Cate's Diary

Cate said:
I had a day yesterday where I felt restless & frustrated. The first day that G is away each year I feel the same & then I adjust. I had a couple of the kids' sweet treats in the afternoon with some fruit but made a rule that I wasn't allowed to open any of the chocolates that are tucked away in a bucket in the pantry. I also had 2 glasses of wine at the end of the day.
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I hope you're starting to adjust Cate--I can imagine the weird difference of the sudden emptiness. Nice that you and Archie have each other at least.
I wouldn't be able to stay away from that bucket of chocolates in the pantry!

I hope your legs are feeling better with some more rest. That is too bad to be limited in your movement like that, but hopefully, you can enjoy the improved weather just sitting out watching the birds :)
 
Archie is like the king of the castle in that photo. So cute!

Hope you're doing okay without G around. As I suggested before, ask the neighbour's kids to walk him if you need a bit of extra rest on the leg. I know you hate missing out, but you'll have to miss out for longer if you don't rest it!!
 
Thanks, LaMa, Petal, Liza & Em. I really don't like it when G is away, especially for a whole week. I'm happy for him as he has a lovely time with lots of laughs. I feel it's like preparation for the day I might be on my own & I know I would probably move from here. It's a big house for one person. Archie is such lovely company. I have been tempted to undo all my good work & let him sleep on the bed, but have stuck to our routine. He wakes at 6 am & I let him out & then he comes onto our bed, we snuggle up & go back to sleep for an hour or so.
I have really been noticing the birds, Liza. There is an Aussie bird count happening this week & I am doing it every day.
My legs feel ok this morning. I didn't wear the knee brace the other day & I think that's why it ached more. I was going to take Archie into town today but I really can't be bothered. I'm inclined to turn into a hermit when G is away. I will try to make myself go tomorrow & visit the lady golfers (with Archie).
Confession- Something just snapped with me yesterday & I craved sweet stuff all afternoon. My plan not to have any wine went out the window & I had a piccolo of bubbly while bird-watching. Then I had one more after G rang. Then I had dinner & then I was on the rampage. I had 2 lemon wafers (all that was left), a piece of licorice, 2 mini magnum icecreams & stopped myself before I opened the chocolate bucket. I felt disgusted with myself. If I had crisps in the house I would have eaten them too. I felt out of control. I haven't felt this way for a long time. It was a reaction to having put on weight this year & feeling like I can't fix that, a reaction to G being away, a reaction to not being able to exercise, a reaction to restricting my eating during the day, a reaction from starting the day with yoghurt & fruit, rather than something more solid & savoury..... It was not good.
Today- I am going to be very kind & gentle to myself. I have delicious & healthy food to eat & I will not be having any sugar, other than in fresh fruit. No wine, no self-pity & a couple of gentle walks with Arch.
I also think I will relight the fire which I let go out last night. Brrr.
 
Cate we have all been there and look that food is gone now and no temptation there .
You have had a lot to deal with it so please do be kind to yourself today and everyday .big hugs :grouphug:

Sometimes I actually have think it's good to have a binge because it reminds me how crap it makes me feel tbh . Gets it out of the system
 
Oh, Petal I was so ashamed of myself. I think the feeling of letting myself down was the worst part. I was disappointed that I was back to square one again( not the 2007 square one) & I have 13.5 kg to lose. So then I did that- no logic.
I have had such a healthy day today. I took Arch into town & took him for a few walks on the flat. Everyone falls in love with Arch!
K9 sent me a lovely positive message today. I love that woman :beating:
Edit: 1168 calories
696 deficit after exercise.
 
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Sorry you had a tough day there Cate. As you now we all go there at times and you are generally really good when it comes to food.
Sounds like you've done a good job of picking yourself back up again and moving on. Good job :)
Your healthy day sounds great--good for you!
 
I am so happy that you were able to turn it around so quickly Cate and got into town today. Go you. (And we all have those binge moments. Could have been a lot worse!)
 
LaMaria said:
Days like that suck but kudos to you for picking yourself right back up.
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Thanks, LaMa. I'm still reeling from it a little. It came out of nowhere.
liza said:
Sorry you had a tough day there Cate. As you know we all go there at times and you are generally really good when it comes to food.
Sounds like you've done a good job of picking yourself back up again and moving on. Good job :)
Your healthy day sounds great--good for you!
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Thanks, Liza. I feel so much better today. I'm just not going to have any snacks except fruit. Not starting is the go.
Emilyrose said:
I am so happy that you were able to turn it around so quickly Cate and got into town today. Go you. (And we all have those binge moments. Could have been a lot worse!)
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Thanks, Em. I think it would have been worse if I had some salty snacks available or mars bars. :svengo:
I feel like I'm back on an even keel again. That really threw me out.

I had the last of the frittata for breakfast this morning, lunch will be savoury venison mince with some extra veg & dinner will be roast chicken with lots of veg & a little gravy. I will have some fresh fruit. Maybe an apple & an orange. No wine. No snacking. Nothing after 6.30 pm, except herbal tea. Short walks with Arch.
G just rang & he's having a lovely time :)
 
Cate, I'm happy you were able to bounce back so quickly.
If its any consolation, i had a rather mean stare down with a bag of bbq potato chips today at work. ;)
I know one of these days im going to slip up too, we are all human and walking a pretty hard road to self betterment. Acknowledging our mistakes and owning them is whats important.
I hope tomorrow is even better for you!
 
Thanks, Steph. Good for you staring down those chips. If they were salt and vinegar they would have beaten me the other day :eek:
I think I have learned another lesson & just won’t have any snacks at all. I just had an orange with my lunch.
 
Let me know how the no snacks thing is working for you. I have had lots of snacks, but am trying to get back to a more "normal" 3 meals a day, not always easy. Oranges are good snack food. Hope your solo week is going well.
 
I do better without snacks as well. Unless I get too hungry in between meals, but that shouldn´t be the case if I plan my meals right. Snacks just make me want more snacks.
 
I think it's the case with me, for sure LaMa. I'm hungry now but am about to have my dinner which is in a bowl ready. I'm having savoury venison mince & it has lots of veggies. I'll finish with a fruit salad (fresh pineapple, berries, mango & a small amount of stewed rhubarb) that I made earlier with a dollop of yoghurt. I was meant to visit the golfing ladies again this afternoon but didn't. I gardened instead. I really felt like having a glass of wine at 4.30 but instead made myself a carafe of mocktail- soda water, diet ginger beer, fresh lime juice, fresh mint leaves & ice. I'm going to experiment more with mocktails. It did the trick. I got through it.
 
Cate said:
I really felt like having a glass of wine at 4.30 but instead made myself a carafe of mocktail- soda water, diet ginger beer, fresh lime juice, fresh mint leaves & ice.
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That sounds really nice. And experimenting with it might be a fun distraction in itself.
 
Had my dinner & straight away felt like having a piece of toast with peanut butter :svengo:
What is going on? I’m not even slightly hungry. I resisted & will keep resisting.
 
I know the feeling... It may take a couple of days before your body take enough for enough again. I know it will for me.
 
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