Jenefer
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What way of living Em? You are constantly busy!
Emily Rose: The Reboot
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with Jen. Your life sounds so busy to me.Yeah i had to kind of laugh at your "boring" life as that would be a version of a good and full day for me....but i think you are such a woman of spirit and fun and i can imagine that skipping the wine and making something sensible to eat and going to bed early would seem not too exciting- Hi Jen. Oh God, I guess I have to put The Cowboy into the same category as cigarettes and alcohol. Darn it! And the bob isn't exactly 'sleek', lol. That's just not my hair either.
- Thanks Cate. I appreciate you taking the time to write all that.
- Yeah, it's forever that is killing my resolve, Liza.
- Haha, thanks Rob. The quitting smoking is very important but I really do need to lose the weight as well.
I desperately want to buy wine tonight because I am constantly trying to sabotage myself, but I should be okay I think. Tomorrow's exercise plan is tennis in the evening and I have a tuna salad made up for my lunch tomorrow. I find this way of living extremely boring but I need to just stick with it and battle through.
Going to read some Poirot now and get an early night.
anyways I hope building the routine helps you face quitting smoking when you feel up for it.
- Hi Rob. I haven't tried vaping. I'm not a fan of the idea really.
- Hi Cate and Jen. Liza kind of gave the perfect answer to this.
- You get me Liza, you really get me!
What is this annoying blinking warning light on the site? Can everyone see it or have I just been hacked? It's driving me mental!
Today was an incredibly busy day at work and my food reflected the stressed out feeling I had all day. I woke up loads of times last night, slept really badly. I had breakfast of oat bran with hemp seeds, cacao nibs and milk for breakfast with apple cider vinegar. Took my hair tablets this morning and this evening. Had my lunch of tuna, tomatoes, kimchi, peppers, courgette, celery and cheese. Boring but healthy. I had 3 cups of coffee and 1 cup of tea throughout the course of the day. That's more coffee than I like to drink.
I ended up demolishing 5 biscuits in the office also - a tea cake, a mikado biscuit, a chocolate wafer bar, and 2 chocolate chip cookies. Not great.
I came home then and was in a picky mood, so I had a small roll with hummus on 1 side and butter on the other with cheddar cheese on top. I had a 40 g bag of tangy cheese doritos dipped in the hummus. Then I had a 90 g smarties bar. That's probably a bit of a binge for me. Didn't feel too great after that, so took a 20 minute power nap before playing tennis for an hour.
I nearly lost my mind and bought wine on the drive home, but I got a message about playing a game at 9pm tomorrow from William, and I'm already playing at 8, plus I have an important-ish meeting tomorrow, so I did the sensible thing and bought a can of 7up free as a kind of consolation.
Cigarettes yesterday were 10. I ticked off my list of stuff today and will do the meditation when I close my eyes. Feeling very naturally tired now. Monday done, the rest of the week should be easier.
- Hi Cate and Jen. Liza kind of gave the perfect answer to this.
- You get me Liza, you really get me!
What is this annoying blinking warning light on the site? Can everyone see it or have I just been hacked? It's driving me mental!
Today was an incredibly busy day at work and my food reflected the stressed out feeling I had all day. I woke up loads of times last night, slept really badly. I had breakfast of oat bran with hemp seeds, cacao nibs and milk for breakfast with apple cider vinegar. Took my hair tablets this morning and this evening. Had my lunch of tuna, tomatoes, kimchi, peppers, courgette, celery and cheese. Boring but healthy. I had 3 cups of coffee and 1 cup of tea throughout the course of the day. That's more coffee than I like to drink.
I ended up demolishing 5 biscuits in the office also - a tea cake, a mikado biscuit, a chocolate wafer bar, and 2 chocolate chip cookies. Not great.
I came home then and was in a picky mood, so I had a small roll with hummus on 1 side and butter on the other with cheddar cheese on top. I had a 40 g bag of tangy cheese doritos dipped in the hummus. Then I had a 90 g smarties bar. That's probably a bit of a binge for me. Didn't feel too great after that, so took a 20 minute power nap before playing tennis for an hour.
I nearly lost my mind and bought wine on the drive home, but I got a message about playing a game at 9pm tomorrow from William, and I'm already playing at 8, plus I have an important-ish meeting tomorrow, so I did the sensible thing and bought a can of 7up free as a kind of consolation.
