Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Cate
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I like that Emily xo
Hi LaMa, I definitely believe things are sent to us but we mightn't always like them!
Thanks Cate.
Day 31 (the rest):
- coffee and milk
- brasserie beer
- half a bottle of cava
- 2 Heineken bottles
- 2 glasses red wine
- 1 glass white wine
- 2 whiskey and ginger ales
- Most of a bag of Doritos
- half Hophouse 13 beer
Cigs: 19
Not feeling great today clearly. That's the end of it though. So happy to be free of booze!
Month 2, Day 1:
1. How did today go?
Oh God. I woke up wrecked tired. I am recovering now, but it's just not worth it anymore.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was unreal, considering the sorry state I find myself in today. Got up and went for a swim this morning to try to clear out the cobwebs. When I got back home, I was feeling incredibly shitty but I forced myself to go for a 6k run. I actually can't believe I managed it. It actually wasn't that difficult but I am weakened. But I really can do anything if I could make myself do that run today. Have an 8k run planned for tomorrow, then taking a break from the running until Friday, which I am thrilled about.
Cigs: 3 (Yes, I am quitting, but I am going to finish the pack.)
Food:
Today's food: Apple
Apple detoxifies, reduces allergies and free radical damage. Boy, do I need detoxification.
Breakfast: white pudding, black pudding, rasher, sausage, fried mushrooms, tomato, potatoes and onion, poached egg; slice of brown toast and butter; ketchup; orange juice; apple juice; coffee and milk
Snacks: Christmas fruit cake, coffee and milk; apple juice; apple
Dinner: 7" pizza with ham, pineapple and peppers; potato wedges; garlic dip; can of coke
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Got loads of compliments last night and I'm definitely noticing a change in my body. That's the only reason I went for the run today. The exercise is really working. I know my food today was a disaster but it should be getting better and better as the week goes on. Excited about how good my life is going to be!!!
Thanks Cate.
Day 31 (the rest):
- coffee and milk
- brasserie beer
- half a bottle of cava
- 2 Heineken bottles
- 2 glasses red wine
- 1 glass white wine
- 2 whiskey and ginger ales
- Most of a bag of Doritos
- half Hophouse 13 beer
Cigs: 19
Not feeling great today clearly. That's the end of it though. So happy to be free of booze!
Month 2, Day 1:
1. How did today go?
Oh God. I woke up wrecked tired. I am recovering now, but it's just not worth it anymore.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was unreal, considering the sorry state I find myself in today. Got up and went for a swim this morning to try to clear out the cobwebs. When I got back home, I was feeling incredibly shitty but I forced myself to go for a 6k run. I actually can't believe I managed it. It actually wasn't that difficult but I am weakened. But I really can do anything if I could make myself do that run today. Have an 8k run planned for tomorrow, then taking a break from the running until Friday, which I am thrilled about.
Cigs: 3 (Yes, I am quitting, but I am going to finish the pack.)
Food:
Today's food: Apple
Apple detoxifies, reduces allergies and free radical damage. Boy, do I need detoxification.
Breakfast: white pudding, black pudding, rasher, sausage, fried mushrooms, tomato, potatoes and onion, poached egg; slice of brown toast and butter; ketchup; orange juice; apple juice; coffee and milk
Snacks: Christmas fruit cake, coffee and milk; apple juice; apple
Dinner: 7" pizza with ham, pineapple and peppers; potato wedges; garlic dip; can of coke
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Got loads of compliments last night and I'm definitely noticing a change in my body. That's the only reason I went for the run today. The exercise is really working. I know my food today was a disaster but it should be getting better and better as the week goes on. Excited about how good my life is going to be!!!
Sunflower_
Well-known member
White pudding - noooooooooooo. I've tried it and black pudding a few times and literally can't stomach it. I think too much about what is in it! You brave thing.. Well done on the exercise my babe!
Thanks Hana. Yeah, I have no problem eating meat or any types of food really. I know if it was me vs. them and I was starving, they wouldn't be long for this world. Also, I don't know how people feel satiated if they don't eat meat or fish or dairy.
Thank you Cate, a healthy and happy year is what I want for all of us.
M2, D1 amendment: Ended up smoking 5 cigs.
M2, D2:
1. How did today go?
Today I woke up feeling exhausted. I don't know why I'm so surprised, considering I went binge drinking Friday, Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday. That's a lot of alcohol units. Anyway, I came back to my parents' house for the night, feeling rested and happy at the moment. It really feels like the last night of Christmas.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was an 8k run. It was a lovely day for it as well, cold but very sunny.
Food was a mixed bag.
