Petals diary

I always gain a few pounds (sometimes as many as 5) when I start lifting and training differently. I think it has something to do with the muscles holding onto more water. So if you've changed your routine or intensity, some of the 1.5 could be that.
 
Thanks Jennie that’s very kind but I guess it’s more because I’m greedy

Throat bit better , food ok , steps and exercise done ok .
Life frustrating seems to busy and stressful . Just need to plan somethings different .
 
Yeah, I agree, please go easy on our Petal whilst she is having a stressful time and still doing so well with everything!!
 
Awww thanks guys . Well exercise done yesterday and food ok . Had a dinner out with a friend and lots of school stuff too .
Needless to say I conked the minute I hit the bed .
Another friend told me yesterday that I frustrate her . She says I say one thing and do another . For example I say I going to lose weight not eat anything bad and then I do . In this instance she was referring to a different issue . Anyway I told her in future I would not be mentioning that problem anymore going forward.

I’m upset a bit as well i would never say that to anyone . She herself has mind changed a lot on things and she forgets that.
 
Habits are hard to break, whether they be food, relationships, routines, jobs, etc. I think most of us go through stages when breaking a habit, almost like grief, and that's why we "change" our minds along the way. Letting go isn't always just 'dropping the rock.' Sometimes we drop it, pick it back up and walk with it for a while longer. Eventually we just kinda realize our journey is lighter without carrying that rock around. I've got a few rocks in my pocket too!
 
Jennie you have described accurately what I am doing . It’s like you looked into my mind . My rock has been a rock of support but also a rock of dragging me down . I know the dragging me down outweighs the support and it’s going to drop at a point in time . But it will be done in my own time and when I’m ready to let it fall .
 
Rocks in my pocket - I've got a bunch, too! Such a good analogy!!!! I've been meditating a lot lately and find that what I am searching for in snacking I really only find when I get quiet and find it in myself. It's like I want engagement with life, and so food is very engaging, but not in grazing mode. It just makes me feel like I went even more on automatic when I reach for food as a way to lift my mood or to overcome boredom or avoid uncomfortable emotions. So if I can slow myself down and feel my body and sit down and be my own friend who listens, I get the feeling I really wanted from food - that grounded feeling of enjoying life and being in my own company, of being really present.

I notice that people treat other people the way they treat themselves. I bet that your friend beats herself up for changing her own mind or for being wishy washy. I am glad you are not taking it personally!!! If what we were doing was as easy as making a decision and sticking to it, dieting would not be a multi-million dollar industry!
 
Sometimes we replace those rocks with pebbles too don’t we. They become a lighter load for a while until we can discard them .

I meditate at night sometimes Marsia . It helps me sleep for sure .
 
I'm glad that you are not letting her bother you Petal. I love the rock analogy, Jen. I think I would really benefit from learning to meditate.
 
cate said:
I think I would really benefit from learning to meditate.
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I'm sure you know this, but just wanted to chime in that there are so many forms of meditation, too. Some people meditate to relax or rejuvenate, some to understand themselves and their emotions better, some for equanimity, and some for spiritual reasons. So I think it is a very versatile practice that I even use for sparking creative ideas.
 
Marsia said:
I'm sure you know this, but just wanted to chime in that there are so many forms of meditation, too. Some people meditate to relax or rejuvenate, some to understand themselves and their emotions better, some for equanimity, and some for spiritual reasons. So I think it is a very versatile practice that I even use for sparking creative ideas.
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Marsia you always speak such sense . I would be truly lost without this diary especially now . I have had a traumatic loss this week . On Wednesday. In actual fact there has been a couple of deaths but one has hit me hard .
But I woke to messages from my friend this morning and I was laughing .
Life is tough it goes on doesn’t it .
I have one life and I need to plough through it and enjoy it and be the healthiest I can be .
I will miss my close friend the one who had cancer who is now sadly departed from our lives .
I am up and ready to get on and face this day and laugh when I can , cry when I need too . Life doesn’t stop for us until it is out turn too .

I have lots to be thankful for and today I will count my blessings and be grateful for the time I shared with my friend.

Hope everyone has a beautiful happy healthy day .
 
Oh, hon, I'm sending you a great big hug- XO
I'm glad we all have this kind & loving place & can support one another. Give yourself some tlc, Petal xoxo
 
cate said:
Oh, hon, I'm sending you a great big hug- XO
I'm glad we all have this kind & loving place & can support one another. Give yourself some tlc, Petal xoxo
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I am being kind to myself . And not with ice cream but just being peaceful and trying to do nice things . Also clean house a bit . Weird makes me feel better
 
Sounds good, Petal xo
Cupboard cleaning is my go to stress reliever so - not weird :)
 
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