Sunflower_
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I'm sure she'll be thrilled..
Emily Rose: The Reboot
- Thread starter Emilyrose
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Thankyou Sunflower. Lets see what she says! <3
Haha, thank you Hunk, I am very flattered.
Lol Hana. This thread certainly took an unexpected turn.
Amendments to day 23: Also had 2 chewing gums and 50g of red pepper and cheese crisps. Don't think I had a second orange juice.
Day 24:
1. How did today go?
Something unexpected happened today, but everything is all fine again, thank God. I got a little fright though.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was a really long interval run (over an hour). It was tough.
Cig count: 2. That's because I'm at home this evening. Don't really miss them at all.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/4.
Food:
- 100g bag of red pepper and cheese crisps
- orange juice
- glass of milk
- 500ml bottle of Lucozade
- can of club lemon
- ham and egg wrap (shop-bought)
- gingerbread man biscuit
- 2 cadbury's chocolate biscuits
- small bit chicken and asparagus risotto (ready meal)
- tea and milk x2
- peppermint tea
Very strange food day. The first half of the day was just trying to get through the hangover, second part was a bit of Christmas excess, but my parents were out of the house all day, so there was nothing much to munch on at home. Still, it could have been worse.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I read through a lot of my diary today, and from my actions, there is no way in hell I can reach my body goal any time soon. The exercise is helping to maintain my weight, but it all boils down to stopping drinking. It really does. So I am considering Dry January. I really need to just have a boring time of it for a while. And a lot of the drinking I am doing isn't even involving big night's out, so it really is a complete waste.
Anyway, it's Christmas Eve, so I wish you all a lovely Christmas. This is one of my favourites:
Lol Hana. This thread certainly took an unexpected turn.
Amendments to day 23: Also had 2 chewing gums and 50g of red pepper and cheese crisps. Don't think I had a second orange juice.
Day 24:
1. How did today go?
Something unexpected happened today, but everything is all fine again, thank God. I got a little fright though.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was a really long interval run (over an hour). It was tough.
Cig count: 2. That's because I'm at home this evening. Don't really miss them at all.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/4.
Food:
- 100g bag of red pepper and cheese crisps
- orange juice
- glass of milk
- 500ml bottle of Lucozade
- can of club lemon
- ham and egg wrap (shop-bought)
- gingerbread man biscuit
- 2 cadbury's chocolate biscuits
- small bit chicken and asparagus risotto (ready meal)
- tea and milk x2
- peppermint tea
Very strange food day. The first half of the day was just trying to get through the hangover, second part was a bit of Christmas excess, but my parents were out of the house all day, so there was nothing much to munch on at home. Still, it could have been worse.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I read through a lot of my diary today, and from my actions, there is no way in hell I can reach my body goal any time soon. The exercise is helping to maintain my weight, but it all boils down to stopping drinking. It really does. So I am considering Dry January. I really need to just have a boring time of it for a while. And a lot of the drinking I am doing isn't even involving big night's out, so it really is a complete waste.
Anyway, it's Christmas Eve, so I wish you all a lovely Christmas. This is one of my favourites:
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Thankyou Emily. Merry Christmas to you too.
You are a gift to me and to the world!
Btw, one quick christmas question :If we got married,you think we will make a perfect couple?
Thankyou Emily. Merry Christmas to you too.
You are a gift to me and to the world!
Btw, one quick christmas question :If we got married,you think we will make a perfect couple?
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Happy Christmas sweet x
Hunk, absolutely.
Hi LaMa, yeah, this is a good time of year for self-reflection. I feel like I've got a head start on my resolutions.
Thank you Hana, hope you enjoyed your day.
Day 25:
1. How did today go?
It's Christmas!!! Christmas doesn't really fill me with that much dread. It's pretty much just one day and then I am almost back to a normal routine. So it's not the full week of sabotage that it might be otherwise.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Went for a Christmas Day 6k run at around 11:30, was really happy with that. There were a few other runners on the road also that I gave a smile and nod to. It seemed like we were all in on the secret.
Food of course was not going to be following any sort of healthy routine, but here goes. I personally think it could have been a lot worse.
Breakfast: cornflakes, 1 weetabix, granola and milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 chocolate biscuits
Snack: 1 slice toast and butter; 1 choc biscuit; tea and milk
The Starter: melon and grapes
The Drinks: 1 brandy and ginger ale; 4 small glasses white wine
The Dinner: turkey, ham, stuffing, gravy, roasted carrots and parsnips, roast potatoes, tender stemmed broccoli
The Dessert: Apple tart slice with small slice Viennetta and cream; coffee and milk
The Extras: 4 chocolates; 1 more biscuit
Teas: Peppermint, tea and milk
Bedtime snack: 1 slice toast, butter, mustard, turkey, ham
Weighed in today at 11 stone 5 pounds.
