- Aw, thanks Rob. No success with the smoking yet. I have my eye on July 1st to attempt to quit again. I need to alter the belief system that I need them somehow. It's not coming easy.
- Thanks Liza. I spent the evening at it. It's not perfect, but I've given it as much energy as I have left after 8 hours at work. I hope it goes okay. And I feel better today!
Had a good sleep last night, so felt fairly fresh in work today and the day passed away pleasantly enough.
Got into the cleaning when I got home, ended up ordering a chicken wrap and pepsi max for dinner because I had no energy left for cooking, even though I did a big shop after work. Ah well. I have chicken and prawns in the fridge, ready for a stir-fry tomorrow. No going anywhere tomorrow either - I'm so relieved. I've really needed a time out.
The weekend is hectic again - tennis tournament, family gathering, drama meet-up. Ugh. I'd rather do only the tennis tournament, if I'm being honest. Although the family gatherings are normally enjoyable enough really, and no one plagues me with questions about why I am alone and childless and staring down the barrel of 40, and all that stuff, although I'm sure they're all thinking about it. Hahaha. Actually, that is so typical of me. I'm sure they are just thinking about their own lives.
On another example of that, I thought one of the guys in the drama group was really off with me, but he said earlier tonight that he's going through some stuff, and I felt really bad. No Emily Rose, the whole world does not revolve around you! I don't think I'm the only person on the planet that makes the same mistake!
I had a good chat with a friend at the weekend, and she's been pining over the ghost of a guy for years, and I realised we are so alike. I just change over the guy every couple of years. Anyway, it made me feel less alone. Less strange. There are others! She said she kind of feels like her life has been a waste, and I told her it hasn't been at all, and reminded her of all the cool things she's done, which she probably wouldn't have done if it had worked out with that guy or someone else. How clear things are when it's not you!
Anyway, my wish for today is that BIG LOVE comes into her life. She's a lovely person and she deserves to find someone that truly loves her. Let the world revolve around someone else for a change. If she meets someone, I will update here. I would love her to meet someone by the end of the year. It would nearly make me as happy as if I met someone myself!! Haha.
I'm going to bring back the Spirit of Paolo here, as he is a mad one to get the romance going. Love this:
"It was in love I was created
And in love is how I hope I die
Oh aye"