The temperature graph this morning said 72 degrees F, so after 25 long days, I went for a skate and was done by 9am! But boy the humidity was off the charts. Anyway, it felt SO good to get the all-over blood flow again, especially through all those big muscles (glutes, quads, hams, etc.). I feel like I'm back in my body again, after three weeks of feeling completely removed from life. Skating makes me so happy, and makes me naturally want to eat the best quality foods.
Thanks EmilyRose! I've forgotten how to quote multiple people in one message. I liked what you wrote about being 'back' in shorts and bikini, and it started me thinking (uh-oh!). I guess it has been about 5 years since I felt like I could wear shorts (I know I should just wear them and the heck with what anybody thinks), and I have absolutely no idea when the last time was I attempted to wear a bikini! It has to be probably over 25 years ago. And even then it was a full-bottomed/shorts type. I'd be fine with that now too actually. I might still have it around here somewhere... But it's fun to think about because it would be a dream come true to be able to wear one in a way that wouldn't totally horrify me. I know it's achievable and the excitement for that gives me a lot of motivation. I grew up near the beach and was on it a lot and I miss it so much, but haven't wanted to go since feeling so horrified about my stomach. I know this is ridiculous. But that's the way it is inside my head. I've given up wasting that energy trying to talk myself out of it. I'll give it my best shot and then after that if I still feel bad about my stomach and thighs, then I will work on just getting over it already. But I know I can make a huge difference just by sticking to healthy eating and my favorite exercise patterns for a few months.
Cate: sorry for that US-centricity
. I'm used to 'Georgia' meaning the country Georgia, and the state being GA. The mountains in N GA really are beautiful but I am not a hiker. I'd have to drive a few hours to get there, then hike, which doesn't do a whole lot for me. I'd rather spend the time and effort skating 30 miles. I'd love an excuse to go to the mountains though (actually by my formerly British standards, most of them are just hills, but as you start to get into the bottom of the 400 mile stretch of Blue Ridge, they become mountains). Yes, the coast does get the odd hurricane I guess, but not often. We get the remnants at times here 250 miles inland, which although downgraded to tropical storms by then, can be very damaging. I experienced a tornado in 1998, which was an absolute buzz. Luckily lives and property were preserved. But it was wild.
Yes, AlligatoRob! I do remember you from back then! I guess it wasn't as long ago as I thought it was that I had a journal here, if you joined in 2019! As for the steroids, they were treating me for pneumonia. I felt SO bad before taking the meds, that if both lots of antibiotics and the steroids hurt me, I didn't notice! Comparatively speaking, I felt like a million bucks! It's been three days now since I finished all courses and I haven't had any relapses. And yeah...binges. Much like even one bout of heat exhaustion these days, just one binge is immensely damaging to me, so I live in a way as to avoid them. Meaning, I no longer go by numbers or counting things, but how I feel. I guess if I had to pidgeon-hole it, it'd be 'intuitive eating'. But really, it's just eating in a way I did when I was a kid. I was not overweight by any stretch then. It's a delicate balance and I prefer to live life creatively, moment to moment. However! This means I really cannot have any kinds of multiple packs of binge foods in the house, as I will eat the entire pack in one sitting. If I want something, I'll have to drive to the store and get it. Most of the time I can't be bothered!
Thanks Llama! I ended up not working out at all yesterday due to meal timing and evening activities, and that's fine.
I appreciate the comment, Liza3! Back at the workouts again today, hopefully.
Thanks EmilyRose! I've forgotten how to quote multiple people in one message. I liked what you wrote about being 'back' in shorts and bikini, and it started me thinking (uh-oh!). I guess it has been about 5 years since I felt like I could wear shorts (I know I should just wear them and the heck with what anybody thinks), and I have absolutely no idea when the last time was I attempted to wear a bikini! It has to be probably over 25 years ago. And even then it was a full-bottomed/shorts type. I'd be fine with that now too actually. I might still have it around here somewhere... But it's fun to think about because it would be a dream come true to be able to wear one in a way that wouldn't totally horrify me. I know it's achievable and the excitement for that gives me a lot of motivation. I grew up near the beach and was on it a lot and I miss it so much, but haven't wanted to go since feeling so horrified about my stomach. I know this is ridiculous. But that's the way it is inside my head. I've given up wasting that energy trying to talk myself out of it. I'll give it my best shot and then after that if I still feel bad about my stomach and thighs, then I will work on just getting over it already. But I know I can make a huge difference just by sticking to healthy eating and my favorite exercise patterns for a few months.
Cate: sorry for that US-centricity
. I'm used to 'Georgia' meaning the country Georgia, and the state being GA. The mountains in N GA really are beautiful but I am not a hiker. I'd have to drive a few hours to get there, then hike, which doesn't do a whole lot for me. I'd rather spend the time and effort skating 30 miles. I'd love an excuse to go to the mountains though (actually by my formerly British standards, most of them are just hills, but as you start to get into the bottom of the 400 mile stretch of Blue Ridge, they become mountains). Yes, the coast does get the odd hurricane I guess, but not often. We get the remnants at times here 250 miles inland, which although downgraded to tropical storms by then, can be very damaging. I experienced a tornado in 1998, which was an absolute buzz. Luckily lives and property were preserved. But it was wild.Yes, AlligatoRob! I do remember you from back then! I guess it wasn't as long ago as I thought it was that I had a journal here, if you joined in 2019! As for the steroids, they were treating me for pneumonia. I felt SO bad before taking the meds, that if both lots of antibiotics and the steroids hurt me, I didn't notice! Comparatively speaking, I felt like a million bucks! It's been three days now since I finished all courses and I haven't had any relapses. And yeah...binges. Much like even one bout of heat exhaustion these days, just one binge is immensely damaging to me, so I live in a way as to avoid them. Meaning, I no longer go by numbers or counting things, but how I feel. I guess if I had to pidgeon-hole it, it'd be 'intuitive eating'. But really, it's just eating in a way I did when I was a kid. I was not overweight by any stretch then. It's a delicate balance and I prefer to live life creatively, moment to moment. However! This means I really cannot have any kinds of multiple packs of binge foods in the house, as I will eat the entire pack in one sitting. If I want something, I'll have to drive to the store and get it. Most of the time I can't be bothered!
Thanks Llama! I ended up not working out at all yesterday due to meal timing and evening activities, and that's fine.
I appreciate the comment, Liza3! Back at the workouts again today, hopefully.
. I had been out for July 4th and came back around 10pm. Had to throw it all out there and then and take whatever was salvageable to my daughter's to put in her freezer. No way was I going to throw out a brand new package of Ezekiel bread, for example. That's the only bread I can eat that doesn't give me unpleasant reactions and is kind of expensive. I am a renter though so the fridge costs are not on me. And my poor landlord went out of town for 4th July and has to deal with this. They are very sweet people.
I try to avoid wheat/gluten as much as possible due to stomach bloat but this morning I'm reaping what I sowed last night. Today will be an exercise in not self-loathing, because that will just make me overeat all over again. As a bonus, my rings are now too tight and it feels like my eyeballs are floating, just above the puffy circles under my eyes. Thanks Chinese Food!