0 cigarettes!
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Today was a day for chilling out and having a lovely time at home with my family. The goals will still be there tomorrow.
Hi LaMa, yeah, this is a good time of year for self-reflection. I feel like I've got a head start on my resolutions.
Thank you Hana, hope you enjoyed your day.
Day 25:
1. How did today go?
It's Christmas!!! Christmas doesn't really fill me with that much dread. It's pretty much just one day and then I am almost back to a normal routine. So it's not the full week of sabotage that it might be otherwise.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Went for a Christmas Day 6k run at around 11:30, was really happy with that. There were a few other runners on the road also that I gave a smile and nod to. It seemed like we were all in on the secret.
Food of course was not going to be following any sort of healthy routine, but here goes. I personally think it could have been a lot worse.
Breakfast: cornflakes, 1 weetabix, granola and milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 chocolate biscuits
Snack: 1 slice toast and butter; 1 choc biscuit; tea and milk
The Starter: melon and grapes
The Drinks: 1 brandy and ginger ale; 4 small glasses white wine
The Dinner: turkey, ham, stuffing, gravy, roasted carrots and parsnips, roast potatoes, tender stemmed broccoli
The Dessert: Apple tart slice with small slice Viennetta and cream; coffee and milk
The Extras: 4 chocolates; 1 more biscuit
Teas: Peppermint, tea and milk
Bedtime snack: 1 slice toast, butter, mustard, turkey, ham
Weighed in today at 11 stone 5 pounds.
0 cigarettes!
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Today was a day for chilling out and having a lovely time at home with my family. The goals will still be there tomorrow.
Hunk, at this stage, you have to be taking the piss.
LaMa, yes, I like family time (to a point).
Day 26:
1. How did today go?
One reason I have this diary is to shame myself into actually making a change. I was in default robot mode tonight. It's sad. But I went with it because I want it to be the last week of it. I am serious about 2017 being a different "Emily Rose". I am sick of me.
2. How was your food and exercise?
5k run that was so ridiculously hard. It was dreadful. Fearing the run tomorrow.
Food/Alcohol:
Breakfast - cornflakes, weetabix, granola, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 biscuits; 2 chocolates
Lunch - 4 choc chip cookies; coffee and milk
Dinner - turkey, ham, stuffing, half a potato, carrots, mangetout, broccoli, sweetcorn, mushroom gravy
Dessert - apple tart and cream
Drinks - 3 500ml bottles IPA beer; 4 gins with elderflower and soda; pint of Heineken; shot of tequila; tia maria and lucozade
Soakage - 2 pizza slices
Cigs: 23
Weight: 11 stone 6
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
No. Very sad.
LaMa, yes, I like family time (to a point).
Day 26:
1. How did today go?
One reason I have this diary is to shame myself into actually making a change. I was in default robot mode tonight. It's sad. But I went with it because I want it to be the last week of it. I am serious about 2017 being a different "Emily Rose". I am sick of me.
2. How was your food and exercise?
5k run that was so ridiculously hard. It was dreadful. Fearing the run tomorrow.
Food/Alcohol:
Breakfast - cornflakes, weetabix, granola, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 biscuits; 2 chocolates
Lunch - 4 choc chip cookies; coffee and milk
Dinner - turkey, ham, stuffing, half a potato, carrots, mangetout, broccoli, sweetcorn, mushroom gravy
Dessert - apple tart and cream
Drinks - 3 500ml bottles IPA beer; 4 gins with elderflower and soda; pint of Heineken; shot of tequila; tia maria and lucozade
Soakage - 2 pizza slices
Cigs: 23
Weight: 11 stone 6
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
No. Very sad.
Day 27:
1. How did today go?
Today actually wasn't so bad. I wasn't hugely depressed or anything. I did have severe cramps earlier in the day and they've come back a little bit now that I'm sitting in bed, but I took a few paracetamol, so hopefully they shouldn't be too bad.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I was so proud of myself today. Despite the queasiness and concern about bowel movements, I went and did my planned 6k run today. It actually went really well. Whatever was going on yesterday, I couldn't run at all, but today, I felt good out there. Back in the gym tomorrow, looking forward to a change of routine with that.
Food:
- Breakfast: can of rock shandy; 4 choc chip cookies; tea and milk
- Snack: bottle of orangina; large chai latte
- Dinner: turkey curry and rice; small glass of white wine
- Snacks: 1 1/2 biscuits; 2 Lindor chocolates; bag of tangy cheese Doritos; peppermint tea
The only healthy thing I had was my dinner but my stomach has been at me all day.
