Buddies? Any out there for me?

Hi, my name is Sara and I'm 24 years old. I live in Toronto, Canada and lived overseas for 10 years (5 years in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and 5 years on the Gold Coast in Australia). I went to school to study early childhood education and am now considering going back to school to be a child and youth worker. Right now I work at my gym as a receptionist in the early am and as daycare provider in the morning and evenings. I just moved into my own apartment and I'm very excited. I am going back to Australia for a holiday next month and my family will see me for the first time since I've lost weight. My mom saw me recently and she was impressed then. Hopefully she'll be even more impressed.

I started gaining weight after a painful break up at age 17. I started emotionally eating and my moods were erratic and didn't help. It's taken nearly 8 years to get myself started, but I've started and want to keep going with my lifestyle change.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
saramaria124 said:
Hi, my name is Sara and I'm 24 years old. I live in Toronto, Canada and lived overseas for 10 years (5 years in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and 5 years on the Gold Coast in Australia). I went to school to study early childhood education and am now considering going back to school to be a child and youth worker. Right now I work at my gym as a receptionist in the early am and as daycare provider in the morning and evenings. I just moved into my own apartment and I'm very excited. I am going back to Australia for a holiday next month and my family will see me for the first time since I've lost weight. My mom saw me recently and she was impressed then. Hopefully she'll be even more impressed.

I started gaining weight after a painful break up at age 17. I started emotionally eating and my moods were erratic and didn't help. It's taken nearly 8 years to get myself started, but I've started and want to keep going with my lifestyle change.

~ Sara Maria ~
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Yea, i think eventually something just clicks and you decide you must change. For me it was when i was looking down at a hand mirror on the table and i hated the way i looked, its only been getting better since, diets are so boring though!
 
I love my food, and my junk food, so its been very hard to kick start the new change, but I've given myself a mental kick in the butt and hopefully that will keep me from reverting to my old ways.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
SM, I love my junk food too...it is truly "COMFORT FOOD" to me...makes the whole world feel better for about 5 minutes...then when I'm finished, it makes the whole world feel like it's crashing down. :(

OK, I'll go ahead and tell a little about myself. I'm 22 and from Texas, was born and raised in Houston. Had never lived anywhere else until just over 6 months ago, I moved to London. It's been very exciting. :D

I've been through a lot in my few years. Some of it includes being sexually assaulted -TWICE- both within 6 months of each other, when I was 16. Entered into an abusive relationship when I was 17, didn't leave it til a year and a half later. Moved into my first apartment at 19, and 2 months later, it was broken into and everything was stolen. 4 months after that, my friend's car was broken into and my purse with EVERYTHING in it was stolen. Then entered into my first relationship after nearly 3 years of being single. Fell in love with the guy (like head over heels in love) and he cheated on me with my best friend...while I was there. Yeah. Which brings us to now. That's just some of the stuff I've been through...some of the most monumental I guess. There's a bit more, but it's a little more private. I don't mind talking about it really, just don't really want it out in public like this.

Anyway, I have dealt with depression since I was 13 years old. I was suicidal. My worst attempt was when I took about 60 Excedrin Migraine tablets, all of the pain killers and muscle relaxers I could find in our kitchen cabinets, and half a bottle of NyQuil...how I survived, I really couldn't tell you. But the fact that I am alive is a miracle and so I try to embrace life as much as possible now.

So I guess you could say I have an "excuse" for being overweight...but that's all it would be. an excuse. There is no real reason. There is no way to justify it. So now I'm ready to take my life back into my own hands and make a lifestyle change. Stop turning to food to comfort me when I"m feeling down. Try to turn to people instead. Maybe even myself...

x
Monica
 
Wow Monica, i dont know how you pick yourself up and carry on like you do, i doubt i could!
In my opinion, she must have never seen you as a best friend if she did that to you. I know its all in the past now but, thats a really harsh thing to do to your best friend.
But on the bright side, you have lost 13lb! Almost a stone, well done.
 
monikuddle said:
So I guess you could say I have an "excuse" for being overweight...but that's all it would be. an excuse. There is no real reason. There is no way to justify it. So now I'm ready to take my life back into my own hands and make a lifestyle change. Stop turning to food to comfort me when I"m feeling down. Try to turn to people instead. Maybe even myself...

