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Cate
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I have had a bit of a tough day. Sometimes things just overwhelm you, no matter what you do. G's sister, W rang to let us know the other sister is really struggling. It just was too much when she told me what was going on & I shed a few tears. I was grateful to be told though & we'll call her tomorrow. I have eaten well & walked Arch a couple of times. I really feel like having a glass of wine. I think I will. One glass. I'll let you know tomorrow if I did. I think it's my equivalent of a few squares of chocolate.
Cate
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Thanks, Llama. That's true. Today is a day when I'm feeling the effects of caring so much. I am also sipping on my one glass of wine. My heart wasn't in the dry January like it was with dry July. I do need to lose weight so I will really be strict with my calories, but will make sure that a glass of wine does not replace my nutrition. I'll go now & delete the sweets I was going to have after dinner & input that one glass.
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Did you do dry July for charity? Maybe that's what made the difference. I find it easier to give up things if it's for a cause...I know I wouldn't want to give up sweets for a month and I think that's my equivalent to your wine...i think it would take a lot to stick to that idea...
Anyhow good idea to at least not have the wine replace actual nutrition and just replaces the sweets.
Life is just hard to cope with sometimes...i hope all is ok with G's sister
Are you sure that's true? Don't let one day off ruin the whole thing.
Cate
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I did, Liza. I just had the one glass & felt better & also slept well.
I do too, but I didn't ring her. G can do that today as he didn't speak to her 2 days ago.Life is just hard to cope with sometimes...i hope all is ok with G's sister
I do think it's my equivalent. Stopping at one glass or not having any some days will be my new goal.
I am sure. When I did dry July I was really determined but I have been trying to talk myself into something I just wasn't feeling.Are you sure that's true? Don't let one day off ruin the whole thing.
I slept for 8 hours straight last night, which is a rare thing & no dreams. Cals were 1610 as I was hungry at about 9.30 & had some cashews. I hadn't had enough protein yesterday but should have checked the calories beforehand (134 for 20g)
I'm glad they're nearly finished.I'm visiting T this morning & going out to have a hit of golf on my own. I'm not feeling like it at all, but will push myself out that door.
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Cate
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I had a really lovely visit with T & then went to the library, tried going to the police station to see if anyone had handed in my glasses & then went out to the golf club & just played 4 holes on my own. It was hard trying to avoid the others & I had forgotten to take a drink. I rang G & told him I was headed home & he had lunch cooked when I got home at 1.30. It was delicious- venison burgers, middle eastern style with Tzatziki. Yum. I came home in a much better mood than when I left. This morning I was trying to work out when we can go shopping/cooking/cleaning for R, C & 4 kids' visit on Monday when he informed me that he was not only playing golf tomorrow but also on Saturday. I got over it.
While I was having a hit I decided to see if I can get myself fit enough to play at the nationals in March. A & M can no longer go(his back is buggered), which means that we will still be sharing a house with I & T & they & G will all be playing golf. Instead of swanning around with the women in buses, I am going to aim to play instead. I think I would enjoy that much more. I played some really good shots today.
I now have an operation to get match fit in golf by March!
Cals for today I have inputted & they will be about 1450, with a 546 deficit, due to my exercise.
While I was having a hit I decided to see if I can get myself fit enough to play at the nationals in March. A & M can no longer go(his back is buggered), which means that we will still be sharing a house with I & T & they & G will all be playing golf. Instead of swanning around with the women in buses, I am going to aim to play instead. I think I would enjoy that much more. I played some really good shots today.
I now have an operation to get match fit in golf by March!
Cals for today I have inputted & they will be about 1450, with a 546 deficit, due to my exercise.
Nuts and seeds all tend to be roughly in the 600 kcal/100 g range. Healthy but dangerous.
Getting fit for the nationals sounds like a fun goal: just make sure you don't overdo it!
alligatorob
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I agree with Emily, but I know from my own experience with food moderation can be harder than abstinence. I am able to do moderation with drink, but not so much with food.
Yep, my favorite quote about worry:
Yum--that's when having a partner sounds good to me--someone you can call and have them cook up a good meal for you for when you are heading home hungry! Good for you forcing yourself out the door when you weren't feeling it and I'm glad it resulted in a better mood than when you started out--it often does, doesn't it?
That sounds like a great goal to work toward!
Cate
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I like having you keep an eye on me. I'm getting better at not going flat out.Awesome, I won't worry then
I think I will do better with moderation, Rob. I was inclined to replace alcohol with sweets when I did Dry July, so I must learn moderation with everything.
That's gold, Rob. Would it help?
Nope.He was cooking already but waited until I got home to have lunch with me. He is good to me though. He's such a great cook.
It sure does. My visit to T was nice too. I'll make sure I keep doing that. We always got along really well when she worked with us but haven't caught up often enough. It's a friendship worth nurturing & tending.
I think I can do it, but if I can't it's not the end of the world. I'll go out for a hit on my own more regularly.
alligatorob
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I have heard that AA suggests that to alcoholics trying to get off the bottle. I suppose fat is better than alcoholism... maybe.
Years ago I knew a woman who went on a wine diet, whenever she got hungry she drank a glass of wine. She claimed it worked. I tried it, but the more wine I drank the more food I ate... Another short lived diet.
Cate
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It would be a good "diet" if you had a death wish!
That sounds like a great way of never actually dealing with your underlying issues... I've heard the reverse as well, by the way: people who get gastric bypass surgery are supposedly more at risk of starting to abuse alcohol.
For me, definitely. And I'd be sooooo nauseous all the time!It would be a good "diet" if you had a death wish!