Whisper's Diary

I wonder if the anxiety will get better when your blood pressure goes down. I deal with anxiety and I know it´s worse on high-blood-pressure days but I don´t know which way the causation runs. I do know that high blood pressure can make water retention worse, so you´ve got a good chance that one will at least get better.

I surely hope so. I will find out. It maybe take a while though lol.
 
Losing weight slowly is a hell of a lot healthier than yoyoing, so just do what works for you.
 
I'm feeling like weight is sluggish this week, so I decided to do measurements. It's been about a month and a half. I'm down 11.5 inches overall. I know my clothes feel different that is for sure.

After a month and a half, the rain is giving us a break. It's hot (94 degrees or so) and humid. Time to do some yard work and get some walking in. I am working on my ingrown toenails. It's sad. I can't reach them like I need to and can't see well enough to tell what is going on when I try. If all goes well (and it usually doesn't, but you never know) and I can scrape together a little money (still expecting refund from IRS), then I am going to go get a pedicure and have them cut. The couple I go to does an amazing job. I just don't get to go any more. It's pretty inexpensive so it'd be well worth it, way cheaper than going to a doctor.
 
Well done, Tom on losing 11.5 " :)
It really does suck that you have to economize on something so necessary. Our medical system here in Australia is being slowly eroded away but I'm grateful for what we do have. Governments are good at wasting loads of money on senseless things & then cut costs on essential things :svengo:
 
Okay. Gotta pick myself up today. I worked in the yard a lot yesterday and feel like less than a worm today. My tongue is dragging the ground. I've also ate really well the last two days, so I almost feel like I'm going through withdrawals. I usually don't do caffeine, but almost feel like I need a shot of it along with some sugar lol. Ugh. I hate days like this. I'm going to look for some non-food mood boosters or if I get some money today, that'd would work to lol.
 
Week 7 Update:

Start Weight: 268.8

Last Week - 252.5
This Week - 251.5

Lost this week: -1.0 lbs
Total Lost: -17.3 lbs

Achievements This Week: None

Exercise:
Power 90 (old school) - Mon, Wed, Fri (Did not do this week)
Ab routine - Tue, Thu, Sat (Did not do this week)
Additional - yardwork and walking (Plenty of)

This week was okay. Some weeks I feel like no matter what I do, I'm not going to lose any weight. This was one of them, so I am thankful for the 1lb. Now, one day I did go over 500 calories. I'm working on a 7000 calorie deficit (2 lbs per week, averaging 2.5 lbs per week. I know it will slow down), so 500 isn't even a pound, but still. I so wanted to be in my 240's, but this game has its own rules so I was depressed and ate. No matter how hard I try sometimes, it always seems like life will try and make sure I fail. Hence, sometimes, I give up. On the flipside though, usually if I have a light week, the next week makes up for it as long as I stay on plan. So maybe 240's are in the cards for next week. If not, I will get there.

Yard work is killing me. I have a long day today out in the yard and then I can take off for a few days. I haven't slept well for the past couple of days. I'm losing weight and exercising. I'm supposed to feel better, right? 56 years old isn't 30. I guess it is going to take a while or something that I am going to get used to. Still as I lose weight and my body adjusts, I should get some benefits from it. No one else I know feels that great either, so I know it isn't just me. *sneeze*. Well, I am off to the great outdoors!
 
I'm losing weight and exercising. I'm supposed to feel better, right?
Ultimately I think you will. But at first the changes are just hard and it takes time for your body to adjust. Add allergies into the mix and I´m not surprised things are rough! I hope it´ll get better after today though.
 
Ultimately I think you will. But at first the changes are just hard and it takes time for your body to adjust. Add allergies into the mix and I´m not surprised things are rough! I hope it´ll get better after today though.

Thanks. Me too! I did a ton of work in the yard today and just go finished. I started at 10am this morning and it is now nearly 4:30pm. I don't have near as much stamina as I would have liked, but like you said, throw allergies into the mix! I keep forgetting about that. I also unfortunately brushed up against poison ivy as I was trying to be careful. Well, it was more like the wind whipped a thing onto my arm (I don't have any long sleeved shirts. It's way to hot here for that). People suggest using dawn dish washing liquid, cool water, and a rough washrag. I washed my about 7 or 8 times and took a shower. Hopefully, I didn't get it at all. At the very least, hoping it's just in a small area and not all over like last time lol. Some places, you just don't want it there. We will see. If I don't have a rash by tomorrow, I'll feel like I am in pretty good shape. Last time, I began itching before I got out of the shower. I had spread it and didn't know it. I'm hoping I didn't this time. Oh well. I still love nature. It just doesn't love me as much.
 
