Emily Rose: The Reboot
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D4 - TUES 18TH - Combo and Spin (Hair/Christmas party)
Today, I find myself feeling like this guy:
This is a problem. We had our Christmas party last night, just crazy over work colleague, it's such a waste of time and energy. I need to work out a new strategy because it's kind of evil trying to steal other people's boyfriends all the time. I need to put my thoughts into something a little bit more noble. (But, in another dimension, he's my dream guy and he always has my back. Tiny example: we got those party hats from the Christmas crackers last night and all the others had taken theirs off, but he told me he'd left his one on 'out of solidarity with me'. 
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Anyway, no more about this forever, leaving it behind in 2018. As for the gym, I have not got into the rhythm with it yet. Friday I promise!
D5 - WED 19TH - Legs, Bum + Core and Pilates (Reception/Yoga)
Giving up on gym and yoga class today, a bit hungover and I have to get up at 5am tomorrow. My room is so messy, I need to clean it. Also plan on leaving laziness behind in 2018. I can't go on like this.
Today, I find myself feeling like this guy:
)Anyway, no more about this forever, leaving it behind in 2018. As for the gym, I have not got into the rhythm with it yet. Friday I promise!
D5 - WED 19TH - Legs, Bum + Core and Pilates (Reception/Yoga)
Giving up on gym and yoga class today, a bit hungover and I have to get up at 5am tomorrow. My room is so messy, I need to clean it. Also plan on leaving laziness behind in 2018. I can't go on like this.
The main problem with stealing other people´s partner (apart from the obvious one) is that you´re then with a person who thinks it´s ok to get busy with someone new while they´re already in a relationship. Which can be ok - nothing wrong with polyamorous folks - but only if everyone involved has given informed and enthusiastic consent. So yeah... probably best to leave some things behind in 2018.
Cate
Long term member
He sounds like a charmer, Em but if you want to have a relationship with a future, it's probably best to look elsewhere. An old fellow we used to know once said "If one man is not enough for her, then 20 probably won't be." We know so many men, in particular, who always seem to be on the lookout for an affair, or move on to a new woman & then another. I am so glad I am not with one of them.
2019- The prospects abound. I hope you find love, Em. True love.
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2019- The prospects abound. I hope you find love, Em. True love.
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Yeah, you're both right. It's holiday time now anyway, so I've got 12 days to screw my head back on.
So awful when the forum disappears, isn't it? I really wanted to post yesterday, but alas it was not meant to be.
D6 - THU 20TH - Rest day (Training all day - if I can fit something in, I will)
Had my training, it was a bit of a waste of time, but that's okay. Met a friend for a drink afterwards, which escalated into a late night out.
D7 - FRI 21ST - Spin and Abs (Run/Swim)
Woke up in my friend Alan's house after a night out. Had a cup of tea and a chat and then I walked from his house to my car. I bumped into another friend of ours, Paul, on the way. Sometimes the 3 of us (and a couple more) go for road races together, so I was saying that in the new year, we should get back into it. Got to my car, stopped for fast food on the way, and had a shower when I got home.
I mooched around for the rest of the day, did half an hour of tidying my room and 9 minutes meditation (building it up to 20 by adding a minute every day), then watched the end of Children of Men, started A Monster Calls, and went to bed.
Very little exercise or moving around done, my motivation is at an all-time low. My goal for today is to get my 10,000 steps, if nothing else.
So awful when the forum disappears, isn't it? I really wanted to post yesterday, but alas it was not meant to be.
D6 - THU 20TH - Rest day (Training all day - if I can fit something in, I will)
Had my training, it was a bit of a waste of time, but that's okay. Met a friend for a drink afterwards, which escalated into a late night out.
D7 - FRI 21ST - Spin and Abs (Run/Swim)
Woke up in my friend Alan's house after a night out. Had a cup of tea and a chat and then I walked from his house to my car. I bumped into another friend of ours, Paul, on the way. Sometimes the 3 of us (and a couple more) go for road races together, so I was saying that in the new year, we should get back into it. Got to my car, stopped for fast food on the way, and had a shower when I got home.
I mooched around for the rest of the day, did half an hour of tidying my room and 9 minutes meditation (building it up to 20 by adding a minute every day), then watched the end of Children of Men, started A Monster Calls, and went to bed.
Very little exercise or moving around done, my motivation is at an all-time low. My goal for today is to get my 10,000 steps, if nothing else.