Cigarettes yesterday were 10. I ticked off my list of stuff today and will do the meditation when I close my eyes. Feeling very naturally tired now. Monday done, the rest of the week should be easier.
Jenefer
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but i think you are such a woman of spirit and fun and i can imagine that skipping the wine and making something sensible to eat and going to bed early would seem not too exciting
Oh Em you do make me laugh! I am editing this response because I should have added why you make me laugh. It is because you are so much like William! As a matter of fact I am in the middle of having an "I am bored" morning with him, so have to go and figure out some entertainment. It is a holiday you see, and we SHOULD be doing something on this holiday! We SHOULD also be cooking a special meal, which of course he didn't mention when we did the shopping. He has cut back his alcohol consumption a lot, mostly because it was messing with his blood pressure (which is now all good) so we SHOULD be able to have at least 1 drink. If we don't do these things, he will be terribly bored according to him. My father is also like this, my mother and I are quite similar. So I think it is good to be with someone a bit opposite to create that balance. Without him, I would likely become a hermit.- Hi Rob. I haven't tried vaping. I'm not a fan of the idea really.
- Hi Cate and Jen. Liza kind of gave the perfect answer to this.
- You get me Liza, you really get me!
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- At least you got a reply from the help desk, Cate. Fingers crossed it's just a blip!
- Haha, I love your message, Jen. I think I've just got so used to being busy, any kind of downtime sends me into a tailspin. I think you're better off being a bit more chill. I do think that sounds like a balanced relationship though.
I'm a bit sad about something tonight. I won't get into it, but I just feel a bit let down. Sometimes things don't go the way you expect or want them to. And sometimes they do. I've just got to ride it out.
I had a good day in work though, lots of positives. I love some of the younger members of the team, they just bring such fun and energy to the place. Myself and my colleague had a good laugh today, even though a few things went wrong. It was good. She cheers me up when I get a bit glum. Sometimes that's all you can ask for from work. I do think I want to move on from there soon though, I just think I need a change. Maybe this is just me not liking being too comfortable again. Anyway, tomorrow should be a quiet day, looking forward to that.
I'm meeting one of my friends who recently got married tomorrow, looking forward to catching up with her. She makes a big effort to keep the friendship alive, which is lovely. She was part of my Covid tribe, I used to bump into her walking a lot during that time period, and we were able to just release some of the tension on our walks, as there was no one to really confide in when work wasn't going well, as we were all separated from each other. We're going for a walk in a lovely park and maybe getting a coffee after. It should be nice.
I played two hours of tennis tonight, won one set, lost two, which is about standard for me. I'm so patchy. It's frustrating, but I played with some nice people (and one annoying one that always 'forgets' the score in her favour) but it was an enjoyable evening. I have two big matches on Friday that I'm a bit nervous about. I'd really love to win. I need a win.
I realised today that I have a lot of work to do to get to where I want to be. I just have a lot of negative thoughts rushing through my head all day long. It's very tiring to live like this. I'm trying to pinpoint the exact moment I got so unhappy. I think it was in second year of college. That's when I started bingeing really badly, although my food issues started before that. I guess everyone has a different cross to bear but I would prefer if food wasn't one of mine. The Cowboy talked to me a bit about being in the doldrums, even though from the outside, this is a man who has everything and he definitely doesn't have food issues. I was saying to him, 'But you're such a success!' But maybe his problem is boredom also. I don't know. I also shouldn't really care anymore.
Anyway, I will leave you with this song, it's really great, and has a perfect line for us -
And I feel bad cos I didn't cry when someone I grew up with died
But I break down every time I'm on the scales
- Haha, I love your message, Jen. I think I've just got so used to being busy, any kind of downtime sends me into a tailspin. I think you're better off being a bit more chill. I do think that sounds like a balanced relationship though.
I'm a bit sad about something tonight. I won't get into it, but I just feel a bit let down. Sometimes things don't go the way you expect or want them to. And sometimes they do. I've just got to ride it out.
I had a good day in work though, lots of positives. I love some of the younger members of the team, they just bring such fun and energy to the place. Myself and my colleague had a good laugh today, even though a few things went wrong. It was good. She cheers me up when I get a bit glum. Sometimes that's all you can ask for from work. I do think I want to move on from there soon though, I just think I need a change. Maybe this is just me not liking being too comfortable again. Anyway, tomorrow should be a quiet day, looking forward to that.