Lack of sleep will slow down weight loss too. Hope the ivy doesn’t affect you too badly! You are being very active so don’t be so hard on yourself please. I would be happy with losing a pound. I feel like I just gained a couple :blush5: after 2 nights in a hotel.
 
Lack of sleep will slow down weight loss too. Hope the ivy doesn’t affect you too badly! You are being very active so don’t be so hard on yourself please. I would be happy with losing a pound. I feel like I just gained a couple :blush5: after 2 nights in a hotel.
I know I need to not worry so much but I know weight can slip up 4 or 5 pounds without even trying. The more weight I lose the better the worry will be. Hopefully sleep will be better tonight.
 
I hope you're sound asleep right now and fingers crossed for your skin!

Bad night of sleep, about 3 hours total. Good news though is that I'm not really itching and no rash so far! I drank at least 128 oz of water yesterday and scale stayed the same this morning. I was shocked. I must have sweated a ton yesterday.
 
Depressed all day yesterday and today. I didn't do anything. Eating-wise it had the opposite effect. I haven't ate much at all. I was supposed to mow the lawn, but that didn't happen. I need to get back on track, although there isn't much to look forward to.
 
Week 8 Update:

Start Weight: 268.8

Last Week - 251.5
This Week - 254.3

Lost this week: +2.8 lbs
Total Lost: -14.5 lbs

Achievements This Week: None

Exercise:
Power 90 (old school) - Mon, Wed, Fri (Did not do this week)
Ab routine - Tue, Thu, Sat (Did not do this week)
Additional - yardwork and walking (Plenty of)

Rant:

No I did not go over on calories. I did the same as the previous 7 weeks. I hate trying to lose weight. I can make the goals. I can do the work and it doesn't make a difference. I was close to my 240's and really excited about it, but no I have to be sabotaged so I can't get the goal. This isn't just about losing weight. This has been my entire life experience. It is if I live in a little cage and every time I try and get out of the cage, something says, oh no you can't to do that and makes sure everything goes right back into place for failure. And it's not just my attitude. Most of the things that happen are external circumstances that I have no control over.

Now that part is out of the way. This has happened every time I try and diet. I'm surprised it hasn't happened before now. The last time I tried to diet, 30% of the weeks were maintained weight or gain. So this can happen frequently. The only difference between this week and the past 7 weeks is that I am exercising more (walking and yard work) and drinking a LOT more water. Typically, I only drink 30-40 oz of water a day. Now it is close to 128 oz a day. It's hot 95+ and the humidity is up there too. So I can walk outside and literally start sweating without doing anything at all. The fact of the matter is I retain water easily. I've talked to doctors about all of this. My heart has been checked out and so forth. A lot of it is sitting too much. I've tried different chairs and so forth. I have a timer on my computer to get up every 15-30 minutes. Today, I feel bloated. So typically what happens is I go mow the lawn. I sweat so much that my clothes are completely drenched when I come in as if I took a shower with my clothes on. On those days, it will typically show up as a loss the next day depending on how much water I drank during the day. That leaves me thirsty so maybe the next day I drink a LOT of water and gain back the water loss plus if I didn't do anything exercise wise, I pick up extra weight. My sodium intake is probably around 1800-2000. I try and keep it around 1500, but it depends if I cook everything or not. I know when I sweat, I sweat sodium also. But if I think about it, 128 oz of water is 8 lbs. There is a lot of room with weight flucuation each day from water weight alone. I've also read a lot about people retain more water during the summer time and so on. I have friends who retain water and sit a lot. So I know 1) It's not just me 2) It happens. Still, it absolutely sucks when you are trying to stay motivated and get opposite results. So when people ask me why I don't make weight loss goals like try to reach 200 by the end of the year, this is why.

So far when I sweat a lot, I've drank plain bottled water. One, when I sweat I lose electrolytes and not just water. Plain water doesn't give me those back. Yesterday, I went and bought some electro water. I feel like I am low on magnesium anyway. Every time I drink electro water I notice I feel a lot better afterward where I don't feel that way just drinking regular water. Drinking regular water alone makes me feel washed out. Two, I'm going to try and do 1/2 a fresh squeezed lemon in water every day this week. That should help with some of the retention as far as I know. I also started to do an inversion yoga pose last night. It's where you hold your legs up against the wall for 20 minutes. It's supposed to increase circulation, and help drain fluids from my legs. Last night went fine except my lower back is out and I had a hard time getting off the floor lol. It is what it is.

So the new game plan this week,

1) Drink more electrolyte water
2) Add some fresh lemon juice to the mix
3) Do the inversion yoga pose
4) With all of the yard work going on, 7000 steps felt pretty good this week. I'll try it another.

Thanks for listening! I had to get that off my chest!
 
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