Today's food: Apple cider vinegar
Apple cider vinegar maintains pH balance, supports healthy digestion. I went for a poo immediately after trying it, so I guess it does!
Breakfast: porridge, banana, blueberries, flaxseed, almond milk; 1 slice ryvita with butter and banana; apple juice; 1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar and water
Lunch: chocolate doughnut, aero mousse bar, cappuccino
Dinner: amaranth, chicken fillet, salad of pine nuts, tomatoes, peppers, spinach, cucumber and avocado; peppermint tea
Last of Christmas treats: apple crumble with cream and small slice Viennetta; 2 chocolate log things; tea and milk; peppermint tea
Cigs: 3. Still want to quit them, proving a bit more difficult than I had anticipated, but I am determined about the alcohol, and that will definitely have a knock-on effect. 3 is not too bad all the same.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/2 pounds
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not today.
Thank you Cate, a healthy and happy year is what I want for all of us.
M2, D1 amendment: Ended up smoking 5 cigs.
M2, D2:
1. How did today go?
Today I woke up feeling exhausted. I don't know why I'm so surprised, considering I went binge drinking Friday, Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday. That's a lot of alcohol units. Anyway, I came back to my parents' house for the night, feeling rested and happy at the moment. It really feels like the last night of Christmas.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was an 8k run. It was a lovely day for it as well, cold but very sunny.
Food was a mixed bag.
Today's food: Apple cider vinegar
Apple cider vinegar maintains pH balance, supports healthy digestion. I went for a poo immediately after trying it, so I guess it does!
Breakfast: porridge, banana, blueberries, flaxseed, almond milk; 1 slice ryvita with butter and banana; apple juice; 1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar and water
Lunch: chocolate doughnut, aero mousse bar, cappuccino
Dinner: amaranth, chicken fillet, salad of pine nuts, tomatoes, peppers, spinach, cucumber and avocado; peppermint tea
Last of Christmas treats: apple crumble with cream and small slice Viennetta; 2 chocolate log things; tea and milk; peppermint tea
Cigs: 3. Still want to quit them, proving a bit more difficult than I had anticipated, but I am determined about the alcohol, and that will definitely have a knock-on effect. 3 is not too bad all the same.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/2 pounds
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not today.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Your exercise is really good chick - now the last of the Christmas treats have gone there will be no stopping you!
Thanks Cate - yes, I'm going to try.
Yes Hana, I am pleased at my exercise routine.
M2, D2 amendment: Forgot I also had a handful of fruit, nuts and soya seeds.
M2, D3:
1. How did today go?
Doing my entry a little bit earlier today but I will amend if things change. I weighed in today at 11 stone 3 pounds. All those intense running sessions over the Christmas have really paid off! Still feeling shattered today. Weird.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Did a 30 min spin class. Didn't kill myself as going to take it a bit easier for the rest of the week. I think my body is tired.
Food:
Today's food: Banana
Banana supports healthy hair and nails, boosts mood. Really need help with the healthy hair part. It's very fine.
- granola, cornflakes, 1 weetabix, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 chocolate logs
- crusty white roll with butter and banana
- tea and milk
- coffee and milk with cream
- apple and strawberry cereal bar (rotten)
- going to have tomato and basil soup for dinner
Cigs: 6
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Got a call about more temping work today - this Thursday and Friday and all next week. It suits me perfectly and I'm thrilled to have one more day of holidays to go. Going to make the most of it tomorrow - sleep in and hopefully get rid of this tired feeling!, then head into the market in town and buy some fruit and veg for my meals, maybe get a coffee and lunch somewhere and read my book. The weather has been perfect the last few days, so I'm really going to enjoy it. Going to hang out at home for the evening and tell my parents the good news about the temp work, then get an early night.
Yes Hana, I am pleased at my exercise routine.
M2, D2 amendment: Forgot I also had a handful of fruit, nuts and soya seeds.
M2, D3:
1. How did today go?
Doing my entry a little bit earlier today but I will amend if things change. I weighed in today at 11 stone 3 pounds. All those intense running sessions over the Christmas have really paid off! Still feeling shattered today. Weird.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Did a 30 min spin class. Didn't kill myself as going to take it a bit easier for the rest of the week. I think my body is tired.
Food:
Today's food: Banana
Banana supports healthy hair and nails, boosts mood. Really need help with the healthy hair part. It's very fine.
