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Ha, what a coincidence..we went over momentum today in class...
November 9th, 2007: Thoughts for the day
I feel very depressed and unmotivated in my bulk today. Im thinking on retreating back to a cut.
The bulk and gaining muscle is coming along fine, its losing site of what I had worked so hard to achieve that is the most diffucult portion to get over.
I rarely feel bummed, but this is one of those days.....
If can go wrong it did.....and then some more......
An Aunt that I was very close to when young also died today, and my employer will not allow me to get off to go to the funeral (because its not immediate family) which just adds to the over all mixture...
I dont feel very well.
I will see ya guys later..
Chillen
I feel very depressed and unmotivated in my bulk today. Im thinking on retreating back to a cut.
The bulk and gaining muscle is coming along fine, its losing site of what I had worked so hard to achieve that is the most diffucult portion to get over.
I rarely feel bummed, but this is one of those days.....
If can go wrong it did.....and then some more......
An Aunt that I was very close to when young also died today, and my employer will not allow me to get off to go to the funeral (because its not immediate family) which just adds to the over all mixture...
I dont feel very well.
I will see ya guys later..
Chillen
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Chillen, I am sorry to hear about the situation with your aunt.
You know you have the will power to manipulate your body to where you want it. You did it once, you will do it again. Whenever you decide to switch back to a cut, after you have bulked as far as you want, you will get right back to your goal. If anyone can do it, you can do it.
You know you have the will power to manipulate your body to where you want it. You did it once, you will do it again. Whenever you decide to switch back to a cut, after you have bulked as far as you want, you will get right back to your goal. If anyone can do it, you can do it.
Chillen bro, remember how you told me you have to make short term sacrifices to reach your long term goal, and then its all worth it? This is the same thing, just remember what you told me on yahoo.
If you need to talk, you can always reach me on yahoo. Just remember you have plenty of support and people here to motivate and encourage you
If you need to talk, you can always reach me on yahoo. Just remember you have plenty of support and people here to motivate and encourage you
I'm sorry chillen. I wish you the best.
The spicy health hen will be looking out for you.
Stay strong.
The spicy health hen will be looking out for you.
Stay strong.
Sorry to hear your news, and that you are bummed.
Don't give up on your bulk, though! Just think how much better it'll be if you finish what you've started and then cut from there! If anyone has the motivation for this, it's you. You can rock it, dude.
Bulking IS mentally tough. You have to be willing to let go of seeing those amazing results. But they are still there! The muscle you've built underneath ain't going anywhere - it's only going to continue to grow!
You will be able to cut again. You can get there and you will be better off for the journey. If you really feel like it's time to switch, do it. But don't cut just because it's easier, dude! You're tougher than that!
Don't give up on your bulk, though! Just think how much better it'll be if you finish what you've started and then cut from there! If anyone has the motivation for this, it's you. You can rock it, dude.
Bulking IS mentally tough. You have to be willing to let go of seeing those amazing results. But they are still there! The muscle you've built underneath ain't going anywhere - it's only going to continue to grow!
You will be able to cut again. You can get there and you will be better off for the journey. If you really feel like it's time to switch, do it. But don't cut just because it's easier, dude! You're tougher than that!
Hey Chillen, you're going through the same thing as me, although my mental demons lie with cutting back after bulking for so long, I'm also afraid of losing what I worked so hard to gain. It's scary I know but just remember what you told me when I said I was having problems with this;
Wise words indeed
As for your employer; how important are you to the company and how much do you need that job? I wouldn't let anyone stop me from going to something so important.
Chillen, STAY FOCUSED!!!! If there is anyone on this forum hardheaded/determined/focused/committed enough to reach their goal, it's you. Put that stubborness into action and keep it going. You ARE strong enough to keep the bulk going until it's time to cut again. Stay focused on how much bigger and better you'll look with 10 lbs of added muscle after your bulk/cut cycle is finished. Hang in there bro. We're gonna push you just like you push us simply because we know you can do it. And, even though it's against the rules to use this without permission, just remember, YOU FRIGGIN ROCK!!!
Chillen, I hope everything is okay. It's been a while since you've posted. Hang in there.
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CCR, thank you, brotha.
I have a wife at home that has a debilitating disease; we are currently taking care of her aging parents (to prevent them from going to a nursing home), and I am the main income bringer, and these important elements in my life have to supersede the emotion connection and the importance of attending the funeral; I had to view the possible impact my decision would have on my family. I had planned not to attend, until:
My normally "down to earth", humble, and "even tempered", wife took matters in her own hand (without telling me before hand), and went to see him. My idol in toughness (5'6" 110 lbs of pure rough and tough I will kick your @ss attitude) stood toe to toe with the him and gave him a piece of her mind.
I went in to work the day after, he came to my office and said I could take the funeral leave. I asked him what changed his mind. He said a "a short female fire cracker that went off", and started laughing. He didn’t have to say anymore, I knew who it was, lol. But, he did recap watch she said (in a nice way, first person):
Every time my boss (who also owns the company) needed anything I was there for him and made several sacrifices in my personal life to ensure his needs were met (i.e. I ran the hotel plus the Network infrastructure while he went to India for ONE MONTH to be by his dad's side while he was dying, and again for another month when his mother died and he had to go back again).
