Momma Pajama
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Hello Everyone!
My daughter recieved her program today but I haven't heard back from them on my Doc approval yet - regardless my daughter and I decided to start today anyway. I might be off a few grams on the food but certainly that can't be worse than what I could be eating otherwise. I really am anticipating recieving my program today or tomorrow anyhow -
It is all the small victories that I am so looking forward to! The one's that other's don't even know about and can't even comprehend because unless you are "morbidly obese" (I totally hate having that phrase used in association with me) you would never have to deal with these issues - like heat rash between fat rolls - or having to sleep sitting up because the weight of your chest makes it hard to breathe - or having to ask for a seat belt extension on the airplane - I am only 5'1" tall (sorry don't know the conversion for down under - ) basically I am very short - which means at my weight I am basically a little ball with two feet (that are very ball like currently) two hands, and a bump on top (my head). I no longer have a visible neck - (I was very sad to see it go) Yes - that is what I am really looking forward to - welcoming back body parts that have been lost in this bubble.
Being obese is HARD WORK! It's hard to get up - it's hard to get down - it's hard to move - it's hard to get dressed - it's mentally and emotionally hard to live - it takes extreme courage just to face another day - l look forward to not having to be so courageous - I look forward to being able to just go to the store and buy something if I need it and not have to be brave knowing that I will be seen by others and having to debate if I really need it enough to face people in this fat body.
I look forward to being able to sit in a booth instead of having to request a table. I look forward to having people treat me like an intelligent person again - because I didn't grow stupid just because I got fat - so why do I get treated differently now? I look forward to wearing necklaces without having to worry about how long the chain is unless it matters for the outfit.
There are so many things I look forward to - yes - so very many - my first goal - get back to a weight that my scale will register! Because, today I have to be extra brave and find a public scale to get my beginning weight taken on.
Looking forward to living life again (instead of enduring it!)
Momma Pajama
My daughter recieved her program today but I haven't heard back from them on my Doc approval yet - regardless my daughter and I decided to start today anyway. I might be off a few grams on the food but certainly that can't be worse than what I could be eating otherwise. I really am anticipating recieving my program today or tomorrow anyhow -
It is all the small victories that I am so looking forward to! The one's that other's don't even know about and can't even comprehend because unless you are "morbidly obese" (I totally hate having that phrase used in association with me) you would never have to deal with these issues - like heat rash between fat rolls - or having to sleep sitting up because the weight of your chest makes it hard to breathe - or having to ask for a seat belt extension on the airplane - I am only 5'1" tall (sorry don't know the conversion for down under - ) basically I am very short - which means at my weight I am basically a little ball with two feet (that are very ball like currently) two hands, and a bump on top (my head). I no longer have a visible neck - (I was very sad to see it go) Yes - that is what I am really looking forward to - welcoming back body parts that have been lost in this bubble.
Being obese is HARD WORK! It's hard to get up - it's hard to get down - it's hard to move - it's hard to get dressed - it's mentally and emotionally hard to live - it takes extreme courage just to face another day - l look forward to not having to be so courageous - I look forward to being able to just go to the store and buy something if I need it and not have to be brave knowing that I will be seen by others and having to debate if I really need it enough to face people in this fat body.
I look forward to being able to sit in a booth instead of having to request a table. I look forward to having people treat me like an intelligent person again - because I didn't grow stupid just because I got fat - so why do I get treated differently now? I look forward to wearing necklaces without having to worry about how long the chain is unless it matters for the outfit.
There are so many things I look forward to - yes - so very many - my first goal - get back to a weight that my scale will register! Because, today I have to be extra brave and find a public scale to get my beginning weight taken on.
Looking forward to living life again (instead of enduring it!)
Momma Pajama