D8 - SAT 22ND - Spin and Abs (Run/Swim)
Woke up yesterday in absolutely foul humour, nearly had war with my mother. We moved past it and then I went off shopping and bought my parents their Christmas presents. Bumped into my friend Alan and our other friend Greg in town, had a nice chat. Came home, showered and got ready for a dinner held at my friend PJ's house with his housemate Max and another girl Nicole. It was nice, but Christmas is a nightmare in terms of staying away from booze/heavy foods. We had a pasta carbonara, garlic bread, loads of red wine and cheesecake. I enjoyed myself but I am feeling exceptionally grumpy today.
I have another gathering this evening, thinking of dropping out of it. The thought of it has sent my energy levels plummeting to the ground. I am carrying so much anger and instead of dealing with people, I just want to avoid them. I haven't made up my mind yet, but right now this moment, I am leaning towards not going at all. I don't know. It's a tricky one. I guess I should forgive and forget but I'm not finding that so easy right now. I just think I've had to go out and build up a different kind of life for myself, and I don't want to have to justify that or hang around with people who haven't bothered with me. I know this is kind of petty stuff, but the fact is that I woke up this morning with a feeling of dread about going.
If I do go, I will drive, so I can make a quick getaway. Otherwise, I'll end up drinking too much wine and possibly getting into an argument. Not worth it.
Woke up yesterday in absolutely foul humour, nearly had war with my mother. We moved past it and then I went off shopping and bought my parents their Christmas presents. Bumped into my friend Alan and our other friend Greg in town, had a nice chat. Came home, showered and got ready for a dinner held at my friend PJ's house with his housemate Max and another girl Nicole. It was nice, but Christmas is a nightmare in terms of staying away from booze/heavy foods. We had a pasta carbonara, garlic bread, loads of red wine and cheesecake. I enjoyed myself but I am feeling exceptionally grumpy today.
I have another gathering this evening, thinking of dropping out of it. The thought of it has sent my energy levels plummeting to the ground. I am carrying so much anger and instead of dealing with people, I just want to avoid them. I haven't made up my mind yet, but right now this moment, I am leaning towards not going at all. I don't know. It's a tricky one. I guess I should forgive and forget but I'm not finding that so easy right now. I just think I've had to go out and build up a different kind of life for myself, and I don't want to have to justify that or hang around with people who haven't bothered with me. I know this is kind of petty stuff, but the fact is that I woke up this morning with a feeling of dread about going.
If I do go, I will drive, so I can make a quick getaway. Otherwise, I'll end up drinking too much wine and possibly getting into an argument. Not worth it.
I tend to go with something like "forgive if you value the person in general and don´t carry grudges but instead of forgetting use the experience to adjust your expectations for the future". Feel free to leave a social situation if people are starting to get on your nerves too much. Folks can be perfectly nice, valuable humans and still not jibe with each other.
Hi LaMa. Yeah, I decided to make the effort and go. It wasn't too bad.
D9 - SUN 23RD - Spin and Abs (Run/Friend's pre-Christmas gathering)
Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty ropey, after the heavy-duty wine and cigarettes from the night before. In fact, I had a sore throat and was coughing during the night. Not a great start. Felt in really bad form. I spent a lot of time looking up crap on the internet, then decided I'd better do something and went for a swim. I only did 20 laps but it was better than nothing. The best part was sitting in the jacuzzi for 15 minutes afterwards. I tried to use that time to meditate but it didn't work so well.
I came home and decided I'd better make the effort and go to my friend's thing. I'm glad I went as all the old gang was there, but at the same time, the connection is just not as strong with most of them. One of them I really don't like anymore, I just find her obnoxious and really fake. She's the type of person who always needs to know who and where you are working for. Which is fine, but I've just gone off her.
Anyway, of course it was another late night, even though I really could have done without it, and today I am so unmotivated and I have a load of work to do in my room. At least my parents are out of my hair for now. I hate being here with them sometimes. When I am in good form and have energy, it's grand. But when I don't feel like talking or communicating with anyone, I feel like screaming.
Hopefully I'll be in a more Christmassy form tomorrow, till then, have a good one.
D9 - SUN 23RD - Spin and Abs (Run/Friend's pre-Christmas gathering)
Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty ropey, after the heavy-duty wine and cigarettes from the night before. In fact, I had a sore throat and was coughing during the night. Not a great start. Felt in really bad form. I spent a lot of time looking up crap on the internet, then decided I'd better do something and went for a swim. I only did 20 laps but it was better than nothing. The best part was sitting in the jacuzzi for 15 minutes afterwards. I tried to use that time to meditate but it didn't work so well.
I came home and decided I'd better make the effort and go to my friend's thing. I'm glad I went as all the old gang was there, but at the same time, the connection is just not as strong with most of them. One of them I really don't like anymore, I just find her obnoxious and really fake. She's the type of person who always needs to know who and where you are working for. Which is fine, but I've just gone off her.
