So I had given up the diet, but I still thought I was being responsible watching what I was eating. This was not so. I soon woke up at the sight of my scale at 212. I had lost over 50 pounds... only to gain 40 back? This is not how I want my story to go. I am not a yo yo dieter. I will lose the weight, and keep it off this time. .
Oh, Lily, I can so relate! That has happened to me twice in the last 6 years. In 2004 I started biking to work and watching what I ate - lost 25 pounds. Then work got insanely stressful just as winter came and ended the biking season: within a year I gained it all back plus another 5 pounds. Heartbreaking.
I was in a new job and it took me a year to realize that there was a perfectly good bike route to that workplace too. So I started all over again at 255, got down to 230 by September. Clearly the problem was allowing my exercise level to drop in the winter, so I started on a new hobby - ice skating. Even with skating and visiting the gym I would always gain some back in the winter, but the trend continued downward (and I'm getting pretty good at skating). Last September I was down to 211, wearing clothing sizes I hadn't been able to wear for years. I was feeling great, eating healthy and was sure that as long as I stayed active through the winter I could stop "dieting" and just eat when I was hungry. I planned to start dieting again in the spring and finally get down into Onederland.
So wrong. So tragically wrong. Even with exercising 5 times/week all winter, when I checked my weight in the spring it had crept back to 233! So I'm back to logging all my food again, and always being a little hungry. I really wanted to believe that I could eat to appetite as long as I maintained an active lifestyle and ate healthy foods. I have finally accepted the fact that this simply isn't true for me. I will have to log my food and "diet" for the rest of my life just to maintain, and be really strict in order to lose weight. And I can't allow myself to stop dieting in the winter, although I may just diet at a maintenance level (my appetite increases as it gets dark and cold).
I'm down to 223, trying to get below 220 before winter hits. October has been cold and blustery here and I was running out of steam, but a little hint of Indian summer blew in over the weekend and cheered me up. Got the bike out again Saturday and Sunday, and today it was nice enough for lunchtime walk with co-workers. Hoping for a little more nice weather to give me a running start for getting through the dark morass of December.