Mel Def's Journal

Cardio... 80-85% of max HR. Did the Versaclimber, treadmill and BIKE! 42 minutes total. 6.2 on the Versaclimber. That thing kicks my butt.

Treadmill intervals 6.2 jog to 9.5 run but I lessened the time on the jog and did more sets of full run for 15 minutes. finished with intervals on the bike ( which I NEVER use) which was a good change. Man that thing feels different. I am still pooped from that. NOt to mention getting up and the intolerable hour of 5 to get ready for Gaby's meet.

Observation... almonds have to stay in in small quantities. Stave off the cravings and seem to help everything. Veggies are my friend and I have been eating so many. I think it helps my metabolism. :) We shall see. I did eat a ribeye tonight. I was craving red meat and there it was. That beautiful grass fed thing was worth the extra cardion I will need to put in for eating it. :D Yum.
 
Been following a plan of 3 days on and a day of rest that seems to promote more growth and hrader work for the days on. I will continue to see how this works but I like it. Adds to my quality of life, makes me feel better and not so moody and overtrained and I see more definition.

So off today, but still contracting muscles and doing some posing which is a workout in itself. I can pose so much better now. I see the shape of my legs really coming along and feel leaner and harder even without all the fat off. Lower abdominals still carrying some but not also the obliques are much more developed.

Since I have upped the veg I burn up at night. I keep the house at 62 degrees at night and have to peel back the covers I'm so HOT. MY body is working hard and the metabolims is stoked up.

I am about to get off my fear and call Roc. I have to do it so I can commit and move forward for the end goal. MY brain is scared- am I ready to compete with the big dogs when I didn't even make top 3 in my first one? Why not go all the way and just make up my mind that I can do it. Is it better to be a small fish in a big pond or vice versa? I know the answer. So the road comes to a turn and I have to decide. Be mediocre and play on the little field or brave up and face failure on the big stage? I can do this but only with a trainer and a great one. I have come up with good reasons- money, time, distance but now answers and solutions are presented so excuses must come to an end. Do I want it bad enough? Yes. I do.
 
Monday was upper body and abs Tuesday was Legs. Day 2 of the Pauline Diet I got online. Lordy. What a lot of fiber. BUt I do get full. What I should do is incorporate what works for me into my life and take out the parts that don't. I see her concept by the sample but some of the stuff is too much for me. Too much food!

2 days in a row I have slept through my alarm after a restless night sleep and feel very sore and not good. I know this is a signal I am overdoing it in the gym but I want RESULTS. I didn't do well at cardio last night. Too tired.

The different diet is having a unpleasant side effect on me appearance wise. This happen everytime I do something new, I get reaction look. Pah. Also since I did legs yesterday, they look swollen and not so hot today.

It will be fine but it a reminder to be patient and enjoy the climb instead of fussing about the top of the mountain. I will enjoy the path to my destination. I have come so far and learned so much. I have to count the good things. I will.
 
Off today... I slept badly and then overslept my alarm. I am incredibly sore. I feel tender to touch to be honest and after the kids go to bed I will soak in epsom salts. I am listening to my body and it is telling me to rest. I never believe in overtraining but perhaps I should.

Any how, cry my a freakin river. I am resting and all will be well tomorrow. I will train and feel marvelous again. New diet is going well I think. Certainly filling with all the veg. Having just the one serving a day of the starch is fine and keeps the cravings for them down. This is a good thing. I look forward to seeing how it effects my goals but this time I am sticking for an entire week to the letter to see what happens instead of freaking out and switching it up. This way I can either truly cross it off the list or go on and tweak here and there.
 
Mel Def said:
Off today... I slept badly and then overslept my alarm. I am incredibly sore. I feel tender to touch to be honest and after the kids go to bed I will soak in epsom salts. I am listening to my body and it is telling me to rest. I never believe in overtraining but perhaps I should.