Cigs: 0! Happy with that. Although, the fact that I smoked 23 yesterday makes this a little bit easier.
Weight: 11 stone 8 1/4 pounds. Won't panic about that as yesterday was a monster of a day.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
On that run today, I really felt, 'Wow. I've got this.' I don't have it all figured out just yet but I really feel I am making progress and mental shifts all the time. Have a few interesting things planned in terms of food coming up in the next few weeks.
Started imagining the clothes I will be rocking when I reach my body goals. I know I don't have a bad body now, but I really, really want to be able to wear clothes like below:
I would just love to get away with leather trousers and a crop top. And someday, I will.
1. How did today go?
Today actually wasn't so bad. I wasn't hugely depressed or anything. I did have severe cramps earlier in the day and they've come back a little bit now that I'm sitting in bed, but I took a few paracetamol, so hopefully they shouldn't be too bad.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I was so proud of myself today. Despite the queasiness and concern about bowel movements, I went and did my planned 6k run today. It actually went really well. Whatever was going on yesterday, I couldn't run at all, but today, I felt good out there. Back in the gym tomorrow, looking forward to a change of routine with that.
Food:
- Breakfast: can of rock shandy; 4 choc chip cookies; tea and milk
- Snack: bottle of orangina; large chai latte
- Dinner: turkey curry and rice; small glass of white wine
- Snacks: 1 1/2 biscuits; 2 Lindor chocolates; bag of tangy cheese Doritos; peppermint tea
The only healthy thing I had was my dinner but my stomach has been at me all day.
Cigs: 0! Happy with that. Although, the fact that I smoked 23 yesterday makes this a little bit easier.
Weight: 11 stone 8 1/4 pounds. Won't panic about that as yesterday was a monster of a day.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
On that run today, I really felt, 'Wow. I've got this.' I don't have it all figured out just yet but I really feel I am making progress and mental shifts all the time. Have a few interesting things planned in terms of food coming up in the next few weeks.
Started imagining the clothes I will be rocking when I reach my body goals. I know I don't have a bad body now, but I really, really want to be able to wear clothes like below:
I would just love to get away with leather trousers and a crop top. And someday, I will.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Don't beat yourself up chick - it's a hard time of year to stay on plan! New day today - hope it's a goodun xx
Thanks Hana. A new day has dawned.
Day 28:
1. How did today go?
Met that guy I mentioned that I want to marry tonight. Still want to marry him. He is gorgeous and lovely and charming and he did ask, 'Do you come here often?' about the bar we were in - a classic chatup line if ever I heard one! Haha, no, it was quite tragic, and it ruined my evening in a way, because there were so many lovely (single) men out and I'm wasting my time pining about a dream, rather than a reality. He's fab though.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Spin class. Difficult.
Food:
- granola, cornflakes, one weetabix, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 Lindor chocs
- bran and seed muffin; coffee and milk
- latte
- amaranth, tender-stemmed broccoli and marinated pork chop
- some chips and curry
- 5 pints, 1 gin and tonic
Cigs: 18 (crisis point)
Weight: 11 stone 5
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I got a lot of compliments tonight, probably because I was highly excited because Dream Man was in the building. One man told me I was exotic-looking, always a good thing. I actually think I did look really nice. I just wish I didn't still waste my time on pipe dreams. How to get over these childish fantasies? It's making myself unhappy for no reason.
Day 28:
1. How did today go?
Met that guy I mentioned that I want to marry tonight. Still want to marry him. He is gorgeous and lovely and charming and he did ask, 'Do you come here often?' about the bar we were in - a classic chatup line if ever I heard one! Haha, no, it was quite tragic, and it ruined my evening in a way, because there were so many lovely (single) men out and I'm wasting my time pining about a dream, rather than a reality. He's fab though.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Spin class. Difficult.
Food:
- granola, cornflakes, one weetabix, milk; orange juice; coffee and milk; 2 Lindor chocs
- bran and seed muffin; coffee and milk
- latte
- amaranth, tender-stemmed broccoli and marinated pork chop
- some chips and curry
- 5 pints, 1 gin and tonic
Cigs: 18 (crisis point)
Weight: 11 stone 5
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I got a lot of compliments tonight, probably because I was highly excited because Dream Man was in the building. One man told me I was exotic-looking, always a good thing. I actually think I did look really nice. I just wish I didn't still waste my time on pipe dreams. How to get over these childish fantasies? It's making myself unhappy for no reason.
