Weight Loss Diary 2017 - Goal 1-0-5
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misty22
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Oh, honey. I can't change anything either. I, too wish I could. Please don't give up on life & yourself
Thanks Cate - I always appreciate your support. I sound like such a broken record - I know it. I put a lot down the night I wrote that post. I was feeling very low and emotional. It's a lot of internal turmoil. I came back to write a new post today.
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misty22
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Today I just wanted to say.... I will not give up. I will do whatever it takes to get my health back on track. And I am ok and willing to lead an unconventional life if that's what the universe has for me - it's a bit heartbreaking to even type that down - but oh well.
"Whatever it takes"
To be well
To be happy
I have also come off the metformin. I do not know if that aggravated the hair loss. It was horrid yesterday. Sticking with progesterone and diet for now until I can see a specialist - likely some time in Sept the way this is going.
"Whatever it takes"
To be well
To be happy
I have also come off the metformin. I do not know if that aggravated the hair loss. It was horrid yesterday. Sticking with progesterone and diet for now until I can see a specialist - likely some time in Sept the way this is going.
Cate
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You will always have my support.
Good for you, hon xoxo
misty22
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My family is planning a trip to Turkey and purchased flight tickets. I want to cancel. I feel like going on a trip with my restrictive diet when I am still not healed is a bad idea. It will be relaxing but I am really worried about the diet aspect as I am trying to get my ovaries to function properly and my endocrine system is very sensitive it seems. I'm not sure what to do but a majority of me is leaning towards "no" and just doing a staycation instead. I feel like being alone. I feel like self-care is the answer. It is very hard being alone b/c I do stress and worry but I also don't want to do more damage to myself and eating foreign food at this point is not my thing. Also the stress of travelling with my parents and sisters may adversely affect me - I'm sure Turkey is beautiful but I'm really concerned about myself.
I'm not sure what the cancellation policy is like for the tickets.
Opinions welcome
CW: 113.8lbs
Seven lbs to go
Continuing with clean diet - have been good these past few weeks but my ovaries were hurting a couple days back. Continuing to eliminate foods not settling well with my body. I do not think I am doing well with oils of any kind. I switched to avaocado oil - I need some healthy fats in my diet. Olive oil does not seem to work with my body at all - and all other kinds are inflammatory. See what I mean about a sensitive body? lol
The coffee detox idea is like the worst - so difficult. I am struggling with that. I use coffee as an appetite suppressant too - which with my insulin issues may not be a bad idea but I have not done a cleanse to see how my body does with and without coffee.
It is summer in Toronto and I am trying to make the most of it. We will have warm weather until the end of Aug. So been getting out for walks and such. In addition to working out at the gym a few times a week. I'm doing OK from an exercise perspective. If my ovaries decided to start working properly, I would lose weight more easily.
Planning to get a wig - but do not know why I feel hesitant. I worry about what people will think of me. I worry about a potential partner finding out about the wig. But also, does it really matter what people think? People have opinions regardless, good or bad. The people that care will continue to care- fake hair or not. And those that do not - will continue to talk. I am tired of pleasing people. I find this world very fake - yes I am getting philosophical - but growing up in the instagram age is a blessing and a curse. A curse because of what society thinks girls should be. Glamorous models with slender bodies and with their shit together 24/7. Where are the real people? Anyways, I digress. Diet and exercise a work in progress. Gunning to hit 112/111 lbs by the end of the week. Let's see where we net out.
I also have a vaginal ultrasound and PAP smear this weekend...lol...fun.
I'm not sure what the cancellation policy is like for the tickets.
Opinions welcome
CW: 113.8lbs
Seven lbs to go
Continuing with clean diet - have been good these past few weeks but my ovaries were hurting a couple days back. Continuing to eliminate foods not settling well with my body. I do not think I am doing well with oils of any kind. I switched to avaocado oil - I need some healthy fats in my diet. Olive oil does not seem to work with my body at all - and all other kinds are inflammatory. See what I mean about a sensitive body? lol
The coffee detox idea is like the worst - so difficult. I am struggling with that. I use coffee as an appetite suppressant too - which with my insulin issues may not be a bad idea but I have not done a cleanse to see how my body does with and without coffee.
It is summer in Toronto and I am trying to make the most of it. We will have warm weather until the end of Aug. So been getting out for walks and such. In addition to working out at the gym a few times a week. I'm doing OK from an exercise perspective. If my ovaries decided to start working properly, I would lose weight more easily.
