Cate's Diary

Hi, Rob. I love your enthusiasm. I don't really want to escape Winter, but I do want to get used to camping in Betsy & I will. There is so much of Tasmania that we haven't seen or haven't been to for a long time & we plan on fixing that. I think once we have spent the first night camping in Betsy we'll become more enthusiastic. A mainland trip in her would be very squeazy & she's slow. 90 kph is about her happy speed. There's s sticker on the back with a turtle saying "If you think this is slow, wait until I go uphill". We are booked on the ferry in November & we may take her. We'll see.
I think you're right about the rails. I'll start looking at adding them soon I think. Adding them to stone walls would be tricky though in our living room. I needed them when I hurt my knee. I am very careful on the steps down to our living room & put both feet on each step going down. I would need some rustic looking rails. Food for thought....
Your van will be wonderful!
 
What a mixed day I have had. I have spent the day with my lovely husband, eating healthily, walking our dog, gardening, making chutney & just generally enjoying my life. It has been so positive really but the slightest disagreement or sign of aggression either towards me or someone I love seems to really throw me out majorly. I’m going to talk about it when I see a counsellor. I’ll start making notes I think. I don’t cope at all with it & take it personally every time. I realise that not everyone will like me & that’s not the issue. I need to learn to let it wash off me. I’m not sure I can.
 
I have woken up to another brisk, but sunny Autumn day. I had eggs & avocado on oat toast for breakfast & am sitting in my recliner, dog on lap, husband next to me doing the crossword & am drinking black espresso coffee in front of the fire. It’s the perfect start to my day :)
We’ll put some more wood chip down in Archie’s yard today to suppress the grass & weeds & to stop him getting wet, muddy paws. Unfortunately it is dog poo coloured so we have to be very careful! :eek:
 
How a day can change.
I have been stressing out over both our sons & the grandkids. Sometimes I feel that asking a simple question can open a can of worms. One upshot is that we’re now having the GK’s & OS, D, here tonight for dinner. We miss the kids.
I think R’s taking on too much & his mood is becoming very elevated & that always scares me. You can just see him losing his hold on reality. He doesn’t remember anything when he gets like it & you have to repeat a lot of stuff.
Then my sister messaged me as she thinks she may have gone a step too far with mocking my taste in crocheted cacti. :svengo:
FFS.
I have ended up with a twitching eyelid. *sigh*
 
Then my sister messaged me as she thinks she may have gone a step too far with mocking my taste in crocheted cacti. :svengo:
:rotflmao: What a delightful sentence. And a nice gesture really, she must have sensed that twitching eyelid and been a bit worried. Family affairs seem to be up and down as regular as clockwork, don't they? I hope the upswing comes soon.
 
I probably should have said she meant mocking the fact I thought any crocheted cacti would be cute, let alone adorable.
She must have known I have been avoiding her as I used to ring her 2-3 times a week & I just haven’t felt up to it lately. She lives on her own & it’s difficult to have a 2 way conversation.
I’m feeling better after another biggish walk with Arch & a lot of pottering about. I’m really looking forward to seeing the kids! They’ll be here soon :beating: There is a cake in the oven :)
 
Thanks, hon. I will. I just sent my sister a long message explaining how I have been feeling & why & that I will ring her on Tuesday.
 
We had such a lovely time with "the kids" last night. Their home life horrifies me & the melodrama that is their daily lives, but there is little we can do. I am so fortunate to have the upbringing I had. We had quite a few laughs & some quality time.
G & I were thinking of going to town today but we both woke without the necessary energy, so instead will go to the tip. I could go back to bed for the day.
 
We were both out of sorts today & I think a lot of that is family related. It’s after 4 pm now & after another walk with Arch, this time right back in the bush, I’m feeling better.
We went to the tip this morning & also caught up with a couple of old friends briefly & took Arch to the off-lead dog park, where we bumped into a woman who used to work for us. She has 2 little, old dogs & Arch got on well with them. He had 3 walks today, plus the run in the park.
We managed to turn the day into a decent one.
 
Good work turning an out of sorts kind of day into a decent one. Lovely that you got to catch up with old friends and a former employee!
 
