Emily Rose: The Reboot

Emilyrose said:
I won the match and I'm actually well able to move and felt fit enough out there, despite my drinking habit!
Click to expand...
You do sound wonderfully fit! If I'd drunk 2 bottles of wine, I certainly wouldn't be able to go out and play tennis the next day!...well I'd probably be dead actually lol.

Anyways hope it went ok with the other bottle. At least you know for future to limit what you can bring home.
 
& Yay for the yes!
 
- Ah, that's great Cate, glad I contributed! And yay for the yes is right! :)
- 'Wonderfully fit' - I like it Liza! The extra 50 pounds I'm carrying probably allows for the wine. 2 bottles is pushing it though.

Day 9 - Monday 9th January 2023 - Cigarettes and Non-Alcohol
No weigh-in today as I caved with the wine. Sigh. I have been tired since lunchtime.

Food:
- tuna and sweetcorn sandwich; peanut butter protein bar
- can of lucozade; orange juice; banana
- egg salad sandwich; can of 7up; small tub of original pringles
- coffee and milk; tea and milk; detox tea
- tinned mackerel in tomato sauce, tomatoes and slice of toast with butter
- 2 fox's biscuits; glass of milk
- cappuccino; lemon and lime-infused water
- 2 chewing gums
- 2 x 0.4% beers (really nice actually)

Carb, caffeine and sugar city to try to keep myself trundling through the day. Ugh. I had rehearsal tonight and was wired after it so went for a few non-alcoholic drinks in the pub, which was a positive I guess. I was driving though but still. A plus.

Exercise:
No time really.

Cigarettes: 16

Summary:
Yeah, very tired today, but it was a good day overall. Will try again tomorrow and hopefully I sleep better tonight. Also, I need some sort of strategy with the smoking because I'm definitely smoking too much.
 
Last edited:
So tough Liza but I did better today. I think my body is just like enough!

Day 10 - Tuesday 10th January 2023 - The Magical Liver
Weight: 198.9 lbs (-1.1 lbs)
Body fat: 45.5% (-0.2%)
BMI: 30.3 (-0.1)

Really encouraging weigh-in today. I am still sticking to the 7pm thing, so maybe it is paying off for me. I actually don't mind it at all. It's nice not going to bed with a full stomach.

Food:
- handful of salted peanuts; some milk
- branflakes and milk
- coffee and milk; tea and milk x 2
- salad of ham, celery, cucumber, tomatoes, peppers and mixed salad
- rocky road piece and americano and milk
- veggie curry with boiled potatoes and fine beans, carrots and parsnips
- carrot cake with cream; peppermint tea
- 6 chewing gums

My body was crying out for vegetables and water today, and despite the sweet stuff, I think I did alright.

Exercise:
No, but I have tennis tomorrow.

Cigarettes: 4
Better.

Summary:
I went home to my parents tonight, mostly to ensure I had a halfway decent dinner. It was lovely. Mum was in good form as well and was chatting a lot more than she has been recently, so that warmed my little heart right up. We were talking about when my dad got a third of his liver removed because he had cancer, and Mum was saying that the liver regenerates back to full size after only 6 weeks. How magical is that? Our bodies are so cool.
 
Only 4 cigarettes! Nice!
Emilyrose said:
I went home to my parents tonight, mostly to ensure I had a halfway decent dinner. It was lovely. Mum was in good form as well and was chatting a lot more than she has been recently, so that warmed my little heart right up. We were talking about when my dad got a third of his liver removed because he had cancer, and Mum was saying that the liver regenerates back to full size after only 6 weeks. How magical is that? Our bodies are so cool.
Click to expand...
Sounds like a nice visit :) Nice to get a good dinner and good company all in one...
That's amazing about the liver regenerating so fast like that. Our bodies really are incredible!
 
