to get chores done. When I suggested to G that we have this couple for lunch on my birthday instead of going out he immediately expressed the view that we would have to do some serious housework. It's always a good excuse & it will make us feel better about the house anyway.
I took Arch for a walk in light rain this morning & bathed him as soon as we got home so that's another job I wanted to do before taking him to the kennels tomorrow. G & I are now having a bit of a lazy afternoon.
 
Lazy afternoon thoroughly earned :)
Cate said:
I was a bit daunted at tomorrow's lunch as it's owned by a "celebrity" whose shows G & I have watched & liked & now R is working there it felt a little bit overwhelming.
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How wonderful is it that R managed to get a job at a place like that!
 
We only just got home from our weekend away & are very tired. The drive home took over 5 hours with a short stop for a quick bite & to pick up Archie along the way. It was a really good weekend, which I'll tell you more about tomorrow I think. The restaurant/farm experience exceeded my expectations. It wasn't at all pretentious & was really interesting. I hope he gets some more work there & less at the other place he is working at, which doesn't seem like such a good fit for him. I think he'll be happy in his new environment once he has settled into his new little house.
G & I are very glad to be home though.
 
Thanks, LaMa xo
Just got a good message from R & he is happy that his hours have been cut to the days he wanted only & he will now have weekends off. The place doesn't suit him & I am glad. He will have enough hours to cover his mortgage & to live even without getting another job & he will not be working in a service that is very high pressure & pretentious ("fine dining"), He can help out friends instead when he feels like it ( a popup bakery, farm gate market stall etc) & can spend more social time with his friends who mostly work during the week.
G & I just caught still in our dressing gowns by some guys here to trim the trees under the power lines. It's 9.20 am & I'm sure we're not the only ones, but still :blush5: I'm hiding in my chair :)
It's nice to be home again. I'll get on the move now though.....
 
It must be a relief to hear everything's turning out so well for R!
I don't think the treecutting guys would even have noticed you; I'm sure they've seen a thing or two over the years!
 
It is a relief, LaMa :grouphug:
I have had a lovely day today-
Haircut (razor) -successful :)
Favourite coffee shop- delicious coffee, coffee beans & Speculaas :)
New blue, soft, leather Winter boots :beating:
Ortho ap’t with a happy ortho & not needing another ap’t really but we agreed to one in 12 months time
Visit to other SIL & nice chat
Quick Indian snack for lunch.
Asian supermarket shop including fresh oysters & yummy looking veg, fresh chillies, garlic & bulk gf soy sauce & sambal oelek.
We got home at a reasonable time, I’m not exhausted & have fresh raw oysters & sushi for our dinner tonight. YUM!
A very good day!
 
LaMaria said:
Sounds like a glorious day!
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It was LaMa. My knee is hurting a bit after being poked & prodded by the ortho & walking around on concrete, but hopefully, that will settle down today.
It's a bit of a dismal day today, so may stay home & do some more housework. Arch is a bit out of sorts & seems to have an upset stomach for some reason.
 
Archie felt ok in the afternoon, thank goodness. He has a sensitive stomach & I think reacted to some dried chicken treats that K9 had given him. I think I'll throw the rest to the ravens. We make these coconut biscuits that he loves & G made some for him yesterday & which seemed to get him wanting to eat again. I took him for a walk in the wet which sparked him up. He's fine this morning again.
I need to find him some gentle dog food that I can add to his kibble. I may just get some chicken, cook it, cut it up & freeze it.

I'll come back & post later today. I need to come up with a set plan to lose some weight. It is getting really cold here now, so it's cover-up weather, but I want to lose some weight before next Summer. I'll aim for 5 kg in 5 months. I need to track everything, weigh at least once a week & cut down my wine consumption.....sound familiar?
 
Cate said:
I'll aim for 5 kg in 5 months. I need to track everything, weigh at least once a week & cut down my wine consumption.....sound familiar?
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Agree with LaMa, and it seems to me this is just how it works when you are in or somewhere near maintenance. We never actually seem to reach a stable ideal weight and stay there, keeping vigilant seems to be the key to it all...
 
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