x
Monica
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well i guess we have alot more in common then I thought at first:( but like you I'd rather not go into it in public! but if your ever want to talk privatley we certainly can, honestly we would have alot to talk about:) But I guess thats where I get my excuse for my weight too. excuses and comfort food! blahh.. its overwhelming when you cant seem to control the overeating and negetive thoughts, which then lead to eating and overating which tHEN leads to feeling bad about overeating and so on and so on....mahhh its a vicious cycle!:mad:
ANYWAYS...lol... I guess I I've gotten to the point on here that I dont feel like I'm getting the support I thought i would. I stopped writing in my journal, because no-one comments on it:( I'm just feeling a little lonely I guess, when I see all these people who talk back and forth on here and now I'm whining lol.. okay I'm done!:)
 
I just wanted to get on and tell everyone that I am really sorry I haven't been able to post much lately. I am extremely busy with school right now. I'm taking five classes at the moment and i've got two reports and two test this week so i've been busy studing and writing my reports. After this week things "should" slow back down. I sure hope so anyway. I don't know how long I can handle the stress.

See, I normally only have the four classes but I signed on for this advanced class. It's a cram course. I go in on Friday night for three hours and she lectures... get out at 9pm. At 9am the very next morning I go back in for five hours, she lectures and then I take my MIDTERM! The following week is the same. Friday night she lectures. At 9am the next morning I go in and take my FINAL. There are also two reports due within that one week. It's a high stress situation but it only lasts for two weeks.:p .... thank god!

Kate and Monica, you two sure have lived interesting lives... not always good memories but you've definetly LIVED. I'm glad that things are finually turning around in our lives. Picking yourself back up from a bad place in your life shows your strength and determination for life. I am very impressed with anyone who can do that. I've been lucky and never had to go through what you have and I hope I never do. It is nice to know that there are strong beautiful women out there who have over come it. You give hope to others who may be quietly walking in your shoes.

Kate, I am sorry about you not getting the support you want. I promise to do better and be on here more as soon as I can. We are all new at this so we need to try to learn from each other and part of that is learning what we aren't doing right or well enough. I appreciate your honesty. Most people would just walk away and not come back but you didn't. Good girl...lol.

EazyE, I haven't forgotten about you :D ! I'll be back on MSN soon, ok. Good luck to everyone. I'm still eating well.... but not losing! Story of my life....lol. HEY... at least i'm not gaining, right! I got to go study. Have a great day and NO JUNK FOOD :p

Jessie
 
hey no problem Jessica! I completely understand the studying! I have been lacking the motivation to sit down and do it though lol... so when my tests come up I CRAM last minute:rolleyes: oh well, I know I need to do better... good luck with your tests too!
I hope I didn't sound like I was whining when I was saying that I didn't feel like I was getting the support I thought I would... I didn't mean from you or anyone in this thread, I was meaning that my diary never gets commented on and then I go read someon elses and they have quite a few people who are commenting continuously, it just makes me feel like I'm back in middle school and I would only have those few close friends!lol...

well onto a new subject! ok so there is a new challenge starting on Monday, look for the thread Not-so-Naked Under the Christmas Tree.... I think we should all do it! I know that dariqueen and I are both already joining so everyone should go join too!!! it will be starting on Monday so if your in another challenge thats fine, it will go through till christmas and if your interested please check it out I would love to see all you guys in there!!:D
 
Hey guys,

We're a very similar bunch aren't we? We have gone through some very similar experiences. At 15 I was sexually assaulted at a school dance by my date. From then on I started emotionally eating and started to gain weight. I then became involved with someone who beat me, only once, and I told him he'd never touch me ever again (my 10 year old sister walked in while this was happening and jumped on him to try and get him off me and he threw her off and tried to thump her around. I stopped him and threw him out of the house with every bit of strength I had left in me at the time). I thought I found a really great person and he cheated on me flagrantly and I found out on my 21st birthday that he was going to skip out on my party to be with the other girl (I found out from her). Ever since then I've tried to go the other way when someone destructive tries to enter my life. I don't need anymore of it, and I deserve better, and so do you guys! You guys deserve the best that life can offer, and an insane amount of happiness!! We will reach our goals, and we will do it for ourselves! Sorry if I'm sounding a bit mushy or a bit overly dramatic, but you guys have been a great support.