Not eating past 7 pm is a really good idea. My doctor thinks we should wait at least 5 hours between meals too. 4 cigarettes is a better day, Em. It's good to hear that your Mum is more like her old self again xo
 
- Yes, they are Liza and it was a lovely evening.
- 5 hours between meals Cate? Wow. Although, I do think I am snacking or thinking about snacking far too much.

Day 11 - Wednesday 11th January 2023 - Here Comes the Rain Again
Weight: 198.9 lbs (-1.1 lbs)
Body fat: 45.6% (-0.1%)
BMI: 30.3 (-0.1)

Body fat up again but not too bad (in relative terms!!).

Food:
- glass of milk; branflakes and milk
- 2 coffees and milk
- sweet chilli chicken wrap; twirl orange; freddo caramel bar; can of fanta
- banana and strawberry smoothie
- chicken korma with courgette, mangetout, tomatoes, black beans and brown basmati rice
- bottle of prosecco (11%)

I was going kind of alright before the prosecco but at least it's a lower percentage and I started early. I also made dinner tonight, which was a big achievement. Must try harder tomorrow.

Exercise:
I had to cancel tennis as it's a really horrible, grisly evening out there.

Cigarettes: 12
Boo.

Summary:
I don't know why I bought the prosecco - perhaps because I had a whole evening stretching out ahead of me by myself and I just felt alone. I actually enjoyed the evening - I have a new project that I had to do a lot of prep for, and the prosecco kind of bolstered me up into doing it, which is not a good enough reason to have bought and drank it. Sigh. Anyway, I'm keeping going with the diary and everything - full disclosure - because I think it will eventually start to help me to stop.

I've been really dehydated the last few days, which is really what encouraged me to make a proper dinner this evening, as my body is crying out for moisture and vitamins. The meal I cooked was really tasty actually. I just kind of throw a load of things into a pan and hope for the best and it really worked out.
 
Awww yay, Em! Happy 2023! You sound like you’re on an upward trajectory for sure. So proud of you.

I do enjoy a good fresh new diary as well. I’ve been using a Plum Paper planner for the last few years.

Also love your Agatha Christie kick. I used to love her in high school. Especially adore the Hercule Poirot series.

Here’s hoping 2023 is a great one for you!
 
Emilyrose said:
I actually enjoyed the evening - I have a new project that I had to do a lot of prep for, and the prosecco kind of bolstered me up into doing it, which is not a good enough reason to have bought and drank it. Sigh. Anyway, I'm keeping going with the diary and everything - full disclosure - because I think it will eventually start to help me to stop.
Click to expand...
Yes I find it so useful to just be writing things out to help ourselves understand about choices we are making...I think it's easy to fool ourselves if we don't write things out...
That does sound like a nice evening with the great dinner and working on your new project.
 
- Thanks so much Alexis. :) Here's hoping 2023 is great for all of us!
- Thanks Liza. Yes, I definitely think writing it out helps me a lot.

Day 12 - Thursday 12th January 2023 - Under Pressure
No weigh-in today.

Food:
- 2 milk trays; orange juice
- branflakes and milk; 2 coffees and milk
- salad of ham, spinach, cucumber, radish, tomatoes, peppers, basil and pesto pasta
- fudge brownie and small cappuccino
- small latte; orange; natural yoghurt
- bottle of coke
- 3 pints of hophouse 13
- 4 chewing gums

I had pints tonight but they were social and at least I stopped at 3.

Exercise:
20 min lunchtime walk

Better than nothing. The sun actually shone today but it was very windy out.

Cigarettes: 16
Disastrous. I did have a very stressful day though.

Summary:
Today I was in a bit of a heap. I'm under a lot of pressure for different reasons - my phone is hopping but too much. I obviously was also tired today from the prosecco, which isn't helping matters. At least tomorrow is Friday and I have a little bit of a breather this weekend to regain my strength and perspective and resolve. I need to start looking after myself better if things continue at this pace. I am happy enough with my food today, aside from the obvious bad stuff that crept in there. I definitely hope to do a bit more cooking over the weekend and get back in the groove with that side of life again. Still, had a really good and positive day overall, despite a minor setback in the afternoon. But I rallied and I got through it. I have lots to be really happy about. And I am! I just need better methods of stress management!!!
 
