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Floater
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Amen. But it was kind of nice to notice that even though the workout itself was like throwing spaghetti to the wall, I still managed to get a teeny tiny dopamine boost. I just arrived home and I feel much better than I have felt in a week. Aqua jogging tomorrow, that will help me feel better by getting rid of this squishy sloshy water weight!
Cate
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I love papadams, but we have always shallow fried them until our younger son, who has worked in kitchens for a long time, told us to microwave them for 10 seconds per papadam. They come out perfect! We usually have 2 small ones each, so 40 sec for the 4 is just right. That's yet another reason for you to get yourself a microwave in the new year. Ours is a simple cheapy. You don't need fancy.
Glad you went to the gym & it made you feel better. I keep forgetting to ask. Is the sauna a part of your apartment complex? I have only ever had one sauna, but I would love to magic myself a small heated pool, which I would have salted. *sigh*
Glad you went to the gym & it made you feel better. I keep forgetting to ask. Is the sauna a part of your apartment complex? I have only ever had one sauna, but I would love to magic myself a small heated pool, which I would have salted. *sigh*
Floater
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My apartment has it's own sauna! It's common in Finland for apartment complexes to have a communal sauna, but it's not uncommon for apartments themselves to have saunas in the bathrooms either, especially in newer buildings and in big cities. (Countryside houses pretty much always come with a sauna inside, or a separate sauna shack.) Sauna is a cultural staple here, so contractors squeeze them in where-ever they can because it sells/rents well. I do like having it, but I would personally prefer a bath tub in my apartment, or a communal pool. I can only handle sauna on the coldest days; I tend to overheat, and prefer to cool in baths and pools most of the time. I guess I'm the anti-lizard-person? LOL
Had an hour-long walk with Nera. Cold as balls but everything is so beautiful right now, fresh snow, stars... I'll have some salmon and arugula baguette before going to sleep!
Cate
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I had a feeling you had your own sauna. Wow. I think I quite liked the sauna that I had, but it was such a long time ago. I didn't like being naked in a room with others as I was (still am) so self-conscious of my body. We have a bath in our spare bathroom with the shower over it & I wish it was a large walk-in shower instead, big enough to have a chair & be accessible in my old age.
Love the sound of that walk, except for the cold. I'm a bit of a lizard
Love the sound of that walk, except for the cold. I'm a bit of a lizard
The weirdest part about Austrian saunas (which are usually part of a spa) is the Wachler: an old dude - not an employee but almost always present - who will get up to pour water onto the stones, take his towel and start swinging it above his head to spread around the steam. Which is an excellent reason not to sit on the bottom bench where his anatomy will be swinging along at eye height.
Only until you´ve seen it at less than an arm´s length from your face...
Floater
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Personally, I'm just happy that when God made me, they didn't give me the "low-hanging fruit". Living with a package has to be so uncomfortable!
Went grocery shopping: as I have plenty of veg at home, I got some ham, cheese, minced meat, and a cucumber (which I've been craving for for whatever reason). The weather is beautiful! Today I'll go aqua jogging after the assistance visit, and tomorrow I'll do some last minute Christmas shopping and clean my apartment so it's all perfect and fresh for Christmas. I think I'll buy some wine for Christmas.
Floater
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I did go aqua jogging - for 30 minutes. I was cold, I was dissociated, and I felt like my body was running out of batteries. But I did go and that's what matters. On my way home I bought a frozen pizza and a six-pack of beer because right now I just need to zone out for a bit. I have massive dysphoria and it's almost Christmas and I keep flashing back to my childhood and it's not good. But I will survive this and I'll feel better about my body and mind soon.
I had 100g of gravlax and a bit of baguette when I got home, I just cracked open a beer, and will return to reality tomorrow and do my Christmas cleaning and Christmas shopping then. Thank God I have an online meeting with my priest, I have missed her so much.
I had 100g of gravlax and a bit of baguette when I got home, I just cracked open a beer, and will return to reality tomorrow and do my Christmas cleaning and Christmas shopping then. Thank God I have an online meeting with my priest, I have missed her so much.
Floater
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I slept badly and woke up to anxiety/panic attacks a couple of times. My heart rate is up, I feel a bit nauseous, and have stomach cramps. I think these are most likely psychological issues made worse by the broken sleep. When assistance came over early in the morning, we took Nera for a walk, and I cleaned up a bit. Decided to not stress too much about getting the place in a state of Christmas perfection, good enough is good enough. I just had an online meeting with my priest, I have been missing talking to her!
Haven't eaten anything today yet, so I put the frozen pizza in the oven. I think I'll try to take a nap after eating, walk Nera, and go to the supermarket after.
Haven't eaten anything today yet, so I put the frozen pizza in the oven. I think I'll try to take a nap after eating, walk Nera, and go to the supermarket after.
I seem to remember you used to meditate. Is that something that might still help you relax or would it just increase your anxiety?
Floater
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It would probably make things worse. But I had a nap! And I feel better. Heart rate isback to normal, nausea gone. I'll take Nera out and head to the supermarket, wish me luck folks - it's going to be packed
Floater
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Haha, the supermarket was actually way less horrible than I expected. I'm a bit sad that my budget was so meager, but I got the most important stuff that I wanted to get and I have plenty of fresh veg and root vegetables at home, so I won't go hungry this Christmas. I had originally also had the idea of buying a red wine box, which would have lasted me a while, but I didn't have money for that, so I bought a bottle of rosé and a small bottle of cheap whiskey I can drink mixed in hot tea with some maple syrup.
I'm now making congee. In Finland it's traditional to have rice porridge in the morning of Christmas Eve, it's usually made with full fat milk and as such is prone to sticking/burning to the pot. I figured that I'll save myself the extra hassle, and see how well congee holds up to the traditional standards. I bought some fancy caramelized butter marg to top the Christmas congee with. Families hide an almond in the porridge, and whoever gets it, is considered to have good luck the next year. As I live alone, I guess I'll just sprinkle some walnuts on top of the congee and make my own good fortune.
Surprisingly enough, I'm in a pretty festive mood. It feels like everything I have is enough. Feels good to just get to rest and chill out and trust that I'm enough. To reference VeggieTales, "God made you special and he loves you very much"
Happy Holidays to folks of other faiths and to atheists too, of course! I hope you'll have a great time and a little break from the plague stress.