Floater's diary

LaMaria said:
Hope you're soundly asleep right now. What are the soy knots you mentioned?
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The soy knots or yuba are made form the skim/skin that forms on top of boiled soymilk. It's dried and cut into strips, in this case knotted first. They have a mild taste, plenty of protein, and are first soaked in cold water, then the excess water is squeezed out and the knots are added to savoury dishes. Cheap, easy and tasty!

I had a bowl of miso and one soy wiener for breakfast, and I'm now having lunch: rice, tamagoyaki, red bell pepper and seaweed. This time the tamagoyaki turned out perfectly moist, but the folding part didn't quite succeed. Of course it's harder in a round pan anyway, But the taste is perfect!
 
I experimented with leftover rice and tamagoyaki, and made a small batch of ugly but tasty sushi. I had it with fresh bell pepper and had a mochi for dessert. I feel really really tired... I should probably make a more substantial meal for dinner, so I'll have energy to do some chores later
 
Floater said:
The soy knots or yuba are made form the skim/skin that forms on top of boiled soymilk. It's dried and cut into strips, in this case knotted first. They have a mild taste, plenty of protein, and are first soaked in cold water, then the excess water is squeezed out and the knots are added to savoury dishes. Cheap, easy and tasty!
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Never heard of them! Sounds cool though, and great that it isn´t getting thrown away.
Floater said:
This time the tamagoyaki turned out perfectly moist, but the folding part didn't quite succeed. Of course it's harder in a round pan anyway, But the taste is perfect!
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Sounds like something that just needs a bit of practice to get right. Cool technique to be able to show off though!
 
I had instant ramen with cheese for dinner. (The combination always reminds me of a Youtube lolcow Nicocado Avocado, but it is very satiating lol.) The carbs helped a bit, but I'm not feeling good mentally or physically. I'm contemplating canceling my therapy appointment tomorrow. I'll give myself an hour to see if I feel any better. If not, I'll postpone (if it's possible so late)
 
I cancelled mine on Tuesday and it was the correct decision for me but normally I try not to because I generally feel better after therapy. It´s tough sometimes. Good to hear you´re still eating though.
 
LaMaria said:
I cancelled mine on Tuesday and it was the correct decision for me but normally I try not to because I generally feel better after therapy. It´s tough sometimes. Good to hear you´re still eating though.
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I get it <3

This time, I called a help line to talk out the reason I've been so effed up these past two days, and decided to go to therapy no matter what. I allowed myself to get three beers to kind of keep the lid on things until tomorrow when I can talk through them properly in therapy.

I haven't talked about this here yet, but last year before and around the time I was hospitalized I was looking into the possibility of getting legal help about some of the stuff that went on in my childhood. Last year I was too sick - it was really re-traumatizing to go back to those experiences - and had to postpone talking to a lawyer. This week I've been looking into what options I have (as my funds are obviously very limited), and today I booked an appointment via the public legal aid system in my hometown. While the worst of the abuse stuff isn't documented anywhere (as it rarely ever is), I believe a case could be made based on unpaid (child) labor and copyright issues, both of which there's material evidence of. There's something hilariously fucked up about the fact that copyright/immaterial rights are much stronger rights than almost any other - for all of the other stuff the statute of limitations has passed, but that one could still make a case.

Not that it's certain in any way yet. But I already know of one lawyer who is willing to do consultation if the public system doesn't take this. But that requires quite a bit of money, so let's see this option through at first.

I think I'll just keep things simple and make more ramen later. Days like this are why comfort food isn't always a bad idea.
 
🧸 (Please pretend that's a hug emoji as I don't like the one we have available here now.) Sounds like you've been through some tough shit dude. I hope you can get some justice, even if it's decades late and only ceremonial. Also: nothing wrong with comfort food at all, especially when the alternative is no comfort AND no food.
 
LaMaria said:
🧸 (Please pretend that's a hug emoji as I don't like the one we have available here now.) Sounds like you've been through some tough shit dude. I hope you can get some justice, even if it's decades late and only ceremonial. Also: nothing wrong with comfort food at all, especially when the alternative is no comfort AND no food.
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Thank you. I try to keep my expectations realistic. Still figured it's better to at least try!

On a lighter note: I found a very bingeable Netflix supernatural horror series to help me pass the time and redirect me from the anxiety. It's called "Things Heard & Seen" and it hits all the right buttons for me. That, matcha, and ramen = I'll survive
 
Floater said:
On a lighter note: I found a very bingeable Netflix supernatural horror series to help me pass the time and redirect me from the anxiety.
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:rotflmao: Sounds like the exact opposite of what I'd want to see but if it works for you...

I agree that trying is a good idea, if only to be able to say to yourself that you did what you could.
 
Oh well, the copyright thing fell through as well. But now I know and I have turned that stone.

Therapy was good. And I had tofu, rice, zuchhini and mushrooms for breakfast.
 
Eating has been hard today. Just fed Nera my tamagoyiaki which I sneaked a test strip of first - would have been fine for human consumption, as I prepared it yesterday and put in the fridge right away - but she LOVED it. Of course this is not a snack to be given to dogs regularly, as it contains a pinch of sugar, but she was really interested in the snack. And it had plenty of good fats and protein to balance out the pinch of sugar.

I will eat today. Rye bread if nothing else sticks.
 
Cate said:
Hope you have a good day, Floater. Are you catching up with any friends this weekend? :grouphug:
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Aww thank you Cate!

This weekend is going to be just me, doing chores, getting mentally prepared to Tuesday (trans clinic call). But I think it's good. I get to spend time with my dog and gather energy for Tuesday.

I had a lovely bowl of fried plantain earlier. My protein intake today was very low, but I'll catch up tomorrow!
 
Sometimes we just need to regroup & build up our mental strength. My dog is on my lap right now & I'm taking him with me today. I'm always happier when he's with me.
I hope your weekend is restorative.
 
My morning started with very annoying news. There are two places in Finland that diagnose trans folks. One of them - in Helsinki - requires autistic people to undergo MANDATORY sexual therapy from 6 months to 24 months to ensure they understand what gender is. The other place in Tampere doesnt.

Guess which one I'm a client of?

To add insult to injury, they don't evaluate an autistic's need for sexual therapy. They operate on the presumption that autism prevents a person from conceptualizing gender and putting their gender expression into words meaningfully, without being taught to by a sex therapist. 🤢

Buuttt only if you live in the capital city area. Other autistics are fine. 🤡
 
Thank you @Cate and @Trusylver.

Trying to keep my head together. Luckily I have assistance tomorrow, I'll clean up then. I'm making sushi rice now - my rolling technique is getting better and better.
 
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