Last edited:
Emilyrose said:
I just need better methods of stress management!!!
Click to expand...
Stress management is huge isn't it? No great tips from me I'm afraid!
But good for you getting through the stressful day and hopefully the weekend will give you a nice rest with some nice healthy and delicious meals cooked up!
 
Yes, I really hope so Liza! I am in bed already!!

Day 13 - Friday 13th January 2023 - I Am a Husk
No weigh-in today.

Food:
- 2 milk trays; 1 fox's biscuit
- half a breakfast wrap of sausage, rasher, hash brown and cheese
- 45 g of chilli cashew nuts (very tasty); orange juice
- coffee and milk x 2
- 5 chewing gums
- chai latte; chicken and cheese sandwich; raspberry brownie (too rich!)
- night time tea; can of coke
- cheese and ham croissant; 90 g aero caramel bar
- coconut water (need to hydrate!!)
- chamomile tea

Really, really husk-like today and so tired, so I was just eating whatever I could get my hands on fast. But at least I am too tired to drink wine! So, you know, that's good, hahaha.

Exercise:
Had to cancel tennis again because of the rain but I'm playing for two hours tomorrow in some attempt to keep my fitness up.

Cigarettes: 7

Summary:
Burning the candle at both ends is really not cool. I missed an email from the MD today, which was due to me being tired at work, so that has got to stop. But the good news is that I will wake up fresh and bright tomorrow, and all will be well in the world again. I had a little nap after work, and I look so much better even after forty winks. I had to get up again to go to tennis but once I got outside, I realised that it was too wet. Anyway, I'm cosied up in bed now, have my herbal tea and coconut water next to me, and I'm going to ring my mum after I write this and probably watch a bit of Emily in Paris which I find very soothing and get to sleep early. So excited for sleep!

Tomorrow, I have a delightful day planned. I will get up, have a lovely breakfast of buckwheat porridge with some extras thrown in and then I have to do a little bit of work for the drama group. Then I am going to go for a leisurely stroll into town and get lunch in a cafe I was in today that I didn't have time to sit down in. Then home again and get ready for tennis at 5pm. Ladies doubles for an hour, then singles with William. Should be a good day. Saturdays are kind of my only day 'off' at the moment, so I'm really going to enjoy it.
 
Last edited:
Emily in Paris looks like it would be really interesting. We don't have pay tv so I probably won't get to watch it. Have you seen all of them? Hope you have a lovely, healthy Saturday, Em.
 
Thanks Cate. I have 3 to go. It's a fun show - not too much brain power needed. I am thinking about entering this writing competition I found, just because the prize is a week in Paris in October. Only 500 words required with the theme of 'Hope', but I just have zero ideas for it.

Day 14 - Saturday 14th January 2023 - Working on a Saturday
Weight: 199.8 lbs (-0.2 lbs)
Body fat: 45.4% (-0.3%)
BMI: 30.4 (-)

Fantastic progress on the body fat. I've stuck with the 7pm thing and I will continue to stick with it.

Food:
- buckwheat porridge with flaxseed and mulberries; cappuccino; boiled egg
- 2 milk trays; 2 cups of tea and milk
- coffee and milk
- toasted sandwich with butter, shallots, tomatoes, cheese and ham; pack of salt and vinegar crisps
- can of lucozade
- bottle of white wine (13%)
- night time tea

That's a fairly light eating day for me but of course the wine ruins it. I actually didn't feel that hungry today. The boiled egg was glorious.

Exercise:
2 hours of tennis bitches! I played great!