Furthermore, a close friend of his was involved a traffic accident about a year ago, and he took two weeks off, and I took over operations again. I developed a charity program within the hotel (with employees and customers) which was very successful and raised $7,000 to aid is friend in expenses insurance wasn't going to cover.
I have missed one day of work (flu) in 6 years; and my mother was dysfunctional in many ways, and my aunt had practically raised me from birth.
I guest she said he can be too cold and callused and this fogged his mind (LOL!) (I could say that too, if I didnt care about my job, lol)
Before I learned about my Aunt, I was up all night (as I am now) with taking care of my Father-in-law (wetting the bed, changing his sheets, putting him back on the oxygen machine-so my wife could sleep), and then went to work, and had lots of server and customer service issues to contend with. One server went down, and we had to buy another, and use the back up system. The back up system then wasnt running properly and some of the data base files (customer files) had become corrupted. And, on and on the day went like that. I was upset and so was my boss. It was a very stressful day and I was just beat tired from work and lack of sleep. I get home and decided to go to bed, and about an hour into laying down (approx), I get the call about my Aunt.
I was already thinking about retreating back to cutting day prior, its just all of the stress at work, my Aunt dying, and my boss saying I couldnt go (which was more stress related and induced he said later)---it just sort of overwhelmed me at first. But, usually I can chug to one side and think things over and pull out the "chill strap" on myself and rock on......which I have done. I had planned to go speak with him after about 24 hours (let the days activities at work die down) but my wife got to him first.
My Wife......ROCKS..........She is my idol.
Best wishes to all of you.
Again Thank ALL OF YOU!
Chillen
GT2003
Sig
SP
Phate
Jackie
Woodt
CCR
Thank ALL OF YOU for the time you have taken to post your thoughts!
I appreciate them ALL! THANK YOU!
CCR, thank you, brotha.
I have a wife at home that has a debilitating disease; we are currently taking care of her aging parents (to prevent them from going to a nursing home), and I am the main income bringer, and these important elements in my life have to supersede the emotion connection and the importance of attending the funeral; I had to view the possible impact my decision would have on my family. I had planned not to attend, until:
My normally "down to earth", humble, and "even tempered", wife took matters in her own hand (without telling me before hand), and went to see him. My idol in toughness (5'6" 110 lbs of pure rough and tough I will kick your @ss attitude) stood toe to toe with the him and gave him a piece of her mind.
I went in to work the day after, he came to my office and said I could take the funeral leave. I asked him what changed his mind. He said a "a short female fire cracker that went off", and started laughing. He didn’t have to say anymore, I knew who it was, lol. But, he did recap watch she said (in a nice way, first person):
Every time my boss (who also owns the company) needed anything I was there for him and made several sacrifices in my personal life to ensure his needs were met (i.e. I ran the hotel plus the Network infrastructure while he went to India for ONE MONTH to be by his dad's side while he was dying, and again for another month when his mother died and he had to go back again).
Furthermore, a close friend of his was involved a traffic accident about a year ago, and he took two weeks off, and I took over operations again. I developed a charity program within the hotel (with employees and customers) which was very successful and raised $7,000 to aid is friend in expenses insurance wasn't going to cover.
I have missed one day of work (flu) in 6 years; and my mother was dysfunctional in many ways, and my aunt had practically raised me from birth.
I guest she said he can be too cold and callused and this fogged his mind (LOL!) (I could say that too, if I didnt care about my job, lol)
Before I learned about my Aunt, I was up all night (as I am now) with taking care of my Father-in-law (wetting the bed, changing his sheets, putting him back on the oxygen machine-so my wife could sleep), and then went to work, and had lots of server and customer service issues to contend with. One server went down, and we had to buy another, and use the back up system. The back up system then wasnt running properly and some of the data base files (customer files) had become corrupted. And, on and on the day went like that. I was upset and so was my boss. It was a very stressful day and I was just beat tired from work and lack of sleep. I get home and decided to go to bed, and about an hour into laying down (approx), I get the call about my Aunt.
I was already thinking about retreating back to cutting day prior, its just all of the stress at work, my Aunt dying, and my boss saying I couldnt go (which was more stress related and induced he said later)---it just sort of overwhelmed me at first. But, usually I can chug to one side and think things over and pull out the "chill strap" on myself and rock on......which I have done. I had planned to go speak with him after about 24 hours (let the days activities at work die down) but my wife got to him first.
My Wife......ROCKS..........She is my idol.
Best wishes to all of you.
Again Thank ALL OF YOU!
Chillen
He is from India and his viewpoints can be rather complex and sometimes irrational and self-serving (and I realize not all persons from India are like this). But, he can be generous if employees do good for his business.
I was rather stressed the last few days over my Aunts death. Were were very close, and have talked every week on Sunday ever since I moved out of the house and moved to Kansas (well over 25 years ago), and I have taken at least one vacation per year just to spend a week with her. If there was Dr Phil.......in the female side....she was it.....I love her. Alot of who I am today, is due to her. I will miss her more than anyone will ever know.
I was rather stressed the last few days over my Aunts death. Were were very close, and have talked every week on Sunday ever since I moved out of the house and moved to Kansas (well over 25 years ago), and I have taken at least one vacation per year just to spend a week with her. If there was Dr Phil.......in the female side....she was it.....I love her. Alot of who I am today, is due to her. I will miss her more than anyone will ever know.
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