Planning to get a wig - but do not know why I feel hesitant. I worry about what people will think of me. I worry about a potential partner finding out about the wig. But also, does it really matter what people think? People have opinions regardless, good or bad. The people that care will continue to care- fake hair or not. And those that do not - will continue to talk. I am tired of pleasing people. I find this world very fake - yes I am getting philosophical - but growing up in the instagram age is a blessing and a curse. A curse because of what society thinks girls should be. Glamorous models with slender bodies and with their shit together 24/7. Where are the real people? Anyways, I digress. Diet and exercise a work in progress. Gunning to hit 112/111 lbs by the end of the week. Let's see where we net out.
I also have a vaginal ultrasound and PAP smear this weekend...lol...fun.
Cate
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Oh, hon. What a quandary. I would love to go to Turkey. I would jump at it, especially if someone else was organising it. If you stayed at home would you regret it?
Us. We are the real people
misty22
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Oh, hon. What a quandary. I would love to go to Turkey. I would jump at it, especially if someone else was organising it. If you stayed at home would you regret it?
Us. We are the real people
Cate - you are the real people. It's true. Are you on instagram by any chance? Would love to add you.
misty22
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I thought about Turkey - considering my parents are older and this may be one of the last few international trips we do together as a family, I have decided to go. I will have to stick to fruits and vegetables as much as I can.
I had my PAP smear (surprisingly was not as painful as she used a smaller plastic instrument vs. metal). Also had my ultrasound done. The technician asked three times when I had my last period - not sure why she asked so many times. I have one blood test pending and I am good to go from a paperwork standpoint for a referral to the PCOS Clinic in Toronto.
re: diet, I am thinking of how to make it cleaner:
1) I am planning on trying not to eat outside for the next week or two. I can order healthy drinks (tea primarily). I do not have any dinners or lunches scheduled next week so lots of meal prep.
2) I am going to go coffee free for a week. I know I will have withdrawal issues but I need to test to see if losing the coffee improved my hormones.
3) Heavy on the veggies - smoothies, juices, salads - will have to improve this area dramatically. I am pretty good but I can improve more.
4) Temporarily remove nuts from diet for a week
Lots to test and learn.
re wig: planning of getting one when I am back from vacation, i.e. Sept 2nd.
I had my PAP smear (surprisingly was not as painful as she used a smaller plastic instrument vs. metal). Also had my ultrasound done. The technician asked three times when I had my last period - not sure why she asked so many times. I have one blood test pending and I am good to go from a paperwork standpoint for a referral to the PCOS Clinic in Toronto.
re: diet, I am thinking of how to make it cleaner:
1) I am planning on trying not to eat outside for the next week or two. I can order healthy drinks (tea primarily). I do not have any dinners or lunches scheduled next week so lots of meal prep.
2) I am going to go coffee free for a week. I know I will have withdrawal issues but I need to test to see if losing the coffee improved my hormones.
3) Heavy on the veggies - smoothies, juices, salads - will have to improve this area dramatically. I am pretty good but I can improve more.
4) Temporarily remove nuts from diet for a week
Lots to test and learn.
re wig: planning of getting one when I am back from vacation, i.e. Sept 2nd.
alligatorob
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I think that is the right decision, I have been on a lot of trips, and backed out of others. Looking back I have never regretted going, only not going when I could. I am sure you will be happy with your decision.
Turkey is a place I have always wanted to see, and its at the top of the places my wife wants to visit. We probably will one day. I once had an 8 hr layover in Istanbul on a trip from the US to Kuwait. I wanted to hire a taxi and see the sites, but did not have a Turkish visa, so I got a good look at the inside of the Istanbul airport. I wish I had planned ahead and taken at least a few days there.
I am sure you can find ways to eat well on the vacation, just be strong and try to only order good food, but don't hesitate to try a few bites of anything that looks interesting. There is nothing with so many calories you can't at least get a good taste.
Have fun!
misty22
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Thanks so much, Rob! I hope that's your name - I am guessing from the username.
I wish you have a chance to visit one day as well =)
misty22
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It's been an off day today. Coffee is hard to cut back on.
Lots of hair fell today - more than I want to write down. The progesterone I am taking is helping me feel calm though.
Have been good with reducing nuts.
Looking forward to going home and cooking a healthy meal and job hunting.
Taking this one day at a time.
Lots of hair fell today - more than I want to write down. The progesterone I am taking is helping me feel calm though.
Have been good with reducing nuts.
Looking forward to going home and cooking a healthy meal and job hunting.