I'm meeting one of my friends who recently got married tomorrow, looking forward to catching up with her. She makes a big effort to keep the friendship alive, which is lovely. She was part of my Covid tribe, I used to bump into her walking a lot during that time period, and we were able to just release some of the tension on our walks, as there was no one to really confide in when work wasn't going well, as we were all separated from each other. We're going for a walk in a lovely park and maybe getting a coffee after. It should be nice.
I played two hours of tennis tonight, won one set, lost two, which is about standard for me. I'm so patchy. It's frustrating, but I played with some nice people (and one annoying one that always 'forgets' the score in her favour) but it was an enjoyable evening. I have two big matches on Friday that I'm a bit nervous about. I'd really love to win. I need a win.
I realised today that I have a lot of work to do to get to where I want to be. I just have a lot of negative thoughts rushing through my head all day long. It's very tiring to live like this. I'm trying to pinpoint the exact moment I got so unhappy. I think it was in second year of college. That's when I started bingeing really badly, although my food issues started before that. I guess everyone has a different cross to bear but I would prefer if food wasn't one of mine. The Cowboy talked to me a bit about being in the doldrums, even though from the outside, this is a man who has everything and he definitely doesn't have food issues. I was saying to him, 'But you're such a success!' But maybe his problem is boredom also. I don't know. I also shouldn't really care anymore.
Anyway, I will leave you with this song, it's really great, and has a perfect line for us -
And I feel bad cos I didn't cry when someone I grew up with died
But I break down every time I'm on the scales
Today was a quiet day in work, as expected. It was actually enjoyable enough. I met my friend after work and we went for food and had a chat for a couple of hours. I bumped into one of my former colleagues in the place we went to eat - he was sitting at the table next to us with his wife. He was very friendly and seemed happy to see me, which was nice.
I also bumped into one of the tennis guys this morning at the petrol station on my way to work and we had a bit of a natter as well, so it was a day for bumping into people. The tennis man is hilarious, so full of energy. He's so enthusiastic about tennis, he's gas. He's playing in a tournament with William next week, so I will try to get down and watch their game.
I'm really tired now - I guess I've been out of the house since 8.45 am this morning and just back at 9pm. A long time to be out and about in the world. I definitely need downtime as well, even though I complain about being bored. But I do need it. I finished another Poirot last night, Three-Act Tragedy, it was really good. It had a kind of actor/theatre theme so it was right up my street. I'm going to read The ABC Murders next. I think the earlier Poirot books are probably better in general.
I don't really have much else to say this evening. I'm not really in good form but I do think that is tiredness. I was thinking today that there are 25 weeks left in the year from Monday on and if I really knuckle down, I could be at my goal weight by the end of the year. Planning that kind of got me excited. I was meant to be on plan this week, but it's just proved too difficult. I'm working from home for a few days next week in an effort to give up smoking again, as the 'work stress' excuse will be eliminated. It's probably easier to smoke at home but it's definitely less challenging if I don't have to interact with anyone. Less variables to deal with.
I'm also really going to focus on my diet again. I'm going to try to eat pretty much the same thing every day with slight variations just to get into the routine of cooking again but not having to think too hard about it. I have a goal, I have motivation, I have a 'why', I just need to do it at this stage. There's really no more time to lose.
I also bumped into one of the tennis guys this morning at the petrol station on my way to work and we had a bit of a natter as well, so it was a day for bumping into people. The tennis man is hilarious, so full of energy. He's so enthusiastic about tennis, he's gas. He's playing in a tournament with William next week, so I will try to get down and watch their game.
I'm really tired now - I guess I've been out of the house since 8.45 am this morning and just back at 9pm. A long time to be out and about in the world. I definitely need downtime as well, even though I complain about being bored. But I do need it. I finished another Poirot last night, Three-Act Tragedy, it was really good. It had a kind of actor/theatre theme so it was right up my street. I'm going to read The ABC Murders next. I think the earlier Poirot books are probably better in general.