Anyway, of course it was another late night, even though I really could have done without it, and today I am so unmotivated and I have a load of work to do in my room. At least my parents are out of my hair for now. I hate being here with them sometimes. When I am in good form and have energy, it's grand. But when I don't feel like talking or communicating with anyone, I feel like screaming.
Hopefully I'll be in a more Christmassy form tomorrow, till then, have a good one.
Happy Christmas Cate, xxx.
D10 - MON 24TH - Run/Swim
I woke up really cross and unmotivated after yet another late night. My parents were doing some last minute Christmas shopping in town, so I took the opportunity to sit in my dressing gown and watch Sorry to Bother You. What a crazy movie. My mum came back and I cleaned up my room and had a shower. We had dinner, I chilled on the couch for the evening, then my mother started crying because I'm so difficult to live with sometimes. It was not a great day overall.
D11 - TUE 25TH - Run/Swim? (Not sure when pool closes)
After the dramatics of the day before, I got the hell out of Dodge and went for a 3 mile run. Then I did 20 laps in the pool and I came home and peace had been restored. Had a really nice dinner, dessert and present-opening session. Now we're all going to chill and watch The Greatest Showman together. My mum bought me Viktor Frankl's book Man's Search For Meaning, going to get stuck into that over the next few days.
Definitely keeping up the exercise regime, I feel so much better after getting the run in. I was slow but it was extremely manageable so that's encouraging.
D10 - MON 24TH - Run/Swim
I woke up really cross and unmotivated after yet another late night. My parents were doing some last minute Christmas shopping in town, so I took the opportunity to sit in my dressing gown and watch Sorry to Bother You. What a crazy movie. My mum came back and I cleaned up my room and had a shower. We had dinner, I chilled on the couch for the evening, then my mother started crying because I'm so difficult to live with sometimes. It was not a great day overall.
D11 - TUE 25TH - Run/Swim? (Not sure when pool closes)
After the dramatics of the day before, I got the hell out of Dodge and went for a 3 mile run. Then I did 20 laps in the pool and I came home and peace had been restored. Had a really nice dinner, dessert and present-opening session. Now we're all going to chill and watch The Greatest Showman together. My mum bought me Viktor Frankl's book Man's Search For Meaning, going to get stuck into that over the next few days.
Definitely keeping up the exercise regime, I feel so much better after getting the run in. I was slow but it was extremely manageable so that's encouraging.
D12 - WED 26TH - Run/Swim
Went for both my run and swim today, so really happy with that. My stomach is not feeling good the last few days, it comes and goes, a bit worrying to be honest. I'm praying it will settle down but it's bothering me tonight.
Had a nice chat with my mum this evening, apologised for upsetting her, so all is well again. Today was fairly uneventful, read some of my book, watched Mrs. Doubtfire, had a nice dinner of leftovers and some yummy strawberry cheesecake, all good stuff.
The gym is back in action for the next 3 days so going to try to make the lunchtime classes tomorrow. Really need the exercise at this time of year.
Went for both my run and swim today, so really happy with that. My stomach is not feeling good the last few days, it comes and goes, a bit worrying to be honest. I'm praying it will settle down but it's bothering me tonight.
Had a nice chat with my mum this evening, apologised for upsetting her, so all is well again. Today was fairly uneventful, read some of my book, watched Mrs. Doubtfire, had a nice dinner of leftovers and some yummy strawberry cheesecake, all good stuff.
The gym is back in action for the next 3 days so going to try to make the lunchtime classes tomorrow. Really need the exercise at this time of year.
Yeah, it's all good in the hood.
D13 - THU 27TH - Gym/run/swim
Very good HIIT and abs class in the gym today. Didn't feel up to doing the run as well but I did 30 x 20 m laps in the pool.
Overall, really boring day. Trying to find some friends to go for drinks with me now! Stir crazy in the house.
D13 - THU 27TH - Gym/run/swim
Very good HIIT and abs class in the gym today. Didn't feel up to doing the run as well but I did 30 x 20 m laps in the pool.
Overall, really boring day. Trying to find some friends to go for drinks with me now! Stir crazy in the house.
D13 - THU 27TH - Gym/run/swim (continued)
Ended up going for two drinks with a few friends. I enjoyed it, but it was over way too soon.
D14 - FRI 28TH - Gym/run/swim
My stomach is causing me massive grief this Christmas. Felt sick for most of the day yesterday. Managed 35 laps in the pool and a stint in the jacuzzi and steam room, but ended up in bed at 7pm. Very annoying. I don't know if it is the massive reduction in nicotine, all the meat, or something else. I really hope it clears up.