Taking this one day at a time.
Cate
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You're sweet, Misty. I'm not on Instagram, hon. You can pm me if you ever want to share anything privately.
I'm so glad you are going to Turkey. You will love it, I'm sure & your parents will love it that you're going with them as well. It's good to take these opportunities when they arise. I am looking forward to hearing about it. Enjoy the food there. Often it's the food that you remember most about a trip. (or is that just me
)
It sucks about more hair falling out, but I say kudos to you for deciding to get a wig
I could not give up coffee. I have it first thing in the morning after breakfast & then herbal tea for the rest of the day.
I'm so glad you are going to Turkey. You will love it, I'm sure & your parents will love it that you're going with them as well. It's good to take these opportunities when they arise. I am looking forward to hearing about it. Enjoy the food there. Often it's the food that you remember most about a trip. (or is that just me
)It sucks about more hair falling out, but I say kudos to you for deciding to get a wig
I could not give up coffee. I have it first thing in the morning after breakfast & then herbal tea for the rest of the day.
misty22
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You're sweet, Misty. I'm not on Instagram, hon. You can pm me if you ever want to share anything privately.
I'm so glad you are going to Turkey. You will love it, I'm sure & your parents will love it that you're going with them as well. It's good to take these opportunities when they arise. I am looking forward to hearing about it. Enjoy the food there. Often it's the food that you remember most about a trip. (or is that just me
It sucks about more hair falling out, but I say kudos to you for deciding to get a wig
I could not give up coffee. I have it first thing in the morning after breakfast & then herbal tea for the rest of the day.
Yes, I will definitely let you know re: Turkey, we leave on the 20th so I have a couple of weeks. Yes, a lot of culture is around food, not just you
misty22
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My period came early yesterday...cycle was 20 days and it has been so heavy. I took a sick day because I was feeling sick and the bleed was heavier than normal. Period seems to be either too long or too short - ovulation would need to happen for it to be a normal cycle of 21 - 34 days...
I have blood tests tomorrow morning as well. Before work. And a filling at noon. Feeling so drained today, going to bed.
Will see naturopath on the 15th...hopefully she can assess my situation better.
I have blood tests tomorrow morning as well. Before work. And a filling at noon. Feeling so drained today, going to bed.
Will see naturopath on the 15th...hopefully she can assess my situation better.
misty22
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CW: 112 lbs
GW for next week: 110lbs - let's see if I can get there.
Also...my 35th bday just passed a couple days ago. Forgot to mention. These days my health is on my mind so other things seem pointless. Anyways, enough of the hopelessness. I am cleaning up my diet even more and trying to get more nutrition inside of myself to help my body. Am also adding some cholesterol rich foods, i.e. lamb, and healthy fats, i.e. avacado to hopefully help my body.
I went in for my blood tests yesterday. Waiting on results, will know more on the 15th.
GW for next week: 110lbs - let's see if I can get there.
Also...my 35th bday just passed a couple days ago. Forgot to mention. These days my health is on my mind so other things seem pointless. Anyways, enough of the hopelessness. I am cleaning up my diet even more and trying to get more nutrition inside of myself to help my body. Am also adding some cholesterol rich foods, i.e. lamb, and healthy fats, i.e. avacado to hopefully help my body.
I went in for my blood tests yesterday. Waiting on results, will know more on the 15th.
alligatorob
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Happy birthday!
I hope you don't rely exclusively on a naturopath. I am not one to completely discount Naturopathic Medicine, I do think there is something to folk cures long practiced, and I think that modern medicine is sometimes too quick to do things like just prescribe a drug for your symptoms. However if you have something really wrong with you Naturopathy is not scientifically based and may not be treating what needs treating. Maybe a mix is best. Anyway I am no medical expert and have no place telling anyone what to do for medical care, so you can take or leave my thoughts.
Good luck to you!
I hope you don't rely exclusively on a naturopath. I am not one to completely discount Naturopathic Medicine, I do think there is something to folk cures long practiced, and I think that modern medicine is sometimes too quick to do things like just prescribe a drug for your symptoms. However if you have something really wrong with you Naturopathy is not scientifically based and may not be treating what needs treating. Maybe a mix is best. Anyway I am no medical expert and have no place telling anyone what to do for medical care, so you can take or leave my thoughts.
Good luck to you!
misty22
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haha thank you - no im evaluating both western medicine and the naturopath route. Am waiting to get referred into a specialty clinic here in Toronto.
misty22
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Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxox