- Thank you Liza, I really appreciate that.
- Aw, thanks Marsia.
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. Thanks Cate.
I don't feel quite as bad today. I was crying earlier but I do think crying is very healing and I'm not a big crier in general.
I cancelled tennis tomorrow because the weather is bad but I'm playing on Sunday instead. Tomorrow, I'm probably going to stay in bed for the majority of the day. And I'm okay with that. Sunday needs to be a lot more productive, so tomorrow I need to rest up to prep for a busy enough week.
I never spoke about the SG weekend, which you might have been slightly interested in hearing about. Hahaha. It was extremely up and down. I was late collecting him, and then he wasn't even there when I eventually did arrive, and that kind of set the tone for the evening. We probably don't bring out the best in each other. Having said that, we had a mad adventure and I really enjoyed the evening, but that might have been more the people that were surrounding us rather than him. I don't know, I think because I am so all over the place myself, I'm just not good company for anyone right now.
By the end of the evening, we genuinely despised each other, but we kind of got over that when we got back to the hotel, which was a relief!!! Then we had a great day on Sunday, went for a lovely brunch, the sun came out, he held my hand for a bit while we were walking to the cafe, and it kind of made up for all the fighting the night before.
Will we meet again? Not sure. I need to be in a happier place. I am getting loads of attention from men this week though, it's kind of insane. And SG got some attention in the pub we were in as well. I wasn't exactly jealous but I didn't want someone else to take him from me either, even though I found him so annoying! Hahaha. What an egomaniac.
So yeah, I'm down but not out. I really want to sort myself out and start taking care of myself the way I wish someone would take care of me, as Marsia said. I've had a great week in terms of achievements. I got a lovely email this morning where I was praised highly and I just started blubbering because it felt so empty without anyone to share it with.
I think it's the doing-it-alone aspect of life that is really killing me right now. And I met someone that I really felt 'got me' and I thought (and still do think) that we had an amazing connection, and it's really, really hard to no longer have them around. I mean, SG and I get on and have a connection to a certain extent but it's just not on the same level. The level I'm talking about is a slightly unhinged level. For me anyway.
I watched this earlier and it's probably the most beautiful story I've heard in a long time. It gives me hope because I am a big believer in magic also. You kind of have to be if you want to get through the bad stuff. That's how I feel anyway.
- Aw, thanks Marsia.
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I don't feel quite as bad today. I was crying earlier but I do think crying is very healing and I'm not a big crier in general.
I cancelled tennis tomorrow because the weather is bad but I'm playing on Sunday instead. Tomorrow, I'm probably going to stay in bed for the majority of the day. And I'm okay with that. Sunday needs to be a lot more productive, so tomorrow I need to rest up to prep for a busy enough week.
I never spoke about the SG weekend, which you might have been slightly interested in hearing about. Hahaha. It was extremely up and down. I was late collecting him, and then he wasn't even there when I eventually did arrive, and that kind of set the tone for the evening. We probably don't bring out the best in each other. Having said that, we had a mad adventure and I really enjoyed the evening, but that might have been more the people that were surrounding us rather than him. I don't know, I think because I am so all over the place myself, I'm just not good company for anyone right now.
By the end of the evening, we genuinely despised each other, but we kind of got over that when we got back to the hotel, which was a relief!!! Then we had a great day on Sunday, went for a lovely brunch, the sun came out, he held my hand for a bit while we were walking to the cafe, and it kind of made up for all the fighting the night before.
Will we meet again? Not sure. I need to be in a happier place. I am getting loads of attention from men this week though, it's kind of insane. And SG got some attention in the pub we were in as well. I wasn't exactly jealous but I didn't want someone else to take him from me either, even though I found him so annoying! Hahaha. What an egomaniac.
So yeah, I'm down but not out. I really want to sort myself out and start taking care of myself the way I wish someone would take care of me, as Marsia said. I've had a great week in terms of achievements. I got a lovely email this morning where I was praised highly and I just started blubbering because it felt so empty without anyone to share it with.
I think it's the doing-it-alone aspect of life that is really killing me right now. And I met someone that I really felt 'got me' and I thought (and still do think) that we had an amazing connection, and it's really, really hard to no longer have them around. I mean, SG and I get on and have a connection to a certain extent but it's just not on the same level. The level I'm talking about is a slightly unhinged level. For me anyway.
I watched this earlier and it's probably the most beautiful story I've heard in a long time. It gives me hope because I am a big believer in magic also. You kind of have to be if you want to get through the bad stuff. That's how I feel anyway.