Any how, cry my a freakin river. I am resting and all will be well tomorrow. I will train and feel marvelous again. New diet is going well I think. Certainly filling with all the veg. Having just the one serving a day of the starch is fine and keeps the cravings for them down. This is a good thing. I look forward to seeing how it effects my goals but this time I am sticking for an entire week to the letter to see what happens instead of freaking out and switching it up. This way I can either truly cross it off the list or go on and tweak here and there.
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Good luck with the soreness etc Its not nice but the power of positive thought should get you through it :sleeping2:
 
wow, I've been going through similiar stuff as you but on a much smaller scale. Been sleeping a lot here, like 14 hrs a day and feeling sore (more than normal). Wow, I hope you feel better. Cheering you on in spirit; keep fighting the good fight.
 
Coming together... Roc contacted me I filled out the info and we will meet to get this party started! I am SO amp'd about this I cannot believe it.

Had an awesome leg workout last night, pushed through some grueling deads, good mornings and split squats using the O bar. That is so tuff of me. :) I felt pretty good but was a bit wobbly on the splits since I was seriously fatigued. I don't rest enough between sets I think and therefore can't do as much as if I did. Slogged through the cardio- elliptical, stepper and Versalimber ( omly about 2 minutes on that sucker) Ugh. I got good and sweaty and was seeing stars anyway from the leg stuff. I left feeling like I had given it my all though which is what counts. Also did leg curls and single/ dbl leg press. Not too sore today. I know it will hit hard tomorrow.

Heading in to do some cardio. I am taking it easy and not killing myself. Keep heart rate around 140- 160. M legs get so swollen when I do crazy cardio the day after and I get deeply depressed from feeling fat and disgusting. Not sure it's all that great for the recovery piece at any rate.

Ate wheat bran egg whites and veg this AM. Going to have some oats and PWO when I come back from the gym. I love Saturdays at the gym. Ahhhh.

Really must resist my dairy overload tendencies. They make me bloat and I do love to see cuts and not SMOOTH. That Greek yogurt is an evil temptress. Diet otherwise is going great! I love the veg and I can tell my metabolism is revved up because I am a burning inferno at night when I am sleeping. Chug along and get er done. I feel wonderful today.
 
So after 1 good day I felt like crap emotionally last night and took off from training. Guilt has ensued and what a wast of time that is. I am in a funk and being negative. Sigh.

Weighed this AM. I was UP. Crap. I wrote up my goal and the things I have to remember to reach it and am going to weigh every day again. Go back to what works. I suppose it is valuable to try different things and see how they go but I have become counterproductive and I have to get the things in place that I know will work.

I know I have built muscle but I have gained FAT too. I hate that. Deep breath. Getting on course. I can do this. IT isn't the end of the world. It seems like 10 pounds is 100 the way it has gone these last months. I have a deeper connection to that then just pounds. It makes me feel like a failure. Period. How can I be so undiscplined? Am I weak? I want this and have to get there but figuring out how is becoming harder instead of easier. Ultimately I know that I will have to commit and have a trainer. I wish my refund would come and I could plunk down my money and get on board. Hurry!

I will do Legs tonight. I will train hard and I will stick to the meal plan for the day with NO deviation. It isn't worth the feeling of failure. Drink some water and keep busy. :) I can do this shall be my mantra.
 
Weak? Undisciplined? Stop The Madness, Mel !!! You are an amazing, driven, focused woman. The only emotions you should be feeling are pride, happiness, and contenment on a job truly well done.

You can do it. Edit: You Will do it. I have no doubt in my mind.

Chin up girl, everyone should strive to have the intensity and desire to better themselves that you do.

Mel, You Rock. Period. :)

Have a great day and go kick some serious ass on your next workout.
 
Mel Def said:
So after 1 good day I felt like crap emotionally last night and took off from training. Guilt has ensued and what a wast of time that is. I am in a funk and being negative. Sigh.
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I have had this happen to me many times however I have found that if you can somehow find the strength in you to at least show up to the gym, then 9 times outta 10 you can work through these issues.

I have had some of the best workouts I have ever had on the days I was emotionally drained and draggin ass, as long as I made it to the gym. You'll get through it - I'm sure of it.
 
I did show up and did legs but I can't say it was one of my best workouts. I am so fatigued lately and when exercise loses its magic it is time to figure that out. Cardio I couldn't manage my full time. I felt awful and weak. I quit after 12 minutes and my heart rate never got over 135. Terrible.