D15 - SAT 29TH - Gym/run/swim
Exercise not gone to plan at all today but I went for a walk in the woods with my mother. That was something I guess. Meeting up with friends later, this is my last hurrah before the New Year's resolutions start to kick in. The usual: no booze, cigarettes, crappy food, daily exercise, etc. I have a massive reason to stick with it for the next 6 weeks as I am in a play in February and I want to look good onstage. It's really obvious if you are overweight when you are in a play. Nowhere to hide. Anyway, whatever, that's as good a motivator as any.
Ended up going for two drinks with a few friends. I enjoyed it, but it was over way too soon.
D14 - FRI 28TH - Gym/run/swim
My stomach is causing me massive grief this Christmas. Felt sick for most of the day yesterday. Managed 35 laps in the pool and a stint in the jacuzzi and steam room, but ended up in bed at 7pm. Very annoying. I don't know if it is the massive reduction in nicotine, all the meat, or something else. I really hope it clears up.
D15 - SAT 29TH - Gym/run/swim
Exercise not gone to plan at all today but I went for a walk in the woods with my mother. That was something I guess. Meeting up with friends later, this is my last hurrah before the New Year's resolutions start to kick in. The usual: no booze, cigarettes, crappy food, daily exercise, etc. I have a massive reason to stick with it for the next 6 weeks as I am in a play in February and I want to look good onstage. It's really obvious if you are overweight when you are in a play. Nowhere to hide. Anyway, whatever, that's as good a motivator as any.
Cate
Long term member
Hi, Em. I get a stomach ache if I eat too much red meat. It takes much longer to digest. Do your parents eat lots of red meat? G eats so much red meat & because he does the cooking, so do I, but I would love to eat more fish. I'll try again to steer him in that direction.
Good for you only having 2 drinks with your friends. Try to alternate your drinks out with some non-alcoholic ones. Your friends don't need to know. I'm going to do that more in the new year. I don't care if anyone knows or not. You can still be "sociable," but without all that regret.
I am interested to know more about the play. How exciting! xoC
Good for you only having 2 drinks with your friends. Try to alternate your drinks out with some non-alcoholic ones. Your friends don't need to know. I'm going to do that more in the new year. I don't care if anyone knows or not. You can still be "sociable," but without all that regret.
I am interested to know more about the play. How exciting! xoC
Thanks Cate. I didn't really talk about it on here but we performed the same play earlier this year in April. We're coming back bigger and better than ever in 2019! It's exciting.
Thanks for the comment LaMa. I think it might be sorting itself out, but all the rich food has not helped. My digestive system gets overloaded very easily.
Had a fantastic night out with my friends last night. It was like old times, probably the best evening I've had out in ages. I just enjoyed the whole thing from start to finish. We met for a drink first, then had dinner (turkey burger - bad choice), then went to a few more bars and finally home. I just really enjoyed chatting to everyone and we had a lot of laughs.
I'm currently looking up some beach cleanups to get involved with in the New Year. I really want to start contributing to the community and also work towards preventing an impending environmental disaster if we can help it.
Thanks for the comment LaMa. I think it might be sorting itself out, but all the rich food has not helped. My digestive system gets overloaded very easily.
Had a fantastic night out with my friends last night. It was like old times, probably the best evening I've had out in ages. I just enjoyed the whole thing from start to finish. We met for a drink first, then had dinner (turkey burger - bad choice), then went to a few more bars and finally home. I just really enjoyed chatting to everyone and we had a lot of laughs.
I'm currently looking up some beach cleanups to get involved with in the New Year. I really want to start contributing to the community and also work towards preventing an impending environmental disaster if we can help it.
Sounds like fun indeed! Beach cleanups sound like a good way to feel like you´re doing something tangible at a time when sometimes it feels like everything´s going to shit. Could even be fun.
Cate
Long term member
I'm glad you had a really good night out, Em. The play sounds like loads of fun too. Beach cleanups are a great idea. I think most of us despair of all the litter everywhere, but if we don't start actually doing something tangible about it, it's not going anywhere. I used to walk down to the highway & back, picking up litter along the way, but it was a little dangerous as there are too many cars on our road now & it's only narrow. When I got off the road it was too snaky. It was about a 3 km walk & hilly. I have noticed lots of litter lately. I used to feel that if someone saw me picking up litter, they might reconsider throwing it. You have to hope!
It's nice to hear you looking forward to the new year, Em. Here's to happy & fulfilling times ahead xoxo
It's nice to hear you looking forward to the new year, Em. Here's to happy & fulfilling times ahead xoxo
Jenniquest
New member
Hi Em, sounds like you have a good motivator (the play) to give you some extra umph in staying on track - sounds fun and I'm sure you will be fantastic! Hope you had great holidays and all that lovely stuff!