I don't really have much else to say this evening. I'm not really in good form but I do think that is tiredness. I was thinking today that there are 25 weeks left in the year from Monday on and if I really knuckle down, I could be at my goal weight by the end of the year. Planning that kind of got me excited. I was meant to be on plan this week, but it's just proved too difficult. I'm working from home for a few days next week in an effort to give up smoking again, as the 'work stress' excuse will be eliminated. It's probably easier to smoke at home but it's definitely less challenging if I don't have to interact with anyone. Less variables to deal with.
I'm also really going to focus on my diet again. I'm going to try to eat pretty much the same thing every day with slight variations just to get into the routine of cooking again but not having to think too hard about it. I have a goal, I have motivation, I have a 'why', I just need to do it at this stage. There's really no more time to lose.
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Jenefer
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Hi Em! How nice that you have the option to work from home when you would like to, having that kind of flexibility is wonderful! It sounds like you have some really good friends and positive people in your life, which is really lovely. Good friends who take the time to be there for each other can be kind of a rare thing. You must inspire that kind of friendship! 25 weeks left, what has happened to this year? We can do it Em! We really can! xo
- Hi Jen. Yeah, it's a great perk that came out of Covid. I do have positive people in my life. I don't let them in that much though. Lots to work through there, I think. But I do think people like me on a general level. I really hope we can do it, Jen. I really do.
Very depressing evening here, raining all day more or less. This is probably a typical Irish summer! Mild but miserable. The temperament of a nation summed up in three words.
I should really be asleep - fairly tired all day, but it wasn't a bad day by all accounts. Work meetings went well, we had nice chats in the office, all good that way. I just feel particularly wired again tonight. Ugh. Not good.
I finished The ABC Murders, which I would highly recommend. One of the best Poirot books, just so, so good. Her exacting judgement of character is phenomenal. And Poirot and Hastings are both delightful.
I don't really know what else to talk about. As I was complaining about at the weekend, things have calmed down in my life. It's probably going to be a quiet month. I do have a big match tomorrow, which I am trying to block out of my mind currently, because as I said, I need to be asleep now and I feel I might struggle to get to sleep. But I will get through it.
The rest of the weekend has a bit more tennis involved but no nights out or anything. I might try to meet my friend on Saturday, not sure yet. We'll see what the energy levels are like.
Very depressing evening here, raining all day more or less. This is probably a typical Irish summer! Mild but miserable. The temperament of a nation summed up in three words.
I should really be asleep - fairly tired all day, but it wasn't a bad day by all accounts. Work meetings went well, we had nice chats in the office, all good that way. I just feel particularly wired again tonight. Ugh. Not good.
I finished The ABC Murders, which I would highly recommend. One of the best Poirot books, just so, so good. Her exacting judgement of character is phenomenal. And Poirot and Hastings are both delightful.
I don't really know what else to talk about. As I was complaining about at the weekend, things have calmed down in my life. It's probably going to be a quiet month. I do have a big match tomorrow, which I am trying to block out of my mind currently, because as I said, I need to be asleep now and I feel I might struggle to get to sleep. But I will get through it.
The rest of the weekend has a bit more tennis involved but no nights out or anything. I might try to meet my friend on Saturday, not sure yet. We'll see what the energy levels are like.
Jenefer
Active member
I am often reluctant to say it, because I know so many people suffered during Covid and I feel terrible, but there were a lot of perks as well! I am quite certain people like you Em, you are very likeable! I think I would do well in Ireland, I love me some depressive rain, lol! A bit wired myself, fingers crossed we both get a good night's sleep! 
Cate
Long term member
I get unsettled from time to time, but not as much as I used to. I used to get myself into a state about my purpose in life & wonder what the hell it was. I like how I feel these days. I am more content with the little things & feel lucky for what I have. You still have big adventures ahead of you, Em & lots of fun & love. I'm sure of it.
- Thanks Jen. I woke up at 5.55 am on Friday, couldn't get back to sleep, but recuperated last night! Was wrecked!
- Aw, thanks Cate. I was telling my mother today that tennis is truly a blessing in my life - another Covid perk. So I do try to appreciate the smaller things also.
I called out home this afternoon and my mum seemed pretty good. It's been two years since the dark days, which is a great milestone to have reached. My parents got a great deal on a really nice hotel up the country so they will be gone on a mini-holiday during the week, which is great to hear. I will probably take advantage of them not being there and stay a couple of nights and watch some Wimbledon.