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Hey sweet - glad you felt you looked nice when you went out.. Shame about seeing dream chap though..will make it hard to focus on anyone else! They aren't childish fantasies though - when ya find someone else you'll probably just move on automatically. He's with someone isn't he? So if he's flirting with you or anything then that makes him a bit of a shit. Hows the job front going? Maybe putting more time into yourself and your goals will help! xx
Hi Hana, thank you for the advice. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my ramblings. To be fair, he wasn't really flirting at all, I approached him for the chats, and he's just a nice guy and will chat away, but he's not giving off any vibe that he's mine for the taking! I am just sadly one of these people that cannot appreciate nice men that are interested in me, and always want the ones that aren't available at all. But also, I think when you aren't quite happy with yourself, you can never be quite happy with anyone. And I am really learning to like myself more every day!
Amendment to day 28: Smoked the full pack of cigs, the whole 20.
Day 29:
1. How did today go?
There's this really cool cat in my neighbourhood. She's a white cat with one massive patch over one eye and one small patch over the other. She's really cool, and sometimes she comes on our balcony and peers through the patio doors at me as if she wants to come in, but then she runs away. Anyway, I was having a smoke on the balcony when I came home tonight and she was around, watching me but very apprehensive at the same time, and I wanted her to call over, but she wouldn't. Anyway, I am determined that we will become friends before I move out sometime next year. She's class.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was a 6k run. Again, a bit tougher because of booze yesterday, but I can be a fucking machine when I want to be. I actually think I am developing abs again. I looked quite trim today in my workout gear.
Weighed in at 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds. Happy with that.
Cigs: Will update tomorrow. Still going.
Food:
Introducing a new healthy food to my diet every day. I got a beauty book and I am working through the foods I can find and adding them to my diet one by one.
Today's food: Almond milk
Almond milk boosts skin hydration which my poor, reddened, wrinkly skin desperately craves.
- porridge, raspberries, blueberries, flaxseed and almond milk (you couldn't get a healthier, more yummy breakfast, in my opinion); coffee and milk
- sausage, rasher, poached egg, fried tomato, 2 slices brown toast, 3 sachets butter, ketchup; tea and milk
- bacon and cheese burger
- 5 pints of beer; 2 hot ports; 1 whiskey and coke; glass of red wine (will update in the morning)
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Yes, because this year is nearly over. Thanks be to Christ.
Amendment to day 28: Smoked the full pack of cigs, the whole 20.
Day 29:
1. How did today go?
There's this really cool cat in my neighbourhood. She's a white cat with one massive patch over one eye and one small patch over the other. She's really cool, and sometimes she comes on our balcony and peers through the patio doors at me as if she wants to come in, but then she runs away. Anyway, I was having a smoke on the balcony when I came home tonight and she was around, watching me but very apprehensive at the same time, and I wanted her to call over, but she wouldn't. Anyway, I am determined that we will become friends before I move out sometime next year. She's class.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was a 6k run. Again, a bit tougher because of booze yesterday, but I can be a fucking machine when I want to be. I actually think I am developing abs again. I looked quite trim today in my workout gear.
Weighed in at 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds. Happy with that.
Cigs: Will update tomorrow. Still going.
Food:
Introducing a new healthy food to my diet every day. I got a beauty book and I am working through the foods I can find and adding them to my diet one by one.
Today's food: Almond milk
Almond milk boosts skin hydration which my poor, reddened, wrinkly skin desperately craves.
- porridge, raspberries, blueberries, flaxseed and almond milk (you couldn't get a healthier, more yummy breakfast, in my opinion); coffee and milk
- sausage, rasher, poached egg, fried tomato, 2 slices brown toast, 3 sachets butter, ketchup; tea and milk
- bacon and cheese burger
- 5 pints of beer; 2 hot ports; 1 whiskey and coke; glass of red wine (will update in the morning)
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Yes, because this year is nearly over. Thanks be to Christ.
Thanks Baboon. I am seriously paying for it today.
Day 29 update: Smoked 19 cigs. Drank a whole bottle of red wine. Feeling like shit currently.
Day 30:
1. How did today go?
It's day 30 and I'm proud to say I reached a new low weight this morning - 11 stone 4 1/2 pounds. Somehow, the exercise is keeping me sort of on track. It will boomerang back up tomorrow, have no doubt, but it's encouraging.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I did a virtual spin class at the gym. They are not as good as the real class with an instructor pushing you, but I did work up a sweat, so it was something.
Today's food: Almonds
Almonds strengthen cell membranes. I could probably do with some cell replacements today. Haha, the brain is fried.