It seems we both did that, LaMa. It’s amazing the difference exercise makes to my mood. It had been a while since I walked down through the bush. It felt so good to be in nature without the danger of snakes.
I contacted 2 of the golfing women yesterday- 1 whose birthday it was & the other who I had heard had a fall & broke her nose. It was nice to keep in touch, even though they want to know when I’m coming back.
I won’t be here tomorrow morning as we are off very early for our first day/night in the van. I’m really not sure how we’ll go, but we’ll soon find out. I wish I could rewire my brain to stop being such a worrier! :svengo:
 
You'll do fine. The worst that can happen is that you don't enjoy it, right?
I really want to love it, so I hope I do.
Today has ended up being a good day. After freaking out this morning & feeling physically ill, I headed off a walk & G came & picked me up as he does now. I walked further than I thought I would.
My SIL ( the yelling one) had rung me last night to tell me the outcome of our BIL’s oncology team pow wow. I had been messaging him with support & hadn’t contacted her, but G had left a phone message. He has metastatic cancer in 3 lymph nodes & they are going to try immunotherapy. She said that M wanted to visit an elderly relation today not far from us & I said that we would be home & to call in if they felt up to it.
They called in & we had a nice visit over a pot of tea. She is obviously so stressed & had forgotten that she had rung last night & told me about the planned treatment. I’m glad I held my tongue last week.
We are ready for our day & night away. We’ll get fish and chips tomorrow night rather than think about cooking. I have salad items & fruit, bread for toasting next morning & PB & Vegemite etc, individual coffee plungers....did I say we have a kitchen sink. We filled up the tank with rainwater & it has a little hand pump tap. The van is quite cute.
Arch & I will walk all over the place during the day. It’s next to the beach & the golf course.
I also spoke to R this morning about his mental health and it really was a lovely talk. He has moved his stuff into his new place. I think he’ll be ok.
 
Haha. Thanks, Em. I adore them. I think they're really cute. I think I have a sense of fun & I do quite like a bit of silliness.

I had a really good day at the beach with Archie, while G played golf. We did 11,000 steps mostly along the beach & I have pulled up really well. I think it was a really good learning experience yesterday. I had too much of the wrong stuff in the van really. Instead of turning on the fridge the night before I instead took a soft esky with ice bricks. I swear I moved it 10 times & we didn't even use what was in it! Not one thing. I had piccolos of bubbly, cans of diet soft drink, salad items, butter......:svengo: I don't know why I bothered with a dog bed as Arch sleeps on ours anyway. Where it went meant I couldn't open the wardrobe.

Next time the fridge gets turned on the night before & there's one less thing sitting in the way in the van. It is really tight for space. I needed something warmer when the sun went down so I will put some clothes in there that can stay. I'll dig out some mid-winter clothes that can go in the little wardrobe, which is a bit hard to get at, but also can hold a fair bit of hanging stuff. I'll put some spare thermals in maybe (old ones) & a polar fleece jacket or vest & some tracky dacks & some thick socks. I bought a $5 raincoat & that is tucked behind the driver's seat & I'll also put a rug as it was cold in the front on the drive down & the way back. I'll work it out. Having an overnight bag was also a pain. There is very little room. I think the van is suitable for one human really but we will make it work. We also had G's golf clubs & buggy.

We played cribbage last night & I beat G 3-1. He knows I don't really like card games & he was really surprised when I suggested crib & had a board tucked away. It was fun.
We also bought fish and chips instead of taking our own food & that was a mistake as we just don't like crap food. The fish was just bog standard frozen stuff. The choices at the nearby store, which closed at 6, were very limited- all just junk food & deep fried. I hate junk food. We both do.
We spent a lot of time awake. Each time one of us was awake, then all three were awake. Arch got a mini walk 3 times during the night when we went to the toilet. We worked out if we were both awake, we both may as well go to the loo. Each time there were wallabies about.

We had to get home early as R rang last night & had an opportunity to have a truck pick up one of his cabins on a backfill, which is way cheaper & we thought it would make it so much better for him to get most of his stuff now he has bought a place, so we didn't mind. We were wide awake at 6 am & home by 8. We packed most of his stuff into one cabin & lay it all down. It was chock a block. It was picked up at 11 am. Our young friend from down the road came & let the fence down for us for the semi to get through.

I have had a nap this afternoon. I was so tired, but feel much better for having the nap. We won't spend any more than 2 nights at a time in the van. We love our house, but having the van gives us an interest & we'll get better with it with experience & time.

I have an ap't with my new doctor tomorrow to do a new mental health plan. That will be ok I think. I'm going ahead with my plan to get a diagnosis. She thinks it will be empowering, rather than a stigma.
 
Thanks, LaMa. I think all of my daily walks seem to have built up my knee strength & I'm not suffering from walking in the soft sand today.
 
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