Petals diary

I can't believe I have not posted since Thursday. But I really went in a bit of a down spiral . I just didn't have the mental energy to post or keep up.
I have not being doing well with food at all or the exercise but least I only missed out on a few days. Positive sides I have lots of clearing out done at home . Also I did my 10k plus steps yesterday which included over 30 mins workout and I ate better yesterday .

I get low periods which last for a few days . I get very lonesome and find it hard to lift out of it . But I feel a good bit better today . My doc thinks it's all hormonal as I was never like this years ago . But he said it could be dealing with empty nest syndrome as the kids grow up and move on , dealing with my parents death and other life changes I have gone through .

Anyway I like Cate have made a plan for September

Exercise 5 times a week clocking 30 mins on my tracker
No sweet biscuits from today
If I feel like turning to food for emotional reasons get up and walk outside for a few minutes or come here and journal
Try to do more social activities. I have 3 things planned already

I have no idea how much I weigh . I am afteaid to weigh myself so I will give myself this week to get my head back in the game and weigh next Sunday .
 
I get down too Petal. Don't ever feel bad about not posting. We know you are about. We are in this together xo
 
Your plan sounds great! If you get off track on it a little though, I hope you don't get discouraged. I've been setting really ambitious plans and needing to tweak them a little to accommodate for life! I used to get a little low every fall, and maybe that is what is happening with me lately, though I don't know. The more people I reconnect with lately the more I am thinking that I have changed. I don't seem to have that much in common with old friends as I used to and realize it may be time to go make some new ones soon. Or maybe it's just almost the start of fall when I get a little melancholy? I have also been snacking a little too much, so have to watch what I am doing and stop to see why I want to eat my feelings.

I have been free writing in the mornings and it is really helping me sort through feelings. I really love it, eapecially as I make myself write things down that I would normally edit out, and that helps me accept the boring or silly or random thoughts I have as just being part of being human. I have been feeling a lot better emotionally lately from doing this.

Anyway, big hugs and I hope you are feeling more yourself soon!!!
 
Marsia said:
Your plan sounds great! If you get off track on it a little though, I hope you don't get discouraged. I've been setting really ambitious plans and needing to tweak them a little to accommodate for life! I used to get a little low every fall, and maybe that is what is happening with me lately, though I don't know. The more people I reconnect with lately the more I am thinking that I have changed. I don't seem to have that much in common with old friends as I used to and realize it may be time to go make some new ones soon. Or maybe it's just almost the start of fall when I get a little melancholy? I have also been snacking a little too much, so have to watch what I am doing and stop to see why I want to eat my feelings.

I have been free writing in the mornings and it is really helping me sort through feelings. I really love it, eapecially as I make myself write things down that I would normally edit out, and that helps me accept the boring or silly or random thoughts I have as just being part of being human. I have been feeling a lot better emotionally lately from doing this.

Anyway, big hugs and I hope you are feeling more yourself soon!!!
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Marsia I connect with everything you said . That's really helped me
 
Well I am back on track I think. Did a workout last night and this morning I did a 10 min wake up and stretch walk . Feel good for the day
 
Right I am
Definitely back in the zone . I have starting getting up and doing a 10 min no sweat warm up walk to start my day . It’s to limber me up . I’m just doing in my bare feet while I watch the warm up video or indeed the news etc . It means by the time I get to work I have perhaps 2k steps done . Then I am doing a workout at home or a walk later in the evening. So far I am sticking to it . I have improved greatly on the food front this week . Still perhaps a little too much but there is improvement.
Life is busy right now with school back and yesterday I don’t think I sat down until 9.30 pm . Tired !
 
Wow, so wonderful you are starting off with exercise!!! I have been meditating some mornings, and that's been helping me get up early and get the day started right. And I am copying you with the food. Haven't felt so many cravings and am doing better, too. I know what you mean about being busy. It seems like there is hardly enough time to take care of me and the house and yard and work and everyone. I am hoping to fall into a routine with the exercise soon and maybe I'll start catching up on yard work and things soon. I am teaching my kid programming, so keep getting distracted making up lessons, and finally just ordered a book so I don't have to spend so much time reinventing the wheel. Hope your day is going great!!
 
Hi, Petal. I know that if I exercise I don't feel like eating anything unhealthy & I feel better about myself. It's a great mood lifter. I should start doing it first thing, but I am so not a morning person. You haven't been away really, but welcome back to the zone xoxo
 
Thanks all always great to hear your views . Yet another busy day yesterday and I walked 14k steps . I was extremely tired this morning and didn’t do my 10 mins as I actually woke a little late . I will do it later though and hopefully my workout or walk too . Leslie sansone says even if we only do 10 mins a day it’s still 10 mins and it all counts . Good advice

Making better choices food wise and making a good effort for dinners especially now that school is back . I am finding it hard to fit in everything in my day right now but tbh I prefer to be busy . It’s such a relief to fall in bed and sleep and thankfully I’m sleeping really well .

Weather is getting cooler and days are shorter already . Does not take long for summer to be a distant memory . It only feels like yesterday that the trees were unfurling their leaves and now they are falling again and I’m sure my swallows will be departing any minute now .

Hope you all have a lovely day /night xo
 
Wow, already migration time. We switched schools from one that went until the 3rd week of June to one that started really early, so we felt like we had hardly any summer, plus it was an extremely foggy one. The sun is out today and I feel so happy. Didn't get to my garden yet though. Went out with my husband and mom instead.

I really like what you wrote about picturing how you would feel if you ate junk. I haven't been eating stuff that is bad for me, just not measuring well and eating too much, and the result is that just that little extra each day is holding me back from weight loss. So I can measure and get back on track or be sloppy and spin my wheels. So I am going to picture that when I don't feel like getting out the measuring cup and getting it dirty! Really bad excuse for not losing weight!

I'm so happy you are doing so well with the exercise and fitting it in even if it is just 10 minutes. I agree about every little bit helping!
 
lol ok I need to also get my measuring cup dirty as well as imaging myself eating ice cream and feeling like crap .

I did a 40 min workout tonight woth arm weights . I think I will feel the burn . I don’t think my iwatch gives me proper credit for my workout but I doubt it matters .

Marsia no more than you getting bad news and worrying about things a friend of mine had a minor heart attack yesterday aged 52 . He is pretty fit and eats ok but a heavy smoker all his life. He promised to give them up and In fact had cut back vastly already so now they need to go .
Glad you had a day out as that’s important too
 
Sorry to hear about your friends but glad it was only a minor one. It's awfully hard to change habits even if you know the potential punishment - we just all seem to feel like (our particular vice) won't cause (common consequence) in us, specifically.
 
LaMa we do all think like that really . I sometimes think I'm invincible really but of course we are all just ticking time bombs .

His little scare has scared me and I don't smoke . My husband smokes but doesnt seem to have bothered him but then he is convinced something else will get him .

I woke hungry but its too early for breakfast otherwise I'll be starving all day . Will do some gentle warm up steps now and get ready for the day then go have my fruit and yoghurt . And nuts and seeds .
 
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