Dinner sounds great and I'm really glad you have a good therapist and got something out of the session.
Thanks Em! It really helps having someone who not only understands, but who, from helping a lot of clients who have gone through this, actually tells me to be more on the lookout for weirdness. She also talks about what I am doing well, which is so nice. Being on this forum has helped me so much to see that I am a normal person with a normal amount of intelligence. Living with my mom and J really had me feeling like I am not smart enough to navigate the world on my own, and you all and my therapist really give me a confidence boost that I will be fine.
I was serious & then thought it was a bit presumptuous of me so pretended I was joking. You'll be better prepared next time & more aware of the danger signals.
Your therapist sounds great. I'm glad you found her.
I thought Succotash was a made-up word for Sylvester the cat. I just looked it up. It sounds delicious.
Thanks Cate! I do think that narcissists are very sneaky and will present as so wonderful, and it does take quite a few people at times to see if someone is genuine and authentic. I think there were many signs, but every single person including therapists around me told me I was imagining things. I won't let my instincts get overridden like that again, that's for sure! Southern succotash is the most delicious dish ever. I made mine more flavored with sage and parmesan, not southern, but it was almost as good! And it was nice to discover that you can cook unripe winter squash up and it has the texture half way between winter and summer squash.
Sounds reasonable, but don't rely too much on advice from folks who have never met you or your friends face to face. I am always happy to give such advice, but hope its not really relied on. On the other hand some times just talking things through can help you think them through.
Makes all the grief well worth while, doesn't it!
You are really approaching this thing rationally, I have no doubt it will turn out well for you!
His being angry and weird should be to your advantage. Your calm rational approach is much better.
Thanks Rob. I really appreciate having different perspectives, and I like when those help me to see clearer or from a different perspective or paradigm. The older I get, the more I see how much I don't know, and that's good, because it means I'll never be bored. There are so many things to contemplate and explore! I won't let other people's perspectives override my own as I did with how everyone thought that J was the most amazing partner, when I really knew better. I really learned that lesson!! I think you have a great point about being angry making you careless and not think things through vs being rational and seeing what really could be possible.
I'm glad the deer at least left you something! haha
So great you have such a good therapist. I love that you have that sort of support in your life right now!
And lovely about getting some good meditation and yoga time as well!
Thanks Liza! The deer even ate the tops off my horseradish, but I am really glad they don't like my green onions! I need to harvest herbs for tea, too. I have really nice lavender, mint, ginger, lemon grass, and maybe even turmeric that should be harvested before it freezes here. I'm really excited to see if I have 2 kinds of ginger or if some of the turmeric made it. The meditation and yoga have been life savers. I don't think I've ever been this stressed out, and they are really helping to keep it manageable.
There is a flash flood warning for our area this morning, and I am watching it pour down rain and then let up all morning. There's sporadic thunder and lightening and a big strong gust of wind will come and move all the trees around once in a while. It's quite beautiful to watch and listen to. There is also a lovely white egret who keeps flying back and forth over the marsh. I wonder if it's building a nest. I decided to have a more mellow week where I let K sleep in as much as she wants and stay up as late as she wants. She's been working on her portfolio with interruptions from me to do a little other work.
This has really helped, and I have way more energy because I am not fighting her to get up or to go to bed and I got a lot of house work done. I also brought in some sweet potatoes that were in tubs that didn't get planted out this year. I put more dirt in the tubs and will plant them in the spring after it warms up. They are special kinds from the Asian market that I really love. I want to take some slips with me to plant at the next place. I have a weird attachment to my plants and would take samples of everything with me if I could afford to!!
Our little treadmill came in and it works great! We are both so sore from being stressed, so are walking on it instead of running. We may have a touch of something and maybe this isn't just stress - hard to tell, but the treadmill is going to work great! It has big ball bearing wheels where if you tilt it up, one person can move it around easily. Anyway, I am so enjoying the rain and am so happy that K is engaged in schoolwork now. We are studying macroeconomics now, which is more like sociology and less like business, so we are finding this interesting. I am listening to a video on someone who studied both economics and ecology, and he says that cheap energy will be on the decline in Ks lifetime, and that he hopes we'll all learn to live with less for the environment's sake. He says all this in fascinating ways as he has such a beautiful wholistic vision of nature as a massive system that the human economic system relies on. I like wholistic thinkers.
