bluehats diary

I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been going through. It sounds like you have frustration coming from all sides when you seem to want to just move forward. Just know that we are all here rooting for you and we know you'll get to where you want to be eventually. :grouphug: Take good care of yourself, allow yourself some treats, but try to stick with your healthy choices.
 
todays--

salad 400
maybe cheese later
maybe pepperettes later
idk how many cups of water
not 12 yet anyway

not sure about tomorrow
theres food here for today
if i eat the cheese and pepperettes too
but tomorrow nothing
no ride
maybe i will have to walk to the store
its far but idk what else to do
its hard when drs and surgeons and specialists tell
you not to exercise but they dont know the life
situations their patients can be in

in total distress atm
 
How much longer without exercise? It's tough because starting too early will likely make you sicker for longer but not being able to nourish your body isn't exactly great for wound healing either.
 
LaMaria said:
How much longer without exercise? It's tough because starting too early will likely make you sicker for longer but not being able to nourish your body isn't exactly great for wound healing either.
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it will take some figuring depending on how many surgeries
but here it goes

the next surgery is in 2 weeks
with the 1st follow up 1 week or so later
then another follow up maybe 4 weeks later at which
i will be advised about exercise
or
if when they do that surgery its discovered a 3rd one needs done
then 4 to 6 weeks wait for that one
then a follow up again maybe 1 week later or longer
the 2nd follow up could be up to 4 weeks later

and due to the part put inside me there will be no exercise
til its removed after the final surgery(s)

so this could all take possibly until sept?
using my calculations
but im bad at math and such

anyone is welcome to come up with a guess
as to how long that could possibly be

but i did ask today (but not a dr or specialist)
about exercise and was told maybe a little walking

but if the walking that shopping involves
is so painful i doubt i will do any extra walking
for 2 reasons
it will cause extra pain and
the weather is getting warmer and
now my feet are swelling so shoes are
getting hard to put on again

seems like theres no win here
 
Oh man that sucks so much. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all that! Did you manage shopping today without straining the scar? I hope it was "just" your legs that hurt afterwards.
 
i had an opportunity to shop today
after my unexpected hospital tests

but have decided that
the less i eat the less insulin
i will need to take then
the less weight gain from insulin
 
LaMaria said:
Oh man that sucks so much. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all that! Did you manage shopping today without straining the scar? I hope it was "just" your legs that hurt afterwards.
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i did really well today
i took my pain pill about an hour ahead
so it went better this time
my legs are even ok
 
LaMaria said:
Oh man that sucks so much. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all that! Did you manage shopping today without straining the scar? I hope it was "just" your legs that hurt afterwards.
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its not a scar i can see
its on the inside
but when i do strain it
then it pains and bleeds

so i dont think i hurt it today
as neither happened
and in general its hurting less
as time passes
unless i do too much

the dreadful part is that
in 2 weeks this starts all over again
and maybe again after that
 
i wish i could have weight goals
like other people do
but whenever i lose any weight
it comes back with a few more
so i dont do weight goals anymore

maybe i should/can do exercise goals instead
its nice to have a goal and see it accomplished
it gives a person another thing to look forward
to
 
bluehat said:
have decided that
the less i eat the less insulin
i will need to take then
the less weight gain from insulin
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That may be true but it's not easy to heal when your body doesn't get the nutrients it needs.

bluehat said:
i dont think i hurt it today
as neither happened
and in general its hurting less
as time passes
unless i do too much
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That's great news! Of course it sucks that you'll have to start over again in 2 weeks but at least you're on the right track.

bluehat said:
whenever i lose any weight
it comes back with a few more
so i dont do weight goals anymore

maybe i should/can do exercise goals instead
its nice to have a goal and see it accomplished
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Sadly that's true for more than 90% of people. Losing weight and keeping it off sometimes feels like chasing rainbows. Exercise goals or healthy eating goals are definitely more attainable and will do your body a lot of good in the long run.
:grouphug:
 
i didnt figure there was any sense in posting yesterday
as i didnt eat

today i get to eat if
i walk to the store
or if
there is any family leftovers
 
dear diary
lesson learned today

you must never confide any need for any help in anyone
even if they are family

so i will be walking to the store
even im not supposed to medically
and hope for the best

and do some long hard thinking
about trust again
just when i let my guard down
just when i trusted again
to be shattered
again
 
dear diary

have not been to the store yet
but my coffees at home are keeping
the appetite at bay
and a kind family member brought leftovers

surgeries soon so maybe when i have the 1 week
follow up i will be told its safe for exercise again- yay
i never thought in my whole life i would WANT to exercise
but then again it could just be that human thing where
when we cant have something thats all we then want
time will tell
 
dear diary

yesterday--
1 sleeve of white soda crackers unsalted tops
unknown quantity of smooth peanut butter
family leftovers shepherds pie- guessing at 1.5 cups
didnt get the 12 cups water in
gotta start earlier in the day for that

i hear this screaming sound from the living room
i think its my bike lol
(sorry not good with jokes)
:)
 
bluehat said:
i hear this screaming sound from the living room
i think its my bike lol
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:rotflmao: Poor thing, maybe you should pet it a bit every day.
 
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