Cate's Diary

That party sounds great for all the connections. I am glad things are feeling better in D's life and that it may be possible to enrich that connection even more as you feel more able to ask him to help out which I'm sure he would love to be able to do.
Your heart project is just so beautiful--it is lovely to hear of each person receiving it and having their hearts so touched by it all.
Great to hear of the house getting set up for a comfortable recovery!
 
Great that you called to your mechanic and he can help you. It sounds like it's all coming together for you.
 
You're really on the ball and I love to see it! If you're allowed to put your foot on the floor (even without putting pressure on it) that makes for a better gait pattern with crutches than keeping it up in the air. It also tends to help with circulation. I would expect you to get a boot you're allowed to put at least some pressure on though, which would make things a lot easier on your shoulders and neck. Speaking of which: try to keep your shoulders down as much as you can while crutching along.
Thanks, Llama. I feel like I have a team behind me! If I hadn't spoken up I probably would still be feeling unprepared & anxious & instead, I am gaining confidence each day that I will be OK. I appreciate all of the advice & help. I'll remember to keep my shoulders down. I love L & am so glad I let her know about the op. She gave me so much confidence. She is rostered on the ward I will be in that day but if I hadn't told her it could have been someone else seeing me.
That party sounds great for all the connections. I am glad things are feeling better in D's life and that it may be possible to enrich that connection even more as you feel more able to ask him to help out which I'm sure he would love to be able to do.
Your heart project is just so beautiful--it is lovely to hear of each person receiving it and having their hearts so touched by it all.
Great to hear of the house getting set up for a comfortable recovery!
Thanks, Liza. I think this has enriched our connection. He just rang me & told me that he had a chance to have a good talk with his wife this morning & she will message me today.
I am getting better prepared & I'm glad I have reached out.
I must make some more hearts!
Great that you called to your mechanic and he can help you. It sounds like it's all coming together for you.
Thanks, Em. I love being asked to help so have to get over asking others. I do feel much less stressed & better prepared.
It's gloomy here again today. The mist has come in again & it's drizzly & miserable & I'm not!
 
Asking for help can be difficult, but I do think it deepens our connections all round. It puts us in such a loving and vulnerable space.
Way to go Cate!
 
What a lovely post! Asking for help can feel so hard but it's so worth it.
Asking for help can be difficult, but I do think it deepens our connections all round. It puts us in such a loving and vulnerable space.
Way to go Cate!
Thanks, Llama & Liza. Asking for help isn't easy, but I may improve. It does deepen our connections &, like giving out hearts, "puts us in such a loving and vulnerable space." I hadn't given that aspect of my heart-giving much thought, but that is how it makes me feel. Instead of guarding myself, I am opening up my heart to others. I say things to strangers I would never have thought of saying before. Growing up I copped a lot of comments about being emotional & too soft.
Yesterday I received so many messages of support that it filled my heart to the brim. D's wife, T messaged me about 6 times & then D invited us for lunch on the 3rd. L. our GS's partner, the physio sent me lots of messages & warned me that she might get too excited & tell everyone that I'm family & they'll treat me like a rock star. She is adorable! I told her she is family & she told me that I was stuck with her, to which I replied "I hope so!"
My day was so full of lovely messages.
My wonderful friend, T dropped off the big bag of clothes at C's doorstep, going way out of their way. I'm so appreciative & C will be too. She's unwell at the moment & juggling her twins being back at school & R who is very down at the moment. I talked to him yesterday & he had run out of meds as he lost them in his move. He has rung his doctor & will be sent a script via text. He's staying with C for 3 nights which makes me happy. I wish there was a magic wand for BP2. It's such a juggle.
I got so much done yesterday. The raised toilet seat that our neighbour lent me doesn't fit on our spare toilet but does on ours, so G said he would sleep in the king single & use the other bathroom & I will stay in our bedroom & use our ensuite which I can easily have set up ready just before the op. I did so much cleaning yesterday & G vacuumed the whole house. I also walked Archie after lunch when the rain cleared.
It was such a good day!
 
Oh Cate, that all sounds so wonderful. To have that kind of a support network around you is amazing. Giving out all those hearts has lead to you receiving a lot of love back! ❤️
 
I love hearing about all the caring people in your life. You have such a lovely family and extended family and I just love hearing about them. The heart giving thing is so special because I think giving is as magical as receiving spontaneous presents, especially from strangers. You have the best spiritual practice ever!
 
What a great day! I did read that last bit as Archie having vacuumed the whole house and I was confused for a second.
 
Oh Cate, that all sounds so wonderful. To have that kind of a support network around you is amazing. Giving out all those hearts has lead to you receiving a lot of love back! ❤️
It really has, thanks, Em. I think the heart project came at the right time for me. I do feel very much loved.
I finished a great book today- Sanctuary by Garry Disher. It's a real thriller & so well written.
I love hearing about all the caring people in your life. You have such a lovely family and extended family and I just love hearing about them. The heart giving thing is so special because I think giving is as magical as receiving spontaneous presents, especially from strangers. You have the best spiritual practice ever!
Thanks, M. I rang my sister to tell her about the party & how well it went & I told her about the young woman I gave a heart to on Saturday night. She said something similar to you in that it seems magical the responses I get & the connections I make with them. I feel I have an open heart.
What a great day! I did read that last bit as Archie having vacuumed the whole house and I was confused for a second.
It was, thanks, Llama. I wish Archie could vacuum! He could maybe be a mop!

