bluehats diary

todays food--
250 grams chicken breast
2 baked to soft peppers
snack later will be some crushed walnuts

im nearly out of funds for food this month
the covid price rises and normal high prices
just finished my food budget
so better healthy eating will just have to
part of every month for me

but yet they give me all the insulin i can use
at 100 and hundreds of dollars cost
so sad
 
ive been homeless before in my 20s
sleeping outside in the woods (for nearly 2 months)
no covers no food
no sweaters
i dont want to be again
(crying)
my income takes another hit this month coming
of 100 bucks shortly after that 65 dollar one
 
my rent will just have to come first
its a true statement when people say
pay the rent or feed the kids
only mine are grown up so its just me


but i have some happy weird news
ive lost 6 pounds
all it has been lately is gain every week
but this time it was down 6 pounds
im not really ahead any if u consider that week
recently of the 10 pound gain
but its going the right way anyway now
needed happy news right now
with facing income cuts again
 
A 10 pound gain in a week can only be water. There´s no way you can eat enough calories to exist, survive, AND gain 10 pounds of fat in 7 days.
 
Was income support boosted because of covid & has it now been decreased? I had thought that Canada had a good support system, but maybe that isn't so.
One of our old 'friends' had some toes amputated last week because he refuses to take his insulin or change his diet. One thing you can do is take the insulin your doctor wants you to as it is provided. I know that eating healthy food is hard with your limited income. Please do what you can to be as healthy as you can. :grouphug:
 
Cate said:
Was income support boosted because of covid & has it now been decreased? I had thought that Canada had a good support system, but maybe that isn't so.
One of our old 'friends' had some toes amputated last week because he refuses to take his insulin or change his diet. One thing you can do is take the insulin your doctor wants you to as it is provided. I know that eating healthy food is hard with your limited income. Please do what you can to be as healthy as you can. :grouphug:
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ive been taking my numbers
and they are exactly the same
on and off the insulin
and ive been trying to get help to
see why
but its very limited here of drs
so today im going back to
the 1 walkin here again
to plead my case
thus using another 5 bucks from my food this month
since it is a walkin maybe today a different dr will be there

yes its due to the covid 100
plus the 65 i lost recently due to not being
elegible for medical transportation
we have to have 12 appts every month to qualify
i dont have the 12 but the amount i have is still a burden

anyway wish me luck this dr helps
 
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wow it still gets worse
do i even write here what happened today?

ive mentioned here in my diary
about the mould in my apt.
well now the showers dripping
lots of cold water on my head when i shower
and the ceilings mould is spreading
i only get parts of a shower but today had to
jump out after a few minutes
so i went straight to the supers to show them
they came to look and said
i have no window in my apt there is nothing they can do
its awful with that water coming down on your head
it feels so dirty
i dont feel clean after a shower
i cant get washed and my hair washed be4 it falls on me
its so gross

todays food--
2 boiled eggs
 
it went better at the drs
it was the same one
shes very nice tho
but wants me to take the
insulin despite gaining weight and being so hungry on it

i feel really bad about that
because being off it for just over a week
it may be more i cant remember now
ive lost weight
but the biggest thing is that horrible hungers gone
i wont win at this with that horrible hunger
i just gained and gained
its so nice to not be so hungry

so now i have to decide what tod
do i go back on it
be super hungry again start eating to
stop it thus gaining more weight
ot continue not using it
i have to decide soon

those 2 boiled eggs in no way ever would be enuf
to eat i had to make myself i wasnt hungry

i dont want to go back to that endless hunger again
so tomorrow i see if my weights still going in a better direction or not
 
Absolutely, re: 2 boiled eggs not being enough. :( I guess, since you say that the doctor
bluehat said:
wants me to take the
insulin despite gaining weight and being so hungry on it
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that you asked her directly about it. Can you talk straight to her about the financial matters, too, and how that makes it hard to get filling and nutritious food that can fit with weight loss? Best wishes for tomorrow.
 
aiminglow said:
Absolutely, re: 2 boiled eggs not being enough. :( I guess, since you say that the doctor
that you asked her directly about it. Can you talk straight to her about the financial matters, too, and how that makes it hard to get filling and nutritious food that can fit with weight loss? Best wishes for tomorrow.
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i certainly can
 
todays food--
1 baked plain pepper

im very very tired
id like more food
but i have more appts this month i have to pay for
but at least it was a vegetable

next month wont be better
i already have 3 appts made and waiting
for 2 more to be scheduled at least
and when i go to those more will be made
im tired and none of the appts help me feel better
it just uses my food money
then i eat little then im very tired
and round and round in a circle it goes
 
alligatorob said:
That is not much food for the day. What kind of appointments do you have? If they are not working why do them?
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they are medical appts
i dont know what to do but go
and maybe ask to have the appts at least reduced
and explain why
 
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