Your therapist sounds so good, M.
Finding a good farmers' market would be excellent. We have a small fruit & veggie store, run by Mennonites, & they grow a lot of their own stuff & that's always good. Everything is so much more expensive at the moment. Yay for rain forecast & some relief from the hot weather. Tomorrow is our winter solstice & I am looking forward to thinking we'll be moving towards longer days xo
I'm so glad you'll be getting more sun and warmth! It's our summer solstice tomorrow, and I always think of when I lived in Santa Barbara and helped work on a summer solstice float of Godzilla for the Summer Solstice Parade of floats through downtown. Happy memory! I think I will find a nice farmer's market. There is a really good farm stand down the road, but it's so expensive. It's where I got the amazing tomatoes that provided the seeds for the ones in the garden now. Thank goodness for my therapist. She has me tell her all the weird stuff and strategizes with me, but also has me focus on what's good here and on my plans and dreams, and she helps me focus on K's well being and how to help her through everything. I feel like there is a lot of craziness and confrontation in society at the moment (the US just implemented a mandatory military draft, for instance) and in the world at large now (and Llama, I do know it's been the case in a lot of other periods, too!
) but that we are stronger than all of that because we want truth and love and reality to prevail. I feel good that I was nice to J's sister who probably does not know that she is being used, but I also am not going to allow her to keep pestering K, who panics when she has to answer the sister's texts.
Fruit&veggies at the grocery store are rarely fresh and because of that they're never picked/harvested ripe either. Which is understandable but still a shame. Good to hear your therapist is on the ball and you can really unload there!
Thanks Llama, I'm so lucky to have someone who really gets J's illness. I have been thinking of buying less but better quality food. There is an expensive store with much better produce, and I think I'll go there for on-sale produce and also try farmer's markets. I also need to get protein powder and more tofu and just buy good meat but not as often. I just got a lot of tofu and froze half. I like the texture of tofu after it's frozen and thawed, and it takes marinades well when in that state.
I have been feeling pangs of loneliness now that K has a bunch of friends and activities she does on her own. I decided to view this as totally separate from the J thing, and just learn to adjust to being single and more on my own again. I am really wanting to travel in Mexico, so will get a nice book on that to read to me and K, and I loved the trial version of Rosetta Stone, so will do that every day. I really want to live overseas when I retire, and the Latin American countries are very budget friendly and intriguing, so I am going to learn Spanish as well as possible. I meditated badly twice last night and listened to a prerecorded broadcast from my old Buddhist teacher who is retired now. He is very hard to follow because he is very intellectual, and I am more emotional, but I see that what he describes in very abstract terms, I feel as states of solidarity and oneness with humanity generally. He is talking about agape (brotherly love) and feeling common humanity, but he describes it in these tricky terms like non-duality (meaning we are not just separate selves wandering the planet alone and isolated, but nor are we just universal consciousness devoid of individuality). Anyway, I am feeling in solidarity this morning, and I hope everyone has a great day and good relationship with their food and bodies!!
! I hope R can settle down at his home and nice community there and really get a sense of self-sufficiency again. I think K is going to love living on her own. She is an extrovert and will probably live with a lot of happy musicians and people like that. I used to love visiting musician households in college. They know how to make it feel like a community and all they have to do is pick up their guitars! I will adapt - I am an ultra introvert, and I do savor alone time usually. It's just a very sudden change. Thanks for the love and compliments! 