Wrong J, Shrinkipoothe last therapist I went to thought J walked on water
I don't think she can answer that because she isn't his therapist and can't diagnose him, let alone look inside him and know his reasons for doing things. It also doesn't matter all that much how he feels about things, unless you plan to get back with him. Which you won't, because he clearly isn't a safe person. The whole "there's good in him, I've felt it" is irrelevant as long as he has proven he's done hurting people. All that matters is to get him to DO the right things for as long as you're dependent upon him.I did ask her if there is a good part of J who does nice things for us, or if he is really incapable of truly caring for people. She didn't answer. I could tell that she wants me to figure that out myself. I suspect she doesn't think J capable of empathy, so he is not going to genuinely be a good person.
I agree too. Maybe we are carrying too much guilt. You do have to hope. I have faith in young people.Oh, another thing the therapist said is that Generation Z is going to save the world. I told her I agree, and that they have all this compassion and empathy. She agreed and said that they are facing all the issues that we are facing, but they don't have the angst that we do. I thought that was interesting. Maybe the age of narcissism will herald in an age of compassion. One can only hope!
You are brilliant, I love that you called my last therapist who sided with J "Shrinkipoo", plus nice walk on water joke! Also thank you for bringing sanity to my thought processes. I have been trying to figure out if there is a redeemable part of J in there in order to figure out how I should treat him, but you are so right, I just need to watch what he does and protect us accordingly. It doesn't matter if he is being horrible on purpose or unconsciously! Thanks Llama!!!Wrong J, Shrinkipoo
I don't think she can answer that because she isn't his therapist and can't diagnose him, let alone look inside him and know his reasons for doing things. It also doesn't matter all that much how he feels about things, unless you plan to get back with him. Which you won't, because he clearly isn't a safe person. The whole "there's good in him, I've felt it" is irrelevant as long as he has proven he's done hurting people. All that matters is to get him to DO the right things for as long as you're dependent upon him.
I can't believe how incredibly lucky I have been finding people to help us. From a west coast litigator I called picking out my first lawyer here on the internet for me, that lawyer picking out the second lawyer, and the second lawyer picking out K's first therapist who picked out everyone else, this has been one amazingly insightful, professional, extremely helpful person after another. It is like in a movie where everything falls into place and you have this dream team of people. Honestly, I wake up some mornings in this lovely house and realize I will never live in as nice a house ever again, and now I have all these great people helping me. If it weren't for the intense horrible stress, this would be a dream life in many ways.So great to click with the therapist right away!...I know when I've gone for therapy it can be a bit of a search before you find one you connect with and that can be exhausting in itself!
I hope you like the DVD, Cate. We think it's really fun! Thanks for your comment about not carrying around more stress - I am still not sure if I should have known or not, but it isn't helping to blame myself. I just need to learn to never fall for anything like that again. I am really intrigued by my therapist. I can't wait to see how she coaches me to overcome all this. I am surrounded in lawyers and therapists who know how to outsmart narcissists, and regularly do this for a living! How totally bizarre. Meeting K's good friends, I really agree about having faith in young people. I really can't wait to see what K decides to do with psychology and technology or whatever else she decides to combine. She decided to just apply for schools that are strong in all the things she's interested in and figure it out as she goes along. That feels much better.I have ordered the DVD from our State Library, M.
Therapy sounds really good. I'm glad you found someone that you can relate to & yay for lifting that guilt from you. You do not need that.
I agree too. Maybe we are carrying too much guilt. You do have to hope. I have faith in young people.
That is so good to hear!It is like in a movie where everything falls into place and you have this dream team of people. Honestly, I wake up some mornings in this lovely house and realize I will never live in as nice a house ever again, and now I have all these great people helping me.
They 100% do, unless predators see and eat them while they're on their way back. Do you know what kind of caterpillars they are? Might be interesting to identify them and decide whether or not to let them eat your crops based on how rare the adult moths/butterflies are.I do need to be tougher on the bugs though. I hate killing the big fat colorful caterpillars, and I just throw them into the lawn, and they probably all come back into the garden!
I think that's what anxiety is about (contrasted with fear): while you wouldn't be calm if a predator swooped down to pick you off the lawn you would be completely focused on the now and possible solutions rather than fretting about every sound and shadow like you did moments earlier.I also have been thinking about how many Buddhist teachers say that much of our suffering comes from engaging too much in our thoughts about what is happening, when often what is actually happening in the moment is peaceful.
Hi Llama, I need to take a picture of the caterpillars when I see them to identify them online. They are like monarch caterpillars except more green. They are voracious and eat the entire leaf they are on before moving on, but I think they're beautiful so I won't kill them. I should bring them far away from the garden to the meadow instead though.They 100% do, unless predators see and eat them while they're on their way back. Do you know what kind of caterpillars they are? Might be interesting to identify them and decide whether or not to let them eat your crops based on how rare the adult moths/butterflies are.
I think that's what anxiety is about (contrasted with fear): while you wouldn't be calm if a predator swooped down to pick you off the lawn you would be completely focused on the now and possible solutions rather than fretting about every sound and shadow like you did moments earlier.
With anxiety, I think you are right, I am trying to control how safe we are by being constantly vigilant, but it just wears me out. I would have far more internal resources available if I stopped seeing danger in every shadow.
I love how you are looking at this, M. I can picture you in your creaky old house, making it a peaceful haven for you & K. I love your attitudeHowever, now that I found some places that are interesting and more affordable, I feel good because if I found these places, other people will soon, too, and these places will stay vibrant and interesting with any luck. If not, I just have an affordable place to live and will hopefully have a little money to travel. I am looking forward to living in a creaky old house again like I did growing up. I love houses with character.