Sorry for the long post!!

~ Sara Maria ~
 
Thanks Sara Marie:eek: ! I appreciate it. I also want to say that your not being too sentimental, we have all found a support sytem here full of compassionate caring supportive people who listen and are not only willing but want to be there for each other. Thats why I'm still here!:D
I think everyones gone through things in there lives that have molded them into who they are, you live and learn right? some things we wish hadn't happened but we have to accept it and move on or we will forever be stuck in that place where we allow what happened to run our lives:)
Everything happens for a reason. good or bad.
I want to move on and I think thats what everyone in this forum wants to do too, thats why they are all here.:D
 
Hi guys,
Just wanting to check in. My school work should be slowing down in about three days... thank god:D . So, how is everyone doing? Nobody has been posting! We are slipping farther down the list:eek: I hope that doesn't mean that you are all slipping. NO SLIPPING! lol Listen to me trying to be bossy...lol.

I am a little excited tonight cuz I ran into a old friend from school. She used to be just over 300 pounds, like me. She lost around 40 awhile back and just recently has lost 45 with Weight Watchers. Anyway, she has "changed her lifestyle", like I have. She LIKES to work out and is modivated to loss another 50 pounds. We're going to try to get together and walk/workout. I really hope it works out. I'm excited to finally find someone, besides you guys, that "get" me, ya know. It would be nice to have someone to exercise with. Don't worry, I will never forget about you guys:p.

Well, I need to get me some food. HEY, i've got a question. Ok so today I ate a lot early in the day so for dinner tonight can I just eat like a apple and some grapes? Or is that unhealthy? I was thinking it might help balance the two out.

Take care everyone.
Jess
 
As long as it fills you up, you're good!

Sorry I haven't been in for a bit...got a little sidetracked trying to keep up with all the diaries!

I can't wait to start the Christmas challenge tomorrow!
 
Yeah, I think everyone has been a bit busy lately. I haven't been able to get on here nearly as much as I would like.

It's starting to storm so I should shut down the pc. I will check in with everyone later.

Thanks Dariqueen. I wasn't sure if I was doing good by that or not. I ate and apple and a peach last night. I wasn't hungry so I didn't want to eat much more. I tell ya what though... I was starving this morning when I woke up. I hear it's better to eat the majority of your food early in the day anyway.

Jess
 
Jess, it's great that you're hungry in the morning! I believe that means your metabolism is working great!

I'm determined to get to everybody's diary today; so if I miss yours, don't be sad! I will get to it!
 
dariqueen said:
Jess, it's great that you're hungry in the morning! I believe that means your metabolism is working great!

I'm determined to get to everybody's diary today; so if I miss yours, don't be sad! I will get to it!
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Im not hungry in the mornings, is that bad? Well i am hungry but not painfully hungry.
I'll tell you something though, before this diet i never EVER had breakfast, then the first day of the diet i did have some breakfast, then the morning after i was starving! Weird how before the diet i didnt need anything in the morning, must have been because i hardly had any metabolism.
 
sorry guys, I've been MIA too! I'm trying to get these two challenges figured out...
Dariqueen- we start the Christmas challenge today right? because I havnt been able to find a new thread to it, I'm not sure if she started a new one or not....
Jessica-how amazing to find an old friend that has such a similar story and wants to be weight loss buddys! dont be discouraged if you dont hear form her right away, I'm the type of person who might not call right away but wants to(I'm shy) so call her and make sure you use each other as resources!!! what better motivation than a friend whose going through it with you..
 
No kidding...it's great that I have a few friends in town here that are in the same boat as me, and they're willing to give this a try too. I almost always have someone to walk with, etc.

Eazy, I never really ate breakfast before either...I usually don't feel hungry for at least an hour or two after I wake up. But now that I'm in the habit, and I'm exercising more, I am hungrier in the morning. Which is a good thing!
 
I understand how you were feeling Kate about the lack of responses....Pinky Dolly has been the main one responding recently and I have been posting new posts after my old ones for a little while now. :( I'll keep doing it, but I feel kind of sad or that my diary may just be too boring!! I don't know...

~ Sara Maria ~
 
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