I watched Alcaraz vs. Jarry today, really enjoyed it. These guys are so insanely talented. It's amazing stuff really, what the human body can do.
I nearly lost my mind and signed up to the London Marathon next year but I had the wisdom to look up a training plan beforehand, and I was thinking to myself, 'Do I really want to have to do 2 hour runs every weekend to prepare for this thing?' But what really appealed to me was having a goal that I couldn't get out of and having something long-term enough in the future that I have time to prepare for but not so far away that I will give up before I even start.
Anyway, then I was thinking to myself, why not change the goal from 'running the London Marathon' to 'being in optimum shape', which in my head means I weigh between 140-150 pounds? I'm around 190 at the moment, so that's 40-50 pounds to lose. Someone took a photo of me last night, and while I looked heavy, I didn't look terrible, so you know, my starting point is okay. And look, if I get to 150 and it seems like a really unsustainable weight, that's cool. But I want to get there and experience what that is like. It's really more to see how much my life would change. My lifestyle would definitely have to change. But I guess some of the external world might too.
Anyway, there's no point in imagining how my life would change without taking any steps to actually change it!!! This week looks very promising, as I have the work from home thing for the first half of the week and I have the use of my parents' house also, which will take me away from my rented house and the habit of going out the back for a smoke, which might help. I also can just roll around on the floor in my home house and sob if I need to. It should be an interesting week...
I'll have more of a think about my plan of action tomorrow and discuss that here. Day 1 will be Monday but I am quitting smoking from tomorrow morning. I've decided.
Edited to add: I forgot to say that I got an email on Friday before work about the missed opportunity to audition for a show that involved singing that I was talking about on the 1st of July:
- Aw, thanks Cate. I was telling my mother today that tennis is truly a blessing in my life - another Covid perk. So I do try to appreciate the smaller things also.
I called out home this afternoon and my mum seemed pretty good. It's been two years since the dark days, which is a great milestone to have reached. My parents got a great deal on a really nice hotel up the country so they will be gone on a mini-holiday during the week, which is great to hear. I will probably take advantage of them not being there and stay a couple of nights and watch some Wimbledon.
I watched Alcaraz vs. Jarry today, really enjoyed it. These guys are so insanely talented. It's amazing stuff really, what the human body can do.
I nearly lost my mind and signed up to the London Marathon next year but I had the wisdom to look up a training plan beforehand, and I was thinking to myself, 'Do I really want to have to do 2 hour runs every weekend to prepare for this thing?' But what really appealed to me was having a goal that I couldn't get out of and having something long-term enough in the future that I have time to prepare for but not so far away that I will give up before I even start.
Anyway, then I was thinking to myself, why not change the goal from 'running the London Marathon' to 'being in optimum shape', which in my head means I weigh between 140-150 pounds? I'm around 190 at the moment, so that's 40-50 pounds to lose. Someone took a photo of me last night, and while I looked heavy, I didn't look terrible, so you know, my starting point is okay. And look, if I get to 150 and it seems like a really unsustainable weight, that's cool. But I want to get there and experience what that is like. It's really more to see how much my life would change. My lifestyle would definitely have to change. But I guess some of the external world might too.
Anyway, there's no point in imagining how my life would change without taking any steps to actually change it!!! This week looks very promising, as I have the work from home thing for the first half of the week and I have the use of my parents' house also, which will take me away from my rented house and the habit of going out the back for a smoke, which might help. I also can just roll around on the floor in my home house and sob if I need to. It should be an interesting week...
I'll have more of a think about my plan of action tomorrow and discuss that here. Day 1 will be Monday but I am quitting smoking from tomorrow morning. I've decided.
Edited to add: I forgot to say that I got an email on Friday before work about the missed opportunity to audition for a show that involved singing that I was talking about on the 1st of July:
The auditions don't look to be happening for another while, and I tested my voice out in the car today, and it was a lot better after a good night's rest. It's something I want to do so that is my main incentive for quitting and I must keep that at the forefront of my mind every time the craving monster strikes! It's kind of a different thing to the optimum weight side of things, so that might make it easier. Anyway, that's it!!I missed out on an opportunity to audition for a show because the cigarettes have dried out my throat so much that I can't really sing anymore.