- granola, cornflakes, 1 weetabix, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 chocolate logs
- crusty white roll with butter and banana
- tea and milk
- coffee and milk with cream
- apple and strawberry cereal bar (rotten)
- going to have tomato and basil soup for dinner
Cigs: 6
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Got a call about more temping work today - this Thursday and Friday and all next week. It suits me perfectly and I'm thrilled to have one more day of holidays to go. Going to make the most of it tomorrow - sleep in and hopefully get rid of this tired feeling!, then head into the market in town and buy some fruit and veg for my meals, maybe get a coffee and lunch somewhere and read my book. The weather has been perfect the last few days, so I'm really going to enjoy it. Going to hang out at home for the evening and tell my parents the good news about the temp work, then get an early night.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Glad to hear about the work - I find it much easier to be good when I have a solid routine. Is it work you're interested in?
Thanks LaMa.
Hana, not really - it's just data entry stuff, but so handy for a short term gig. More about that down below.
Amendments to M2, D3:
Didn't have the soup in the end. Had dinner at home prepared by my dad, who is an excellent cook. I really wish he would do something with it, he's very good. Anyway, we had salmon and tartare sauce, roasted potatoes and oregano, carrots, and roasted tomatoes, asparagus and courgettes with some relish. On my way back into town, I stopped at the shop and got a quality street honeycomb bar and a KitKat chunky cookies and cream bar. Then I had two cups of bedtime tea in my rented house while my housemate watched the first Jason Bourne movie. I ended up smoking 8 cigs in the end.
M2, D4:
1. How did today go?
My body is tired, so instead of worrying about it and fighting it, I've decided to give in. I'm sitting in my pjs in bed now at 19:27. Have some classical music on in the background and my nightlight on. I'm going to find some lightweight movie on Netflix and watch that and try to get to sleep by 10. That'll teach it for making me drained all day! Bwahahahaha.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I went to an excellent hatha yoga session there, and it was very non-challenging, which I was thrilled about, as my tired self couldn't deal with anything more.
Today's weight: 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds
Today's food: Blueberries
Blueberries support youthful skin and healthy connective tissue.
For breakfast, I had porridge with strawberries, blueberries, flaxseed and almond milk. Then an instant coffee and milk. Watched a movie in bed. Felt tired.
Went into town, got a hazelnut latte and then I found the most amazing doughnut shop in the land and had a lemon and poppy seed doughnut. It frightens me that I know where this place is and how good the doughnuts are in there. Unreal.
I had the worst cheese, sun-dried tomato and pesto panini in the land afterwards. Lesson learned about eating in sub-par chain cafes. The place I wanted to go to was closed. But don't worry, I will be going there tomorrow.
For dinner, I had the tomato and basil soup I didn't have yesterday and one slice of ryvita with butter. I hate ryvita but I'm just trying to use up the packet. Horrible stuff.
Cigs: 9
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
The temp job is stalled. So annoying. So not sure when I'll be working next, which is sort of annoying psychologically. But this is the life I've chosen for now.
Hana, not really - it's just data entry stuff, but so handy for a short term gig. More about that down below.
Amendments to M2, D3:
Didn't have the soup in the end. Had dinner at home prepared by my dad, who is an excellent cook. I really wish he would do something with it, he's very good. Anyway, we had salmon and tartare sauce, roasted potatoes and oregano, carrots, and roasted tomatoes, asparagus and courgettes with some relish. On my way back into town, I stopped at the shop and got a quality street honeycomb bar and a KitKat chunky cookies and cream bar. Then I had two cups of bedtime tea in my rented house while my housemate watched the first Jason Bourne movie. I ended up smoking 8 cigs in the end.
M2, D4:
1. How did today go?
My body is tired, so instead of worrying about it and fighting it, I've decided to give in. I'm sitting in my pjs in bed now at 19:27. Have some classical music on in the background and my nightlight on. I'm going to find some lightweight movie on Netflix and watch that and try to get to sleep by 10. That'll teach it for making me drained all day! Bwahahahaha.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I went to an excellent hatha yoga session there, and it was very non-challenging, which I was thrilled about, as my tired self couldn't deal with anything more.
Today's weight: 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds
Today's food: Blueberries
Blueberries support youthful skin and healthy connective tissue.
For breakfast, I had porridge with strawberries, blueberries, flaxseed and almond milk. Then an instant coffee and milk. Watched a movie in bed. Felt tired.
Went into town, got a hazelnut latte and then I found the most amazing doughnut shop in the land and had a lemon and poppy seed doughnut. It frightens me that I know where this place is and how good the doughnuts are in there. Unreal.
I had the worst cheese, sun-dried tomato and pesto panini in the land afterwards. Lesson learned about eating in sub-par chain cafes. The place I wanted to go to was closed. But don't worry, I will be going there tomorrow.