- can of club lemon
- porridge, almonds, raspberries, blueberries, flax seed and almond milk
- coffee and milk
- pack of paprika crisps and bottle of Lucozade
- tea and milk and toasted ham, cheese, tomato and onion sandwich
- flat white
- 9" Hawaiian pizza (left one slice behind) and garlic dip
- can of coke
Can't wait to sleep off the remains of the hangover. Was fine all day, but it's caught up with me now.
Cigs: 5
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
2017 is in sight! Can't wait for the new year to start. I am off cigs, off booze, off everything. And I think I can do it this time.
Day 29 update: Smoked 19 cigs. Drank a whole bottle of red wine. Feeling like shit currently.
Day 30:
1. How did today go?
It's day 30 and I'm proud to say I reached a new low weight this morning - 11 stone 4 1/2 pounds. Somehow, the exercise is keeping me sort of on track. It will boomerang back up tomorrow, have no doubt, but it's encouraging.
2. How was your food and exercise?
I did a virtual spin class at the gym. They are not as good as the real class with an instructor pushing you, but I did work up a sweat, so it was something.
Today's food: Almonds
Almonds strengthen cell membranes. I could probably do with some cell replacements today. Haha, the brain is fried.
- can of club lemon
- porridge, almonds, raspberries, blueberries, flax seed and almond milk
- coffee and milk
- pack of paprika crisps and bottle of Lucozade
- tea and milk and toasted ham, cheese, tomato and onion sandwich
- flat white
- 9" Hawaiian pizza (left one slice behind) and garlic dip
- can of coke
Can't wait to sleep off the remains of the hangover. Was fine all day, but it's caught up with me now.
Cigs: 5
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
2017 is in sight! Can't wait for the new year to start. I am off cigs, off booze, off everything. And I think I can do it this time.
Hi LaMa. Thanks. Hoping that theory works better in 2017.
Day 31:
1. How did today go?
Writing a very early entry as I am away tonight and won't be able to update later. Have woken up feeling shattered tired. Going for a power nap before the evening's festivities begin. Wish I had a bit more energy for it, but that's ok.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Dragged myself out of that bed for a yoga session this morning. There were loads of people there and there was a great energy in the room. Wore a hoodie I haven't worn in ages - it is noticeably looser on me. So that's encouraging.
Weighed in at 11 stone 8 1/4 pounds. Annoying but expected.
Will update on cigs tomorrow, hopefully the last time I have to do that.
Food:
Today's food: Amaranth
Amaranth supports cell repair, bone building, and strong hair and nails. All great things.
For breakfast, I had a boost bar, a chocolate croissant and a tea and milk. Obviously terrible choices, but my energy is really low and I will be a lot stricter with my diet for the next month at least.
Before I head off, I'm going to make a healthy salad of amaranth, grilled chicken, avocado, tomatoes, spinach, peppers and cucumber.
Let's face it, I will be drinking later, BUT, I am determined to get up for a run in the morning and go for a swim/jacuzzi session after, so I am going to watch it as much as I can. I am determined to not be dying for the start of a new year. Also, I am so burnt out from the late nights this morning and my skin looks like shit.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I believe it to be true.
Happy New Year to you all, I'm going to leave you with a poem that was read out at the end of the yoga session today. It's really beautiful.
Day 31:
1. How did today go?
Writing a very early entry as I am away tonight and won't be able to update later. Have woken up feeling shattered tired. Going for a power nap before the evening's festivities begin. Wish I had a bit more energy for it, but that's ok.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Dragged myself out of that bed for a yoga session this morning. There were loads of people there and there was a great energy in the room. Wore a hoodie I haven't worn in ages - it is noticeably looser on me. So that's encouraging.
Weighed in at 11 stone 8 1/4 pounds. Annoying but expected.
Will update on cigs tomorrow, hopefully the last time I have to do that.
Food:
Today's food: Amaranth
Amaranth supports cell repair, bone building, and strong hair and nails. All great things.
For breakfast, I had a boost bar, a chocolate croissant and a tea and milk. Obviously terrible choices, but my energy is really low and I will be a lot stricter with my diet for the next month at least.
Before I head off, I'm going to make a healthy salad of amaranth, grilled chicken, avocado, tomatoes, spinach, peppers and cucumber.
Let's face it, I will be drinking later, BUT, I am determined to get up for a run in the morning and go for a swim/jacuzzi session after, so I am going to watch it as much as I can. I am determined to not be dying for the start of a new year. Also, I am so burnt out from the late nights this morning and my skin looks like shit.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I believe it to be true.
Happy New Year to you all, I'm going to leave you with a poem that was read out at the end of the yoga session today. It's really beautiful.