On an up note I was down under my danger weight. LOL. I now repeat a mantra in my head for my goal lest I forget... I am steering clear of the Peanut Butter Capn Crunch that seems to beckon me like a siren from the top of the fridge. That tempting bastard. Yep, although mostly I eat cabbage, chicken and assorted healthy fare, when I want to get crazy it is highly processed children's cereal that calls out to me. Capn Crunch isn't all that high in calories for a serving size but MY serving size is different. Plus the fact that I like to add a heaping serving of Muscle Milk powder on top and cover in almond milk. For shame. But darn that is a good thing. :) Anyhow, counter to my goal and shelved for now.

Weekends with the kids are always rough for my cravings but I am determined and also hitting the gym prior to daycare pick up so I can do something fun with them tonight. Gaby has gymnastics practice in the AM so I will hit it bright and early then.

I am tempted to work legs again tonight. I didn't get the swollen up burn this AM which tells me I was light in the effort. Tomorrow would be better... thinking about that.

Doing upper body would be good today, lots of dips and curls and heavy on the back and chest. I love to do shoulders so much I am thinking of doing them on their own day. I love shoulders work. When I work back and chest I am tired and don't get the shoulders as hard as I want. Anyhow, here I am with a bright new day ahead of me and the chance to do it right. I am taking it and giving it my all.
 
Mel Def said:
I am steering clear of the Peanut Butter Capn Crunch that seems to beckon me like a siren from the top of the fridge. That tempting bastard.
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and that quote should end with "My cereal does NOT cut the roof of your mouth!"

Why would you want to eat a cereal that cuts the roof of your mouth? :p
 
hahahahahaha. Too funny!!! I love it even when it does cut the roof of my mouth. :)

Excellent workout tonight. Not so much on the cardio really but worked back and chest like a MONSTER I was popping and pumped like crazy. LUV seeing that. . Plus my shipment from BB.Com came in and guess what? They accidentally filled my order TWICE!!!! Woo Hoo! TWO tubs of Zero Impact Protein, plus two bottles of Hydroxycut and two bottles of Rhodiola and all the free samples too for the price of one. What a happy thing. I knocked my knee on my desk so hard at work that it hurts awfully. Felt like I had broken my knee cap- I saw stars and stuff. :( Anyhow that made for some gingerly moves with cardio but I did it and kept the heart rate up decently in the 140-155 range so not terrible.

My chest hurts a bit on one side but I won't do chest til Monday so I am sure I will recover. Hitting legs tomorrow namely glutes and hams. Not deads though since I really worked back.

Let's see.... I will do squats, kickbacks, lying leg curls, seated curls, and throw in some sumo squats with the db. And I will do intervals on the treadmill although I really would like to go and do stadiums with the weather so nice. I will see what the knee is feeling like.
 
Chest still hurts but less. Took off yesterday. Idiot overdid it. Bah. Oh well. It will be ok. I have to get pics of my back. I can't see it dammit. May get Gaby to take some.

Today is glute and ham day. Sounds like a sandwich. :) I have had the worst tude because of my personal life and I am stopping. I have no control over others and their crap so I might as well focus on my own, take responsibility and get excited about life again. I have gotten a line on taking ballroom dancing! Woohoo! It looks fun although I am not coordinated at all so we shall see. It is worth and shot.

I am carbed up, loaded some heavy duty good tunes on the Pod and ready for action today. Nothing will stop me from realizing my full potential. Capn Crunch has been asked to leave. He is a troublemaker and of no use to my leaning efforts. :D
 
An exciting thought... I am always creating a better me! I know I knew this but I forget and need reminding... also read this this morning and I liked it.

" The point of work shouldn’t be just to finish. The point of work should be the work itself."

The point is the journey. We can say that 1000's of ways but we must feel it in our hearts. The accomplishments are a good incentive but we have to feel the learning along the way or we can't sustain the action.

Yesterday was very good for legs. The new music helped. I also got a new OnFitness Mag. Lots of good stuff in there. Leg training will be done 3 times this week. Burns the most fat and produces the results. Plus my chest STILL hurts. Upsetting but surely not permanent. Take it easy on the bench press and no decline bench until no more pain.