For dinner, I had the tomato and basil soup I didn't have yesterday and one slice of ryvita with butter. I hate ryvita but I'm just trying to use up the packet. Horrible stuff.
Cigs: 9
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
The temp job is stalled. So annoying. So not sure when I'll be working next, which is sort of annoying psychologically. But this is the life I've chosen for now.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Ryvitas are vile! Nasty dry things.
Sorry about the work - hope something comes along xx
Sorry about the work - hope something comes along xx
Thanks Hana, me too. Officially bored.
M2, D5:
1. How did today go?
Finally feeling a lot better. I always seem to perk up on a Thursday.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I had tennis for an hour tonight. I felt really strong. I think my blood sugar was a little bit low, but I felt really fit! I love this feeling.
Weight today was 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds.
Food:
Today's food: Broccoli
Broccoli prevents stress-related inflammation. Who knew?
I went to the cafe I was on about yesterday and had a ciabatta heated with chicken, bacon, emmental cheese (it's so crazzzzzy), dijon mustard and leaves and a little bit of sweet chilli sauce on the side. I had a coffee and milk and a tea and milk.
At home, I had a cup of tea and milk and a peppermint tea.
For dinner, I made grilled salmon with a potato and tender-stemmed broccoli. You really couldn't get a healthier dinner.
Then I had 2 custard creams and 3 pieces of Terry's chocolate orange.
I really felt after tennis that my blood sugar had gone dangerously low, so I stopped at the shop and bought more chocolate. Feck it anyway. I bought a pack of white buttons and a Fry's peppermint cream.
Had slice of the nasty Ryvita and butter when I got home. Having a cup of Yogi bedtime tea now before bed.
Cig count today is 10. Feck again also.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
To be honest, I know I have definitely lost a few pounds, my waist looks a lot better. I was so light on my feet at tennis today. The yoga is working wonders. But I'm at a point where it is easy to gain and lose the slight inroads I've made as it stands. I also feel the allure of wine calling me for tomorrow.
Help!
M2, D5:
1. How did today go?
Finally feeling a lot better. I always seem to perk up on a Thursday.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I had tennis for an hour tonight. I felt really strong. I think my blood sugar was a little bit low, but I felt really fit! I love this feeling.
Weight today was 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds.
Food:
Today's food: Broccoli
Broccoli prevents stress-related inflammation. Who knew?
I went to the cafe I was on about yesterday and had a ciabatta heated with chicken, bacon, emmental cheese (it's so crazzzzzy), dijon mustard and leaves and a little bit of sweet chilli sauce on the side. I had a coffee and milk and a tea and milk.
At home, I had a cup of tea and milk and a peppermint tea.
For dinner, I made grilled salmon with a potato and tender-stemmed broccoli. You really couldn't get a healthier dinner.
Then I had 2 custard creams and 3 pieces of Terry's chocolate orange.
I really felt after tennis that my blood sugar had gone dangerously low, so I stopped at the shop and bought more chocolate. Feck it anyway. I bought a pack of white buttons and a Fry's peppermint cream.
Had slice of the nasty Ryvita and butter when I got home. Having a cup of Yogi bedtime tea now before bed.
Cig count today is 10. Feck again also.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
To be honest, I know I have definitely lost a few pounds, my waist looks a lot better. I was so light on my feet at tennis today. The yoga is working wonders. But I'm at a point where it is easy to gain and lose the slight inroads I've made as it stands. I also feel the allure of wine calling me for tomorrow.
Help!
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Mm lovely wine - got weekend plans?
LaMa, I gave in to the wine. Sorry.
Hana - lovely wine indeed. I want to have weekend plans, my friend. I am a lonely, lone wolf.
M2, D5 amendment: Smoked 9 in the end.
M2, D6
1. How did today go?
Oh God. I am lonely. I am sad.
2. How was you food and exercise?
5k run to the doughnut shop.
Food:
Today's food: Apricots
Apricots support smooth skin.
- porridge with almond milk and an apricot
- 2 coffees and milk
- the most decadent doughnut of all time (felt ill eating it - peanut butter filling, some chocolate concoction on top - too much)
- drifter bar
- watercress soup with potato and onion
- bottle of white wine
- 500ml Erdinger
- 1000ml Lomza
Cigs: TBD
Weight: 11 stone 5 1/4 pounds
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
A bleak week. Doubting the people around me. It's terrible - when someone does something so mean towards you, I find it really hard to ever trust them again. Basically, a friend of mine is grieving, but in the course of it, she hasn't been so nice to me. It's hard to discern if it is the grief or is that is just an excuse. Basically, I don't trust her anymore. Which is so sad, because I used to trust her with everything. I don't know, I just hate people that ignore you and won't communicate. I hate the silent treatment. On top of that, I feel very alone.
