Oh MsBubbles, I really feel for you. I think just keep up the exercise for now and give yourself a break with the unhealthy stuff for the moment. When the fridge returns, order will prevail. He's like an AWOL general that was keeping a close eye on proceedings, lol.
Oh, Bubbles. You have been thrown off track. You'll get back on there soon![]()
Thanks Emilyrose and Cate! New fridge/freezer was delivered today! I feel normal again! I want to cook home meals now.
Grocery stores are so tempting when the binge demon is on the loose! For me it helps to go in very early in the morning when I still have hope and energy - of course that's not helpful when you have to source three meals a day. Maybe something like canned fish and crackers could make a reasonable shelf stable meal. Tomatoes, cucumber, and a bunch of other (botanical) fruits don't need refrigerating so they might be good to have at home to pimp up simple meals. Nuts if you're not inclined to overeat on them. I don't like salted nuts and while I do like unsalted they don't tempt me to binge. Hardboiled eggs are good to keep at room temp as well. When we went camping we sometimes brought processed cheese products as well and as long as they're far enough off real cheese they won't spoil at room temp. I'm sure you have better ideas that better fit your preferences though!
Living in Georgia (the state, not the country), there really isn't a whole lot of stuff that can be kept at room temp, unless I want to pay a fortune to keep the AC at 65 or so. And even then it'll struggle to keep it under 73 or so, I think. Food goes off and moldy here really fast. We also have a lot of humidity. So eggs, bread, tomatoes and most fruits don't last long. I also keep all my flours and sugars in the fridge to keep bugs out of them. But crackers and canned fish would work. I went through those last week
I hope you get out for that skate. I know I feel similarly so much better when I can get a proper run in.
I hope you can get your new fridge and freezer soon to help make those choices easier on you. It is tough being faced with temptations--I am the same with when sugar is around me!
I did! I did get out for a skate yesterday morning! I felt like a whole new person afterwards. It really is magical. My brain works again and I am no longer wandering around aimlessly, trying to think of what to do. Sounds crazy. I don't know what this condition is. "Stupid-without-exercise-syndrome".
I have found "health" foods just as easy to binge on as any. In fact some of the so called health foods are pretty calorie rich...
You are no idiot, and you are trying your best. I am impressed with your insights and the progress you are making. More than a lot of folks. Go easy on yourself girl!
Hah! I WISH I could binge on healthy foods! If I did, I'm pretty sure that would just mean I was finally starving. Thanks for the encouragement, Alligatorob.
My updates:
- New fridge-freezer today! Yay! Clean. Ready for healthy foods.
- Skated 14 miles yesterday. After an hour I felt my brain shift back to normal function again, but kept going until I could feel my leg muscles really working and/or I ran out of water, or it got too hot. So I ended up quitting about 20 mins after that. All day yesterday I felt happy and unstoppable. Couldn't go this morning due to fridge being delivered but hope to go again tomorrow morning where the temps and humidity will be lower than normal again, as long as I'm done by 10am, when it'll be a cool 83 F.
- Feel even more committed to throwing myself into an 'as whole foods as possible' way of eating for various reasons. But the main reason is I'm fed up with my junky diet showing up as junk on my body. I plan on whipping up some batches of treats and bread alternatives for myself.