1/20/09
Cardio this morning as I try to make it a habbit
Since I didn't get the chance to head to the gym, I did some cardio on the stationary bike instead of my Hung Gar practice or what not.
My classes for school start tommorow and right now I feel really upset because I have to take two of my classes over again. It sucks major ass because I ****ing hate school. I seriously hate the idea of measuring inteligence by using numbers and letters.
Ever since I can remember I've always hated school. I know I sound like a little kid, but it's much more than that. I hate it because I there's always a chance I could fail. Also the fact that if I screw up now it could affect my future so badily. I want to be successful and as I've said before and I'll say it a million more times, there's some things that can't be done by diet and exercise alone. I refuse to give up something that I love doing for false pride, manhood, and success.
I feel that there's lots of people who take for granted how hard they had to work to get to where they are. It's bad enough that there's people out there who were given everything and yet take it for granted. There's also people who had to work very hard to get to where they needed to be, but yet just got lucky and as a result stomp on people like me and treat us like **** when we're still trying to work real hard to get to where we need to be.
People like that were born lucky. Me though I was lucky to be born. I did have alot of help in doing things I wanted and that's something I can never take for granted. I cry a trail of many tears as well as she much blood and sweat. When I do something I want and I clearly need help for it I'll get it even if I have to make sacrifices.
Although I'm gonna keep up with my training, as well as going to the gym, I have to use better time management and plan out my meals before bed for the next day.
However one of my resolutions this year is to never give up the things I love for false pride, manhood, and other kinds of falseness. Though some things change I am still the same. Stripes on a tiger don't wash away.....