Hana - lovely wine indeed. I want to have weekend plans, my friend. I am a lonely, lone wolf.
M2, D5 amendment: Smoked 9 in the end.
M2, D6
1. How did today go?
Oh God. I am lonely. I am sad.
2. How was you food and exercise?
5k run to the doughnut shop.
Food:
Today's food: Apricots
Apricots support smooth skin.
- porridge with almond milk and an apricot
- 2 coffees and milk
- the most decadent doughnut of all time (felt ill eating it - peanut butter filling, some chocolate concoction on top - too much)
- drifter bar
- watercress soup with potato and onion
- bottle of white wine
- 500ml Erdinger
- 1000ml Lomza
Cigs: TBD
Weight: 11 stone 5 1/4 pounds
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
A bleak week. Doubting the people around me. It's terrible - when someone does something so mean towards you, I find it really hard to ever trust them again. Basically, a friend of mine is grieving, but in the course of it, she hasn't been so nice to me. It's hard to discern if it is the grief or is that is just an excuse. Basically, I don't trust her anymore. Which is so sad, because I used to trust her with everything. I don't know, I just hate people that ignore you and won't communicate. I hate the silent treatment. On top of that, I feel very alone.
Sorry to hear about the trouble with your friend. Has she done similar things before? Intentional silent treatment is horrible but it can also mean things like "I haven´t got the spoons to deal with anything right now" or "I messed up there and I can´t face her right now." Can you go to some kind of group activity near where you live? (Hobby clubs, meet-ups, exercise stuff.) Sounds like you need distraction.
Thanks LaMa, was a bit drunk and emotional last night when I wrote that, the incident I was referring to happened ages ago, have to learn to let things go! As for hobbies, I think I have a lot already and I don't have much money at the moment to invest in something new. Going to enjoy the downtime before life picks up speed once again, which it always does.
Amendments to M2, D6:
Smoked 19 cigs in the end.
However, had only 600ml of Lonza, poured out the rest. Had a roll with 2 slices ham, 2 slices gouda cheese, butter and some vine tomatoes also to soak up the alcohol.
M2, D7:
1. How did today go?
Not too hungover today, thank God. A little bit tired, but nothing compared to last week. Still, back on the dry again. Hate having these little blips but writing about them here and having to face up to them is the whole reason for keeping this diary. I've come a long way, but still got a few miles to go I think.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Did half an hour of circuits this morning. It was a new teacher and I really enjoyed it.
Food has been a mixed bag, so much hungrier than on a normal day.
Today's food: Watercress
Watercress defends against and repairs DNA damage.
- bottle of Coke
- hot water and lemon
- porridge, apricot and almond milk
- watercress, potato and onion soup with small crusty roll, butter and 2 slices of gouda cheese
- tea and milk
- lemon slice cake
- Fry's chocolate cream bar
- pepperoni and chorizo pizza
That should be it for the night, might have more tea.
Will update on cigs tomorrow (won't be as many as 19 anyway!).
Weight today was 11 stone 5 1/4 pounds. Hanging in there.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Still on the exercise train, but not this weekend. Really hoping for some good things during the week.
Amendments to M2, D6:
Smoked 19 cigs in the end.
However, had only 600ml of Lonza, poured out the rest. Had a roll with 2 slices ham, 2 slices gouda cheese, butter and some vine tomatoes also to soak up the alcohol.
M2, D7:
1. How did today go?
Not too hungover today, thank God. A little bit tired, but nothing compared to last week. Still, back on the dry again. Hate having these little blips but writing about them here and having to face up to them is the whole reason for keeping this diary. I've come a long way, but still got a few miles to go I think.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Did half an hour of circuits this morning. It was a new teacher and I really enjoyed it.
Food has been a mixed bag, so much hungrier than on a normal day.
Today's food: Watercress
Watercress defends against and repairs DNA damage.
- bottle of Coke
- hot water and lemon
- porridge, apricot and almond milk
- watercress, potato and onion soup with small crusty roll, butter and 2 slices of gouda cheese
- tea and milk
- lemon slice cake
- Fry's chocolate cream bar
- pepperoni and chorizo pizza
That should be it for the night, might have more tea.
Will update on cigs tomorrow (won't be as many as 19 anyway!).
Weight today was 11 stone 5 1/4 pounds. Hanging in there.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Still on the exercise train, but not this weekend. Really hoping for some good things during the week.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
The soup sounds gorgeous - well done for keeping with the exercise hun, glad the hangover wasn't bad!