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- Thanks Cate. I'm delighted for them. The hotel looks very nice indeed and they got a great deal on it.
Tomorrow marks the start of the Emily Rose 25-Week Plan™. I did my shop in Dunnes just now and got most of my food for the week and a couple of household items. It all came to under 50 euro, which I was pleasantly surprised with.
Day 1 will begin at 7.30 am with an interval run. I need to get back into running again and the great part is that I can stay in bed a little bit longer because I'm not going to the office tomorrow.
Day 1's menu is as follows:
- oat bran, milk, a few bits from the press; apple cider vinegar
- mandarin
- omelette with mushrooms, onions, peppers, tomato and feta cheese with a slice of toast and butter or hummus (another perk of being at home!)
- yoghurt with a few bits from the press
- steak burger fried or grilled with broccoli, spinach and baby potatoes
- herbal tea and water
I might do some more exercise after dinner - either a walk, swim or yoga. It depends on the smoke cravings. I might just want to go to bed and cry, which is alright too.
I haven't felt this motivated in a while, so I'm looking forward to it. I'm starting at 190ish instead of over 200, which is fantastic. My legs have some great muscle tone built up from all the tennis, so I feel relatively fit and healthy. I can do this!!! The cigarettes are going to be very challenging but I just have to keep that singing voice in mind! I'm sick of thinking and talking about them. They just don't fit in with my life anymore.
The menu for Tuesday and Wednesday will be more or less the same. Thursday I am back in the office and will bring a tuna salad. We have a team night out Thursday, which will be a challenge in terms of food and drinking. I have decided not to drink at it, but that will be hard for me. @Jenefer, I think a lot of social skills come easier when I'm liquored up!
Having said that, I made a new tennis friend today. She's closer to my age than a lot of the ladies in the club and is also still renting, so we have a lot in common. We're going to play in a tournament in a few weeks together, which should be fun. Anyway, that was probably the highlight of the day.
Really looking forward to transforming my mind and body. I'm trying to look at it as a positive, fun thing, rather than looking at what I'll be missing out on. Anyway, let's see how it goes...
Tomorrow marks the start of the Emily Rose 25-Week Plan™. I did my shop in Dunnes just now and got most of my food for the week and a couple of household items. It all came to under 50 euro, which I was pleasantly surprised with.
Day 1 will begin at 7.30 am with an interval run. I need to get back into running again and the great part is that I can stay in bed a little bit longer because I'm not going to the office tomorrow.
Day 1's menu is as follows:
- oat bran, milk, a few bits from the press; apple cider vinegar
- mandarin
- omelette with mushrooms, onions, peppers, tomato and feta cheese with a slice of toast and butter or hummus (another perk of being at home!)
- yoghurt with a few bits from the press
- steak burger fried or grilled with broccoli, spinach and baby potatoes
- herbal tea and water
I might do some more exercise after dinner - either a walk, swim or yoga. It depends on the smoke cravings. I might just want to go to bed and cry, which is alright too.
I haven't felt this motivated in a while, so I'm looking forward to it. I'm starting at 190ish instead of over 200, which is fantastic. My legs have some great muscle tone built up from all the tennis, so I feel relatively fit and healthy. I can do this!!! The cigarettes are going to be very challenging but I just have to keep that singing voice in mind! I'm sick of thinking and talking about them. They just don't fit in with my life anymore.
The menu for Tuesday and Wednesday will be more or less the same. Thursday I am back in the office and will bring a tuna salad. We have a team night out Thursday, which will be a challenge in terms of food and drinking. I have decided not to drink at it, but that will be hard for me. @Jenefer, I think a lot of social skills come easier when I'm liquored up!
Having said that, I made a new tennis friend today. She's closer to my age than a lot of the ladies in the club and is also still renting, so we have a lot in common. We're going to play in a tournament in a few weeks together, which should be fun. Anyway, that was probably the highlight of the day.
Really looking forward to transforming my mind and body. I'm trying to look at it as a positive, fun thing, rather than looking at what I'll be missing out on. Anyway, let's see how it goes...
alligatorob
Respected Member
Hey Emily, your plan sounds great!!
I am optimistic, I think it will go very well. Looking forward to following your progress!
- Thanks Rob. Today went pretty well. Nice to have the support on here.