I got a call from the hospital today for me to go in for an x-ray. I asked if Friday would be OK & she sounded cranky & wanted me to come in "now". I said I couldn't & would need to talk to my husband when he came home & we would try to get in tomorrow. We do things together & try to match up appointments so we are not travelling so much. It's a 120km return trip. When he got home we discussed it & I rang & managed to get his ap't changed to tomorrow after lunch. It means I won't be able to play golf, but I can on Saturday if it's not raining. We'll do some shopping tomorrow in town & on our way home in our local town so that we don't need to again until next week.
I did lots more housework today!
 
Patients who try to be flexible despite such huge travel distance are worth their weight in gold. I'm sometimes appalled at how one of our planners talks to patients but you're right: sometimes they're just cranky. Maybe she has hemorrhoids...
 
I always wonder at people who want to leave some sort of materialistic legacy. I'd like my legacy to be happy relationships which get passed on through the generations. I think you really have that in your family, and the heart practice seems like a way to extend that sort of sentiment out into the community. It really is magical. I am glad you didn't get grumped into traveling 120 km out of your way alone. That's so nice you and G do that stuff together!
 
Patients who try to be flexible despite such huge travel distance are worth their weight in gold. I'm sometimes appalled at how one of our planners talks to patients but you're right: sometimes they're just cranky. Maybe she has hemorrhoids...
Thanks, Llama. I think there's an assumption that people live nearby. We try to combine things when we go into "town" & don't usually go just for one thing. I must avoid going to many places next week to limit my exposure to fragrance and get my lungs as clear as possible before the op. I have been suffering a bit since Saturday's party. I'll try to find a particular brand of N95 masks again today. They are the best for me as I can breathe through them but they block fragrance.
I always wonder at people who want to leave some sort of materialistic legacy. I'd like my legacy to be happy relationships which get passed on through the generations. I think you really have that in your family, and the heart practice seems like a way to extend that sort of sentiment out into the community. It really is magical. I am glad you didn't get grumped into traveling 120 km out of your way alone. That's so nice you and G do that stuff together!
Thanks, M. Saying that G & I have a happy relationship to pass on as our legacy is a wonderful compliment. G & I do so much together that I occasionally worry that it may make things harder when one of us dies, but I am going to make the most of it. I know we're very lucky xo
We love you too!

Great that you got G's appointment changed. Best of luck with the hospital visit today.
Thank you, Em. That is so sweet! xoxo

We have a list a mile long so I think we'll get going now xoxo
 
I think there's an assumption that people live nearby. We try to combine things when we go into "town" & don't usually go just for one thing
yes--good for people to be aware that it's not just a short easy trip for everyone! It's very different when you live right in town. Needing to travel that far takes planning!
You sound in a really good head/heart space these days Cate--it's lovely to hear!
 
Thanks, Liza & Llama. The x-ray part of the trip was the easiest part of the day. The staff in the hospital are good people & very friendly & efficient. There is very little fragrance & their hand sanitisers are fragrance-free.
I had a bad reaction on the way into town this morning as I called into our local chemist masked up with what I thought was a good mask for me. I was talking gibberish by the time I left the chemist & G had to drive today. I still haven't recovered from Saturday obviously & had better stay out of shops between now & the op.
I managed to get a haircut (it's just ok- my fringe is too straight) with a lovely young guy who has cut my hair before. He had to move some product away as my head was spinning. I asked him if he had been home to India since I saw him last & he told me about his last visit, which was for three months. We got chatting, as you do, & I told him about a young Indian friend who I keep in touch with who we got to know via R, our younger son who helped him when he first moved to Tasmania. He invited us to his wedding in India, which was sweet. We talked about kindness & I told him about my hearts & why I started making them. He then told me that he has had customers (older people) say that they did not want him cutting their hair. I said "Because of the colour of your skin?" & he sadly replied "Yes".
We had a deep talk about racism & how shameful it is & I told him about our granddaughter's lovely BF, who is North African & very dark-skinned with a big Afro haircut that covers half of his face & we think he's lovely. We discussed ignorance & that people who don't give others a chance to show their humanity, just because of the colour of their skin, should be pitied.

When we got to the counter I got my bag of hearts out & said "Pick one, Ben." One of the young women came up & said "Is this for a girlfriend?" & I said, "No, it's for Ben" & shooed her away, cheekily. He chose the one I would have picked for him. It has an Indigenous pattern on one side. I need to make more of these. Men need them just as much as anyone. Young men who experience racism especially.

I won't go back & re-read this as I'll only delete half of it & I don't think I have the energy anyway. I will ring my sister tomorrow & ask if she can send me a few different masks to try before I'm in the hospital. I tried two different ones today, which didn't work. We did some supermarket shopping on the way home as well! G will be doing the chemist's shopping for me from now on. He usually does & I must make sure I don't start thinking that it's ok if I do.
 
Poor Ben. Where we live the African American community and the Mexican American community are separate from the white community, and we really hate that. K gets treated like an "exotic beauty" for being part Asian, and she hates that and finds it creepy. I just wish that people were taught that difference is such a good thing, otherwise how do we learn from each other? I won't think about it too hard. Things like this make me cry if I do. I'm so glad you gave him a heart. I love that you are putting indigenous designs on them, too!

It's wonderful the hospital is largely fragrance free. I hope you recover quickly from the fragrance you ran into. When I am more allergic than usual to fragrance and pollutants, I find that boosting my immune system with lots of fresh foods with vitamin C really helps me recover faster. Hugs, and hope you feel better!
 
I was talking gibberish by the time I left the chemist & G had to drive today. I still haven't recovered from Saturday obviously & had better stay out of shops between now & the op.
Wow--that's an intense reaction! I hope you can stay away from the shops until after the operation again.

Nice to hear of another good heart connection made Cate 💕
 
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