Cigarettes: 14

Summary:
I did a great day's work today for the club. I had all these big plans to go into town to that cafe I rediscovered, but the morning just disappeared on me, even though I was up at half 9. I'm very proud of what I got done though. Tennis was great - I really needed the exercise. I've cancelled tennis for tomorrow because I will really need to sleep but I am happy with what I achieved today. And I'll figure out this wine thing, I really will.
 
Last edited:
Thanks Liza. I probably only eat chocolate or toast at this stage of the day, as if I'm cooking dinner I tend to have it when I come home from work at 5.30pm or 6pm, so I guess that's why it is working for me more or less.

Day 15 - Sunday 15th January 2023 - Feeling Underappreciated

Food:
- 3 glasses of milk; orange juice
- tea and milk; 2 americanos and milk
- pub bottle of sprite and coke
- toasted sandwich with mayo, ham, cheese and spinach
- 2 milk trays
- pasta with basil and pesto
- ham hock with kidney beans and 2 poached eggs on toast

Not a huge eating day but a lot of liquid calories.

Exercise:
No.

Cigarettes: 13

Summary:
Very disappointing day for me. I feel tired, which isn't helping matters, and a little bit overwhelmed right now. I'm going to have an early night and hopefully things will be better tomorrow. This train isn't stopping any time soon, so I just have to try to get my energy levels back up again. Toot toot!
 
Last edited:
Feeling tired makes it hard to feel motivated. It's good that you feel the train is still rolling along though. I hope a good night's sleep will restore your energy levels, Em.
 
Emilyrose said:
Very disappointing day for me. I feel tired, which isn't helping matters, and a little bit overwhelmed right now. I'm going to have an early night and hopefully things will be better tomorrow.
Click to expand...
Sorry to hear you felt disappointed with the day. I hope you got a good night's sleep and feel re-energized!
 
Thanks Cate and Liza. You keep me going sometimes! :)

Day 16 - Monday 16th January 2023 - Shedding My Skin
Weight: 198.9 lbs (-1.1 lbs)
Body fat: 45.6% (-0.1%)
BMI: 30.4 (-0.1)

Yeah, I mean, I'm off target really, but to be under 200 is good. I just have to keep it up now.

Food:
- orange juice; branflakes and milk
- cappuccino; banana
- 2 coffees and milk
- ham and cheese wrap; white chocolate creme egg
- 45 jellies; can of kombucha ginger
- bottle of prosecco (11%)
- 5 chewing gums

Yeah, today was a bit empty of nutrition, I have to say. I actually had a sore stomach all day because of my period so I didn't really feel like eating properly. The jellies are a result of buying a huge bag (loads left unfortunately) and just really needing that energy boost. I didn't eat all 45 in one sitting, so it's not as bad as it looks. I swear! The prosecco... well, it's kind of the lowest alcohol wine I can buy while still feeling like I'm actually drinking something alcoholic. I just really need a switch-off, I'm finding it really hard to sleep because my mind has kind of gone into overdrive, and I'm doing all the wrong things to try to counteract that. Smoking has also gone into overdrive. Anyway, this is my life at the moment.

Exercise:
No.

Cigarettes: 19

Summary:
Yeah, I'm making all sorts of bad decisions and just keeping myself in a mode of overworked exhaustion. Anyway, that's what today has brought. Maybe tomorrow will bring something more positive. I am going home tomorrow, which often soothes me, and I will probably sleep there also, just to try to get back into a more relaxed state of being.

One good thing: someone acknowledged the thing I felt underappreciated about yesterday, so I feel appreciated again! Someone noticed! Ha.

I also had a crazy, very disturbing dream last night that I was shedding my skin to the point where it was falling off me and I was trying to tie it back on like it was a pair of trousers. It was very distressing but I looked it up and apparently that's a positive? God, who knows? I'm really putting myself out there at the moment, and it's bringing up all sorts of emotions, but I guess I will grow from this? It all seems hard right now.
 
Last edited:
You must log in or register to reply here.
Back
Top