- Thanks Cate. x
Day 1 - A Change Is Gonna Come
Not a bad start today. I failed on the smoking front, and have just demolished a 100 g bar of chocolate, but happy with the rest of it. I feel like a new woman! So healthy and fresh! It's amazing!
Food was as follows:
- oat bran, pumpkin seeds, apple-infused dried cranberries and milk; regular cappuccino
- coffee and milk; mandarin
- scrambled eggs with salt, pepper, parsley, feta and spinach on a slice of toast with hummus
- natural yoghurt with mixed seeds and cacao nibs
- fried steak burger with fried mushrooms and onions, broccoli and 4 baby potatoes
- 1 square galaxy caramel (I actually was picking up the paper to throw it away and discovered that I had missed one! How unlike me!)
- 100 g milka bar; cup of tea and milk
That's it on the eating front for today. The chocolate at the end was disappointing but I am really happy I got all my nutrients in from the rest of the food.
Exercise today was an interval run during my lunch break - I'm really happy with these few days at home. I need rest.
I got a text this evening to play tennis at 7, but there was a communication breakdown, and they didn't need me in the end, which was kind of annoying because I had my gear on and was all set to go. Ah well. I'm playing tomorrow from 6 - 8pm anyway.
Plan for tomorrow is to eat more or less the same, minus the chocolate, or with less chocolate if I simply must have it. I'm still planning on going for a run in the morning, even though I have tennis, as it just makes me feel so much better about myself. Plus I should be in bed really early tonight. I'm going to have my dinner at lunchtime and have the eggs when I come home from tennis, as otherwise I will be too hungry.
Weight today was 191.3 with body fat of 43.8%. So a long way to go but I feel I've at least made a start. Cigarettes were 10 so far. I will update this number if I smoke anymore.
Oh, as another 'fun' thing, I am going to pick a tarot card a day just to have something to look forward to while I live this pure and boring life. Today's card was the Judgement card.
To see this card can indicate that you are in a period of awakening, brought on by the act of self-reflection. You now have a clearer idea of what you need to change and how you need to be true to yourself and your needs. This can mean making small changes to your daily life or making huge changes that not only affect you but the people close to you.
- Thanks Cate. x
Day 1 - A Change Is Gonna Come
Not a bad start today. I failed on the smoking front, and have just demolished a 100 g bar of chocolate, but happy with the rest of it. I feel like a new woman! So healthy and fresh! It's amazing!
Food was as follows:
- oat bran, pumpkin seeds, apple-infused dried cranberries and milk; regular cappuccino
- coffee and milk; mandarin
- scrambled eggs with salt, pepper, parsley, feta and spinach on a slice of toast with hummus
- natural yoghurt with mixed seeds and cacao nibs
- fried steak burger with fried mushrooms and onions, broccoli and 4 baby potatoes
- 1 square galaxy caramel (I actually was picking up the paper to throw it away and discovered that I had missed one! How unlike me!)
- 100 g milka bar; cup of tea and milk
That's it on the eating front for today. The chocolate at the end was disappointing but I am really happy I got all my nutrients in from the rest of the food.
Exercise today was an interval run during my lunch break - I'm really happy with these few days at home. I need rest.
I got a text this evening to play tennis at 7, but there was a communication breakdown, and they didn't need me in the end, which was kind of annoying because I had my gear on and was all set to go. Ah well. I'm playing tomorrow from 6 - 8pm anyway.
Plan for tomorrow is to eat more or less the same, minus the chocolate, or with less chocolate if I simply must have it. I'm still planning on going for a run in the morning, even though I have tennis, as it just makes me feel so much better about myself. Plus I should be in bed really early tonight. I'm going to have my dinner at lunchtime and have the eggs when I come home from tennis, as otherwise I will be too hungry.
Weight today was 191.3 with body fat of 43.8%. So a long way to go but I feel I've at least made a start. Cigarettes were 10 so far. I will update this number if I smoke anymore.
Oh, as another 'fun' thing, I am going to pick a tarot card a day just to have something to look forward to while I live this pure and boring life. Today's card was the Judgement card.
To see this card can indicate that you are in a period of awakening, brought on by the act of self-reflection. You now have a clearer idea of what you need to change and how you need to be true to yourself and your needs. This can mean making small changes to your daily life or making huge changes that not only affect you but the people close to you.
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