Floater's diary

I didn't sleep quite enough - 5,5 hour-ish - but then again I slept until noon yesterday so one night with a bit less sleep isn't a huge deal.

I feel HAPPY. The sun is shining, the nature is at it's most vivid phase, I can't wait for the month to end and a new one to start so I can buy a couple of cute planters I found online. Gym day today!
 
I need another cup of coffee before leaving but I'm in the process lol :D When I get back, I'll make my next batch of red lentil stew - this time with garlic and aubergine! - and give the floors a quick wipe, and then it's time to get back to Sex Nurse Curse.
 
Gym was great! My left wrist felt a little bit unstable during some movements so I need to pay attention to it, but I feel good about my progress. 25kg seems to be my new comfort zone at the bench press: after my second set I felt like 27,5 was a bit too much, but I did the third one with 25 and it gave me no problems. (I did warm-up with 15 and started the 3 actual sets at 25, 3 reps. I usually do 3-4 sets, 4-5 reps, but as I want to up the weight, I'm doing short sets until I get to bump up my PR.)

I had my locker room porridge at the gym, and bought bananas, frozen cherries, frozen blackcurrants, scallions, and two 150g packs of gravlax on my way home. I sandwiched the gravlax between the frozen berries in my backpack, and they stayed cool, but the berries partially thawed on my way back home... Well, I'm now having 250g of cherries for an appetizer while I'm waiting for my aubergine and red lentil stew to simmer to perfection, and I prepped two bowls of overnight oats with soy protein, pumpkin seeds, blackcurrants, a bit of sugar and cinnamon, and half a banana per bowl.

Red lentil stew consists of one cubed aubergine, three cloves of garlic, Ssamyang paste, tomato paste, sweet soy sauce, mushroom soy sauce, sauerkraut for a bit of acidity, and 2dl of soaked red lentils. This batch is a whole liter, so I better work myself to an appetite, lol.
 
Meal #3: 250g of cherries, 0,5dl of soy protein mixed with water (yuck, but I felt I needed it), red letil and aubergine stew with corn, frozen game, scallions, and a little bit of heavy cream, a rye bread sandwich with marg + liver paté, and a couple of cherry tomatoes. Yum!

I'm feeling really tired and unmotivated to get to work with Nurse Curse, but I'll have a cup of coffee and a short walk to get my brain going and I'll see what happens.
 
Took a short walk, there's rain coming, bought a Monster Mango Loco (240kcal) and had two pieces of dark chocolate to give me a bit of a boost. Put rice to soak for meal #5, but now it's time to work on Nurse Curse! I got my war face on!
 
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I made decent progress with Nurse Curse. My plan is to write a rough draft by the end of this week and use next week to polish up, add references/attachments/table of contents, and send the perfected version on 6.6.. I can only make one first impression, and I want the text to be ready to be forwarded to a lawyer if needed - and it has to reflect that readiness both in layout and substance.

Am I a complete weirdo for almost enjoying this? I mean, this is rough work and I am so pissed that I have to do it, but like many autistics, I'm very detail-oriented and working with this scratches that particular itch. It's also so nice to be working by my new desk. It's perfect for my needs.

My therapist said something along the lines of "you need to fight yourself back together" when we were discussing this Sex Nurse Farce. I think he was right. There is something therapeutic about this.

LOL almost forgot: meal #5 (because #4 was Monster Mango Loco and two pieces of chocolate) was rice with a two-egg omelette and scallions and 200g of peas with a bit of sesame oil and sunflower seeds.
 
I wanted to have another short walk, but I'm honestly so exhausted both physically and mentally that I'll make myself some pasta with tuna, cheese and garlic, brush my chompers and call it a day. I'll go aqua jogging tomorrow, Friday is gym day, Sat rest day, Sun gym day.

EDIT: the tuna pasta was simple and greasy and oh so good. I was starving. I had two Brazil nuts, one sesame mochi and one piece of chocolate for dessert. Packed my swim gear. Breakfast is going to be overnight oats with blackcurrants.

My feet and ankles feel a bit unstable, so I need to pay attention to that. I think that working while standing up probably strains them as I'm not used to it. The bones in my heels feel a bit angry too (the fat pad doesn't cushion them as it should). Well, rest should help and so should aqua jogging - lowtech low gravity simulator lol 😂
 
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FUCK THIS, I got sunburnt today o_O I did apply sunscreen but my chest and a little area near my left armpit still look red. My face too, but it usually looks red. Great, welcome cancer and parched leather aesthetics 😭
 
If it's any consolation regular childhood sunburns likely have more influence on future skin cancer risk than occasional slight sunburns in adulthood. Which... screw my life; adequate sunscreen didn't exist when I was a kid. But I hope you feel better tomorrow.
 