I am highly critical of my physique but this AM depsite not feeling my leanest, I noticed good things. My the muscles are getting more mature and better! It is such a difference. I think when I was 20 and skinny how soft my stomach was and now how the skin around my belly button is pulled down taut from the muscles. That makes me want to hug myself. This once soft and squishy body is so much better. Sure leaning out is still ahead but what lies underneath is evident even to my critical and never good enough eye.

So a pat on the back and a kick in the a** for all the time I have wasted being mad for falling off the wagon or not being a size 0. I am strong and powerful. Sounds like bragging but holding that in my mind brings tears to my eyes. I won't be stopped and whatever I want to do, I do it. There is nothing I can't take on. I am so lucky to have this body to make what I want out of. So there.

Easing cardio back up to intervals but the chest and pain make that a bit challenging. I will listen to my body and not risk hurting myself. If my chest still hurts at the end of the week I will make an appointment to see the Dr. Shouldn't come to that but have to take care of myself.
 
It ain't bragging if you can do it. And you certainly are doing it. I hope you know how much of a motivator you are. Keep kicking A$$ and taking names.

Rich
 
Good luck with the ballroom dancing! It's exciting to try something new. I've always wanted to try something like that. And you are not bragging...you need to lift yourself up. You are a beautiful, strong, determined woman and you will get to where you want to be. Keep up the great work!
 
Yesterday I did not do chest work or back just to be safe and MY CHEST HURTS WORSE. Darn it. I have resported to taking Excedrin which I hate to do but what else can I do? I don't even want to get out of bed and since I have a living to earn I am afraid I must. Hmph.

I did well on the bicep and tricep work but I guess I should not do anymore upper body this week since it's aggravating this injury. What is with all this pain lately? Bad form? I am careful to use good form but admittedly I do lift heavier than I should at times when I am feeling a bit excited and impatient. Now look what that does. Makes it so I can't lift AT ALL. Live and learn. Patience is not my strong suit and I NEED a trainer. Ugh. I cannot wait to get my tax refund. Hurry up IRS.

So legs today. I have a good interval workout for the recumbent bike that I am going to try out from OnFitness. So funny. I avoid those bikes because I always see the lazy magazine readers pedaling along with their big guts. I cannot wait to sit down and pedal like a maniac next to those lazy bones. :p

So on with the day! It is beautiful and life is good.
 
Today was AWESOME! Leg day extraordinare! I did a circuit with intervals of 5 minute high intensity cardio worked in to my sets. I pushed out sets then scrambled to the cardio room and cranked up the resistance on whatever I was doing, got the HR up to 165 til the 5 were over then ran back in the circuit room to do some sets. Then down to the free weight room where i di Plie and deep squats- 8 sets of 10 and then pummeled out as many leg extensions as I could handle. HR stayed in the 135-165 range most of the 90 minutes!!!! I felt like I was going to puke and wanted to cry and quit a few times but didn't I LOVE that. Hard core. Ahhhh. People looked at me funny since I was running around, knitted brow and red faced but who cares? When my butt looks like it was chiseled from granite theyll be jeal-ous. Yup. :D I got a lot more running for that to be the case but I give myself a point for the day. Woot.
 
Ugh. My chest freakin hurts. Taking the day off although it's hard since I feel bloated and icky and ultra smooth. Bleh. This is leg day consequence though so I should be used to it. I get swollen and gross and there you have it.

I am tweaking diet today. This eat all the veg you want thing is not working. Sigh. It's back to the regular but I guess I had to find out. Hmmm. Well atleast I have reeled in before disaster. I am over my danger weight which I despise but I went to my defense tools and will gain control back. I am comforting myself with the fact I have probably built some muscle by giving my body this extra energy. Yeah buddy. The weather is warming up and a pooch in my bikini is unacceptable. Plus at the end of the month I go to training for a week and I surely don't need people in bank mgmt seeing me in anything but the most fabulous light.

My clothes feel AWFUL. Darn it. :( Why is it so darn hard to lose weight this time?
 
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