Floater said:
"you need to fight yourself back together" when we were discussing this Sex Nurse Farce. I think he was right. There is something therapeutic about this.
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I like this.
I understand that you are enjoying the process as you would feel like you are fighting for yourself.
The best way forward now is to keep my cool. The facts are on my side.
The grasshopper mouse is not intimidated.
 
Llama said:
If it's any consolation regular childhood sunburns likely have more influence on future skin cancer risk than occasional slight sunburns in adulthood. Which... screw my life; adequate sunscreen didn't exist when I was a kid. But I hope you feel better tomorrow.
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I do feel better, the skin is settled now. Yeah I never wore sunscreen as a child either and I spent most of the summers outside to not have to deal with my parents... And I'm literally the shade of milk and my dad has had several small skin cancers frozen off, so in a couple decades I guess we can compare melanomas if this forum is still up and active then.

BUT: I also know that worrying about the past won't help, and I'm as careful about sun exposure as possible.
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That grasshopper mouse is a tough little guy. I know it's a stereotype but I'd like to think Nurse is afraid of mice.
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I mean, she is a bit of a cartoon villain so :ROFLMAO:
Cate said:
I understand that you are enjoying the process as you would feel like you are fighting for yourself.
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:grouphug:


I don't have a huge appetite for breakfast today. It's raining outside but it's light rain so I don't think I need an umbrella or anything. I actually don't own an umbrella and I loathe rain coats. Umbrella is so cumbersome to hold and I hate non-breathable materials. Now that I'm between dogs, I should probably get an umbrella though because I have two free hands when I'm walking around...
 
I got soaked on my way to the pool, aqua jogged for an hour, assistance person picked me up and we drove to the supermarket to pick up some stuff I needed. We have a 2-hour appointment on Saturday, and I asked her to please drive me to lake Kuusijärvi then so I can test if the water is warm enough to swim in!

I didn't have time to eat after swimming so meal #2 and meal #3 are one big meal of one mochi, two pieces of chocolate, two Brazil nuts, a handful of cashews, four dates, 250g of frozen cherries, and a bowl of aubergine and lentil stew with a pollock fillet, a splash of heavy cream, and parsley.

For some reason I'm craving smoked mussels even though I didn't even like them that much the last time I tried them?! I think I have to buy them...!
 
Huh. I just spent 2,5 hours sitting on my bed and comparing info about different pets. I don't consider it wasted time. I does make sense to think about "where will I be in five years?", is it reasonable to get a dog, should I get a cat or rats or degus or chinchillas? Or should I just settle for plants for the time being?

I think I need to get up and give my floors a quick wipe... Maybe go for a walk. It's raining but my head feels like it's filled with cotton so I need some fresh air.
 
If it makes you happy and you're not neglecting your basic needs, can it be a waste of time? I go to the zoo sometimes just to watch the reptiles and pretend I'll own them some day even though I'm barely capable of keeping myself fed, clean, and clothed and my pothos is always in danger of dying :rotflmao: You're definitely ahead of me there.
 
Llama said:
If it makes you happy and you're not neglecting your basic needs, can it be a waste of time? I go to the zoo sometimes just to watch the reptiles and pretend I'll own them some day even though I'm barely capable of keeping myself fed, clean, and clothed and my pothos is always in danger of dying :rotflmao: You're definitely ahead of me there.
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I do the same thing about birds. I know there's no way I could ever afford a big enough place and the vet care and stuff that a parrot would need - maybe a couple of cockatiels if I meet someone who's well off lol - and yet I dream about having birds.

If your pothos is only in danger of dying and not dead, you're not doing that bad either. ;)

Meal #4: overnight oats, again. Maybe I should go out and get that can of mussels, god knows why I want them?! Getting in touch with my feminine side perhaps? /s

I assemblied my Ikea kitchen stair and wiped my rice paper lamp shade clean (yuck, it had gotten pretty vile) and wiped the last mud splatters left by Nera from the hallway. Held and smelled her leash and collar for a while and cried. Put them back to hang in their old spot in the hallway. They'll stay there until I get another dog - maybe even then. I could always figure out a new place to hang the new friend's leash and collar from.

It's still raining. I like the rain. I like the view when I'm sitting by my new table.
 
Floater said:
If your pothos is only in danger of dying and not dead, you're not doing that bad either. ;)
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I'm not sure a direct strike from a nuclear missile would completely kill a pothos :rotflmao:
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Maybe I should go out and get that can of mussels, god knows why I want them?! Getting in touch with my feminine side perhaps? /s
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Yeah, to smoke it 💥
 
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